=(

feeling rather upset with myself...

getting older, uglier, fatter, ....

dunno y i juz dun feel happy as easily as before..... itz like my classmates can laugh n laugh over some joke n i wld be beside them, thinking to myself, "wad's so funny abt tt?" of cuz i dun spoil the mood by saying tt to them.. but i juz walk away, feeling unamused..

itz serious..... wad happened to the joker part of me? is it becuz i'm getting old? gosh i feel backaches r coming..... my teeth r falling n my hair is dropping.... i feel depressed!!


hmm...... hope i get thru this state.... 2005!!! itz the 2nd month already~!