:: left anything behind? ::

monday felt like sunday to me.. i realised i left my baby G behind in jeremy's hse after i got to the bus stop outside his house..

then yday john asked to borrow my camera n i said alright.. later he kept hinting to me like "u went for a church camp recently is it?" n "u went to fy room on friday right?" LOL.. my first reaction is innocently ask, "y? did i leave anything behind?" ROAR! (learn from judy)

oh yday judy came to my hse after dinner. i ate a lot for dinner.. :P jialat.. thank God i managed to maintain my weight miraculously.. haha.. yes i weigh myself everyday.. abit obsessed. we discussed our project stuff till 11.30pm then i couldn't wait!! took out my Jaew n Beautiful Boxer to watch with her. watched until 3am like tt.. jialat now my body clock is adjusted to around tt time.. couldn't fall asleep, so chatted with her on the bed.. ;) hahaz.. the last thing i rem is hear her say "army..." then we dozed off.

i had a nightmare... dreamt that a big spider dropped inside my shirt n i tried to get it out. went to some room n decided to shower n get it out. then instead of the spider i saw an insect of equivalent size.. it was..red colour.. i tried to capture it inside the cloth.. managed to.. then it suddenly jumped out at me!!! of cuz i panicked.. i turned around n saw in the mirror a lot of big bites on my back.. then somehow i woke up..

i set the alarm at 7am but we woke up at 10.30am when her phone rang!! we were like "shit!!!" n quickly jumped out of bed. i still wanna have breakfast.. so we went to punggol plaza n ordered prata n breakfast set. then we went back to my place, pack up a bit, discuss further abt the project then she went off. i still continued to use the comp for another project then rushed out to meet stephanie.

met her at far east plaza, brought her to Green View cafe for lunch.. oh it would have been perfect if not for bean sprouts n GARLIC!!! yucks! we went to 7-eleven to get drinks then walked to scotts coffee bean where we sat down to discuss project. think we ended the meeting around 3pm.. went to Gramophone to take a look.. it was a new opening.

we parted ways n i went to visit my dad's workplace. got mixed up with Orchard Parade Hotel n Orchard Hotel. i hope i didn't look like i was loitering around the area... anyway i saw Fann Wong at the former. cool huh. my dad was kinda telling all his co-workers i'm his daughter.. hoho.. quite cool.. his workplace is erm. like lucky plaza kinda laopok look. aircon blasting loudly n leaking at some areas, stale smell, old cafe setting. at 5pm there were some disgusting men staring n pointing n talking about me.. one of them even came up to my dad n asked, "uncle, ni de nu er ah?" my dad somehow antisocial or dao.. didn't really reply him WAHAHAHA. his workplace is really boring man. no music, nothing to do just sleep, stare at blank spaces.. sigh. not my type of job man. went inside the kitchen n watch him fry vegetables.. then helped him bring out to the serving area.

i had 2 more hours to spare cuz he wanted me to wait for him to get off work then go home together so i went to Borders. walked the whole bookstore.. tired and bored. around 7.20 i went back to Orchard hotel staff canteen, had my dinner then waited for him to pack up. i noticed there were a lot of...notices. "PLEASE CLEAR YOUR USED CUPS AFTER USED..." "THIS SINK IS SOLELY FOR WASHING HANDS. PLEASE DO NOT BRUSH YOUR TEETH OR RINSE YOUR MOUTH HERE." "DO NOT BRING ANY FOOD OUT OF THIS CANTEEN" ... funny sia..

it was drizzling when we left.. took bus to dhoby ghaut then train home. i realise i've been visiting orchard a few days in a row already.....i think.

:: happening ::

wahh i typed a v long entry n i carelessly went to another page n lost all that i typed!! i'll try to repeat what i typed. sigh.

sat morning woke up to find my parents still at home. usually they would be out. my dad cooked hor fun.. nice but he put in too much garlic.. my stomach felt weak for the rest of the day. went to dionne's hse the bus stop to meet her to get back my plastic bag of presents.. v careless of me to leave it behind.. =x

took bus to sengkang then train to potong pasir. i thought i could rem the way, in the end i still got lost.. sigh. practised Silent Night with the choir and other carols too, like Angels We Have Heard On High, God Rest Ye Merry Gentlemen and O Come All Ye Faithful.. rehearsal ended around 6.30pm.. was quite impatient n want to rush off asap.. cuz i arranged to meet Singles' Club at orchard at 6.30pm.. =S michael so buey on lor.. when i arrived wendy wanted to get santa hat so we walked to watson's. there were only her, david n me..

we decided to have dinner at Taka Coffee Club.. shiok place man.. we had a wonderful window view that can overlook all the people downstairs squeezing.. we were sitting comfortably n enjoying dinner.. ;) i ordered seafood lasagne.. a lot of seafood sia.. shiok.. wendy ordered chocolate fondue for dessert. i'm not a chocolate fan la, but i tried it with each fruit, including kiwi!!! first time trying.. v sour sia.. strawberry also sour. we stayed until the shop closed, chatting, reading mag.. shaun was v happy when i finished browsing thru the 150-pg Cleo.. ahaha..

after tt we walked to dhoby ghaut mrt station. spent our countdown in NEL.. wanted to rush home cuz Faith said she would come a little after midnight. influenced the singles' club de to go all the way to punggol n even take the LRT with me.. hehe.. took one whole round with them. siaoz! had a good bath n started to write christmas cards.. =x faith came around 2+am.. we went to slp at 4am.. jialat..

next morning woke up at 7.30am.. late liao lor.. kena scolding... not really scolding la, but a talk on discipline. anyway service was short n good.. so we could go around exchanging presents n greetings n get to know the newcomers. there was a dance item, a song item, videos n we ended the service with Open Up The Gates! coolz.. felt bad when i saw the pple i didn't manage to write card for.. couldn't finish writing lor.. went for lunch with cell grp at a coffeeshop nearby. had char siew + roast chicken rice.. the chicken is breast meat lor!! =x forced myself to eat. after tt went to find Agape at the soya bean dessert shop. ordered a bowl of riceballs.. couldn't finish when they started to leave at 1.40pm.. so i takeaway.

took mrt to somerset and went to Cineleisure Kbox to meet Alvin the main character.. expected to sing little tt day.. i dun really listen to secular music anymore.. i could only sing old songs like Grasshopper!!! =P Faith brought her friend Jamie to join us. gave Alvin his present (tshirt).. i was worried it might not fit him.. hope he likes it. felt bad cuz i already told him beforehand tt we will treat him to KTV.. in the end there were not enough cash to treat him so he had to fork out $5 himself. =(

after KTV went with weiyang to downstairs to withdraw money n get present for cell grp gift exchange party. took cab to jeremy's hse.. malcolm cooked dinner.. we arrived just in time shortly after they started eating.. food was greeeeaaat man! there was red wine n white wine.. after dinner we played sabo game.. the forfeit is to drink water.. lol.. then we had thanksgiving session. i've appreciated each person in their christmas cards, so i thanked God for this whole yr. quite tired by then cuz it was midnight liao.

we had "ah peh" session.. it was a good time cuz i felt closer to my cell grp after tt. don't worry man i can keep things within four walls.. so i also hope others dun reveal what has been called a secret. at least exercise discerning abt revealing certain stuff. Christians shld not be viewed as gossipers. after tt the guys started acting crazy n drunk.. they sang a song for elizabeth (leong) cuz she joined us a a guest. they also sang a song for me for using jeremy's tshirt as a blanket.. haha.. i fell asleep despite they were making a din. but i woke up when i heard them suggest the girls go up to jeremy's room to slp. made my way there n slp again. until 10+am..

went for breakfast with diana n brandon n aijia n malcolm at KAP mac. ordered a sausage mcmuffin. the student meal is same portion, but 75 cents less. keke.. took bus 61 to harbourfront n took mrt home with brandon n aijia. went home to slp somemore.. =P wasn't tired but just want to feel the bed. haha..

woke up for dinner at sengkang The Soup Restaurant. went to metro cuz my mom got $100 voucher.. tried on a few pieces of clothes.. like one.. but in the end didn't buy cuz she didn't find anything she like.. couldn't make up $50 to use the voucher so we left.

:: mountain tortoise! ::

i'm so swagu!! first time heard of barebone and SFF!!!!

dunno whether i shld convert to a barebone user??? =x

:: merry christmas ::

tue
my computer desk came! looking forward to it since last week... now my room's looking a bit neater haha.. almost ready for my sis to come back then i'll move back to my room.. budden my bed is still full of junk.. hahahah.. lesson was super short. dunno what happened to ms wen lei, so ms pat took over the class n ended the lesson before 9am! :S saw farah as she was going to work hahaha... (n i was going home!!!) =D went home to slp then wake up to pack my room somemore.

asked chihiro over to accompany me cuz i scared if i'm alone at home n scared of the furniture delivery men.. haha.. =x

wed
no lesson.. shiok shiok.. lazy pig slp till late late.. went to sengkang to buy bread cuz i saw the advertisement on a bus n i felt interested in trying Gardenia Milk bread.. hmm the power of advertisements.. haha i'm not usually like tt. went to sch for IENTP project grp meeting. more constructive discussion this time. went backt to sengkang to buy necklace chain for my mom to exchange with her.. so tt i can wear the Soo Kee one tt was too short for her.

went home to slp..lately like really slp alot sia.. told myself to wake up around 7pm to wait for my uncle to come n check my computer.. my parents were not at home. in the end i slept till like 8+ i think.. he rang my doorbell n called my house phone then i woke up... opened the door with an outta-bed look.. haha.. gave him clothes for his daughters.. i'd been packing my room n took out clothes tt i dun wear anymore.. all in good condition, but i've outgrown them.

dunno what happened to my legs.. like suddenly A LOT of scars.. some r mosquito bites, some r scratches sustained from packing my room (hazardous place)

thur
woke up around 9.. nan de so "early" :P worked on my christmas postcard design then went to Peace centre to print them out. took a long time n finally Mr Bong helped me slice them using a machine tt can slice papers in bulk when i had been spending like 45 min slicing the papers one by one.. argh.. took bus to mustafa to help chihiro look for white stockings.. apparently no one has ever heard of white stockings. anyway it was my first time there. got lost.. but i saw judy's bf n he helped me navigate my way around abit.. haha.. took bus 857.. thought it could bring me to sch.. but i got off at yio chu kang to change bus. went to Blk L use comp for a while then went to Raffles place with darius n sab to meet john to go for concert.. nic was singing n was the one who sold us the tickets. venue is Victoria Concert Hall.. tt place brings back memories.. ya i was in RV choir.. kinda still hate ms tham. i really can't tell what she contributed. she made me rebel n eventually drop out of the choir. but anyway i enjoyed the concert.. haha.. walked to Clarke Quay mrt station n went home.

fri
woke up super late la.. 11am i was still in bed.. dunno what happen to me man. anyway Chihiro came around 3+pm.. wanted to leave at 4pm to go to Bishan to buy presents for alvin n for Nani for the christmas gift exchange party in sch at 5.30pm.. in the end i left home at 5pm. not really blaming chihiro abt tt but i wasn't very happy when she looked at what i wrote on christmas cards n other stuff.. not really respecting my privacy.. i'm usually ok with her going through my things, but there r things tt i prefer to keep private, like messages. i jokingly called her kaypo so i wun sound too harsh la.

took bus to bishan n bought alvin's present first.. then went to Mu-ee to buy gift for nani.. it was a great buy haha.. got budget one. went to NTUC to get finger food. wrote a card for nani on the MRT.. =x haha.. quite sian of the walking to sch. dunno whether i shld get off at AMK or YCK.. both also far from sch. i got "kiapped" by the gate at the mrt station.. sian.. the gate nv detect my ezlink card.. thank God it didn't kill me. stupid gate.

i was quite blur when i arrived at the party at Blk M lvl 4.. nice place. they decorated it.. had fishballs n nuggets and tarts n a drink.. then yang tien gave out presents from under the christmas tree.. he was looking for angel in the sky so i look up too.. quite lame la. anyway after the party went to dionne's hse.. woohoo she drives!! watched Are We There Yet? on her projector screen.. wahlaozzzz... rich pple... haha.. after tt went home.. i left the presents behind at her place.. =( so careless of me..

:: misses camp ::

I MISS YOUTH CAMP 2005! "mummy!!! it's oveeeeerrrrrrr!!!!" *wails*

the actual camp is over! just like tt! we planned so long for a 4-day-3-night camp! it just went past like a breeze!

hmm lemme give a report according to my point of view..

DAY 1 - friday
went to sch for a super short lesson of Intro to Entre.. basically stoning most of the time, wondering wad are the campers doing at SAV.. hmm~ lesson ended before 10am.. so i looked for benson to pass him ICT mag (asking him to help me get it during his trip to bangkok) and asked my dad to drive me to SAV. he decided to service his motor. n then we had brunch at the food centre in thomson. a bit not happy cuz i intended to go SAV straight after my lesson and hope to catch the bus before it leaves for dairy farm road. anyway in the end managed to reach SAV before the camp comm led the campers to the buses. i took bus no.4 keke quite an empty bus.. =) the ride wasn't v long. Miss Muscles helped unload the boxes from the bus then joined the campers at the canteen. hmm.. can't rem much details, but just that we had lunch n gave the campers a lot of time to do their group banners. lunch was....nasi briyani. hehe a no-no for Miss Fussy. went back to bunk to clean it up. t-shirts were arriving around 4+pm.. excited!! the driver got lost around 100 Upper bukit timah so i asked jianxiong to direct him. kinda glad tt the t-shirts turned out well. packed them to prepare to give out during supper time.

can't rem eating dinner but around 6+pm we went to Salvation Army Praisehaven Chapel to setup for worship prac n session. Sermon was kinda convicting in a way.. haha.. =x worship was wonderful but too bad we didn't have the freedom to stay there as long as we want. i was kinda upset tt i was arranged to stand alone all the way in the corner and then during sermon no one sat beside me.. but i prayed for joy in my heart so tt in all circumstances i can still be glad. was "interviewed" by pastor abt what we felt in the front. i answered tt i received some names of pple to pray for during the camp and hope these pple receive a touch from God.

went back for supper. i think it was curry puff. wad the heck man, pple going to sleep already still feed them with carbo? the t-shirts weren't distributed. postponed to sat morning. had debrief with leaders and camp comm also had debrief then we rested for the day. haha i rem drooling and tossing and turning n waking up once in a while. wahaha.. rebecca told me tt i made some noise during the night.. kekeke..

DAY 2
weeee... wake up super early for camp comm prayer!! led prayer with shirley.. she reminded me to pray for ourselves to be ministered first n foremost before we serve the campers. and tt when we obey God, He will bless us with good weather, safety etc.. so we sought God first. very blessed by the time of prayer. then after we closed, i noticed pple started to come into the canteen for corporate prayer. prayed with elena.. served breakfast - fried beehoon - then briefed the campers wad time to meet back. gave them time for QT then we set off for Praisehaven again. Chris preached from John n during the time i found myself stoning a lot n i nodded off.. =x dunno y..

went back to canteen to setup the place for games. hoho.. i was station master for....THE GRID!!! three cheers for tt! haha.. served lunch n after tt we started games at 12+pm. found it a bit difficult communicating with my co-station master.. we have conflicts in the idea of playing the game but it wasn't serious, don't worry. both of us compromised a bit here n there. the first time we conducted the game was quite a mess. sorry abt tt.. we noticed some problems with the rules and improved it. there was a slot where there wasn't any group coming to our station so i went around taking photos. stepped into the high element area without helmet n was chased out. i was intimidated when i noticed one ODAC instructor was staring at me fiercely. so i didn't take photos there. of cuz Miss Sensitive felt unhappy.

after games the campers had time to go bathe while i went back to rest. i rem falling asleep for a short while. woke up n heard sobbing sounds but i could only c jon n nat also asleep. :S haha.. reluctantly went back to canteen. served dinner with impatience cuz i was supposed to pack 10 packets for the musicians and bring them to Praisehaven at 6.20pm. the packets arrived after dinnertime started and wasn't given priority. i was also worried tt the vocalists haven't eat yet or didn't wait for me. managed to asked them to wait for me as i continued packing dinner. i myself didn't eat.

was more upset than yday cuz i felt totally neglected la. told myself to fake a smile. but during the worship i didn't have to fake la. really praising God. prayed with Chihiro during the ministry time.. really hope tt God will touch her but seems like.. kinda disappointed la.. wanted to pray for Kelvin also. but then.. hmm.. the last part of the session was a jumping good time man. the last time i did the train thing was probably during FOP when tyrone n michael were still around. think tt was yr 2000. it's a dangerous act. dun really dare to do it anymore.

had supper and then distributed tshirts. went to Zebulun and the grp thanked me for the t-shirt.. now reflecting on it i felt immature for covering my ears instead of accepting the compliment graciously. stupid me. i was juz too pai seh.. had leaders debrief in the camp comm bunk. there was a time of sharing.. went to slp after showering.. Chihiro shocked me by entering the camp comm room to ask for a lighter after we switched off the lights. haha.. everyone wondered how i got to know her.

DAY 3
slept more soundly last night.. woke up for prayer again.. n this time felt stoned. served breakfast.. nasi lemak.. gave the groups time while camp comm had a sharing session in bunk. i shared tt i was very happy tt the comm is v united, close enough for me to share my prayer requests with them n to let them know tt i needed prayer support. yup..

after lunch rested a while before ...GAMES TIME!! this time we managed to conduct the game more smoothly maybe cuz most of the pple in these groups understand the game already so there wasn't much difficulty explaining the game. during the off-slot time i went to Guess the Word station to help out as well as watch the groups play.. then went to the Hidden Path also. after tt went back to my station n we started playing early. joined in the last round of the game.

went back to rest n bathe.. felt upset tt my shampoo n shower foam were "stolen". dunno who "innocently" took it. changed into polo teefor photo-taking.. then dinner. this time i ate. it was sotong ball n green veggie n chicken n rice. long time no eat dinner with camp comm. =x helped setup canteen for Special night.

nothing much to say abt Special night.. but honestly honestly i was kinda bored with some of the grp's performances.. some were entertaining, but after like 10 mins i started to yawn n hope some buzzer will tell them tt time is up. =x we felt kinda offended when baoying's name was suddenly used by the actors.. some grps tried to act us out but seemed to portray kinda insulting image. ah. was even more pissed when i couldn't contact hx abt proj meeting time. jess smsed me to ask the grp for a better meeting time. i sms them but none of them reply, told andy to call them up but turned out he didn't. felt totally in a bad mood at tt time. couldn't enjoy the show. oh i killed a millipede when i went toilet. =x. poor thing..

after tt helped pack up the place a bit then went back to bunk. help carry stuff to jeff's car then met the rest of the camp comm there. they were thinking of going out for supper. hmm.. decided not to eat. went back to rest a bit then shower for sleep. haha slept so early.. last night of camp already still sleep so early. i really old liao sia.. i bet my cell grp all staying up except me.

DAY 4
haha by the time i washed up the camp comm were already at the canteen. =x served the last breakfast..sobb sobb.. cleared the place more n went back to bunk for final packup n clean up. revealed angel n mortal.. n turned out my angel is diana! i feel super bad for the spelling mistakes in my notes to my mortal.. bo sim sia.

break camp liao.... went to johnson duck for lunch with cell grp.. Chihiro joined elohim at Al-Azhar. we went over too later, for teh. went home with Chihiro. shat good time n then slp. until dinner time.. asked my mom to da-bao for me.. hehe.. lazy to go out for dinner.

I MISS CAMP!! thank God for such an experience to be in camp comm! honestly i wouldn't join as a camper cuz of high elements. =x keke.. i juz realised our meal caterer could be the same as the one in my Sec 3 adventure camp.. (no wonder i didn't eat at all during tt camp.. i was suffering from depression then)

haha ya anyway.. back to life. skipped sch today but it's ok. :P got lesson tmr. sianz!

:: praise God ::

thank God.. on sunday morning i prayed tt i will be able to catch the LRT once i reach the station n catch the train n then bus.. the LRT really did arrive the very moment i reached the platform~! the train too, but it didn't leave until a few minutes later.. n the bus.. hmm.. waited quite a bit but was thankful enough.

thank God i didn't fall sick as i shld have. been well for abt a yr without falling sick at all. my body did threaten to give way when i bia late nights, but thank God for sustaining me. last time when i dust my room i can even fall sick.. now i'm trying to clear my room, sneezed very often but right this moment i'm feeling very well!

hmm.. wad else? hmm.. thank God for a nice friend Chihiro who lives v near me.. she's like a boyfriend to me in a way tt i sms her very often, hang out with her v often.. haha..

gonna make my new yr resolutions v soon.. =)

:: :S ::

there was a murder in punggol last night after i reached home. thank God i didn't witness it.. *shivers*

today lesson was cancelled. so i thought i wld just go for bible study then go gym. i was dressed already then just b4 i left house i remembered i forgot to take my handphone, so i went back to the room to get it. i saw messages, including the one that says the bible study today was cancelled. so i was like, okay. stayed at home and then received another sms. my dinner appointment was cancelled. haha.. then i wonder maybe i'm supposed to stay home today.

packed my postcards, listened to my CDs.. until 5pm like tt i felt my back quite ache.. later went out for dinner with mom.. had breakfast set (yes, for dinner) wasn't v hungry cuz i ate my "lunch" around 5pm.. it was a milo drink mixed with some stuff. ;)

packed my table n prepared to remove it.. chihiro came to show me what she bought.. haha.. really like wad she got me.. =) listened to her tell me the story of a comic she read while inside i was worried abt my project.. supposed to finish up the competitor analysis by friday to pass to my grp members.. it was around 12am n i still hadn't done. now gotta choose topics for another grp project.. really dun need to slp liao man.

gd morning, world!

:: wad's wrong ::

dunno wad's wrong with me man.. henry pointed out tt i look rather deep in thoughts lately.. i think i really THINK TOO MUCH.. worried abt portfolio n animoweb n freelance work n camp comm... so many things on my mind..

hmm.. i just realised i forgot to go for Tuesday Prayer meeting.. tt day Chihiro came to my hse to play.. haha play until 1+am like sunday..

then yday no lesson.. woke up at 10am.. haha.. bathed n dressed n put on make-up..ready to go club MOMO!!! hahaha.. not to club la, but to help sab they all film.. act as extra.. so weird to try to dance without getting high, n the funniest part is where we have to dance without music!!! can u imagine how stupid it was? no i'm not blaming the filming crew, i'm laughing at wad i went thru.. haha.. the music also not suitable leh.. not very club type.. surprised to c michael there acting too.. i was doing sexy dancing around cheryl.. haha.. the lead actor was quite impressed n wanted us to teach him how to dance.. wahahaha.. then chihiro arrived.. i was worried she dunno her way here n i have to make her wait for me to bring her in during shooting.. she joined in the dance at the last shot n found it fun.. haha..

after this she brought me n cheryl to Smith St for dinner.. had chicken cutlet la mian.. not bad.. finished all that i have in my wallet tt day. after dinner we walked thru the market to get to the mrt station.. i realise tt i've lost the enthusiasm in shopping.. dunno y man.. is it wad u call "maturing"?? - no longer as wild as b4.. haha..

anyway these few days i feel v appreciated.. ethan thanked me for accomodating the GB logo on the sleeve thing n i felt quite bad cuz he came all the way to paya lebar with me n jac on monday n i wasn't sure if he benefited from the trip.. ken smsed me to thank me for helping them out.. he sounded v touched in that msg.. haha.. juz received a mail from PUB after i sent them a feedback like 2 months back.. there was a "specially design" cashcard as a token of appreciation.. thanks guys for appreciating me n letting me know.. haha sorry if i didn't mention u.. it's 2+am now.. tired.. just finished my freelance proj.. hopefully it gets thru n i can get my pay soon.. not sure how i'll spend it..

chatted with mai n rean today.. told them abt my plans of backpacking with judy after my graduation.. kinda sia jai that they cannot come along with us to bring us around thailand cuz their parents might not allow.. but i wanna visit chiang mai, pattaya, surin, n bangkok again.. feel very gian n i really hope my parents dun object to me going!! n hope judy's parents also dun object!!

yup.. gd nite~! =)

:: *smilEx* ::

today is a good day..

my dad sent me to sch. had lesson for less than 3 hours.. kinda stoned most of the time..

wanted to go for lunch with my classmates.. but didn't.. went back home to slp.. *yaWnz* so tired~!

woke up around 3+.. packed my room a bit.. then chihiro came..

she motivates me to throw away the junk in my room, n i'm very glad to be able to give away some of my stuff to her.. hmm~ she collects postcards n namecards too! my wardrobe is full of clothes tt i dun wear/i wouldn't catch myself in.. really need to clear out man.. but my mentality is "i'll wear this one day" so i dun throw clothes away.. well, those is good condition but maybe too small for me i can bless other pple with them.. so i put them aside.

we went for dinner at punggol plaza.. looked at magazines (man i'm really lost touch with the world. who the heck is Britney Spears married to? who's Christina Agu...'s bf? ) i really have no idea. haha.. but.. it's ok la. i know weiting, judy, swee yi, ...can liao.. haha..

went back home.. a bit stoned.. let Chihiro use my laptop to go online.. i continued to pack my stuff.. if i were to empty my room of one thing at a time, continuously, i would spend abt a year..?

*/

:: decision ::

i have just decided.. to give up animoweb.

i'm sorry to myself for giving myelf so much stress for the past few weeks.

at the last minute i decided my work is too lousy.

i have zero confidence in it.

go to sleep~! yay!

:: sad ::

last night on my way home i almost cried. told myself, get home then cry.

i went online to check mail all tt.. by the time i was ready to pour out my woes to God i can't rem the upsetting stuff for the day already.

today did an offertory item with my twin.. felt terrible abt the mistakes despite a lot of pple came up to tell us it's a good song. well, just hope tt the msg got across n pple r ministered to la.

stayed back for worship prac. i totally neglected my animoweb. felt kinda bad. quite sian of helping pack stuff after a while. decided to go home. v tired. slept on the train.. anyway during the prac i was like thinking of my matyrdom. i would want to sing the song Lost In Your Love until i get shot in my heart.

hmm..went for dinner with my mom. then chihiro reminded me tt she need to come my hse to use internet. so i met her at punggol plaza n walked home together. i'm still very impressed with her life stories.. very filled with experience n exciting life.. haha.. she taught me a lot of tips on clothes.. hmm.. i really must quit my bad habit of looking down on my clothes.. then tt way i can feel better abt them.. anyway it was really fun with her around la.. just that i was worried my parents might be woken up by her condom riddle. ahem.. haha... she just left, around 1+am.. haha.. then now i'm going to continue to work on my animoweb. a bit sian.

:: cannot take it ::

i feel like wallowing in self pity..

God save me...!!!

i'm starting to hate humans..

starting to show bad attitude..

:: really ::

แอนเจิ้ล -- my name in thai. cool huh, i can type thai now!!

wahaha.. *evil laughter*

reeally, these r one of the days when i can read my blog n wonder y i ever felt so down.. mood swing lor.. quite extreme hor. i keep telling myself, a depressed Christian is oxymoronic. it shldn't happen. so, trying to get over this stupid feeling n enjoy my life, not hate it.

hmm, on christmas, i would have been single for a whole year liao.. felt quite lonely at times, kept praying for a companion. but it's only been a year!! so hard to tahan meh? felt like there's no object of affection for me.. so kinda feel down easily i guess. that means Jesus hasn't been my number 1 love. hmm.. so i have to make some adjustments.

last night for my prayer time i poured out all my material requests to God. i find it VERY hard to pray for luxury items like new clothes, new shoes.. u may think that these r necessities, but i dun agree. i dun think without new clothes i cannot live. just that i won't be as trendy as my classmates. just that i won't feel good around them. n then i feel so down, down, down, down. i keep telling myself tt i'm me, i don't have to be like them, but it's hard. i dun even noe myself. but pple say that it's not wrong to pray for what i want, because our Father delights in giving His children good gifts. so i tried to pray for them lor. still feel tt it's wrong. =S it makes me happy to have money to shop.. but then i dun feel tt money shld be spent tt way. then i feel down. so ironic!! =( i'd rather spend money on computer.. it's more useful. or on travelling, experience the world.

i'm kinda in the stage where i'm confused. life is ironic to me. i can be both happy n sad.

:: wanna thank God ::

on sunday as i was carrying a heavy load of books and cds back to Crest at far east, i prayed that my arm muscles will not get pulled. usually i will experiece an ache the next morning. but this time, because i prayed exactly like this, "Dear God, i pray that You will give me strength (until i reach Crest), not muscles..." the next morning i noticed that i don't feel any strain in my arm at all!! this is a simple day to day miracle that YOU can ask from God too! praise God!

i also wanna thank God for pushing my deadline behind. especially the animoweb competition. i didn't exactly spend a lot of time n effort on it la, but i hope to win la. hmm.. that's y i give myself extra stress... i bia my grp proj work on sunday night, bia my interaction design assignment on monday night n tue after my lesson went home to rest. when doing my ID assignment, i had overconfidence. thought that the effort i put in is good enough, that my concept is good. but when i submitted mine and reviewed everyone's in the class, mine is the worst. i dunno la. i passed my standard somehow, but i couldn't pass the class' standard. at the back of my mind i start to wonder, am i cut out to be a designer? i am just good enough to help my church design some simple brochures, posters etc.. but not good enough for the industry. i've had thoughts to become full time missionary, but is it an easy way out because i dun wanna work in competitive environment?

ya anyway.. just a little something extra abt me.. i guess u all dunno the extent of my depression. it's been there for a very long time already. whenever i see a knife i wld imagine myself getting cut by it, not that i have the intention to cut myself. i would sometimes imagine if my wrist got scratched accidentally n blood will splash all over.. i've ever imagined the walls of my room full of blood.. i also imagined slipping in the bathroom n hitting my head until i become unconscious. i imagined falling off my dad's motorbike. because i always lean on the box behind, so i imagined the box came loose n i fell backward in the middle of the expressway. even though i didn't have the intention, but i guess if one day i start to sleepwalk n do things with my subconscious mind, it's gonna be very scary. yea n in pri sch i even talked with my best friend abt jumping off a building. i..realise..it might be caused by watching horror films like Scream, What Lies Beneath, Final Destination. (i'm not affected by ghost kinda movies, but more of murder kind of movies) i really need to overcome this part of me. yup. thanks for reading. don't be affected by it. dun start imagining these yourself k?

:: =( ::

felt a bit being pushed around today.. but dun wanna remember it already la.

hmm.. now feeling much better cuz tt madman stopped calling me.. tt night i mentioned he called 7 times? he called 4 more times after i published that entry. n i switched off my phone at midnight. immediately he called my hse!! i was pissed with his intention to disturb my whole family (minus my sis).

anyway i was very very very stressed this week.. a lot of things to do, haven't organised when to set aside time for wad.

1. design identification for camp comm
2. finalise t-shirt design, incorporate GB logo
3. camp booklet cover design
4. freelance work (thanks jieling's friend vincent for allowing me flexible time)
5. animoweb (submission next wed *gasp!*)
6. entrepreneur grp proj work
7. interaction design assignment 2 (submission on tue *gasp! gasp!*)

n other stuff tt i have already done during the week

1. check out t-shirts quality, size
2. meet seller of digital cam
3. buy mom's bday present
4. collect stuff from PRC
5. meet esther n shirley for PRC 2006 planning
6. check out prices of tag & lanyard
7. transfer funds and submit payment for child sponsorship
8. prac offertory with my twin

thank God for sustaining me.. sometimes when i feel like things are so disorganised i wish i didn't have the life to deal with them. but when things seem organised enough i feel much better. as i was sharing with my cell grp, this week is kinda mood swing for me.

i'm not complaining and hoping someone can take over my tasks, these r my responsibilities.. i'll feel worse if these are taken away from me such that i have nothing to do. might as well die. uh.. dun take me serious on this one.

God is not pleased with complainers. i dun wanna be one.

:: >.< ::

i am very angry!!!

I WANNA SHOUT!!!

idiot!! bugger!! stop calling me!!

for his sake i have to leave my hp in silent mode n watch it vibrate..

he has left me more than 10 missed calls today!! i'm serious! 5 times in the afternoon, 7 times now..

i'm irritated, but at least my hp is in silent mode, not that bad.

he makes me feel like cancelling my line...

i wonder if there any thrill in leaving pple missed calls? HE IS CRAZY!!

i think he must be angry with me now for not answering. i shall continue to not answer any calls from Private Number!

:: busy ::

last night i felt very uncomfortable, felt like gulping down mouthwash.

not becuz i was thinking of suicide.. but i had this most disgusting taste of garlic. had pastamania for dinner.. full of garlic, but i still swallowed the food. it was nice la, other than the fact there was garlic.

wed went to paya lebar to meet paul. i was late, so was he.. then we met each other on the train, so farnie!! ya we went to see the tshirt sample and check out the sizes. some things u wun know until u c n touch. yup. went to popular bookstore in the singapore post to buy lanyards. then went to kopitiam for steamed soup.. i was craving for chinese soup.

went home..wanted to nap but couldn't. no time. bathed n went out. went to city hall, citylink mall sookee to shop for bday present for mom. the salesman was terrible. entertain me, then tell me to wait, entertain another customer. then entertain me, then tell me to wait again. hmmph! wasn't pleased with him la. i was in a rush but no one entertain me.. they think i small girl ah. hmmph!

went to take bus to clarke quay to find my cell grp. they were at fishermen's wharf. i've seen tt name somewhere but couldn't recall. so i had difficulty finding the place. jeffrey told me it's opposite clarke quay mrt, but of cuz there are so many exits and directions for the mrt. anyway managed to figure my way there. had fish n chips with tartar sauce n malted vinegar n honey mustard. haha.. took photos..

went to see the reverse bungy... gosh i dun dare to try it man.. i scared myself just by looking at those who went up.. terry wanted to go, but most of us buey on, so in the end he didn't go. for me i dun dare to try, secondly, $25 for a ride? nah, i'd rather save it up for at least 5 meals, maybe can last me for a week even. well.. then we walked around.

yday was my mom's bday, woke up early at 6.30 am to pass her her present.. she was rather happy i think, she wanted to wear it straight away. oh it was a sookee pendant with chain. i haven't fully woken up so i couldn't wear it for her. went back to slp.

went to church to meet jasmine faith, to prac our offertory item, which had been postponed to next week. it'll be the last offertory item in malan road. everything will have its last time in malan road...
*sniff sniff* i'll sure go back to visit once in a while, like i visit my old hse in west coast road.... but i heard the rvhs is moving into that site... hmm.. not bad.. my old sch moving into my old church area. hmm.. that ground is holy ground... rvhs will be won over!!! hohoho..

had lunch with her n jessica at harbourfront yoshinoya.. not nice de, the chicken delight... very tough meat. rushed to sch. well not exactly rush la. i was late but i still walk my normal pace. i got to take my attendance in the end anyway. hehe.. of cuz i shldn't take this grace for granted la. felt super sleepy but couldn't fall asleep.

after lesson went to find my IENTP grp members to talk abt report. left at 7+pm.. was late to meet this Fi from ebay. i was going to buy a second hand digital camera from him.


went to meet esther n shirley to talk abt PRC over dinner at pastamania. had dessert n talked till 10+pm.. that ends my story.

:: ah ::

ahaha.. yday was a terrible day, but today was good. i was 53 kg yday but today i'm 51. hahaha.. still far from my ideal weight. a fine day makes my day. although today is going to be packed, at least God helped me arrange activities in a way that i can breathe. haa.. going out to celebrate diana's birthday later.. going to buy my mom's birthday present before that. then going to buy a 2nd hand digital camera.. today is spending spree... haha.. the seller charged me lower than wad i bidded for in ebay, but i went to far east plaza yday, checked out the price of that camera. it's like $300+.. n the shopkeeper asked me y i want to get that camera? he sounded as if it's bad luck. i shld have probed further y he spoke in that tone. but.. haha..

:: argh ::

yday went for a wedding dinner. didn't have time to nap before that lor.. =( v tired. i suck at applying makeup. it was disastrous. caused my right eye to go red. got to c my relatives. not bad la, tried to chat more with them. my mom always nag that i dun mix with my relatives, i shld chat more with them. saw elizabeth's family n got a shock. i didn't know she's my distant relative! then benjamin's family came too. double shock. haha.. the food was... alright, very creative. the cold dish didn't have jellyfish. there was salmon, sashimi, prawn, chicken, fried wrapped dumpling. then the shark's fin. my goodness, i've nv seen such disgusting looking shark's fin b4. it was green n slimy. green bits all over. but i tried it n didn't find it that bad after all. there were a few unknown objects inside tt i didn't dare to eat though. then had prawns, roasted duck, spinach, ee-fu noodles (my fav) n dessert. no i didn't eat dessert, becuz it's yam paste. i expected there to have red wine cuz tt was wad i had at alan's wedding dinner. but no red wine. hmm.. took taxi home with mom cuz dad didn't bring along extra helmet. u noe wad i found out?

my mom used to go disco! n her jiu liang is very good! (can drink a lot), even more than me wor! she can drink more than 6 glasses of beer without feeling seh. n i felt very hot after 6 glasses. (we didn't drink tt night la, just a comparison.)

this morning v cold. went for interaction design class. after lesson approached ms wen lei to approve my design concepts. done during class. hahaha.. then went to fy room to look for the rest. they didn't seem to want to eat. anyway.. something happened.

yau called! i was shocked la.. so i first thing ask him, y he call me. i mean after so long already, call me for wad. just to make sure he didn't call the wrong person. he said he called my hse juz now but no one pick up. the number he spelled was correct lor. so i asked him for his new number, wad he doing recently. he asked if i got bf.. tt means he's quite sane n didn't think of me as his gf anymore. he scolded me lor. cuz i always answer questions with, "ok lor" "not bad", like dunno wad i wan, so he scolded me, "so big already still dunno wad u wan" (in chinese) ah and anyway told him i was going to get busy then hung up. after a few minutes he called again, to tell me to eat my lunch. then he smsed me dunno wad he saying sia. but great improvement in his english. then he called again to ask if i got receive his sms. i said yes, then he said sorry. -.-" then i was like thinking, "wad u doing, man.. crazy guy" ah well.

called the t-shirt printing contact jieling gave me.. i asked for details already then ask for the company name. then i realise i had called the same company before already. felt like "argh!!" so silly.. pai seh to tell him tt i have already called b4. ahahaha.. jieling's friend called to discuss details abt the freelance work with me. changes to be made. hmm~ went to look for andy to get from him the printed survey forms. then rachel was also there. she tempted me to go for a trial slimming session with her. n andy drove us to town.

the slimming session was terrible. the consultant keeps promoting the package to me, keep trying to arrange an alternative payment cuz i keep saying i have no money, not interested in the package cuz i have no money. i keep telling her, i just want the free trial treatment (cheapo) n ya, got quite pissed. tried to show it with my black face, but dun think she got it. finally after like dunno how long she finally let me go!!!! *phew*! in the end i didn't go for the trial session. cuz she took too much time pushing the promotion to me until we had to arrange another day for the treatment if i insist. i decided no thanks. then i left the shop. walked around.. felt lonely.. rachel went for the treatment. felt kinda depressed cuz the consultant kept insisting that i need the slimming treatment. i was actually quite ok (although not v happy abt my size) but becuz of wad she said i felt quite affected. just thought of going for the fun of it since i have to wait for my grp project mate Ling until 5+pm.. haiz. as i walked around far east, i saw a lot of clothes n shoes... i have no interest in them. n i started to wonder y. kinda despise my fashion sense, but no money to change it. kinda felt tt no one's interested in me becuz i dunno how to dress up. ah well, materialism. it's not like me to be bothered by tt, but when u're depressed u will usually think of more depressing stuff. so oxymoronic. me being depressed. a sad angel?

hmm.. oh yah, during the consultation earlier on i just wanted to get away from the persuasion of the promotion. so i decided i need to go toilet. there's this interesting thing in the toilet. u turn a knob n there will be water spraying upwards to wash ur butt for u. wanted to try it, but kinda find it weird. then i went out n saw rachel coming in. so i went back in again to talk with her abt the slimming thing. she actually decided to go for it!! n ya anyway i brought the toiletbowl thing up n suggested we try it. hahahahhaa... we made our 10c worth! =x

when Ling arrived we went to ya kun kaya toast for dinner. her friend arrived. we went to a hairdressing salon cuz he wanted to cut his hair. then we started to give out surveys. it's for our entrepreneurship project. rachel helped us give out surveys at macCafe. then andy n rachie arrived. andy helped out a while then left, me n ling went to wheelock place to continue. met this grp of pple who were excited abt our business idea. he wanted our contact but we didn't give. well. he gave us his namecard. finally we finished giving surveys and went to starbucks to tabulate results. hmm..

went home.. yea. nothing much now. just felt very busy, but thank God for helping me arrange my activities.. wed n thur r filled. fri is alright. i can rest on fri finally i hope.

just received a few missed calls i believe is from yau. he's going crazy again.

:: ;) ::

*sniggers*

something is coming up...

despite being broke, i'm spending $200 on something i hope i dun regret...

while the rest of my savings will go to new computer parts.. i just had this crazy idea of dismantling my computer n sell off the parts.. but a little discouraged when wan told me that nobody would buy them. well.. pray that some crazy rich guy decides to buy from me! hehehehe...

i've got... 256mb ram
40GB HDD
40 X 12 X 40 CD-RW drive
floppy disk drive (v low chances that anyone would be interested in this!)
sound card
graphic card
internal 56k modem (low chance too.. i'll sell it at $1!)
basically tt's it..

i would retain my casing n motherboard n mouse n keyboard n maybe monitor n purchase the following items:
1GB ram
80GB HDD
16X DVD-RW drive
better sound card
better graphic card
USB 2.0 ports

hmm.. think tt's all too.

hope when my dad gets his pay he can help me buy some of these!

n i hope my current freelance work will get thru.. i've been given flexible time to do, but due to my computer problems i haven't been able to complete it within 2 weeks.. =(

:: I am Tagged!! WHOA!! ::

Tagged by my laogong sweeyi

Rules: Post 5 Weird and Random Facts about yourself, then at the end list the names of 5 people who are next in line to do this.

#1 I like to store a lot of things, even on my own bed. so i dun even sleep on my own bed. no space!

#2 I am a sucker for travelling. i go for every overseas trip possible.

#3 I have a big tummy! -.-"

#4 I still hug my baobei bolster who has faithfully slept with me for 19 years. heeheehee...

#5 I brought a milk bottle to sch one day n drink from it like a water bottle. that was during my sec sch time (sec 3 or 4). i thought that was cool. heh!


5 lucky ppl to carry on this chain:

1. weiting!
2. shirley sim
3. praisie
4. (i'm not sure who else reads my blog) ermm.. esme? hee
5. anyone! (wild card) haha.. who wanna join the chain just join! =x

:: =x ::

thur slept until i'm satisfied.. hoho.. decided to go library with my laptop to do work.. n find books n listen to music.. cool way to chill out.. went for lesson on time.. this week has been good, praise God.. been going for lesson on time (even if i were a few minutes late the lesson hadn't even started) =)

went to fy room to find nic n david.. wendy treat wor~! she got her pay liao.. woohoo~ went to pastamania for dinner.. felt like trying the dessert, but tt day the dessert i wanted was not available. after dinner walked to mindcafe.. john n david came later.. we played cluedo.. haha.. wendy won 2 games n nic won 1..

fri jialat cuz i couldn't wake up despite setting 2 alarm clocks.. n i went home too late last night.. my parents were asleep already so couldn't inform them wad time to wake me up.. but thank God my dad was still around, can ask him to send me to sch. it was intro to entre lesson. ms ang v nice n motherly.. she allows us to come at most 8.15 cuz she understands we cannot wake up so early! hehe.. went thru lecture... hmm.. somehow i feel there's a reason in me taking that module.. i dunno y.. i took business management during my 1st 3 months in JI too.. v fun.. learnt abt sole proprietorship, limited liability all that... but kinda forgot... =x

it was a 2 hour lesson.. supposed to meet my SBM grp members but since we were allowed to use monday lesson time to brainstorm ideas i decided not to meet them. so i called my dad up to pick me up. we went to vicom cuz he had to pay road tax.. then went to sembawang (something) food centre for lunch..

went to konica minolta service centre in commonwealth to find out how i can repair my camera.. the cost is $150.. straight away my dad decided dun wanna repair, then we left.. the pple there weren't friendly anyway. i was wondering if i shld approach the counter straight, but they just stared at me like wondering what i'm going to do.. there wasn't a welcome or a smile either. idiots.

went home. sleep for abt 1-2 hours then woke up to go for idn conference. was wondering how to get in, whether i shld pay $35 to get in or not.. then my dad decided to eat prata downstairs. haha.. when i was done, hx they all were outside. they lent me their pass (shhh!!) then managed to "smuggle" me n darius n teo hong in. haha.. walked around.. i was quite impressed by some works la.. especially the interaction installations.. becuz i'm taking the module now. bought 4 idn magazines for $30. imagine if i had to pay entrance fee... the magazines wouldn't be worth it liao. darius got a book free when it was supposed to cost $15 lor! hor hor.. haha.. then he went to get autograph.. smudged ink over his shirt.. haiyo.. then he wanted to ask another guy for autograph.. dunno he dao or wad, just anyhow scribbled a word nia lor.. anyway i saw a few thais.. ^.^ i dunno y, just have the urge to go up to them n get to noe them.. =x hehe.. stayed back till the end.. watched the UnitedVisualArtists showcase... v cool.. i like the sperm one.. haha.. they all move randomly, but spin in the same direction at certain intervals.. v synchronised with the music.. i wonder did they create the music themselves or can it be other pple's music?

took mrt home.. fri was a very eventful day for me.. thanks friends who helped me get into designedge!

sat no cell grp.. did my animoweb n packed my room till 3pm then rushed out to Old Saigon.. saw a very handsome guy on the train!!! looks a bit like vanness.. :S but v nice features. It's servio's first month! had vietnamese food... it was quite nice la.. better than the last vietnamese cuisine i had.. =S wee lee drove me n serene to church.. i was the prayer IC for the worship prac that week.. wasn't really prepared.. i just wanted to share a passage, but i don't know how to speak.. i always blabber one whole round n pple dun understand my point... at least that's what i thought. i thought as long as my mind is empty God can use me more easily.. but then i really felt brainless lor.. wasn't using my brain. haiz.. after prac paul sent me n esther home.

next morning i woke up quite on time, i even called esther to make sure she's up.. but i guess i spent a little too long finding clothes.. i dun iron clothes anymore, so i was wondering if i can wear certain shirts n still look neat.. other than that i spent a long time waiting for bus. abt 10-20 min.. not usual lor.. =( in the end we were late..

saw kwek. she is driving!!! so cool... hahaha... i insisted getting a ride i dun care although it was just up n down the slope in SAJC! hehe.. had camp comm meeting after service.. after tt went for lunch with a few of the camp comm members at ikea. didn't have much money, just nice $5.. =x chatted.. wanted to buy box for the camp, but decided can do so another time. went home.. dunno y i guess i was tired.. slept on the train like a log.. i nv drool or snore la... just didn't wake up till punggol. glad to live at the end of the train line. dun have to worry abt missing my stop.

oh.. lately i've been feeling kinda desperate. haiz. was watching tv more often lately.. saw a lot of cute guys on tv... hmm.. watch this show Rainbow Connection.. i really think the guy acting as Martin v cute!!!!! i like that character also.. rich but rather depend on himself to earn a living, strong, tall, dark, handsome, faithful, rather humorous... then i started to pray for such a man to come into my life! hehe.. i still remember adeline (zoe tay)'s words when she spoke to me inn tanjung balai... she said tt i'll surely get a handsome bf in future.. well, i'm looking forward to it!! hehe.. but i wasn't dealing with it the right way. i think on sunday night, i went online.. went to friendster n saw a friend's profile n photos... v disappointed in the change in her, but also rather envy of her beauty n popularity.. i started to become obsessed in a way. .. i ...dun wanna describe the extent of the obsession la.

anyway i haven't been sleeping well these few days.. stress i guess.. nowadays it takes me longer to fall asleep. i'm starting to lose appetite also.. rather conscious of my figure. i'm way past my ideal weight n i'm like not doing anything abt it lor. =( monday i just happened to pass by a noticeboard n i wonder if these r symptoms of depression? hmm.. anyway my SBM grp members for IENTP r v pretty! hoho~ honestly i was quite discouraged when my ideas were not chosen.. but of cuz my ideas r not necessarily the best n that they shld use them ma.. i know that, but just felt discouraged that's all. maybe it was the way they were being shot down. well.. went home n had a 15 min rest before going to meet my mom for dinner. wasn't hungry, but i ate anyway.

tue early lesson again.. not bad, got inspired. after lesson went to fy room to do my freelance work. been putting it back for a long time. my home pc crashed.. but i forgot to bring some essential stuff. kinda wanted to go home to take. showed mr choong my animoweb... he didn't give comments la. continued to work on the freelance thing then went to compass point for dinner with mom. not hungry, don't feel like eating, just wan to sleep. shared a meal with her. went home to watch tv.... now trying to see how i can save my computer. thank God the important files r not in my comp.

my mom is tempting me to go KL in dec... just before the camp.. dunno i can go or not leh... =x

:: heh ::

i agree to the quiz result to a certain extent. i don't tend to speak much, because i really believe that When words are many, sin is not absent, but he who holds his tongue is wise. (Proverbs 10:19) when i blurt out words it's often not kind.. before i criticise, i will hold back n think whether i shld say or not. so pple tend to see me as quiet.. (i hope they dun think i'm dao or that i'm ignoring them) sometimes i dun agree to things, but i also hold back my comments. that's y i always lose out in tongue fight. i need boldness from God!

there's this person who talks nonsense like it's free. what this person doesn't know is he/she has already offended a number of pple thru the nonsense. but i pray that i will forgive that person for offending me n God will forgive me for resenting that person.

animoweb.... dieeeee!!!!

anyway last night went for prayer meeting to help do projection. it was quite a disaster because i dunno how to go to SAV. paul was going to pick me up at potong pasir mrt station, at this road called Meyappa Chetiar Road n i didn't know where it was. i looked at the directory n it was no use because i don't even noe which direction i was facing. jessica told me to walk right (or left) n i walked the opposite direction.. in the end late for the prayer meeting. setup the laptop in a rush n i dun even noe the password to the login. logged in as Guest n i couldn't use the projection program WA. felt quite pai seh cuz i was juz right in front hoping no one's staring at me.. but praise God in all circumstances. after that paul gave me the password n i managed to setup. went for prayer walk. it was night time, the place was deserted, but God's presence was with us so there was no fear. anyway went home on paul's car.. sat at the driver seat for a while haha.. the steering wheel very hard to turn sia.. n i dun dare to test the honk. haha..

this morning had breakfast with my mom cuz she took sick leave. had murtabak with chicken without onion.. very filling sia.. kinda reluctant but i went to office then we went pizza hut at amk for lunch. thanks boss for the treat. i was not realli prepared to eat a lot. wanted to just drink pepsi. but i also had soup and 2 pizza slices. ate slowly so that they wun give me anymore. walked back to office. saw jie mei sam... man, he got fatter sia!! n he noticed i got fatter also.. =( used the comp for a while then decided to go home accompany my mom but esme needed help with the TAT diary. so i stayed back to help her. then yihan kena asthma attack.. this made me thank God for giving me good health, that i'm able to breathe without problem. made me appreciate air even more. but yihan was quite jialat she couldn't even sit up. i remember ever crying until that bad. i managed to finish my work at 6 so i went back home for dinner. mom cooked instant noodles with egg n golden needle mushrooms n vege. the only thing i like abt korea is the instant noodles. how pathetic.

oh yah.. my pay is $3.50 per hour. honestly it's peanuts. as if i'm working not for the salary. as if my family is doing well. my dad juz found a job but it's hell la.. he even had to go back on public holiday n weekends. i dun expect him to work long at that job. my mom is praying for opening of a new job too. too much work for her. see, she's even falling sick now. n my sis is already struggling to pay for her own living. i may have been promised a better pay once my term ends, but i really can't wait.. we gotta pay $200 for our graduation show. my mom stopped giving me allowance for a while. so i had been living on my previous months' pay. now if i get $3.50 per hour n i can only work for 2 days a week it's like around $200 per month? n i have to pay for every snack n drink i take from the office? boss said he was just joking but i was really offended by that, man.

dieeee....animoweb....!!!!!

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:: wow ::

haha.. ok update..

30 oct.. shaun n michael's bday.. was a sunday. had to reach church early so thank God paul came with jessica to give me a lift.. v excited cuz it's the day of the publicity launch for youth camp 2005. haha.. after service supposed to do projection, but since the praise pple can do it, i went off for lunch with my cell grp. wasn't satisfied with the curry chicken noodles in harbourfront food court. after chatting for a while we went downstairs n i bought chicken cutlet from shih lin. i dun like the funny smell.. went to orchard to look for present for jeremy.. went a few places. hmm.. finally bought it.. a DKNY watch (anyway we've presented it to him already) yup. dunno y very tired.. kept yawning haha.. then i realise the singles' club is meeting to celebrate shaun n mic's bday so i went to PS to look for them. had dinner at swensen's. wasn't hungry but i'm glad i can finish my food. walked around. decided to go play pool.. n that was around 9+ i think. played till 11+.. wow i actually won 3 games out of....5 or 6.. haha.. juz "taiko" lor.. ran to catch the last NEL home. haha..

monday
went to work.. after work shaun called to hurry me to join them. went to find them at mac then we went to PS for dinner. then went to MindCafe to play boardgames.. cool place.. played Ride to Europe.. (uh i can't rem the name of the game) basically some boardgame where we have to complete routes to win points. yup. played till 10+ hehe a few cute guys there.. haha..

tue
by rights it's a public holiday, but i went back to work so that i can take friday off. actually the work was supposed to be rushed out by wed. my parents had the day off, so i had breakfast with them at Kopitiam. worked on Adobe Indesign.. picked up this software cuz the work requires the skill. i didn't expect the sch to be closed.. haha.. so i was locked outside. had to use intercom to get my entry. felt weird. haha.. went out for lunch.. hmm.. didn't expect to be able to leave on time also, but since i couldn't do any work no point staying also. the network played me out man.. i saved my stuff on the server n it failed me.. i felt like i couldn't do anything.. had to restart comp a lot of times n see if the server is back up. sucks. shit man i didn't know the diary can wait. n muz bia the calendar first. i did the work at the wrong time. so by the time i realise it i felt very lost. sucks. went for dinner with my parents. had black pepper crab.. it was heaven man.. so i felt better after the meal.. haha.

wed
hmm.. got alot of work done.. but very tedious so i couldn't finish it on time. my dad started work at his new job so he couldn't send me to sch anymore.. sigh.. need to wait for bus, n the journey takes double the time of taking motorbike lor. a bit not used to public transport again. stayed behind to discuss my timetable with my boss. decided to come in on tue n thur. n i dun understand what is daily pay basis. means i get money everyday that i work? hmm.. my parents have cell grp so i cooked instant noodles for dinner. worked on animoweb. very tough cuz my concept is still v rough.

thur
public holiday. PUBLIC HOLIDAY!!!! yay.. took the day to rest. had breakfast with my mom cuz my dad had to work. i wonder y he took up that job lor. now his weekends r burned up too.. =S watched movies on vcd with my mom.. supposed to do animoweb.. =x haha.. watched Beautiful Boxer n Mr & Mrs Smith. mom cooked dinner..

fri
had to go back to work because "we're still learning" ... finally finished the TAT calendar. dunno y still got last minute changes. i'm allowed to do my animoweb but then TAT still need editing, how to do animoweb? i thought it was supposed to be submitted today so i was v worried. i smsed wenlei but she nv reply. turned out that no one turned up to submit. haha.. dinner with my mom. she bought ice cream 0.0

sat
had breakfast with my mom then shopped for groceries. she want to cook dinner again. went home to prepare to go out. reached jeremy's hse around 3.50 i think.. haha =x had cell grp.. jeremy was kinda busy preparing for our bbq dinner that he wasn't with us most of the time. i think it's not a good idea to have cell grp at someone's hse, because the person will be occupied with things going around like picking up the phone, giving instructions to another family member, etc. had bbq.. felt lazy n didn't serve.. hehe.. ate a lot.. had cake cutting n photo taking sessions.. ate ice cream cake (yummy!) by 11 i felt tired already so i dozed off at the couch. after that jeremy announced a "taa-ing" session (finish up the beer) n i woke up. i didn't drink the chang beer at all.. hmm.. shld try. then a few of them went home. i went out with diana jeremy n malcolm to buy more beer. we bought anchor beer. played finger guessing game n then some funny "techno" game. haha.. got forfeited a lot of times, even got a 3 times in a row. forfeit with one quarter glass of beer each time. i guess i can't count how many cans i downed the whole night man. felt v hot around 4am.. a few more went home. i went to jeremy's room with diana to rest for the night. felt like my blood was pumping furiously n i couldn't get to sleep at first.

sun
seem to see someone keep entering the room.. i checked the time, it was 7am.. can slp a bit longer. snoozed my alarm clock till 8.30am.. went to shower. had breakfast then amos came to pick some of us up. i felt it's so cool, the whole cell grp going to church together, those who have car would go pick the others up.. just too bad i live the farthest. had holy communion.. i felt tired but i tell u i didn't sleep during the service at all ok! i closed my eyes that's all but i didn't nod off.. ya anyway after service went to queensway to look at slippers.. hmm.. my slippers is in quite bad condition now, but i dun think i'll get a new one now. maybe later.. ahaha.. (procrastinator) well.. i dun think slippers shld be more than $10 lor.. since i bought my $8 pair, the next one $4, then $2.90... i no longer look at expensive slippers. anyway went to marina square n bought cake. celebrated the november babies birthday at Carl's Junior. a lot of them couldn't eat the cake cuz they had a v full lunch already. then i ordered a meal to share with jac.. it was just nice enough, n i like the bacon burger. man, i can never eat a full meal on my own! i will take the whole day man.. walked around.. quite tired, thinking of my animoweb..... on my way home on brandon's car, shaun called to ask me if i'm going to farah's place.. then i was like "oh no!" forgot abt it! hee.. went home to sleep. woke up for dinner.. mom cooked spaghetti. n watched Daredevil n 2002 on tv.. i was like thinking to myself "hey go n do animoweb la"... but i didn't.. =x only started work at 11pm. do until 3am like tt then went to slp.

today, monday
first day at sch.. haha.. not bad.. had adv web lesson with ms pat. early dismissal hoho.. (first week of sch always like this la) Food Junction is finally open. had lunch with the IM pple. hmm.. what i appreciate abt guys is their sense of loyalty.. maybe not all of them, but still.. i was last to come back to the seats n there was no space already.. the guys actually squeezed to make space for me.. felt touched.. hehe.. went to FY room to slack n watch funny videos. met weiting to pass her thai silk cushion.. haha.. SHE CUT HER OWN HAIR!!! i'm amazed that it turned out not bad.. i mean i didn't even realise it was cut by herself.. hmm.. went for my next lesson.. woo.. hx same lesson as me!! hoho!~ bought new textbook -.-" hmm.. formed groups for the intro to entre. lesson ended early also.. went home to rest. still felt v bloated by the beer.. scared got beer belly.. hahaha a lot of pple dun like beer.. but i'm scared of vodka man.. i wld still drink la, but seldom already. woke up to meet my mom for dinner. blur blur cuz i just woke up, forgot to bring ezlink card so i had to walk a bus stop down.. =x haha.. my mom was right in front of me but i couldn't see her. =x took photos of some road signs.. gonna work on camp logo later~!

cya~!

:: nightlife ::

wahaha! yes that's me, my kor, n amanda~! i'd say the photographer did a great job cuz i seldom look nice on photo.. haha.. taken at Liberte on 28 Oct. cool~

wasn't much of a nightlife la.. went home around 12.. tired.. haha

:: ok, updates ::

friday went for ladies retreat at Sofitel Palm Resort in JB, missed david's bday celebration.. find tt the resort not as high class as phuket one... hoho.. had a great time getting to noe more abt the ladies.. they have tons of advice on marriage, work, etc. i shared room with esther. she brought her work to do wor.. =x haha then i keep telling her dun do work, or else defeat the purpose of the retreat, right! i didn't get to relax a lot during the retreat. probably becuz i chose to go out shopping when i can slp more hahah

the food is quite bad... i realise i was eating rubbish. lots of garlic, n other funny stuff. i even ate dessert!!!

bought a bag, a pair of shoes.. wanted to buy clothes, but when i tried it on i realise it doesn't look good on me. looks better on slim figures. i'm fat....yyyyuuuucccckkksss... there was deliverance session after each sermon session. i love the teaching sessions. very full of the speaker's own life experience. very impactful.

on the way back quite discouraged by the way the tour guide describe christians. but he also said that when he sees us, he feels a sense of peace. at least that makes me glad..

hmm.. monday went to office. thot i was supposed to work. but my boss thought i was just dropping by. o.0 nvm, that's good, can do my own stuff.

tue my boss announced that i'm supposed to start work officially tmr. hmm..~

wed working on organiser. lots of layout.

friday after work went to look for amanda at city hall.. met annabel n some others from shammah. talked to annabel n got to know her better. she got a project for me.. but not confirmed. went for The Tektile Movement's 1st anniversary celebration at Liberte at CHIJMES, cuz kor's part of the team. as DJ wor!!~ *proud of him* but i got a feeling tt he's being bullied leh.. his guest list had to cut short so that the bigger DJ can invite more friends. dotz... there was buffet dinner but i didn't eat much. busy looking around for cute guys but too bad all not my age one. wahaha.. had vodka cranberry.. hmm~ i bought that from DFS when i came back from Phuket. but i didn't open it yet. then jueru n her sis arrived.. went to eat with them.. wow went into a posh italian restaurant. felt uneasy cuz it's not my type of place to hangout. so i tried to behave myself as best as i can, trying to recall what i learnt from etiquette class. there's real application now lor.. like choosing utensils to eat certain food.. :S wow.. i think jueru realli looks like her sis. they're getting more n more alike. cool!

sat went to church earlier to learn thai from amber. wah need to "undo" a lot of pronunciation. hmm.. then cell grp... it was more of a time of reflection. hmm, when they hear that i'm being paid IAP amount for work, they all say i'm being cheated. even macdonald can pay more than 450 per month. it's true.. i dunno la, looking forward to getting promoted. but there's a lot of stress now. i need to bia my minor project by next week. dunno got time or not. die liao..

bia video editing now.. i dun dare to take up jieling's video editing project.. must learn to reject offers if i cannot handle.

:: just some thoughts ::

hmm.. today saw monkeys, prawns, birds, dogs..... hmm.. nice day..

went to upper thomson rd with my dad for "breakfast" at the sembawang hill food centre.. saw pan lingling n her husband hehe.. cool~ had wanton mee.. last night watched soccer with my dad for a while so i slept late. chelsea vs real betis 4-0. real betis has got good looking players!! but chelsea's black guys play better. hmm~

walked to bishan park n saw all those animals.. cool~ my dad thought i LIKE to see monkeys just because i WANT to see one. hmm... walked over to lower peirce reservoir too. took deep breaths of fresh air, but later as we went back to the food centre the polluted air came back again =( well these r some things i get to do when i'm not at work..hoho~ went back home n worked on video editing.

felt a bit upset when being scolded by parents.. i seem to have my own idea of how to do things already... n i dun understand y my mom still blames me that i cannot go phuket during the weekend!! urgh!!

anyway.. just some thoughts...

he who despises good things is a fool.

sia jai ter, jai dum khon!

i saw a truck with the company name "ho kew". imagine it's called "fa kew". heehee

:: jaew ::

i wanted to buy this dvd for v long already. went to phuket n bought it... it doesn't have english subtitles. n NOW IT'S SHOWING IN SINGAPORE!!!

go n watch M.A.I.D. v nice movie.. hehe very funny.. i dunno i wanna watch or not cuz i dun understand the thai version without english subtitles wor..

family photo at kata view point

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taken by sis

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sunset at phromthep cape

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me n sis on boat

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sis n sup

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:: catch me if you can ::

wahaha.. i'm always running around..

hmm.. my holidays is just grrreeaaat~! spent time at home with my dad.. monday went fishing at changi.. no fish n no fun. a lot of mosquito bites... oh i caught a toadfish. ahahha, interesting eh.. too bad i nv bring camera. but i used his hp to take photo. kinda psycho... played with the worms my dad bought as bait. but i got a feeling the fish in the water doesn't know how a centipede tastes like so.. they r not attracted to the bait. sigh~ ate famous nasi lemak for lunch n bak kut teh for dinner. went home to work on jieling's project.. hoho.. paul came to pass me a cd of the video clip we took at the camp comm rekke.. couldn't edit it. kept trying to convert the format.

tue lazy to wake up haa.. but still went out.. went to tekka mall for breakfast. passed by lavender at a motor shop. interesting bikes they have there. hmm.. i feel tt toa payoh is very near lavender. juz separated by balestier. ya? hmm.. went shopping at sheng siong supermarket. not very interested.. cuz i nv bring money haha. saw the potato chips i bought from thailand. hmm~ next time wanna eat dun need to specially go thailand to buy liao. went to market to buy food to cook for dinner.. my dad complained tt he doesn't cook at home because we r too picky n also lazy to wash the dishes. quite true, quite true. went back home n kept trying to convert the video to an editable format. got quite frustrated.. felt tt the shots i took weren't nice n too bad cannot go back to film again..

hmm.. kinda regret signing up for ladies retreat. everyone ask me how come i'm going.. =( n everything clashes with that weekend. i'd miss a photography competition n camp comm meeting.. =( but hopefully i'll enjoy myself n most of all be able to experience a "life-changing" encounter with God~ yup. so malaysia this week. got chance to go indonesia next week, but i think i shld stay home instead. i'm committed to camp comm ma.. hehe..

tmr is godma n serene's birthday. pray that i can finish up the video n the brochure design by tonight!

:: warning ::

WARNING! THIS IS GONNA BE A LONG ENTRY!

Sun
went to church with my parents, a little late.. hehe. it was raining. after service went to join my parents for lunch at seah im food centre. Godma n her sisters n godpa were there too.
after tt went home to do a final packing n then left house for the airport. took taxi. reached around 3.15pm.
wendy michael n shaun came to send me off.. hoho~ i was just checking in when they arrived. walked in circles around the airport with them before going into the departure gate.. haha..
quite irritated cuz there were a lot of old pple rushing into the same plane as us. quite a got a seat with quite a good view. took lots of photos of scenery outside the plane.
bought red wine - in cans! cool~
reached phuket ahead of schedule.. =) it was a smooth flight with Tiger Airways.. took the airport limo service for 300 baht. supposed to take the red and yellow meter taxi but since this price is good we took the limo taxi instead. the taxi took us thru the woods. for a moment we kinda freaked out. but i have peace, that the taxi is bringing us to the correct place. =)
met sis at the Laguna Allamanda. she noticed that i grew fatter.. =( check into the hotel... nice~! our room is in another block. like chalet kinda thing.
went for dinner at the restaurant at the lobby. had kuay tiao soup. went back to bathe then slp.

Mon
woke up for breakfast. ate a lot hoho~ scrambled eggs with ham, milk n cereal, donut, muffin, ham, sausage, etc etc..~! =)
went back to room. received a call from Holiday Club when we were just about to leave for a boat ride. took the shuttle service to another part of Laguna Phuket. took the boat ride. we registered for the 4pm slot cuz this 10am slot was fully booked. but since we were there n the pple who registered did not turn up, we took that one instead. very nice place sia!~!~ went to explore other resorts at the Laguna Phuket.
went back to room n had fruits for lunch, from my sis' bf's dad. haha.. watched National Geographic. interesting~~
went to slp until 2pm then went swimming. felt v relaxed.. haha.. today is meant to be free and easy. relax n recreational. went back to room to bathe and continue watch tv.. wahahaha..
took bus to Lotus Restaurant for dinner.. (the car top can open one!) wonderful sunset! ate a lot.. crab meat omelette.. real crab meat!! shiok~!! prawns with beef, green curry chicken, mango with sticky rice, banana split~!!! woohoo~! ordered extra rice too..
went back to room n watch tv again~!! National Geographic v interesting, got this bird which can do moonwalk like michael jackson!

Tue
indigestion. prayed that i will digest properly n thank God i managed to feel better before breakfast!
ate about the same as yesterday's breakfast. went back n watch tv. (hehehe) slept for a while then sis n her bf Sup came to pick us up in a Toyota. checked out of the hotel. Sup drove us to Patong to find hotel to check in. went to a few to check out the price. sis n sup can speak thai so they helped us to get a good price. i like this Grand Tropicana but sis says inside like very deserted n scary.. =S finally checked into Deevana Resort. smells bad!!! =S inside the room was alright. lobby, restaurant, swimming pool were alright. except outside our room!! smells terrible!!!
sis went for job interview. so i went for lunch with my parents at a restaurant not far from our hotel. good service. good food too~ went back n watched tv cuz there was almost nothing else to do.
sis came back so we all went out. went to Karon beach, where Old Phuket Hotel is.. haha sis was hiding from the pple there. she n sup booked island tour for us. went up to Kata View Point to catch the sun set. rushed to Phromthep Cape to catch another view too. went to sis' place to check it out.
had seafood dinner at Laem Hin restaurant, quite a hidden place from the tourist area. had curry crab, catfish, fried prawns, etc. very full. i couldn't finish my food man... =S
haha i guess i was troublesome ba. i wanted to shop in the supermarket. so we had to make a trip specially. went to Tesco Lotus n bought potato chips (=D the film pple r going to love me for that! jk~) bought facial foam, toothpaste, shower foam, shampoo n conditioner too.
went back room to slp. me n sis share one room.

Wed
dark clouds loomed over Phuket in the morning. had breakfast n it was pouring. after breakfast the clouds began to clear n the sun came out. praise God for the weather! it meant a great deal, cuz we're going ....ISLAND TOUR~! means we're gonna take boat out n jump from island to island.
the minibus came to fetch us from our hotel. it was 1 hr ride to the jetty. wore lifevests n went to take long-tailed boat to a ferry. went to Phang Nga bay.. where it was worst hit by tsunami. if i'm not wrong. there's this bunch of guys who served us drinks n there's this guy who looks a lot like Yongqiang haha... his name is tommy n he reminds me of my thai kelong bf. haha.. very flirty. thai, but very thick american accent when he speaks english.
noticed this cute hk guy but too bad he's got a gf/wife. wahaha~ when we reached phang nga bay we took canoes out. (two passengers with a crew rowing each canoe) explored a bat's cave. heard them screeching. very crowded cuz there were another company with tourists too. went out of the bats cave n got hit by their shit. =S when we came out it doesn't look like shit.
saw a lot of eagles!! they were swooping down to the food some tourists threw into the water. next stop is Horng Island. similar limestone structures with caves. canoe in and out again. when we went back to the boat there were towelettes for us.
n next stop is James Bond Island. very famous. that's where one of James Bond movies was filmed. there was a sleet of stone formed naturally. wad's so special abt it is that it's very straight cut. Got pulled to look at bracelets. yes, there are shops set up there! i was like thinking, dun waste my time la, i wun buy opal bracelets that cost 300 baht lor. took a lot of photos there. went back to the boat for lunch. quite alright la.
fell asleep for a while then tommy came to make fun of me. he wanted to get my number but i decided not to give. i told him to ask my mom for permission to get my number. haha.. i was the youngest around.
Reached Lava Island. canoed with my dad. dipped into the water with my sis. went to shower with well water. had the privilege of having a guy "shower for me". haha.. he just poured a pail of well water over me that's all la.
went back to the boat for coconut.. shiok~! they asked us to sign autograph.. i praised them for their good service. they will pick up our rubbish n often ask us whether we want drinks. tommy played some games with us. interesting... at the last game i was picked to be teased. =x very interesting, he can suck up paper at the bottom of a bottle full of water. he sucked his thumb n asked me to do the same. man! i can't do that!!
tired laew. went back on land about 5pm~
took the minibus back to hotel. went swimming straight. haha.. shiok...i like the pool. 1.4m deep. sis ordered vanilla milkshake. went back to room to bathe n then went out for dinner at a roadside stall. ordered tom yum kung, fried glassnoodles (yummm~~), pig's trotter, mixed vege, ginger chicken.
bought thai silk cushion covers.. very nice!~ at a great price for that too. bought a small sling bag for my camera n money pouch. wanted to shop for slippers. but i can buy slippers at $2.90 in singapore. over there the slippers r average 199 baht. dad went back to hotel cuz he felt uncomfortable. Sup came to join us. mom went crazy n bought A LOT of local food products.. haha.. walked thru Bangla Rd. ALOT of bars n transvesites n prostitutes. my mom got "flashed".. a guy came n showed her an album of pictures of nude girls. -.-|||
Sup's uncle "performs magic". so we went to c. quite interesting, this linking rings... i dun get the trick sia! mom took Sup's motorbike back to hotel then he came back later to fetch me n sis. wow, 3 on a motorbike, without helmet~!!! shiok~! quite scary cuz i felt like i was going to fall off. held my sis' legs tightly haha..
tired. supposed to go clubbing but too tired.

Thur
can afford to wake up later today. had breakfast n then prepared to go SHOPPING~! took the tuk-tuk out to Central Phuket. sis bargained from 300 to 200 baht. split up to shop. bought Jaew DVD. went to B2S to look for my graphic magazines.. but cannot find.. =( spent a lot of time there. wanted to buy some stuff but put them back cuz i couldn't find my sis. went downstairs to Propoganda n bought some interesting stuff. joined my family for coffee at the food court. veri interesting system, have to buy "coupon" first then order food, the remainder in the coupon will be refunded. a bit troublesome lor. had crabmeat n hotdogs (like the one i ate in Surin *miss miss*)
walked to Big C supermarket for more shopping =D split up to shop again. bought a lot of CDs, books, found my graphic magazine! bought a jacket too. went downstairs n back upstairs to buy Potato CD. had a meal at MK by my mom's demand.
went outside n look at the stalls. wanted to buy a top, but i was too FAT for it.. =( sobsob..
took taxi back to hotel 300 baht but we dun care liao la, just want to go back. bathed n packed up n rest. watched Dragon (weird actor acting Bruce Lee's life story) n Armageddeon. ordered Cabonara Spag by room service. I'M NEVER GONNA EAT CABONARA ANYTHING EVER!
Sup came to pick my sis go home cuz she gotta work the next day. slp. mom slept in my room cuz she's afraid i cannot wake up the next morning. gotta catch the taxi to the airport early.

Fri
woke up 5.30am. final packup n check out of the room. had breakfast. left my battery charger in the room so i ran back to take. took photo of the waiter who looks like Ix Shen ;) the taxi came 15 min earlier than booked. but... halfway to the airport it broke down. waited 15 min for a replacement taxi. -.-|||
boarded the plane.. ordered milo.. $2 for that sia.. reached Singapore earlier than scheduled.. =) Home sweet Home~!

:: i'm really such a crybaby ::

sat helped ian move house.. hoho.. very fast cuz he packed liao, all he need is pple to help him carry boxes from bishan to bukit gombak.. then went to church to meet shirley bong n then cell grp.. after cell grp went to bugis to find my YEP friends. i realise tt i was the one who caused the whole grp to be unable to submit the journals to the "pple up there".. sigh.. felt v guilty.. i dun like vietnamese food!! not like food at all!! :@ went to national library wanted to take a look but no chance.. went to breko cafe to eat a decent meal.. saw wendy n shaun.. hoho~ chatted with the yep room 10 guys... went home by bus..

yday was alright... i reached church in time.. haha... was alright all the way until sermon.. i started to tear.. then my tears can't stop flowing... remember there was once i mentioned i feel hurt everytime i think of the past, about my relationship with my mom? yeah i thought abt it again n started to cry.. sigh~

after service celebrated birthdays with cell grp.. then went to AV for lunch.. after tt we went to Queensway.. felt gian to buy running shoes.. haha.. went to chinatown buy cds then went to lau pa sat to meet the singles' club.. haha.. walked to city hall.. bought a pair of New Balance running shoes at $110.. hmm~

my dad came to city hall to pick me up.. went to marina south for dinner with my mom there already. great dinner.. hmm.. haha..

today..

i wore my new running shoes, prepared to go for run before going for work...

then...

my dad forgot to bring helmet downstairs, so i went back home to take..

then..

i slipped n fell outside my neighbour's hse cuz she was washing the corridor. i think there was soap.

i dunno is it becuz of the soap, or is it my new shoes dun have gd friction? =(

i scratched my knee!!!!!!!! :@

was alright until i went downstairs n told my dad wad happened. then i started to tear. lousy!!!!

:: this week ::

monday went out with singles' club to orchard to shop for weiting's present.. her birthday was on monday itself, but i haven't been able to find time to get her present.. they were shocked to noe that i bought a roteiro for her last yr.. haha.. n that she bought a scorpion for me.. (i'm talking about soccer ball here) on monday itself i already know what i wan to get.. juz had to go n choose a design.. wanted to get john's birthday present as well.. but no time.. hmm~

tue after work went to look for ting cuz she was waiting for me at south canteen. gave her the present.. then wendy and michael helped me buy john's present cuz the shop closing soon.. met them at dhoby ghaut.. took very long to decide wad to eat for dinner. michael bought a army t-shirt for his hp.. haha.. we settled at Thai Express. weiting very impressive.... order double portion of noodles...!! i can't do that lor! yeah... then went home liao.. hmm~

wed delivered john's present to him.. haha.. hope he likes it.. after work went to geylang haha.. wendy n michael r there.. went to look for my grandfather's stall.. he used to sell great beef hor fun.. but there were funny things going around the family.. the workers there don't even know me. hmm~ went home to reformat my comp.. very pek cek cuz i keep kena virus n popups once i connect to the internet to activate my windows.. very irritating.. then i think around 1+? i went to slp.

thur went to meet elena linfeng jasmine chihiro thomas n samuel to watch Corpse Bride at shaw lido.. wanted to watch cuz it's animation.. haha.. very long nv watch movie also. but the storyline quite weak. if it's supposed to be funny, then i think it failed. it's not exactly scary too.. i can't stand the fact that it's not meaningful at all.. haha.. went home with chihiro... got to know her better.. hmm~

today boss brought us to bishan for lunch.. then gave us our pay.. very happy hehehehe..

:: dilemma ::

hmm.. my boss wants to employ me even after attachment. i also want to continue working, because it helps to build up my portfolio, besides, i learn new things everyday... i also can get pay..

but..

yday he called up my school the pple in-charge... they told him tt i need rest, it's not advisible to work while studying.. it's not advisible to burn up my holidays. i do feel tt i need break... in fact it's very depressing if i have no break lor..

so last night i calculated my money flow.. i can be satisfied after getting this month's pay, but if i wanna buy stuff like running shoes, etc etc it'll be good if i can work longer.. besides, after attachment my pay wun be PEANUTS anymore..

anyway now tt i've got holidays, i realise tt i cannot go abroad during my weekends. i muz be around in church becuz i'm committed to camp comm. i told my parents i got holiday n my mom suggested going phuket.. i asked if i can go alone, my dad was enthusiastic abt it, but she say better not. sigh~ if i go alone my sis can bring me go clubbing hahaha...

i realise i haven't really asked God wad i shld do abt my holidays..

:: update ::

PMS is over... yeah~!!!! =D

tues same thing at work... =x after work went to bishan to look at the FunkyB t-shirts.. but i was reluctant to buy cuz of the cost. i feel tt a t-shirt isn't worth more than $24 lor. at $24 i wld already be v reluctant to buy. the designs not bad la.. maybe i can do my own :P juz tt the printing of the t-shirts is a problem. yeah i forgot to mention i tried to buy a starhub prepaid topup card to call my sis on monday, but i went to tampines remember? by the time i reached punggol plaza the shop selling the card was closed. so i went on tues n topped-up my prepaid card. it'll expire in next yr march. those of u who wants my number pls sms my current number. no i'm not changing number, but i'm gonna have an extra card so tt i can use the free sms there to sms u all hahah.. it's good to have my extra number so tt in case u receive a msg from me by that number u will know it's me. ya then that night i talked to my sis for only 8 minutes then my card no value liao.. sigh~

wed boss joined us for lunch. so poor thing, no partner to eat lunch with him. went to church after work for worship conference prac.. v tired. nothing much leh.. wore a v big shirt cuz elena thinks i'm feminine. heh! hahahaa.. i'm ah beng ok.

thur boss brought us to a printing company to learn more abt print. i brought a notebook n pen n felt v pissed with myself for forgetting to bring IDN magazine cuz i had questions to ask abt printing abt the magazine. had lunch at bendemeer food centre hoho shiok. had mince meat noodles, chwee kuey, n soya beancurd ;D~~ hehehehe called my mom to ask her wad's gd to eat there cuz she went there b4.. then my mom called back excitedly becuz she realise that when i called her my photo appears on her phone screen. haha.. after work i grabbed some snacks off my office n took cab to church.

during the worship conference day 01, i felt tt it's a time to draw close to God for myself, (day 02 is a time to draw non-believers to God) it was great cuz as brent chambers asked us to stretch out hands out n lift our burdens to God, i was thinking abt my past hurts... after tt i set up last minute psalmist resource corner while Brent was singing "be still and know that I am God" i found it v difficult to be still when in the back of my mind i have a duty to do n i keep thinking, "is it time to go set up the table already?" then i went back with julian. i was still alive when i reached home la, can still do my daily weights, my quiet time.

on friday i was like thinking this week passes damn fast la.. but then can't wait to get off work. when i finally did i was quite worried i'll be v late cuz i don't have enuf money to catch cab so i had to find atm. i'm glad it didn't take v long for the cab to arrive la. it was like $1 cheaper than yday. haha.

worship conference day 02. i wasn't v excited. i dunno y, but i was burdened to pray against spiritual warfare. becuz the devil acts whenever we try to outreach. brent chambers was supposed to share on some topic but last minute due to Holy Spirit's prompting he shared something else. it's good to not follow a schedule. but itz difficult to communicate. i was worried tt the non-christians dun understand what he's saying becuz i myself dun understand v well... i find his accent v strong. n some parts were repeated last night. even the jokes were repeated. i find it hard to laugh. but towards the end everyone juz went crazy n began jumping around hehe.. i had tt experience during Festival of Praise, when Michael from shammah was still around.

was wondering if i shld join my cell grp for supper or not.. becuz if i join i have difficulty going home. if i dun join, i'll lose out in their conversations, their fellowship. so in the end i joined la. i'm glad jeremy persuaded me.. i wld feel v sad if no one tried to ask me along. it was a happening night la.. we were eating prata and chatting at the Perdana restaurant opp jeremy's hse.. we were chatting n laughing so loudly tt i fear gangs may juz come n hack us up becuz we seem like a gang too.. before we left, jieling n kelvin joined us. then malcolm sent amber n i to yishun.

i dropped off at khatib to meet the singles' club. there were 2 bicycles and 4 pple. hmm~ they decided to go fishing at lower seletar reservoir. it was like 3am already. haha.. i dunno how to cycle n i onli tried being a pillion rider once.. v scary haha.. so nic was my chauffeur while michael took the other bike with wendy standing behind. it was fun la.. i wld nv try this without them haha.. the place where we fish is v nice too.. but... we had no catch tt night n it got quite boring, so we went back to khatib. tried to learn to cycle but i still can't get it. went up to michael's place to take a look haha.. i v long, super long nv c them already lor.. didn't know tt michael changed his phone already, n nic joined back the singles' club officially. hmm, wendy n i pretty much the same la.. but i told them the news abt my company too. had breakfast at 848 coffeeshop then went home by bus. it was like 7am already la.. haha..

slept until 12+ then prepared word n went for cell grp. we're undergoing construction. haha.. had dinner with them at tiong bahru market. i think i v slow la, i was suddenly thinking tiong bahru market didn't seem to look like this. wad happened to the famous chwee kuey?? i dunno y i suddenly remember how it used to look. haha.. went home by train with brandon.. v tired.. hehe.. gd nite..