last sat was Youth Bazaar.. i took alot of things out to sell, so much that linfeng calls it "half of chatuchak". hahaha.. really lots of rubbish at home. i can't believe tt my dad actually scolded me for wanting to bring all tt to church, cuz i was asking him to drive me there. just dun understand y he got so worked up over it. so i just kept quiet n let him scold lor. n then he wanted me to bring more stuff. unbelievable right?
i realise tt 3 hours was too short for me to display all my items for sale :( haha.. n camp comm was going around "selling" games. i was too concerned abt selling my own stuff (too much n i dun wanna bring all tt home) tt i didn't even buy a cookie from camp comm! so selfish!
after tt i had worship prac. i was v tired from carrying all my stuff.. so really appreciate linfeng for helping me carry them home. (my cell grp guys were "condemning" me for not even treating him a drink! haha) the sound girls bought bubble tea for us during worship prac.. so nice of them =)
22 apr
led a song for worship, then after service 2 pple came up to me n told me my singing improved.. wahh for a moment i was on cloud nine. the praises just hang around my head like a halo. then i quickly "slapped" myself to come back to earth.
after service we had lunch at zion rd riverside food centre.. haha i took aloysius' car and made a bit of a detour.. cuz i only remember the way there thru a certain route. =x after tt went home to slp.
then mon to fri nothing much la, everyday after work go home watch tv, eat Indomie lor.
thurs more special only. got client come, n they brought Coffee Bean muffins for us. weee~ they came around 10am, so i had the muffin for lunch. yay dun need to go for lunch with my colleague =x but i still went out for a walk during lunchtime. ended up feeding mosquitoes. i prayed, "God i only wanted to take a break during my lunchtime, please don't let me get dengue fever because of that." i was a bit worried cuz the bites were quite bad.
then after work i was intending to go home watch tv, i was even planning to buy bee hoon from the food court near my place. just then, on the mrt, i was scrolling thru my smses, cuz i sent Andrielle an sms in the morning, then i realise i haven't read her reply. n then i scrolled down some more n suddenly remembered tt i was supposed to be at bishan tt day! n just then i received a call, it was jac, asking me where i am.. then i quickly alighted at serangoon. somehow serangoon is near bishan la. n i'm sure i can reach bishan quite quickly, just not sure how. so i anyhow walk to a bus stop. hmm.. bus 58 goes to pasir ris...from bishan! so i have to get to the opposite. there were 2 bus stops opp. so i decided to go to the one further down, but when i reached there, there's no bus 58! so i walked back 1 bus stop. sigh.
some of my cell grp pple were at the S11 having dinner. i was late already, so i thought, when we walk back to bishan J8 then i go n withdraw money. but in the end we didn't take tt way. some of them drove, n they parked behind S11. haha. i ate wanton mee.. wow, i like the noodles. handmade. the qiu lian ban mian also famous there. after dinner we went to andrew's father's wake. andrew was in el shaddai, but tt was many yrs ago, before he went to australia. anyway my cell grp + shirley bong found a corner and we just had our own chitchat. talked abt school uniforms, Kings in the bible, err.. and a lot of random stuff. haha.. =x
28 apr sat
parents went to tj balai. yay, whole hse to myself. haha. shared word during cell. i was actually not nervous before cell started, but it's prob because i didn't even think abt it. so during word i was quite lost in thought at times. i realise tt the word doesn't have a main theme, but rather a few aspects of the story of King Hezekiah which individuals can find something in common, to relate to their lives.
half the cell had worship prac.. haha.. when worship prac ended, my dinner time also ended. =x but i still went with some of them to bishan S11 for dinner. at this time most of the stalls close already. i ordered the ban mian n shared it with tricia, jeremy n aloysius! wah really made the money worth. =D after dinner malcolm gave me a lift home. he was driving cuz his parents went to tj balai too.
sun
couldn't wake up earlier for breakfast. hmm.. i always compromise breakfast for longer sleep. haha. grabbed a bite from the bakery at the Mrt station though. i was actually counting the cost la. in quite a bit of a financial difficulty now. can't afford to spend $6 on breakfast. i also got to forgo some comforts.
just before service started, vincent said he was nervous. haha i also dunno y.
carol was sharing during the 9am teaching. it was personal as well as encouraging. but i think King Solomon's wisdom mainly comes from God, not his mother ba. but Bathsheba must really be a God-fearing woman that of all the wives of David, that God would choose to use her to carry on the line of kings.
n joseph chean preached abt forgiveness. it's true, tt when u forgive someone, u're not supposed to expect tt person to change, but rather a change of ur own attitude, that u can accept the person as he/she is. i wish ting was there for the sermon.. i hope ur relationship with ur mom can change for the better, for ur own sake, because it's painful emotionally to be at war with someone. even if u think u're ok with it, actually somewhere deep inside it's not. there's really a lot of pain involved n i hope tt u can break free of it. then i myself prayed tt i will forgive my mom. cuz i was thinking, y should i celebrate mother's day for her?! so after hearing the message, i realise tt even if she doesn't deserve my appreciation, i should still show her love because God first loves. i am forgiven, so i also ought to forgive. there should not be any outstanding debt, except the continuing "debt" of love. we're not called to love only those who are lovable. tt's what sets the difference between a Christian n a non-Christian. of cuz non-Christians also can love if they want to, but what i'm saying is, Christians ought to do better at that.
btw.. now is 12am. haha. my parents are back from balai. n after work i'm going for Canon Benson's farewell dinner. n after that i'm going for MCG bbq, staying overnight, n then going for Psalmist quarterly discipleship, n then.... Jueru's bday party. =)
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Sunday, April 29, 2007
Monday, April 23, 2007
:: what's the world coming to ::
last week i forgot to mention anything abt the shooting that shook the world.
just felt tt the media is giving the killer too much attention. they're digging into his past and realising tt they shld have noticed something wrong n done something abt it. i just thought tt it would make pple like him crave the attention he got, n do similar actions to get the same world-shaking effect.
probably i was potentially someone like that, tt's y i "know" what pple like him think. hmm.. did i ever mention before tt i used to have depression, because i wanted to seek attention?
i used to hurt myself with sharp objects - wanted to just pierce it thru my skin, but i was also too scared to do tt. i only tried to rub it against my skin till it turned red. tt was when i was in sec 3-4. i remember talking to my classmate abt it n realise tt she also did tt before. but i didn't get the attention i wanted la. n i woke up out of it. really have to thank God that i know Him. if i hadn't i would be so lost n very much dead by now.
n when this shooting case got blown up by the media, i expect there would be pple who would do the same thing, because they see an example to follow. indeed within the week there was another shooting case in the news (actually there r shooting cases everyday, but media is particularly concerned abt similar cases. pple see pple do la). my sis showed me the website for phuket online news. i was so shocked to read so many shooting cases! how can anyone live in a place like tt? they own guns so easily.
Say Mr A gets a gun for self-defence, in case he meets an armed robber, he can retaliate with his own gun. The robber sure will shoot him because he is armed. compared to if he doesn't retaliate by taking out his gun, the robber would just use his gun to scare him. and then Mr B, who lives next door to Mr A, and they go drinking together often. wouldn't Mr B want to own a gun too, in case Mr A uses his gun on him (which depends on how much trust there is between them). n one day both of them got drunk n got into a heated argument. Mr A has a gun, it's his tool of Power. and with the gun, Mr B will be scared n give in. if Mr B doesn't, just shoot him la! where's the moral ethics?
if i have a say in gun control, i would ban guns from citizens. only the army n police officers can own them. there will not be any firearms shop open to public. dun care if citizens feel unsafe n just want to own guns for "self-defence". rubbish. weaponless is the best self-defence. it doesn't provoke the person threatening u, as much as having a weapon.
just something to think about, if not for God's grace would u still be alive? what r u doing abt it? still living as if ur life doesn't lie in God's hands? shouldn't there be a deep sense of gratitude to God for every new day u're alive? don't u realise tt God can just decide to let u die when u crack ur neck too hard? or slip and fall and hit a sharp edge? or let something heavy drop on u? i know very well tt my life is preserved thus far for a purpose, which is yet fulfilled, but i know tt even still, God can change his mind. who am i to say tt i will surely live tomorrow?
just felt tt the media is giving the killer too much attention. they're digging into his past and realising tt they shld have noticed something wrong n done something abt it. i just thought tt it would make pple like him crave the attention he got, n do similar actions to get the same world-shaking effect.
probably i was potentially someone like that, tt's y i "know" what pple like him think. hmm.. did i ever mention before tt i used to have depression, because i wanted to seek attention?
i used to hurt myself with sharp objects - wanted to just pierce it thru my skin, but i was also too scared to do tt. i only tried to rub it against my skin till it turned red. tt was when i was in sec 3-4. i remember talking to my classmate abt it n realise tt she also did tt before. but i didn't get the attention i wanted la. n i woke up out of it. really have to thank God that i know Him. if i hadn't i would be so lost n very much dead by now.
n when this shooting case got blown up by the media, i expect there would be pple who would do the same thing, because they see an example to follow. indeed within the week there was another shooting case in the news (actually there r shooting cases everyday, but media is particularly concerned abt similar cases. pple see pple do la). my sis showed me the website for phuket online news. i was so shocked to read so many shooting cases! how can anyone live in a place like tt? they own guns so easily.
Say Mr A gets a gun for self-defence, in case he meets an armed robber, he can retaliate with his own gun. The robber sure will shoot him because he is armed. compared to if he doesn't retaliate by taking out his gun, the robber would just use his gun to scare him. and then Mr B, who lives next door to Mr A, and they go drinking together often. wouldn't Mr B want to own a gun too, in case Mr A uses his gun on him (which depends on how much trust there is between them). n one day both of them got drunk n got into a heated argument. Mr A has a gun, it's his tool of Power. and with the gun, Mr B will be scared n give in. if Mr B doesn't, just shoot him la! where's the moral ethics?
if i have a say in gun control, i would ban guns from citizens. only the army n police officers can own them. there will not be any firearms shop open to public. dun care if citizens feel unsafe n just want to own guns for "self-defence". rubbish. weaponless is the best self-defence. it doesn't provoke the person threatening u, as much as having a weapon.
just something to think about, if not for God's grace would u still be alive? what r u doing abt it? still living as if ur life doesn't lie in God's hands? shouldn't there be a deep sense of gratitude to God for every new day u're alive? don't u realise tt God can just decide to let u die when u crack ur neck too hard? or slip and fall and hit a sharp edge? or let something heavy drop on u? i know very well tt my life is preserved thus far for a purpose, which is yet fulfilled, but i know tt even still, God can change his mind. who am i to say tt i will surely live tomorrow?
Friday, April 20, 2007
:: week ::
tue
asked my dad if i could go bangkok. he said ok, like it's no big deal. wahahahaha
after work took a Big Walk again, this time cut across River Valley Rd to Orchard Rd, =D to find my dad. took about 1 hr plus. was a bit lost after i passed Great World City actually, but i decided to take a familiar route, then i found Paterson Hill. walk downwards more is Borders already. then my dad brought me to Hougang (Serangoon North Ave 7) to eat dinner.
wed
nothing much also. went back home straight. booked my air ticket to bangkok thru shirley! =D
thur
oh i was pissed when i reached office n checked my email. the client, who previously wanted me to do a last minute miracle for her, expects one again. i firmly but politely replied that i cannot do it. she replied rather understandingly, so thank God. i've learnt not to promise things tt i cannot carry out.
my sis booked her ticket to bangkok!
after work went back home straight.
fri
very busy today, no time to slack. got one client called n complained to me abt my colleague. then i realise tt indeed he has a bit of attitude problem when dealing with clients. i only know tt i can't stand the way he walks. n whines. n i was carrying a bag of stuff to be recycled, my other colleague was carrying a stack of newspapers for me, n he didn't even bother to OFFER any help!! tt's really disgusting!
after work went to Pearl Centre, cuz afternoon during lunch i went there and found a few new shops. oh there's bubble tea shop in pearl centre again! wee! n downstairs in the basement there's a so-called Ladies Market. when i went down i was frowning. such a great contrast to the one in HK! this one so dull n out of business. still new n no life. n stinks too. very badly ventilated.
took bus to orchard, to find my dad again. this time he brought me to toa payoh to eat. although toa payoh is also an old town centre, it doesn't give me the 'home' kinda feeling.
asked my dad if i could go bangkok. he said ok, like it's no big deal. wahahahaha
after work took a Big Walk again, this time cut across River Valley Rd to Orchard Rd, =D to find my dad. took about 1 hr plus. was a bit lost after i passed Great World City actually, but i decided to take a familiar route, then i found Paterson Hill. walk downwards more is Borders already. then my dad brought me to Hougang (Serangoon North Ave 7) to eat dinner.
wed
nothing much also. went back home straight. booked my air ticket to bangkok thru shirley! =D
thur
oh i was pissed when i reached office n checked my email. the client, who previously wanted me to do a last minute miracle for her, expects one again. i firmly but politely replied that i cannot do it. she replied rather understandingly, so thank God. i've learnt not to promise things tt i cannot carry out.
my sis booked her ticket to bangkok!
after work went back home straight.
fri
very busy today, no time to slack. got one client called n complained to me abt my colleague. then i realise tt indeed he has a bit of attitude problem when dealing with clients. i only know tt i can't stand the way he walks. n whines. n i was carrying a bag of stuff to be recycled, my other colleague was carrying a stack of newspapers for me, n he didn't even bother to OFFER any help!! tt's really disgusting!
after work went to Pearl Centre, cuz afternoon during lunch i went there and found a few new shops. oh there's bubble tea shop in pearl centre again! wee! n downstairs in the basement there's a so-called Ladies Market. when i went down i was frowning. such a great contrast to the one in HK! this one so dull n out of business. still new n no life. n stinks too. very badly ventilated.
took bus to orchard, to find my dad again. this time he brought me to toa payoh to eat. although toa payoh is also an old town centre, it doesn't give me the 'home' kinda feeling.
Monday, April 16, 2007
:: oops ::
today busy at work. lots to do.
was a little pek cek by a client. i was doing an enewsletter design for him, did it in html initially. then it was converted to pdf so that each page will be printed nicely with a header and a footer. just today he came back from a mission trip ma, then he wanted me to change it to html again! wah pek cek lor. i asked Val, our middleman, to confirm if i were to do it in html, because it would mean a lot of effort. i decided not to do it until val gets back to me. so i did other stuff. around 5pm, this client got back to me again, asking abt the progress, then i clarified with him that the pdf is a better option than html.. he went to check, because i think he just realised tt it was actually done correctly, but he was confused abt the html/pdf thing. and at the end it was happy ending. thank God! because i didn't waste effort converting it to html, which would waste my effort of doing it in pdf. err.. confused?
then after work pramila shared with me tt last week she received news tt her cousin got into an accident n passed away. then i realised y she had sorta raised her voice into the phone last week n seemed to cry. i thought i had given her too much pressure at work. that day was her birthday actually. so terrible of me.
hmm.. oh yah in the last update i forgot to mention tt i asked natalie out last monday. supposed to ask her out the monday before, when she just started work, to celebrate. she's my junior from the same specialisation n she's got a job! woohoo! asked her out to vivocity. haiya dunno y her dad still so strict with her la, 20 yrs old already still have to ask him for permission to go out for dinner with me, n must reach home before 9 somemore. we had dinner at 2Hot cafe, halal restaurant with spicy food. i ordered marinara, which i didn't like very much. The Nearby Cafe was better, more liao. cheaper also. then we shared a drink at Boost Juice Bars. the king william chocolate not very nice leh. expensive also.
then we walked inside Tangs.. there is a... corner (i forgot the word for it), displaying some interesting stuff like tt of G.O.D. in HK. like making old things look fashionable. we walked until 8+pm n she would be late to go home. she wanted to take cab, but i felt tt mrt is faster n cheaper. there was also a queue for the taxi. so seriously taking mrt is a better idea.
ok back to today, i felt quite joyful after spending the weekend in balai. felt very blessed. n felt tt my perspective has broadened again. as in, i become so narrow-minded tt i felt very unhappy easily. but now i'm reminded tt problems aren't too big for me to worry abt. n i miss my friends there... haha just have a longing to go back to find them again. miss Frenky too, after hearing tt Wiky went to batam to look for him n i saw his recent picture, he looks educated (wearing specs) n so much like his mother!
was a little pek cek by a client. i was doing an enewsletter design for him, did it in html initially. then it was converted to pdf so that each page will be printed nicely with a header and a footer. just today he came back from a mission trip ma, then he wanted me to change it to html again! wah pek cek lor. i asked Val, our middleman, to confirm if i were to do it in html, because it would mean a lot of effort. i decided not to do it until val gets back to me. so i did other stuff. around 5pm, this client got back to me again, asking abt the progress, then i clarified with him that the pdf is a better option than html.. he went to check, because i think he just realised tt it was actually done correctly, but he was confused abt the html/pdf thing. and at the end it was happy ending. thank God! because i didn't waste effort converting it to html, which would waste my effort of doing it in pdf. err.. confused?
then after work pramila shared with me tt last week she received news tt her cousin got into an accident n passed away. then i realised y she had sorta raised her voice into the phone last week n seemed to cry. i thought i had given her too much pressure at work. that day was her birthday actually. so terrible of me.
hmm.. oh yah in the last update i forgot to mention tt i asked natalie out last monday. supposed to ask her out the monday before, when she just started work, to celebrate. she's my junior from the same specialisation n she's got a job! woohoo! asked her out to vivocity. haiya dunno y her dad still so strict with her la, 20 yrs old already still have to ask him for permission to go out for dinner with me, n must reach home before 9 somemore. we had dinner at 2Hot cafe, halal restaurant with spicy food. i ordered marinara, which i didn't like very much. The Nearby Cafe was better, more liao. cheaper also. then we shared a drink at Boost Juice Bars. the king william chocolate not very nice leh. expensive also.
then we walked inside Tangs.. there is a... corner (i forgot the word for it), displaying some interesting stuff like tt of G.O.D. in HK. like making old things look fashionable. we walked until 8+pm n she would be late to go home. she wanted to take cab, but i felt tt mrt is faster n cheaper. there was also a queue for the taxi. so seriously taking mrt is a better idea.
ok back to today, i felt quite joyful after spending the weekend in balai. felt very blessed. n felt tt my perspective has broadened again. as in, i become so narrow-minded tt i felt very unhappy easily. but now i'm reminded tt problems aren't too big for me to worry abt. n i miss my friends there... haha just have a longing to go back to find them again. miss Frenky too, after hearing tt Wiky went to batam to look for him n i saw his recent picture, he looks educated (wearing specs) n so much like his mother!
Sunday, April 15, 2007
:: tj balai update 14-15 Apr ::
AHAHA so fast another update! Check out my other blog for the latest entry (with pics!), now converted to a Tj Balai blog! http://angel-sings.blogspot.com/
Friday, April 13, 2007
:: completed! ::
wahaha completed all 5 sets of Riddles of Riddles. really impressed by the guy's amt of general knowledge to set riddles like that, and even to link them up such that for example Riddle 49's answer is the 1st letter of Riddle 11-20's window title (if u dunno wad's a window title, look at somewhere at the top of this page. it says "What Makes Me.".)
wow. just realise it's been 2 weeks since i last blogged. lotsa things happened, lotsa frustrations n lotsa fun.
hmm lemme start from 31st Mar sat. shared word at cell grp. actually somehow i wasn't convinced by my own message. i mean, i have a few points to bring across, as sorta like a reminder. but i couldn't share how the points relate to me. and it was long because i dunno how to briefly go thru the points. my summary in school is fail one. >.< anyway jac gave me a few pointers to improve my sharing next time.
went to holland v for dinner. was broke cuz i spent too much on fast food for lunch. *gasp* i haven't been eating fast food for such a long time i was shocked by its inflation in cost. after dinner we went to some ice cream place at Crown Centre. think it's called Swirl. there are board games available for playing, so we played taboo. i stayed there till around 10 then went to harbourfront to meet gail n persis to discuss tj balai stuff. was quite overwhelmed when i saw the whole bunch of Praise pple following them. we went to this coffee place at Vivocity. if i'm not wrong it's called Gloria Jean. was tired cuz we went home late.
woke up late for the 9am teaching n turned out it was prayer instead of teaching. there was Flag Day for Japan. i was sharing with my cell grp what i thot abt Japan. i remember tt i was overwhelmed by the jap movie Another Heaven, which shows a lot of feeling of hopelessness in the pple deep within. they seem successful on the outside, but emotionally they're very empty. n andrielle mentioned before, pple stereotype missionaries going to Japan. they think tt Japan is so rich, y go there, y shld they support a missionary whose expenses is going to be very high. but i think mission fields like cambodia, indonesia, etc is a little saturated. yes there are areas tt are still unreached, but i think few pple think of 1st world country as a mission field.
anyway. after service there was guitar course. so i stayed back. n after the guitar course i decided to go Sentosa. so i was trying to find pple to go with me. some of them thot it was an April Fools' joke cuz it was 1st April and it was last minute. so in the end i went myself. just wanted to take time to retreat like the last time, but somehow this time i couldn't find a good spot. dunno y, at the same timing, it was much hotter tt day. felt tt i couldn't stay long, so i returned to main land. had a good walk from the LRT station to Siloso beach n back though. it's so much more convenient to come n go to Sentosa. anyway another reason i went is because of the new LRT/monorail. hadn't taken it since it started n i have the Sentosa membership card! tt means free rides!
went back to Vivocity n decided to chill out at Pacific Coffee. sadly i can't find any other drink i want to try. it's quite expensive actually, $5+ for a drink. so i had Vanilla Snowflake (as usual). browsed Asian Geographic, felt interested to subscribe to tt mag. tried to take photos (my photography skills dropped ALOT) n then went home.
mon
ting smsed me to watch movie, but after discussion we decided to go Sakae Sushi at Rivervale Mall for buffet, then chill at my place! hehe.. we ate until v full sia. walked from Rivervale Mall home. still didn't feel digestion taking place leh. finally get to pass her the Chivas tt has been collecting dust since Boxing Day. haha.. used Friendster to find sec sch friends, but i realise i dunno ALOT of pple! as in, i dun even remember seeing them before!
cuz i had to work the next day, i decided to slp. i mean usually stayovers are all-night thing u know. but guess i'm getting old la. next day ting had to wake me up lor.. haha.. we went out early so we could have breakfast near my office.
after work went to church for prayer meeting. asked my dad along, cuz i usually see his cell grp leaders, he could join them. but they weren't there this time. we had dinner at jackson kopitiam. dunno y but i felt v uninterested during prayer meeting sia. i dunno most of the songs sung n i found it hard to sing along. then for prayer i joined my dad, jeremy's dad n ivan. quite a weird combi..
wed
i wanted to meet my parents for dinner. my mom was at outram pk, so i called her to wait for me. i had to go toilet, shut down my comp then i could leave. when i reached the mrt station the train was here, so i called her to ask her to get on the train. i couldn't see her cuz of the crowd. but my stupid phone wouldn't work at tt time. so i missed the train. when i finally called thru to her, she said she's not waiting anymore. AAARRRGGGGGHHHHHH!!!!! she's so impatient! n i could have taken tt train la! i was so pissed i decided not to eat with her anymore. i went home n cooked noodles instead. n i was so mad i almost cried on the train.
thur
bought bread n cheese n chicken breastmeat for dinner. had the craving for cheese la. n wanted to be a little more healthy. although for 19 yrs of my life i hated breastmeat (minus one year for i didn't have teeth), i decided to swallow it for the sake of a healthier diet. made 2 portions of the sandwich n before i took the 2nd one i felt sian of eating it already.
fri
YAY public hol, cuz it's Good Friday~ my poor sis was still working on PH tt she didn't realise it's TGIF. went to church in the morning. it was combined service at the main hall. today also felt a little sian during service like what i felt during prayer meeting. felt very strongly tt the songs had set the mood.
after service we went to Botak Jones at AMK. so-so only leh. i ordered the Cajun Chicken (breastmeat!!!!!) so maybe tt's y. went home to pack n clean my room. i've been seeing baby spiders in my room. ARGH. used dettol to wash my walls. wanted to go IKEA to buy a glass cabinet for my displays, but my dad went swimming, couldn't get him to go with me.
sat
went to IKEA with my dad in the morning, finally. didn't know tt Giant hypermart opened already. went there to shop first. i think i still prefer the hypermarts in thailand. the things are really cheap n most of them u can't get in singapore. quite silly for us to buy milk. cuz we were going to courts next, n we couldn't leave the milk in the motorbox in the sun ma. so we had to carry our groceries along. dunno y my dad bought a wall fan for my toilet. i dun even want it! next we went to IKEA. wanted to buy snacks for my cell grp, but in the end we walked the whole of IKEA n didn't buy anything. tt was y i was late for pre-cell meeting. felt tt ben shares word very naturally.
after cell the guys went to play soccer n the SMU students had work to discuss, so i played solitaire on Malcolm's pda. haha.. he was saying tt there seems to be a bug cuz he can't solve a single game of 3-card-deals. so i kept trying, to see if it's true. when they finished playing frisbee, i managed to prove him wrong! weeee... haah. then after some waiting here n there we went to amk for dinner.
sun
easter sunday! Jesus died n rose again! early morning service at the cultural centre. thought of taking bus in from Potong Pasir mrt, but my dad offered to give me a lift, though he had reached already. ah, today i rem Canon Benson's msg. It is the LORD! abt Peter n catching fish. long time since i last had Holy Communion.
after service i gathered with my parents n aunt n cousin n my grandma. cuz it's grandma's birthday. we went to Red Star for dim sum brunch =D food is good. but service is TERRIBLE!!!!! cannot make it la.
went to OG to walk around. saw my godparents there. then went to Majestic building Popular cuz there's a clearance sale. Majestic is terrible. most of its shops closed down already. dunno y sia. n sale, my foot. bought a magazine for $5, which costs HKD28 = about the same la!
after tt i wanted to have dessert, but we only found ahballing a few buildings away. then went home. after a nap my mom suggested going somewhere for sambal kangkong, n i thought of crab. i was having a conversation with my sis one day, she was saying tt she misses dad's pepper crabs, i replied, i don't even get to eat it la, cuz my dad refuses to cook at home. moreover cook a crab. n true enough, my dad objected to having crab for dinner. he said, u think u rich man son ah. n then the next thing is, he suggested, take taxi to amk for crab la. wah. super contradicting lor. say i waste money, so might as well spend more money la. -.- in the end we took cab to changi village for crabs. i was happy with the food but was still pulling a long face cuz of my mom. i had told myself not to talk to her since tt day i was pissed with her. dun worry abt tt la, i'd probably still talk to her anyway, if she ask me anything. just tt i will NEVER meet her or ask her out for dinner again.
tt night i had indigestion. i will not have crabs for a very long time (unless it is available at Canon Benson's farewell dinner =x).
mon-wed
this week i felt like i was fighting a battle at work. i forgot to pray for patience at work. had some work for my indian colleague ma, n as usual she takes very long to do it ma. (i'm sorry i just can't see her as 100 all the time) i literally jumped when i tried to explain something to her. some javascript thing i did before n i know it's possible, but she kept insisting tt it's not possible n had to be done in another way. end up she use another method n took a little too long to do it. my other colleague was not around on wed, so he wasn't there to help me explain to her what i was expecting. on thur i used my method to do another page, tt requires the same effect i was expecting from her, n i asked him to help me modify the codes. she wasn't happy i know, because it was sorta like "her work" but i passed it to him. n there was some problem with her method. she seemed to insist working on it though it was taking too long.
ok to simplify things, our working relationship is such tt, she takes too long, i pass her work to him so tt it will be faster n efficient because client wants it. but it's obviously unfair to her because i didn't do it nicely. i didn't explain properly tt i'm passing the work to him because i think she's slow, n i didn't say it in her face because tt'll hurt. but i think this cycle will go on n on.
i can sense her getting angry abt this because i can hear her typing loudly when she's pissed n i will hear her mumbling away, n then slamming the door when she goes toilet. just felt tt she must be cursing me for doing this to her.. gotta pray tt God will protect me against curses by her gods. haiz. battle sia.
i still blame myself for (asking my boss to) hiring her.
thur after work went to Holland V for joshua's bday celebration. my first time to Settlers cafe. i think it's quite rundown compared to Minds cafe leh. learnt a couple of new games. wah the ugly doll game is err..violent. i dun even dare to play heart attack or snap lor. i prefer the strategy kinda game. but my brain wasn't working la. fighting battle ma. saw alymer n siangyuan at the party also. before cutting cake, the whole grp was brought together to play Cranium. but we could only play it halfway cuz it was getting late. after i got on the train home then i realise i left my umbrella at settlers. the staff there had offered to take my umbrella out to dry when i went there, but after tt i forgot abt it.
dunno y but i felt very miserable on my way home. just felt like crying n coming back to God. felt like i've been distancing myself from God more n more. so after i got home n had a bath, i finally had the liberty to just cry out to God. felt so much better after tt =)
i realise tt my cell grp pple like to eat chocolate cakes. jialat, cuz i dun like chocolate. for my birthday, do i get a cake tt everyone loves or do i get a cake only i love? it's quite obvious la. then suddenly i dun feel like celebrating my birthday anymore. (so selfish! >.<) jk la.
fri
super busy at work today. no time to give work for her to do. asked audrey to accompany me for lunch cuz i'm sian of going for lunch with my other colleague alone. cuz my indian colleague is not used to local food, so she rather bring her own lunch. tt leaves the guy n me going for lunch ourselves. so sian!!!! we had taiwan porridge for lunch. hmm nice. brought her up my office to take a look. haha she v funny, likes to c her friends' offices. before she left she asked me if i'm free to go clubbing or not. i was at first thinking, i dun mind. but after tt decided i need the rest before tmr's trip to tj balai. besides, the last trip i woke up late lor. dun want to repeat my mistake.
btw it's been a long time since i posted anything abt "what i learnt today". so okay here goes.
i've subscribed to National Geographic n i really love the content of the mag. this month's abt fish. i've always thot tt fish are free food. esp when i was in thailand. i ate so much fish i thot it's cheap. but actually, no. i'm wrong. the ocean's population of seafood has been declining vastly. because we eat them indiscriminately. n because we seem to get seafood so easily, we think it's cheap. n we think it's easily reproduced. but the sad thing is, at this rate of killing marine life, our children or grandchildren may not even get to SEE a fish! hmm what shld we be doing in response to this? i think i will treat seafood as a luxury food, which in fact it shld have been. singaporeans have been so blessed tt we don't realise countries like Africa, though they catch the fish, the pple have to pay a high price to buy only the remains of a fish because the flesh have been exported out to places like europe.
ok this marks the end of a long entry. going away tmr. (i was so cockeye i didn't realise i was on duty this week for vocals until shirley's weekly reminder came in... managed to get Andrielle to swap with me - thanks!!)
good night.
wow. just realise it's been 2 weeks since i last blogged. lotsa things happened, lotsa frustrations n lotsa fun.
hmm lemme start from 31st Mar sat. shared word at cell grp. actually somehow i wasn't convinced by my own message. i mean, i have a few points to bring across, as sorta like a reminder. but i couldn't share how the points relate to me. and it was long because i dunno how to briefly go thru the points. my summary in school is fail one. >.< anyway jac gave me a few pointers to improve my sharing next time.
went to holland v for dinner. was broke cuz i spent too much on fast food for lunch. *gasp* i haven't been eating fast food for such a long time i was shocked by its inflation in cost. after dinner we went to some ice cream place at Crown Centre. think it's called Swirl. there are board games available for playing, so we played taboo. i stayed there till around 10 then went to harbourfront to meet gail n persis to discuss tj balai stuff. was quite overwhelmed when i saw the whole bunch of Praise pple following them. we went to this coffee place at Vivocity. if i'm not wrong it's called Gloria Jean. was tired cuz we went home late.
woke up late for the 9am teaching n turned out it was prayer instead of teaching. there was Flag Day for Japan. i was sharing with my cell grp what i thot abt Japan. i remember tt i was overwhelmed by the jap movie Another Heaven, which shows a lot of feeling of hopelessness in the pple deep within. they seem successful on the outside, but emotionally they're very empty. n andrielle mentioned before, pple stereotype missionaries going to Japan. they think tt Japan is so rich, y go there, y shld they support a missionary whose expenses is going to be very high. but i think mission fields like cambodia, indonesia, etc is a little saturated. yes there are areas tt are still unreached, but i think few pple think of 1st world country as a mission field.
anyway. after service there was guitar course. so i stayed back. n after the guitar course i decided to go Sentosa. so i was trying to find pple to go with me. some of them thot it was an April Fools' joke cuz it was 1st April and it was last minute. so in the end i went myself. just wanted to take time to retreat like the last time, but somehow this time i couldn't find a good spot. dunno y, at the same timing, it was much hotter tt day. felt tt i couldn't stay long, so i returned to main land. had a good walk from the LRT station to Siloso beach n back though. it's so much more convenient to come n go to Sentosa. anyway another reason i went is because of the new LRT/monorail. hadn't taken it since it started n i have the Sentosa membership card! tt means free rides!
went back to Vivocity n decided to chill out at Pacific Coffee. sadly i can't find any other drink i want to try. it's quite expensive actually, $5+ for a drink. so i had Vanilla Snowflake (as usual). browsed Asian Geographic, felt interested to subscribe to tt mag. tried to take photos (my photography skills dropped ALOT) n then went home.
mon
ting smsed me to watch movie, but after discussion we decided to go Sakae Sushi at Rivervale Mall for buffet, then chill at my place! hehe.. we ate until v full sia. walked from Rivervale Mall home. still didn't feel digestion taking place leh. finally get to pass her the Chivas tt has been collecting dust since Boxing Day. haha.. used Friendster to find sec sch friends, but i realise i dunno ALOT of pple! as in, i dun even remember seeing them before!
cuz i had to work the next day, i decided to slp. i mean usually stayovers are all-night thing u know. but guess i'm getting old la. next day ting had to wake me up lor.. haha.. we went out early so we could have breakfast near my office.
after work went to church for prayer meeting. asked my dad along, cuz i usually see his cell grp leaders, he could join them. but they weren't there this time. we had dinner at jackson kopitiam. dunno y but i felt v uninterested during prayer meeting sia. i dunno most of the songs sung n i found it hard to sing along. then for prayer i joined my dad, jeremy's dad n ivan. quite a weird combi..
wed
i wanted to meet my parents for dinner. my mom was at outram pk, so i called her to wait for me. i had to go toilet, shut down my comp then i could leave. when i reached the mrt station the train was here, so i called her to ask her to get on the train. i couldn't see her cuz of the crowd. but my stupid phone wouldn't work at tt time. so i missed the train. when i finally called thru to her, she said she's not waiting anymore. AAARRRGGGGGHHHHHH!!!!! she's so impatient! n i could have taken tt train la! i was so pissed i decided not to eat with her anymore. i went home n cooked noodles instead. n i was so mad i almost cried on the train.
thur
bought bread n cheese n chicken breastmeat for dinner. had the craving for cheese la. n wanted to be a little more healthy. although for 19 yrs of my life i hated breastmeat (minus one year for i didn't have teeth), i decided to swallow it for the sake of a healthier diet. made 2 portions of the sandwich n before i took the 2nd one i felt sian of eating it already.
fri
YAY public hol, cuz it's Good Friday~ my poor sis was still working on PH tt she didn't realise it's TGIF. went to church in the morning. it was combined service at the main hall. today also felt a little sian during service like what i felt during prayer meeting. felt very strongly tt the songs had set the mood.
after service we went to Botak Jones at AMK. so-so only leh. i ordered the Cajun Chicken (breastmeat!!!!!) so maybe tt's y. went home to pack n clean my room. i've been seeing baby spiders in my room. ARGH. used dettol to wash my walls. wanted to go IKEA to buy a glass cabinet for my displays, but my dad went swimming, couldn't get him to go with me.
sat
went to IKEA with my dad in the morning, finally. didn't know tt Giant hypermart opened already. went there to shop first. i think i still prefer the hypermarts in thailand. the things are really cheap n most of them u can't get in singapore. quite silly for us to buy milk. cuz we were going to courts next, n we couldn't leave the milk in the motorbox in the sun ma. so we had to carry our groceries along. dunno y my dad bought a wall fan for my toilet. i dun even want it! next we went to IKEA. wanted to buy snacks for my cell grp, but in the end we walked the whole of IKEA n didn't buy anything. tt was y i was late for pre-cell meeting. felt tt ben shares word very naturally.
after cell the guys went to play soccer n the SMU students had work to discuss, so i played solitaire on Malcolm's pda. haha.. he was saying tt there seems to be a bug cuz he can't solve a single game of 3-card-deals. so i kept trying, to see if it's true. when they finished playing frisbee, i managed to prove him wrong! weeee... haah. then after some waiting here n there we went to amk for dinner.
sun
easter sunday! Jesus died n rose again! early morning service at the cultural centre. thought of taking bus in from Potong Pasir mrt, but my dad offered to give me a lift, though he had reached already. ah, today i rem Canon Benson's msg. It is the LORD! abt Peter n catching fish. long time since i last had Holy Communion.
after service i gathered with my parents n aunt n cousin n my grandma. cuz it's grandma's birthday. we went to Red Star for dim sum brunch =D food is good. but service is TERRIBLE!!!!! cannot make it la.
went to OG to walk around. saw my godparents there. then went to Majestic building Popular cuz there's a clearance sale. Majestic is terrible. most of its shops closed down already. dunno y sia. n sale, my foot. bought a magazine for $5, which costs HKD28 = about the same la!
after tt i wanted to have dessert, but we only found ahballing a few buildings away. then went home. after a nap my mom suggested going somewhere for sambal kangkong, n i thought of crab. i was having a conversation with my sis one day, she was saying tt she misses dad's pepper crabs, i replied, i don't even get to eat it la, cuz my dad refuses to cook at home. moreover cook a crab. n true enough, my dad objected to having crab for dinner. he said, u think u rich man son ah. n then the next thing is, he suggested, take taxi to amk for crab la. wah. super contradicting lor. say i waste money, so might as well spend more money la. -.- in the end we took cab to changi village for crabs. i was happy with the food but was still pulling a long face cuz of my mom. i had told myself not to talk to her since tt day i was pissed with her. dun worry abt tt la, i'd probably still talk to her anyway, if she ask me anything. just tt i will NEVER meet her or ask her out for dinner again.
tt night i had indigestion. i will not have crabs for a very long time (unless it is available at Canon Benson's farewell dinner =x).
mon-wed
this week i felt like i was fighting a battle at work. i forgot to pray for patience at work. had some work for my indian colleague ma, n as usual she takes very long to do it ma. (i'm sorry i just can't see her as 100 all the time) i literally jumped when i tried to explain something to her. some javascript thing i did before n i know it's possible, but she kept insisting tt it's not possible n had to be done in another way. end up she use another method n took a little too long to do it. my other colleague was not around on wed, so he wasn't there to help me explain to her what i was expecting. on thur i used my method to do another page, tt requires the same effect i was expecting from her, n i asked him to help me modify the codes. she wasn't happy i know, because it was sorta like "her work" but i passed it to him. n there was some problem with her method. she seemed to insist working on it though it was taking too long.
ok to simplify things, our working relationship is such tt, she takes too long, i pass her work to him so tt it will be faster n efficient because client wants it. but it's obviously unfair to her because i didn't do it nicely. i didn't explain properly tt i'm passing the work to him because i think she's slow, n i didn't say it in her face because tt'll hurt. but i think this cycle will go on n on.
i can sense her getting angry abt this because i can hear her typing loudly when she's pissed n i will hear her mumbling away, n then slamming the door when she goes toilet. just felt tt she must be cursing me for doing this to her.. gotta pray tt God will protect me against curses by her gods. haiz. battle sia.
i still blame myself for (asking my boss to) hiring her.
thur after work went to Holland V for joshua's bday celebration. my first time to Settlers cafe. i think it's quite rundown compared to Minds cafe leh. learnt a couple of new games. wah the ugly doll game is err..violent. i dun even dare to play heart attack or snap lor. i prefer the strategy kinda game. but my brain wasn't working la. fighting battle ma. saw alymer n siangyuan at the party also. before cutting cake, the whole grp was brought together to play Cranium. but we could only play it halfway cuz it was getting late. after i got on the train home then i realise i left my umbrella at settlers. the staff there had offered to take my umbrella out to dry when i went there, but after tt i forgot abt it.
dunno y but i felt very miserable on my way home. just felt like crying n coming back to God. felt like i've been distancing myself from God more n more. so after i got home n had a bath, i finally had the liberty to just cry out to God. felt so much better after tt =)
i realise tt my cell grp pple like to eat chocolate cakes. jialat, cuz i dun like chocolate. for my birthday, do i get a cake tt everyone loves or do i get a cake only i love? it's quite obvious la. then suddenly i dun feel like celebrating my birthday anymore. (so selfish! >.<) jk la.
fri
super busy at work today. no time to give work for her to do. asked audrey to accompany me for lunch cuz i'm sian of going for lunch with my other colleague alone. cuz my indian colleague is not used to local food, so she rather bring her own lunch. tt leaves the guy n me going for lunch ourselves. so sian!!!! we had taiwan porridge for lunch. hmm nice. brought her up my office to take a look. haha she v funny, likes to c her friends' offices. before she left she asked me if i'm free to go clubbing or not. i was at first thinking, i dun mind. but after tt decided i need the rest before tmr's trip to tj balai. besides, the last trip i woke up late lor. dun want to repeat my mistake.
btw it's been a long time since i posted anything abt "what i learnt today". so okay here goes.
i've subscribed to National Geographic n i really love the content of the mag. this month's abt fish. i've always thot tt fish are free food. esp when i was in thailand. i ate so much fish i thot it's cheap. but actually, no. i'm wrong. the ocean's population of seafood has been declining vastly. because we eat them indiscriminately. n because we seem to get seafood so easily, we think it's cheap. n we think it's easily reproduced. but the sad thing is, at this rate of killing marine life, our children or grandchildren may not even get to SEE a fish! hmm what shld we be doing in response to this? i think i will treat seafood as a luxury food, which in fact it shld have been. singaporeans have been so blessed tt we don't realise countries like Africa, though they catch the fish, the pple have to pay a high price to buy only the remains of a fish because the flesh have been exported out to places like europe.
ok this marks the end of a long entry. going away tmr. (i was so cockeye i didn't realise i was on duty this week for vocals until shirley's weekly reminder came in... managed to get Andrielle to swap with me - thanks!!)
good night.
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