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Wednesday, August 31, 2005

:: wow!! ::

sooooo long no update~! hmm.. can't rem wad happened on 19th aug.. so i'll start from 20th. supposed to wake up around 9 to go bukit batok to meet john at 10.45... but i juz wan to slp until i song so late lor.. went to his hse to learn bass guitar from him. well i learnt a lot.. haha.. i nv pay lesson fees one.. hahaha.. around 2pm then class dismissed. by the time i got to bukit batok central it was v late liao.. so i decided to take cab. cuz there's a seminar on relationship n i'm singing for the worship. i wore shirt n jeans... quite formal for a saturday... =x hmm i dun realli think i learnt much becuz the things chris discussed is quite basically wad we all noe already... he shared abt his personal experience too.. after the seminar el shaddai went to the library to talk abt the topic. then we went to tiong bahru for dinner..

supposed to meet shaun wendy n ting at dhoby ghaut mrt at 8.45pm to go zouk together, cuz my kor is spinning for 1 hr at zouk!! wow!! so proud of him! but then actually i dun like zouk.. altho a lot of pple go, n itz very well known, n i actually bought the zouk book 2 yrs ago.. ya anyway i dun like cuz itz very strict, muz check IC (i mean tt's ok i guess) but THEY CONFISCATED MY WATER BOTTLE!!!! cuz they dun allow outside drinks... !@#%#$^&*!!!!! they told me to collect it b4 i leave la. but.. argh!! saw a lot of old friends haha.. my RV friends, maybe they're here to support kor also.. but then they got come b4.. hmm.. itz quite scary man, like going to a club n recognising almost 30% of the pple.. to name some, shuping, sheena, jenna, weizhen, jueru, amanda, elaine, yong teng, siong chew, rach's ex, clara.. i think i'm getting old. soon zouk will be full of pple in my generation. we're gonna rule the future!! haha felt quite bored to juz stand n listen to the songs so decided to get drinks. buy 1 get 1 free ma, so shaun bought a jug of long island tea to share with wendy while me n ting shared the other jug. got quite high.. =x my first time clubbing in 2005. haha.. after around 2am i think, we went to a coffeeshop nearby to rest. took cab with this guy i'm not realli familiar with, but i met him b4 in JI. reached home around 4+am.

actually tt weekend supposed to go tanjung balai.. but i decided to support kor at zouk instead.. hmm =x his first time ma.. then had camp comm meeting on sunday after service.. after tt went home to slp then go downtown east for dinner with my parents. ate a lot.. stomach felt v bloated.. monday borrowed bass guitar from john. supposed to go buy presents for a few pple's birthdays.. but after work went for dinner with singles club at mac then went to find lynn to make banner for campus crusade event. i dunno y i always cannot think of creative ideas for campus crusade stuff. thank God for ian who joined us n gave us the idea for making cubes (interaction design heh). well, we're from DIGITAL MEDIA DESIGN wad. so the things we're good at is designing on computer.... ask me to paint banner? cannot make it.. went home to design the cube n onli went to slp around 2-3am. a little late for work. sian took taxi. tues also take taxi. wanted to rush to junction 8 to get present cuz i monday nv buy.. but no time. rushed to tj pagar to meet jac they all. giving kelvin a birthday surprise ma.. haha.. had a great time at alan's restaurant.. altho vietnamese food is a lot of veggie, i like a few dishes. kept taking photos.. haha.. went home by mrt.

wed oh judy's birthday haha.. quite rush cuz i stay back after work again. went to heeren.. took my time cuz i scared i will bump into her b4 the time i'm supposed to come.. haha.. been planning for this birthday surprise for sometime already hahaha.. been busy getting pple to shared in her present n to sign her birthday card during my lunchtime.. so tt week quite jialat. went to action city to get a toy for her cuz she likes toys ma.. then asked carl to give her, pretending tt itz the only birthday present tt he's giving her haha.. when i arrived at marche i presented an ipod mini to her haha.. n she was v happy.. hoho.. had a great dinner.. but decided not to eat too much. wanted to go punggol beach cuz her bf driving ma.. but when we reached we decided not to go cuz there's coast guards n i dun realli noe if the beach is open or not. went home.

thur i went suntec city with my office pple to attend the Macromedia studio 8 launch. had roti prata for breakfast.. haha.. the new macromedia flash, dreamweaver flashpaper very powerful!! v excited to try it when it comes in to the office next month. i feel happy working.. =x had lunch at suntec city FOODCOURT. -.- haha a bit bad la but i expected my boss to treat lunch =x.. went to carfourre to buy groceries like biscuits for the office. then after work went to ronald's mom's wake at his place with hx. felt sad n worried for him but i didn't cry la. fri i can't rem wad i did also. onli rem after work i asked my parents to go chinatown. had dinner at mei shi street haha.. ate a lot.. teochew dumpling noodles, satay, riceballs, oyster omelette, hmm think tt's all. v full sia.

sat john not free so no bass lesson this time. stayed at home to design logo for the next Destiny workshop topic. went for cell grp n this time i cld not join them for dinner. had cup noodles. went home after worship prac to watch The Bone Collector.. a bit scary, but good movie. wanted to go church early for prayer meeting with MCG, but they dun have prayer meeting. n they're meeting at 8.15 to re-hang flags. decided to take mrt. but i was late.. around 8.10am i decided to alight from kovan mrt to take taxi. sigh~ reached at 8.30am. there was psalmist resource corner n i bought a t-shirt. hmm pink again hoho!~

stayed back for worship conference briefing. then helped pack up the resource corner n went to far east crest with kelvin n jieling to return the consignment books n stuff. had lunch at one of the shops. kelvin had to return the car so he drove us to his block. then we went to queensway cuz JL buying shoes. i also need to buy shoes, but itz not the right time yet. i dun have running shoes at the moment cuz my adidas has opened itz mouth n my nike soles dropped. =x! my sandals broke n i've been wearing the pair of diesel shoes i bought in phuket. but on sunday i bought slippers. bought a pair of nike dumbells.. haha... toned arms, here i come!~ hehehe.. took bus 61 to ben's place to play bball... was quite reluctant cuz i'm not a sports kinda person.... i onli started to like running recently. but my cell grp is realli enthu abt sports sia! hmm.. quite fun la, juz tt i felt like an idiot. lazy to run for the ball n dunno how to aim. lousy.

went home for bah kut teh, not v nice. not salty enuf hehe.. since then i dun have appetite for food. juz dun feel hungry even tho itz time for meals... maybe itz stress? maybe itz cuz i prayed for God to deprive me of food? i feel like visiting Smoky Mountain one day... fasting on my trip juz to provide food for the pple. well... will tt day come? hope so!

well lately quite stress in work. monday went home after work to slp. woke up to do work.... until 3am like tt.. practised bass.. tried to slp at 3am but onli managed to fall asleep around 5.30? sigh~ finally got to slp when itz time to wake up. !!! lousy.

tue went for dinner with singles' club, after quite a long time.. went to thomson to eat zhu chao... but not nice one.. =( saved money during lunch n ate bread n drink milo, end up spending money on this... but ok la... edible. today got dg so didn't join singles' club for dinner. heard tt they went bowling. haha i kinda dun like to spend money on this kinda activities anymore. dg until 9+pm lor. first time so late. discussed abt the bible. learnt quite a lot.. with christine leading she makes us think of questions i've nv thot b4.. if i lead we probably end up juz sharing abt our lives. not a bad thing la, but we dun learn as much.

been reading Proverbs.. haix i kinda stopped at Psalms 55. 1/3 of the whole book sia. sms-ed a verse to my sis but she nv reply leh. got receive or not?
Proverbs 3: 24-26
24 when you lie down, you will not be afraid;
when you lie down, your sleep will be sweet.
25 Have no fear of sudden disaster
or of the ruin that overtakes the wicked,
26 for the LORD will be your confidence
and will keep your foot from being snared.

i've been listening to Planet Shakers Phenomena album. the only album i did not bring to thailand n the only album i did not lose. i think someone will kill me for losing her cds. but if u wan i buy back lor.

Thursday, August 18, 2005

:: impact ::

i'm very impacted by the video screened on sunday during service... i feel v burdened for the poor in asia... i feel tt i wan to work, n give the money to organisations that can help, or go into the mission field myself.. i feel for thailand.. juz went to check out this website www.carecornerorphanage.com, checked out ywam.org.sg too... very interested in the Bible Course, but itz $3900 lor.. hmm..



anyway during campus crusade DG (discipleship group) time i didn't plan anything... juz went by faith haha.. ended up talking about marriage, relationships with my DG members.. i learn tt we shld not ask a couple when r they getting married or things like tt.. it might push things with a timing tt God had not intended. itz not good la.. in the same way it is not good to put thots into pple like "when r u getting attached" or try to matchmake them lor.. i also learn tt if u have certain expectations of ur other half, u ought to make sure tt u have those qualities too! like tt then can complement each other ma.. itz not fair to expect something out of someone else when u urself dun have. for example, qualities like patience, good temper etc.. i think itz also time for me to draw up a list of expectations, that i wan to work towards, n also tt i wan to find in my other half hoho~ another thing i learn is, according to my DG members who read this book "When boy meets girl", the person who may be able to help u grow spiritually may not necessarily end up be the one to be in a relationship with u. tt means the process of drawing each other closer to God shld not stop even if the couple breaks up.

feel tt my body is very tensed up.. the only time i relax my body is when i slp... cuz other than that i'm still trying to culture my body to the correct posture n i tend to tense up my muscles the whole day.. i still can't stand properly, i can't sit properly, i tend to pout in order to close my mouth -.-" or frown cuz my fringe is covering my eyes. zzzz...

other than tt... abt work.. hmm i v long nv update the IAP portal thing.. kinda heck care liao.. cuz at work my boss sit behind me sure can c wad i type, so i dun like to do personal things during work. tt means i'm constantly on my toes lor.. minimal personal time. ooh i look forward to sat... but i prefer working there, cuz the software is ALWAYS the most updated ones.. like even macromedia studio softwares (Flash, if u all dunno is a macromedia product)? my bosses r upgrading to studio 8 (version 8)!! wad's more exciting, they're bringing me n all the staff to the launch of the studio 8! i think itz not free admission wor.

somemore my bosses got Marriott hotel mooncakes for us today.. got the praline with whisky thingy... wow, shiok!~ hmm.. pple will go "wad?!" if they noe tt i dun eat the inside of a mooncake. i usually peel n eat the snowskin onli. haha.. well.. chinese. haiz. chinese love unhealthy, environment-unfriendly food. the lotus paste super sweet n the double yolks.. so high in cholestrol! n shark fins during wedding dinners? haiz. terrible.

hmm.. did i mention tt i feel like learning bass guitar? i guess itz cuz of the thai rock songs i listen to recently.. =x hey i can picture myself playing bass for service lor.. now everytime i listen to songs i listen out for the bass.. now listening to Jars Of Clay Furthermore album, the live concert cd.. woo~! shiok!

oh yah last time long ago i mentioned tt i need to pray for forgiveness towards this girl i can't stand for everything tt comes out her mouth?? i realli wan to thank God tt either God changed her, or widened my narrowness in my mindset. i believe itz the former.. she's much bearable now.. =x dun attempt to guess who i'm referring to k.

Monday, August 15, 2005

:: haiz ::

today my bosses treat us to lunch at pizza hut today... ate a lot of cheese... yummy~~~ they realise i'm a big eater... hoho...

my dad suggest i go on diet.

haiz... i gained 10kg since yr 1. can u believe it?~!!?!?!

i realli need to cut down on my food...

i noe God doesn't look at my appearance, n if it's not His will for me to lose weight i shld nt pray abt it.. but.. itz on my mind la...

Sunday, August 14, 2005

:: homesweethome ::

thur i went to work early cuz it feels weird to go early on wed n back to normal again on thurs haha.. boss was quite surprised.. but i got nothing to do so juz surf net lor. he bought us a mug each, to make milo or tea during work, so i can throw my styrofoam cup away already. the other boss brought gifts from PlanetMG, a hp accessory..i dunno wad colour to take so i juz took yellow.. CiBoys~! =D

today long day at work.. cuz i cld not leave until around 6.45 i think..got one client la, wants a lot of change.. i'm a bit suspicious abt whether they use the previous designs but pretend they dun accept the design so they dun need to pay for them!~ haha juz joking..

went to buy bean bag.. hoho.. lup one big bean bag around... not me, michael n henry were the ones lup-ing it around.. n not for me, but for this birthday girl called wendy aka soot~! we took taxi to marina south for steamboat.. din feel like eating.. judy called to say she's coming..woohoo~!

walked with bryandt to find her.. hoho.. she wants to eat so i also ate...but indonesian fried rice. in the end i was so tempted by clams n other shellfish i decided to join in hoho.. unpaid tho. :P ate all the way until 11pm.. :P the rest stopped eating n went to play the table soccer i still eating with hx.. haha.. took taxi with her n wendy till marina bay mrt station.. i scared miss last train home ma..

next morning late for work.. =x 20 min like tt.. cuz i stupid la, purposely dun wan to stop at the bus stop, n went into the interchange then change bus.. haix.. anyway i'm working on a new project.. a bit tough.. something i nv done b4.. after work went to TFA for Pencil n Pixels... didn't expect to go, but since christine was still busy i went to c lor.. asked christine to join me too.. hmm.. still got past yr's work.. went for dinner with her at amk s11.. talked to her abt a lot of things.. actually i wan to encourage the christians to join campus crusade for christ.. itz like a way to serve God, not juz limiting the service to sundays onli lor.. she encouraged me to consider giving a few months to a yr after my graduation to serve God. it can be joining the web team in campus crusade, it can be going out to the mission field.. i have other options too.. like studying theology.. my reason being i wan to learn more abt the bible. but she pointed out tt i dun need to go for the course in order to study the bible deeper.. hmm~ i also consider continuing to work at my attachment company, go for a holiday, or find other job... so many options! dunno which to go, so i realli muz start praying for my destiny..

honestly i'm not interested to go for the workshop.. hmm.. maybe cuz itz the price.. =x

sat i woke up at 11am haha.. bathed then went to marine parade to cut my hair.. felt a bit toot... but then the hairstylist looks v professional n can tell from my hair that i v long nv cut, n i coloured my hair by myself. uh.. maybe anyone can tell tt la.. but i think she's nice too... she asked me for my name... n at the end of the cutting she called me by my name n said goodbye. she was recommending products as she applied them on my hair. well sis, wad u can do to sell the club membership is to start promoting once u start talking to the customers la.. rather than establish a friendship first, or else it will be difficult to promote ur stuff liao.. like, "hi are u enjoying ur time in the club so far? r u interested to consider buying a memberhip....? blah blah blah"

wanted to go simlim buy external hard disk since last sunday.. but no chance sia.. after cutting hair it was 2.20 like tt.. time to rush to cell grp in church... hmm.. after cell grp my dad sms-ed me tt he's at "clark key"... so cute.. went to find my parents at Liang Court... i always like going for meals with them cuz itz them who pay :P so i feel v free to order anything i wan.. :P with friends i have to c whether i can afford or not.. cuz if cannot then feel pai seh... tt kinda thing...

walked around clarke quay.. felt like chilling out.. but.. hmm.. bad habit. cannot adopt.

today actually can wake up early, but i went back to slp.... so i was late for service.. the sermon was good, there's this guest speaker from Church of Our Saviour.. talked abt our destiny, "don't waste ur life" ... hmm.. consistent message.. then kelvin chose a song for offertory "who am i" consistent with message shared by jac during cell grp yday.. hmm.. good~! God is good!

after church joined cell grp for lunch at AV.. then chatted until 2+.. went to sim lim sq to buy external hard disk, finally~! walked around n bought other small stuff like memory card reader etc.. went home... house empty.. my parents went to watch fireworks at marina.. sobsob..without me... but nvm la..i keep going out everyday....until i miss home. hmm so stay home lor.. my comp also seldom used cuz i at work everyday... so use this chance to use lor hahaha..

Wednesday, August 10, 2005

:: weeeee ::

sat.. v happening day.. woke up early to go Labrador Park for CROSS Training.. took bus 408 from harbourfront.. dunno where to alight.. so anyhow alight. tried to figure my way to the Pavilions by the sea. hmm.. on my way down the Aerial staircase i was changing my memory card in my camera. i already told myself to be careful, but i still DROPPED MY MEMORY CARD, not juz to the floor of the staircase, but into the tiny hole between the planks!! how nice! i couldn't do anything abt it since i was late already so i moved on.. found the Psalmists n joined in the "game" of serving breakfast.. it was my fault for being late n unable to receive instructions la.. so i was confused. then there was another "game" of building the tallest structure using twigs n wadever we can find within a boundary. i was distracted by the other grp's progress that i was careless with my own grp. paul pointed tt out n reminded us not to be distracted by other churches' ministries until we lose sight of God. then we had lunch (mac takeaway) n Case study n some sort of presentation of our opinions abt grey issues.

went for cell grp n felt anxious abt my lost memory card. i had approached a park ranger earlier n he told me to come back at 4pm, when he gets off duty n can help me find my memory card. i took bus n walked in.. it was quite a long walk so i decided to run. waited till 5 then he decided he cld leave his post for a while to help me. it was not easy man. the card is like trapped under the staircase lor, seems like no way to get it. but the ranger climbed from the bottom towards where i was n managed to get it. he asked me to write an email to explain y he left his post.. but of cuz i need (i want to, too) to commend him for his act of bravery n helpfulness too la.. jogged back to church.. v happy =D

fireworks~!! tt's my highlight of the week.. been rushing around places to watch fireworks! wanted to go for FOP on sat.. but was a bit reluctant when i thot of the queue. i tried rushing there tho, but quite pissed tt the queue was super long.. i sure cannot get in one.. so decided to give up. called my parents to ask where they r.. maybe we could have dinner together. wanted to watch fireworks so i asked them to come to esplanade. i thot i was early so i took quite some time to figure where i can take bus. finally took bus 16 from kallang indoor stadium. alighted at suntec and tried to figure my way to the esplanade. on my way i heard some thundering sound n i felt anxious... have i missed the fireworks?? where is it!! ran around trying to find out where the sound came from haha.. took photos n videos...

finally reached the esplanade but my parents haven reach yet. so i decided to queue for dinner at Thai Express. man.......it took 1 hour to reach our turn to get seats...... n 1 hour later for our food to be served! it was around 10pm already when our food started arriving -.- but food was Great!~ haha... took bus to clarke quay station then took mrt home.

next morning is sunday, got projection duty.. could have been on time, but waiting for bus n train is realli unpredictable.. =x chi shyan shared message abt Prayer.. after service i chop-chop help to pack up a bit then went to serene's hse to welcome her back from US.. so shiok sia, 3 months there... i also wan haha.. she v funny, first thing she entered her house was to explore her new house.. we were waiting quietly in her room to surprise her, but we sure waited v long haha while she "eeee!!" tt the toiletbowl so nice haha.. she was sure shocked to c us in her room! ate Golden Pillow n juz chatted.. i was wondering, i dun think my cell grp will give me such a surprise...

went off at 5.30pm to meet hx at dhoby ghaut.. wanted to buy external hard disk but i still didn't. she n ronald say itz too late by the time i reach sim lim ... =( so decided to go bugis for dinner instead. ate at Sakae Sushi.. i brought cash for the external hard disk but since i didn't buy, kinda felt like spending more money on food.. =P after tt went to walk around.. bought a coin for my dad at the singapore mint booth.. cuz the design is of Joo Chiat, the place i grew up in, the place my dad used to own a stall.. hmm.. memories...

had coffee at starbucks.. (regret) cuz i couldn't slp tt nite.. sian.. next morning, monday still had to work. been struggling at a project cuz the client was not satisfied. kept changing concept.. haix.. after work slowly took my time to go to church.. saw paul at outram mrt station.. went to church together.. i was early.. nothing to do after work ma.. my cell grp were going to holland v for dinner but i doubt i could reach there in time to join them. felt quite ignored... i used to be very bothered by tt.. but.. decided not to think abt it.

it was the All Nite Prayer.. woo.. somehow this yr i feel tt the time allocated to prayer is not enuf.. a lot of time was spent on worship.. i can't say whether itz a gd thing or bad thing.. juz tt i was expecting more prayer. thank God for those who prayed for me.. Jieling, Jac, Wee Lee, Suzanne, Shirley bong, Carol.. they all prayed for me for the same thing, abt my insecurity, for more confidence... i felt better after each prayer, but then i felt crushed again when i accidentally spilled water on the floor.. =( dunno many pple noticed or not, but i felt tt i couldn't do anything abt it.. but wait for chance to wipe it up. in my heart i was thinking, is other pple thinking how come i so clumsy one, spill water already still dun wipe up.. felt lousy all over again.. sucks... opportunities the devil use to strike.

felt v tired already, but was able to sustain thru the whole nite. woo! it's tuesday. my cell grp going to bukit timah for breakfast.. man i dun have the energy to join them... from there i realli have no transportation home.. felt quite sad.. but all i could think of is slp... dragged myself home, washed my face n slp!!! hoho.. slept until 1pm when i heard my dad come into the room.. i asked him if he saw the coin i bought for him n he said yes, n asked me how much i bought it for.. after tt i heard him leave the house.. i went back to slp until 4+pm.. bathed, then prepared to go out watch fireworks.. =)

went to marina sq to meet the singles' club.. hoho.. i almost could not get into the train sia.. a lot of pple.. found a good spot to sit down.. but around 7.56pm like tt i decided to stand up or else we could not get a good view of the fireworks.. took a lot of photos n videos =P henry joined us after tt.. n then ian. went to esplanade cuz some of them wanted to eat dinner.. i decided to order oyster omelette n egg.. =D~~~~ yummy!~ went back home the same way as sat.

this morning wednesday gotta reach work earlier cuz got deadline to meet for a project.. after tt went for DG. supposedly la, but ended up helping out for an event this friday.. went back at 8pm.. asked my dad to send me home n have dinner hoho.. i think i spent more than half an hour typing this!

Saturday, August 06, 2005

:: thinking ::

hmm.. haha today went home to take my hp after work cuz i forgot to bring... then asked my dad to give me a lift to indoor stadium for FOP.. but i saw the queue even tho it was close to 8pm already.. decided to go to eat with my dad instead. we had dinner at old airport road. ate wanton mee.. not v special leh.. hmm. standard drop liao haha..

went to orchard to meet nic, then wendy n michael joined us at taka.. looked at toys at taka square.. then went to the ngee ann city square to slack. took photos, stupid photos.. haha.. then chatted.. toked abt OD.. juz now i went to c my OD... i reminded myself of my feelings.. so easily depressed, so easily amused.. haha..

we also toked abit abt our past relationships.. come to think of it.. i onli have 1 serious one.. the other 2 were juz trying out.. stupidity. n i have been wondering also. n i came to a conclusion. if i got a chance to undo my relationships n start again, i will still choose to go after hao... he was the one who made me mature in my thinking abt relationships.. realli thank him a lot.. but nic always ask me how come i dun have bf now... n i always answer, becuz my expectations r high! realli wad. if u got read my long ago entry abt guys.. u will understand.. briefly describe tt entry: there r diff types of guys n i dun like most of them. maybe i like some for their looks. but full stop. beyond the looks, there's nothing tt makes me realli interested. i went after some guys in the past, but come to think of it, i dun think they're the best choice? i've been dreaming abt this guy, dreaming tt he's my bf.. but then.. in real life i dun realli wan to get involved. even IF he's interested i also dun wan. now's not the time for commitment. haha..

these few days when i take bus or mrt i see mothers and children.. it makes me wonder is it true that all mothers love their children.. r they realli happy, proud to see their children grow up? do they find their children cute? cuz my mom used to always tell me i'm a nuisance.. she nv tells me i'm cute. she seldom buy toys for me cuz she finds it a waste of money.. i used to feel tt she nv loved me.. but now as i grow up, we're becoming more like friends like mother-daughter.. i'm still trying to accept tt she loves me.. when i think of this i feel like crying.. i used to think tt she's juz my money-provider, report-and-consent-form-signer.. i also thot of one time during pri sch she always wake up b4 me, to wake me up for sch.. one day i actually looked at her as she wait for me to leave home for sch. she was asleep on the sofa.. she was tired.. i saw how tired she looked.. suddenly i juz felt fear... scared... i dun understand y.. but when i saw how haggard she looked i felt bad... i think tt was the time i started to treat her better.

abt my dad.. i feel tt my way of spending time with him is having dinner and getting rides on his motorbike. i dunno whether he feels tt itz considered spending time together like tt.. we dun have heart to heart talks. the most i ask is abt road directions.. haha.. he's realli expert on the roads man.. the AYE PIE CTE n the streets r like his friends man. he's better than a taxi driver! haha.. he told me some places he worked b4.. he used to be a lift engineer, a cook in the army.. he used to be my mom's neighbour.. cool man, tt means his whole family knew her whole family lor..

my sis smsed me tt she missed me. (she was drunk) haha.. i showed the msg to esther n she thinks my sis muz be drunk too.. haha.. i kinda envy her cuz she's living on her own in phuket now.. i guess my parents have been teaching us to be independent.. i feel excited when i imagine myself living on my own, independently.. but it wun happen.....yet la. i want to get married at the age of 24, but.. better dun think abt it then rush into marriage la.

hmm.. wad else.. hmm.. abt work.. felt happy today cuz 1. i went for work early. 2. my boss quite ok with my design. 3. i finished 2 projects today.. n count total the projects i did during IAP is 8! hoho.. 4. i learn new things everyday.

Wednesday, August 03, 2005

:: woohoo ::

long time no update.. well i muz mention SonicFest!~ it was a big event where the christian youths of whole of singapore gather and worship! it was realli ministering... i muz admit tt i treated the event as a concert, but when i reached there, i felt realli touched and i imagined it was the day of the Pentacost! haha

there were Planet Shakers and Sonic Flood... hmm.. i dun like the local band music... i juz dun like rock (thai rock is different!) but i felt touched by the first band tt performed on the first day.. uh.. i arrived late so maybe it wasn't the first band. the lead singer opened the time with a prayer, which i felt is realli important and sets the whole event right.. n i felt Planet Shakers n Sonic Flood r realli ministering thru the music. as i mentioned to my cell grp, my honest impression of the young christian nowadays is that they just go to church for fun.. but i could c that as they worship, i can sense God's presence n peace... it was, "wow"..

after the first nite, thur, shirley jieling kelvin dongwen nelson n i went to kopitiam for supper. then took NEL home. during lunch on friday i called my mom n asked her how is her working condition like.. tt evening i went to meet peiyun kwek bec n benson at west mall to celebrate kwek's bday.. then i rushed to Fort Canning for the SonicFest. missed Planet Shakers.. after tt went for supper at the same place, this time more Elohim pple joined us. i felt stupid to order dessert lor.. end up the last to finish my food n everyone had to leave to catch trains.. thank God i managed to catch a train home from Dhoby Ghaut.. but on the train i took out my hp n found a missed call n a msg. argh.. the singles' club going to Marina South to hang out n they asked me but i nv c the msg until i boarded the train lor.. but i was thinking, i already thanked God tt i can catch a train home, so y shld i change my mind abt going home? so i decided to take a good rest for the nite.

decided not to go for the third day of the SonicFest. i onli regret missing the arts section of the event. watched movie at home with my mom.. then went out for lunch.. walked around Punggol Plaza.. then went for cell grp. malcolm shared abt 'prejudice', from the 40Day fast booklet. after tt had worship prac... i was in charge of PRC for the week. n also.... OFFERTORY!! kept praying tt i wun be so nervous, that i wun keep thinking tt attention is on me, tt itz ok if i made mistake.. after prac we went for supper at The Prata Cafe somewhere near old SMU.. jon yap was sharing the story of how he met Joanne peh one day.. n Chris kept "paper-cutting" him.. haha.. found it v funny listening to them tho.. haha..

sunday... offertory!! hmm.. my mindset was actually to get it over n done with... v nervous becuz i felt tt i will make mistake.. n i realli did.. i forgot a line.. n i kept referrng to the lyrics becuz my mind became a blank.. suddenly i forgot to think abt pitch, beat, breath, posture etc... but i believe the song is offered to God that's all tt matters.. i was juz a bit too bothered by how pple will think. after tt i helped out at the PRC.. n we had worship prac for prayer nite. elaine wanted to come my house n i thot i could make it.. the prac lasted till 5pm.. so i rushed home.. my parents cooked bah kut teh for dinner :D~~~ hoho..

haha feels good to have 2 comps.. feels good to have a scanner.. to have internet access.. praise God for all these luxury.. elaine stayed until 11+pm..

monday i couldn't wake up on time for work.. felt bad.. beng yeow kinda warned me over msn. rough day at work... after work went to sports stadium for a jog with the singles' club.. (gee that's juz a collective noun for that bunch of frenz i hang out with) hehe.. did 6 rounds, slower than last week, even slower than my NAPFA. sigh~ then played badminton at the corridor cuz the court was closed for exams. played until we were chased away by the guards. went for a bath then had dinner at Newton. got my pay check so i gave them a treat.. woohoo i felt happy to be able to eat at newton circus cuz the last time i ate there was like last yr after clubbing with wanling n edwin at chinablack.

went to Newton mrt station n sat there for like abt an hour.. went home quite late.. bathed then slp. tue i couldn't wake up in time for work again.. argh.. called beng yeow. took taxi to sch.. again. sigh~ i hate wasting tt kinda money.. beng yeow asked me for a coffee break n talked abt work. abt punctuality.. gosh i'm not late v often during attachment ma.. then he talked abt after attachment, the possibility of getting fully employed by Coded Pixels. it was a great offer, but i felt v stressed also.. he means i m supposed to cope with work n sch at the same time! like tt cannot enjoy liao lor.. now i already felt tt i dun have enuf time for myself... but.. sigh.. after work i had to rush off but couldn't cuz i cannot "leave on the dot" argh. went to withdraw money to take taxi to church.. sigh~ for prayer meeting... hmm.. i admit tt i onli attend prayer meetings when i'm scheduled to sing or do projection, but i muz say tt everytime i go i have been ministered to. took clifton's car home.. went to slp immediately after bath n quiet time.

today was better.. i reached work on time.. yay! my boss commented tt my designs r alright.. (a good sign already) but beng yeow pointed out some problems. i realise tt his point of view is more accurate.. after work went to blk M to find hx they all.. celebrating yina's bday.. had dinner at KFC.. then went home around 9+pm.. hope tonite can slp early.. so i have finished blogging. tt's how much u've missed! =x haha jk jk