:: Youth Camp + Hong Kong 2006 ::

15 dec fri
had dim sum for lunch. =)

Youth camp! brought my stuff to work so i could go to the campsite straight. last min on the bus to sentosa, before it drove off i remembered that i forgot to buy dinner, since i already told my camp grp leaders that i don't need dinner. when i reached the campsite, pearlwyn was just driving in, so i got a lift from her. the session has started already n i just found myself a space at the back. so coincidentally that my grp is just there. there were Jason n Arena, from children's camp also in my grp. kinda the first time i felt like a big sister in youth camp (sobz)... roy was also in my grp. the funny thing is, we're going hk together, but i still didn't get his number (even during the camp >.<)

played night game... i got quite sian after interviewing a few pple to find clues..

my bed was on the upper deck. first time i had to sleep on the upper deck cuz i came late. usually i would snatch the lower deck cuz i feel very heavy, no strength to push myself up n climb trees. =(

16 dec
had quiet time with my camp grp. a good time near the beach. really felt that i'm a big sister to the kids in my grp!! but i forgot abt my projection duty following that. oopssss.....

played beach games.. got myself dirty, but it's ok, i've grown up.. haha.. i used to be really reserved, prim n proper (uh.. i think) don't like to make a fool of myself. but now, mature a bit, don't need to care so much abt face. =)

got night session duty too. it's really a time of liberation and celebration. =) had a great time losing my voice.

17 dec
slept longer =) managed to join the prayer session for a minute. >.< had camp grp time at one of the rooms. played Charades, El Shaddai version. =) really feel that my grp leaders did a great job in leading.

played Amazing Race. i have no idea how the game is played man. seems like Treasure Hunt to me. played in the rain. thank God i wore the right slippers man. all my other slippers are slippery one lor. had great fun malu-ing ourselves. =)

finale night was fun too... laughed my head off. did a mass dance. haha.. great job, camp comm! =)

18 dec
went off to work in the morning. tired, but can tahan la. had roti prata n teh tarik. just nice i had only $1.90, and the meal cost $1.90. praise God!

after work wanted to go home slp, but i saw a cute kitty at the Police Cantonment building!! awww... such a scaredy cat.

22 dec
got my pay n bonus (*smilez*) went to the bank after lunch to bank in the money. called mom to find out where she is, i would probably go find her. cuz my boss told us if we don't have anything already we can go back =) but i got my cell grp Christmas party at Alan's place, which is near my workplace, so i dunno wad to do.

went to bugis to find my mom, shop around a bit. then took bus to Alan's place. he was not in. think he only lent us the place. haha.. malcolm n some of the guys helped out with the food. the girls did the decor. =) then alan n zane came back with Servio, so we played with him. he's so smart! smiling more often and is able to use sign language to say "Please" and "thank you"!

then we played animal game, drinking goggles, and whose line is it anyway. LOL. one of the games i went blur, so i got a forfeit.... to eat a cup of raw veggies... it was really very tough for such a picky girl. so tough until i teared. ermm... there were onions la. i dunno. i closed my eyes n stuffed the veggies inside n chewed for half an hour before i swallowed it. YUCKS. so pai seh..

after that brandon gave some of us a lift back. then i packed my luggage for the trip the next day !!!

23 dec
woke up to continue packing. went to Punggol plaza to get a fresh towel and contact lenses. found out that my degree went down, but myopia got worse. :S actually i waited quite long for the shop to open. by the time i got back home i had to quickly leave. went to the airport with my mom.

my dad came after work, we had lunch at the Al-dunno wad Mediterranean cuisine. not bad la. i had seafood pizza. went down to the staff canteen for soya beancurd dessert then Andrielle and Roy arrived. we checked in our luggage, had my parents pray for us, then we went down to the canteen again, cuz they haven't eaten.

just nice first day of our trip was also the first day of our period. but think it's going to be okay. boarded the plane... so excited!! =)

was quite late by the time we reached HK. hungry too. so we got mcChicken meal n took the bus to our hostel. it's easy to get around, just ask for directions. in English, Mandarin, Canto also can. =) it took us quite a while to check in, cuz we were shifted to another building. quite weird la. but that's the way budget hostels work i guess. wanted to go out to explore, but it was too late to take a tram. so we just walked around our area - Fortress Hill. 2 MTR stops from Causeway Bay. had supper.

relooked into our itinerary, did our quiet time, n went to sleep at 2am.

24 dec
woke up rather early. took the MTR out to Jordan stop for dim sum breakfast, then attended church service at St Andrew's Church. it was rather traditional looking. there was a church organ too, playing to Hillsongs. LOL. walked down Nathan Rd to look for Esprit outlet, but couldn't find it. so we took the MTR up to Mong Kok. shopped around the Ladies' Market. bought some stuff, not much sia. jialat i keep looking at guys' clothes.. if i got bf i wld buy for him, but since i dun have, i wanna buy for myself. u know, adopt a hip hop look. =P

found a Baleno outlet, so we went in. as you know, they r the same family as Samuel & Kevin and I.P. Zone, so there is more variety. the surprising thing is the place is very small, but we didn't wait very long for the fitting rooms. after a while there were only 3 of us. then we found Esprit outlet, in Mong Kok! (not Tsim Sha Tsui everyone!) regrettably i only bought 3 tops. haha..

very tired already. esp my legs, when i'm having heavy flow. =S wanted to go back to TST. when we were wondering which mode of transport to take, we saw a bus with a sign that says Star Ferry. thank God! boarded that bus. took the Star Ferry back to Central pier. while waiting for a bus to get to the Peak Tram terminus, roy bought a nice ice cream - Mister Softee.. =) got to the Peak Tram lower terminus n got a shock. so many pple think like me.. they want to go up to the Peak for a nice view n countdown to Christmas.. =( good thing is we wanted to go to the Madame Tussauds wax museum as well, so we bought the combo tickets n got priority to queue for the tram. =)

couldn't get seats to Cafe Deco, so we settled for less for dinner. it was quite bad. =( at least service was bad. after dinner we went into Madame Tussauds museum. took LOTSA funny photos with the wax figures. LOL.

decided that we don't have a good spot to celebrate countdown, so we decided to go down to Santa Town. quite a bad idea. was pissed off by a couple while boarding the Peak Tram down. the man used his body to push me n the woman pushed me away from the seat cuz she wanted to reserve the seat for the man. yucks! n poor andrielle didn't manage to get seats for us so we were split up.

tried to find our way to Santa Town. i was awfully tired. just wanted to sit down wherever i can. finally at 10+pm we decided to take the tram back to our hostel. also because i felt like i've stained my pants and it just felt like something was running down my legs. terrible feeling. had a bath n went downstairs for supper. then we realised that we missed the Christmas fireworks at TST. awwww!!!

every night slept at 2am cuz there was much to plan n replan. n i had to look into my finances, make sure i didn't overspend.

25 dec mon
quite a relax day, according to itinerary. went to take a tram down Shaukeiwan. thought we could take a loop. there was a minibus-park. took one to CWB. didn't know how to alight so we wanted to observe other passengers and see how they alight. just wanted to find SOGO, Times Square and G.O.D. bought wife's biscuits, quite cheap, but they don't come in individual packaging. =( also tried some exotic stuff like roadside calamari. there was the stinking beancurd but i don't dare to try. haha.

after G.O.D. we took a minibus to stanley. andrielle likes to ask policemen for directions ; ) the one we asked actually pointed us to a shortcut thru a back alley. not bad. Stanley is amazing, doesn't look like Hong Kong. not at all like the city. it's a very.. alfresco place. lovely. had a coffee at Pacific Coffee, for 2 hrs. just slack thru la. after that we took a minibus to Ocean Park (overshot, so we had to walk in) wah i tell u uh, minibuses r expensive as compared to other modes of transport man, don't count the taxi la, which we never took at all. i think we tried ALL modes of transport there already. hehe. at Ocean Park we didn't go in. just wanted to go toilet n take a photo at the entrance, as planned (*grinz*) then we took a bus to Aberdeen Promenade, to take a shuttle ferry to the Jumbo floating restaurant.

actually i didn't plan to go inside Jumbo for dinner.. was just thinking of somewhere near where we have a good view of it. but i think we can afford it la. =P just don't order too much lor. heard that there's a food court there anyway. but in the end we had dinner on the top deck. think it's much cheaper compared to the chinese seafood 10-course dinner downstairs. had pizza n South African wine... i think it's much nicer than the one i had with my cell grp. think Andr enjoyed the dinner. =)

took the shuttle ferry back to Aberdeen n took a bus. wanted to go visit the Central Mid-levels escalators, but seems hard to find the place sia. it turned out to be just a long stretch of escalators. Goes up to SoHo. wanted to chill out at Lan Kwai Fong, but we didn't find the place. was quite tired anyway. so decided to go back. on the way to the tramstop we spotted a HK cafe, so decided to try our luck, see if we can get to eat roasted goose n pigeon there or not. in the end ordered a Po Lo Pau n Yit Lai Cha. took the tram back.

26 dec
last day!! went downstairs for wanton mee.. ordered a roasted goose leg.. wah so fattening n tastes like duck la. LOL. went back for final packing n check out of our room, deposited my luggage ( i changed with andrielle) at the main building of our hostel. wanted to go toilet but very hard to find one. by the time we found one my face turned green already. sent them off at TST KCR station. they were heading for shenzhen to go china. closed in prayer n we parted. awww.... i walked around TST, Avenue of Stars.. then Jac contacted me. going to meet them in the area. went to Tom Lee music store cuz i wanted to see if i could get any accessories for my bass guitar. bought a guide book n a tuner. i'd probably get the tuner HKD 8 cheaper if i approached the right guy. but.. nvm la.

met up with Jac n Jeff.. explored TST further... never walked into the small lanes before. had lunch at a cafe. i think i didn't eat lunch at all for the past few days, so i couldn't finish this meal. didn't expect to shop, but managed to get some clothes. i should have more interest in clothes, but not that day. it was a bad day for me. my legs were super tired. kept wanting to rest. finally at 4.30pm i decided to go back to the hostel to get my luggage. time was just nice. didn't wait long for the bus to the airport. but after i changed luggage with Andr, it was a little too heavy for me to lift up to the bus. i was very sleepy n tired physically.

got to the airport. supposed to check in 2 hrs earlier, but i was 15 min late. there was a long queue anyway. too sian to walk around, so i went into the gates early. ha on the plane... i was too short to put my hand luggage up the overhead compartment, n there were pple waiting behind me. got quite frustrated by my helplessness. then i realise i forgot to switch off my handphone. n wanted to take out my money to buy airfood. but i was too pai seh to ask for my luggage. somehow i was suddenly filled with loneliness and helplessness i started to cry. my first time taking a plane alone. n i remember that i asked God to keep me alive till i got the chance to go HK. now that i've completed my journey, i was wondering if i was gonna die there n then. felt the seat was very cramped (on Jetstar) n i was thirsty n feeling hard to breathe. i asked whether plain water is chargable. man, it's $2 for a bottled mineral water. next time pls rem to buy water before u board a budget plane!!! really felt like i was gonna die. esp halfway in the air i felt very cold even though i had my new jacket on (if u've seen it u'd think it's thick enough)

Praise God i made it back alive!! bought Chivas for ting.. as promised. =) wanted to get another bottle for myself but i think the limit is one litre of liquor per passenger. saw dong wen outside the DFS. waited for my luggage to come round the conveyor belt, but didn't see it. then i saw something on the floor that looks like Andr's luggage. instantly i was mad. which crazy fella took the luggage out that i almost could have waited till daylight!

went home with my parents. whoa the taxi queue was crazy man.

27 dec
Apparently there was an earthquake while i was just up in the air. Praise God it didn't affect my flight. not sure how Andr n roy r doing over in china. didn't get a reply from them (till i was at work) they called. dunno y i just felt v happy to receive their call.

played with kitty on the way home. it's very hard to get her to come near me. i managed to touch her a little bit before she ran into a hole.

:: dec ::

ok let me start with... 29th nov wed! haha.. faith, ruifen n i planned a surprise for rj cuz his birthday was long over but he was having exams so couldn't celebrate for him till then. i didn't contribute much la, just helped to drag time while faith n rf decorate his room. he was at home so i had to ask him to come all the way to outram to meet me until the girls were ready. i was trying super hard not to am chio the whole time n pretending that faith is going to come so we just need to wait. aiya cut the long story short, he said that he totally had no clue that it was a sham. have to say there were moments i dunno what to say to bluff him.. but i'm glad it pulled off!

1st dec fri - super happening. =P after work i went to find sou mun, who sounded like she got conned to work at a pub. when i got there.. wah seh, the place super high class la. need to make reservation then can get a seat one lor. and the decor... wow. makes me feel like it's not singapore. it's along holland rd, u know, where the expats stay. since she seem to be working in a good place i felt relieved la, n i left. went to holland v to meet my cell grp. i was early, so i decided to take a walk first. then i met elohim. went to IndoChine siem reap with them n shared a Magarita with landy. after that went to Wala's to queue. almost couldn't catch the happy hour offer. cut the long story short again, that night i drank a little too much. got high halfway n didn't know what i was doing already. i rem going to the washroom 3 times n saw a lady inside, semi-conscious, only my third time inside that someone tried to help her. the floor was filled with puke. gross. met ros.. she had a friend who seem depressed, but i think i got over-high la. i rem giving my number to her.. falling down n a few silly things. thanks bran for sending me home. i rem throwing up the moment i reached home. was too seh to do QT. really bad decision to overdrink.

sat - woke up feeling super distracted. what the heck have i done last night? still haven't finished throwing up. supposed to lead worship for cell grp, so i used the morning to prepare. wanted to watch the drama serial my mom helped me record but decided that wasn't impt. felt rather bad cuz i kept trying to recall what silly things i did last night. also felt guilty for not controlling my drinks. went for worship prac n after that had dinner at hongkong street. been wanting to go there but haven't had the chance. so happy. was thinking of watching the drama when i reach home, but decided that can wait la. must sleep early.

sun - woke up late. haiz. must be fri night play till too late n still having the after effects on sun. feel bad lor. after service faith still wanna go out. wanted to go home n slp after lunch at serangoon garden market, but i thought no one accompany her, so i went lor. rj was also there. chey. haha. went to orchard wisma. H2O+ in Isetan. she bought some stuff. i was still not convinced to use such high class products, but got some samples. then i a bit soft-hearted. even tried to influence my colleague that the money really goes into the quality. =P sia lah. then went to lucky plaza cuz she wanted to sell her old phone. we went around asking for quote. the lowest must be $75 if i'm not wrong. she managed to sell her motorola phone for $150. wee~ went to taka n had pretzels. then went home to slp. after i woke up i had dinner with my parents at punggol plaza n sold some cds n gave my printer away at Cash converters. they tested my printer n declared that it doesn't work. pissed. but i just wanted to get rid of it la. was expecting a $20, in the end, $0. only sold 2 cds for $2. cheap thrill. paid the bills. =( last month (nov) my internet usage exceeded though i was seldom at home. so my mom "subsidised" $50 for my internet bills.

mon - went to people's park to shop, but ended up buying toiletries only. there was a pair of jeans that i like, but $35, n comes from HK. might as well go there n buy. but the shopkeeper said i might not find it there, cuz some of their stuff r for export only. i didn't buy in the end.

tue - went to church, not for prayer meeting, but for Psalmist quarterly discipleship training. what i learnt from it? Purpose n Passion. i think i have forgotten abt them after some time of serving, so it was a good reminder la. i have focused on many other things n have forgotten these basic reasons for serving.

wed - wanted to go out, but i kept telling myself, "haven't i been complaining that i didn't get enough rest? go home la!" it's like that la. when i'm tired i wished i have more time. when i'm not tired i make myself tired. such a endless meaningless cycle. n dunno y i feel that i didn't really control my finances this month. :S

thur - met up with andrielle n roy, my hk trip mates. had dim sum with them at outram park. yeah i like to ask pple to come find me, cuz it's a really nice place to explore la. anyway i realise i have been too busy that i didn't check n update the itinerary. 12 more days!!! after dim sum we went to mei shi jie at smith street for satay n ahballing. talk crap with them. i know i will enjoy the fellowship with them in hk. =)

fri - supposed to meet my cell grp at 7pm at Ivin's, but i didn't have enough money, so i walked all the way to pearl centre to withdraw money then walk back to the 174 bus stop. missed a bus n in the end reached at 8 lor.. :S dinner was great. Servio is a happier boy. =P met some children's camp kids.. i shared the same room as her but i forgot her name! Nikki i think. very pretty girl. after that went to Dempsey's. it's so near the beautiful place i newly found. waited till 10pm then there were seats in the Wine Network. finally got it off my chest abt last fri. they all teased me abt ros lor. haha.. but it's ok la.. had fun. =P i realise i dun really like wine. was finding it hard to drink it. but beer was easy leh, like soft drink. so the guys teased me, told me not to taa the wine like beer, need to control. LOL. ok la, i was also conscious that i shldn't get myself so high again. really enjoy the fellowship with my cell grp. =) after wine we went for supper at river valley road. we saw the traffic police in action n alan quickly went to park his car properly. had roti prata, teh n bbq stingray. yummy~ hang out till 2am i think.

sat - played a new game at cell grp. we didn't expect the game to drag so long so we only played one round. really fun man. it's like guessing the number, but instead of number, it's a specific thing. my grp managed to guess Armageddon after 8 yes/no questions from the category non-animated movie. n the other grp didn't manage to guess our Rowen Atkinson/Mr Bean from the category actor! =P it was fun. after cell went for worship prac. this time it took quite long because it's a Youth band!! haha (like it hadn't been a youth band) but it was the E-band! Elohim-El Shaddai-Epainos band. =P finished prac close to 10pm. woah. had dinner/supper at indian temple coffeeshop.

sun - haha service was funny la. couple of jokes. had prac for youth camp after service.. wanted to ask my parents to go out n eat chili crab, but my dad said we shldn't spend so much already. dunno y man, dec i really spend n spend without control sia.

in closing, yay. 13 more days!

:: Children's Camp 2006 ::

lemme start with sun, 19th nov, my sis came back for a short break. i was asleep when she reached home. next morning i had to wake up early for church so i missed her too. we shifted location for service, so i was quite worried she could not find her way. i forgot to bring my hps also. haiyo. after service rushed off for a quick lunch with my family n rushed back to DCB for children's camp meeting. my mom was quite pissed with me for that.

there were foreign speakers (dunno y i didn't c them at the camp at all) and Auntie Daphne shared abt passing the gospel down the generation. she mentioned that word so many times i couldn't count. after that had a quick briefing of what was to take place when the camp starts. then i went home.

mon
chihiro came to my hse to send her resume n to chat on msn n go on friendster. haiz. thought she would zi dong when i'm abt to sleep, but nv leh. i wonder if she earns her income by.... (shhh...)

tue
after work went to changi airport to send my sis off. i reach first, then waited for my mom, then waited for my dad n sis to come from home. i knew they were going to be late. (zai zai la) had dinner at the Soup Restaurant.

it was a rushed dinner. didn't digest the food and we have to run for the shuttle bus to get to the budget terminal.

thur
Children's camp! brought a big bag to work. after work went to HBF to take bus to sentosa. =) applied for Islander card. wanted to renew, but i didn't realise that their idea of renewal is continue from when my card expired. so rugi! so it's a new application. $19.50 leh. haiz. have to go in 7 times to make the card worth. =P

was quite blur on the first day, panic cuz i lost my way n it was dark n there was construction going around the campsite. dangerous leh. any worker can jump out on me n drag me into the contruction site n *eeeek!!* =S went up to my room to put down my stuff, then had my da-bao-ed dinner. went up for session. i didn't get to know my group yet. wah i didn't expect to learn something new. Nicodemus was mentioned 3 times in John n the speaker drew a link to his progress. the message is: Therefore, if anyone is in Christ, he is a new creation; the old has gone, the new has come!

Supper time. my group dispersed. =( they washed up n went to bed. camp parents got debriefing. slept around 12am. didn't really sleep well, i rem waking up at 3+am cuz i heard sounds. the kids sleeptalk man.

fri
woke up around 7am.. went to work at 7.30am.. still very early. good. =) went to harbourfront to eat roti prata n teh tarik =P took my time to go to office.

after work same thing, went to sentosa. but this time a bit faster cuz i didn't have to apply for the sentosa card. the kids r very friendly.. they would come n talk to me when they see me eating alone. so nice of them!

had night walk after praise n worship n dance prac. wah i was wearing killer heels man. killed my feet. but i had to bear with it lor, i nv bring other shoes.

sat
yay dun need to go to work. joined the kids in morning PT. i met a few girls who remind me of myself when i were their age. =X

oh forgot to mention, my group is Transformers! it was the first thing that came to my mind when uncle John asked the camp parents to come up with a name for our groups. my group name had to start with T.

we had Quiet Time together. went through a chapter from the book of Esther. so cute, there was a question in the activity book that ask for Queen Esther's age. we couldn't find the answer.

then we had afternoon session (Naaman who had leprosy) n lunch. took a short nap during rest time. made kites for art & crafts but the weather didn't permit us to go fly kite.

then we gathered in groups to discuss the skit for the night. i went off around 5.30pm to go church to help set up for PRC n for MCG meeting for plans for Tanjung Balai 2007. wah i think i went back at the right time. after setting up the booth for PRC we went in for prayer n prep, Dallas shared abt remembering our calling, even though we dun seem to be doing anything related to our calling right now, but don't be discouraged. felt like the message is for me.

went to DCB to meet hannah n persis. outside the DCB there was a cat who affectionately rubbed against me.. i felt so happy.. until persis told me that the cat is just due for the mating season. if not for the season she wouldn't be so affectionate to me. =(

went to mac to meet Gail n to start our discussion. manage to come up with a plan. tired. sigh. went back to camp. i was just in time to catch the performances! my grp did well! Calvin was very funny when acting God the judge. "i'm sorry.... no wait why should i be sorry?" "a few years ago u sang in the church choir.. i can't remember when.. no wait, of cuz i can remember." hahahaha. then another grp acted well too! esp Joshua.. he's wonderful, man! in the end his grp won, but my grp came in 2nd! =)

Been reading a book i bought from Doulos. it's very good. =) stayed up to write finale notes to my kids n chat with baoying n kelvin n nic. i guess "last nights" of camps help to build friendships. =) slept at 4am. woke up at 7+am. late for breakfast. =X packed up n took grp photos n went back to church for service. performed the dance at the end of the service. i thought we would perform early then i can sneak back to youth service for a while. then there was reception after service. =) n prize presentation. TRANSFORMERS WON!!!!!!!~!!!! seriously i nv had the experience of my group winning. i was overjoyed. =D took a last grp photo, without me inside, but it's ok. i'm the photographer. =)

:: sinful ::

was watching A1头条.. got Edison Chen!! hmm... but when i saw him i had sinful thoughts.. =x

:: early Christmas present ::

went to "buy" a Christmas present for myself.

my MILK Angel Doll.. get one at Wisma Atria Concierge (Level 1) today at a pledge of min. $30! More info here. Quick get one! only 300 available! Full proceeds go to the MILK (Mainly I Love Kids) Fund for the programmes that support disadvantaged children. The 12 Special Angel Dolls costs at least $400, up to $900+.

How do I know abt this? I'm not a shopaholic as most of u know, but I'm a designer... *winks*

Haven't given her a name.

:: spiritual attack ::

i'm down with cold, just seen a doc today, for my insect bites too.. Persis n Suzanne also caught the bites..

been feeling really down for the past 2 weeks.. i really shouldn't let the devil put me down n making me feel so terrible. been feeling breathless due to stress at work.. it only happens once in a while.. sometimes i dun even much work to do.

i ought to rejoice n praise God n let Him make miracles happen, but i guess i was too stressed over the tj balai trip, depended too much on human strength n wisdom to get things done. they usually dun happen the way i wanted, n so frustrations kick in.

think i struggle too hard. very little faith.

actually i am very blessed during the trip, but i let my mood get the better of me that i overlooked the blessings.. so i hope it won't happen again.

:: jai yen yen part 2 ::

actually today wanted to complain more.. cuz yesterday had a bad day at work. but some things happened that cheered me up, so i shall describe the happy things.

i also cheered up when i met m'kk to plan the coming tj balai trip.

was craving for dairy food while at work. then when i met my mom for dinner she suggested getting bubble tea. She seldom buys that lor! i ordered strawberry pudding milk bubble tea with pearl. =)

decided to go to the basement of Punggol Plaza to see what happened to the shop space since the budget shop moved up to replace Hang Ten (i was wondering how long Hang Ten can last here *evil grinz*) And GUESS WAD! to my pleasant surprise (i wasn't just pleasantly surprised la, i was jumping for joy) Cash Converter!! Thank God i dun need to travel all the way to Tampines to sell my printer! it's not open yet though. hope my mom can be 'auntie' enough to find out when it opens.

thank God also for helping me shit. me no-butt!

:: jai yen yen ::

i am having PMS. need to jai yen yen.

quite pissed these few days.

quite a large part is my fault.

i was supposed to email the ferry services company to reserve 10 seats, but i was unable to confirm because i didn't ask for the number of pple confirm going.
because of that some pple didn't know that i was asking for passport details. n so when he found out that his passport expired it was rather last min already. i dunno when it can get done.

my fault for not reminding her to send email to my other email address that i can access at work. from after prayer meeting till i got home i was super anxious la.

got her email. i finally just emailed Penguin. without his passport expiry date. praying hard.

really angry with myself for not doing this job well. if we can't all get on the same ferry i'm going to scream at myself.

i'm sorry but i just habitually think of the worst case scenario - so little faith!

:: new camera ::

wed bought a new Canon camera! it's the first Canon product i've ever owned! *looks around, confirms what is typed* it was a swift purchase, cuz last week i went to Funan to rekke already n found a shop that i wan to buy from. managed to get the complimentary gifts from the shop itself so that i dun need to go down to Canon to redeem them. they include 4 GP-2100 batteries + charger and a 1.0GB SD card! (if not 1.0 SD card it would be 512mb sd card + Canon camera case. i'd rather go for the bigger capacity card.)

thur brought my cam to work n took photos around my office area during lunch. fun =D

fri my dad came to pearl centre to pick me up. had dinner with my parents at Citylink mall The Asian Kitchen. ooh the Mushroom minced chicken noodles VERY NICE!!! the xiao long bao is ok la, but ex leh. walked to Marina Sq. my mom subscribes to Simply Her, so she got some redemption thing at the Women's Fair there. she got a perfume from the lucky dip n a spa voucher.

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Sat 28 oct was shaun's bday celebration. so ulu lor the place. fairy point bungalow. went with judy. we met at tampines to buy his present. remus drove us there, n picked us from there. shaun brought his dog along lor, so cute. anyway i didn't go home straight though my hse quite near changi. cuz that judy la, haha.. rushing to get home to pass something to someone.. so we went to bukit panjang first then to punggol. i fell asleep (i think) in remus' van. i lay down at the back together with lotsa boxes and hazardous bulky items. haha.. reached home at 2+am.
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:: loneleeee - the reason ::

haha forgot to mention y i'm loneleeee... actually sunday my parents went to genting WITHOUT ME!!!!! n can't rem which day, i came home n found a pair of movie tickets on my table.. was my mom trying to remind me that they went to watch a movie WITHOUT ME??!! suddenly feel so extra at home.

but actually i'm ok alone at home la. suddenly v obsessed with washing toilet. went to buy toilet cleaners. Duck ah, Kiwi ah.. etc.

then last night i imagined my 21st bday celebration. at Brewerkz, n my BEST BDAY PRESENT... (drumroll) 2 kittens n a mother cat!! weeee~! actually i can't wait to move out so that i can keep cats. i was so touched that i cried very hard. n i also imagined i was so touched that i hugged my dream guy. *winks*

:: loneleeee ::

fri

went to kallang/boon keng area to meet a client. i love to work in warehouses. =P makes me feel like a man. (oops!) took bus 61 back to office.

after work walked to city hall. walked on thur too. (i didn't mention that?) was looking for a new Canon digital camera. got confused by 2 clashing persuasions by 4 shopkeepers. so fri i went to Peninsula Plaza, supposedly got a few electronics shops, but i didn't get what i wanted.

decided to go Funan cuz i thought there's a pretzel stall. met jeremy there. then kelvin arrived. so we went down to the food court for dinner. ordered a large plate of beehoon + fried chicken for $2.50. ;)

amos arrived then we walked to the pub behind The Substation. i've seen that place before, but didn't know that's Timbre's. jeff was there already. watched ACDC while we ordered Erdinger promotion set for the Oktoberfest. Then yap, diana n jac arrived. around 10.15pm the band came up n started to play. yawns.. bedtime. haha..

reached home around 12+am.. n my mom was still awake.

sat
had breakfast with my mom. spent time packing my room. shiok. tired by the time i went for cell grp.

weelee shared abt breakups. my cell grp has been having discussion on BGR, in case i haven't mentioned before. n 'breakups' is a topic considered a taboo to me. i don't like to talk abt it, or ask pple abt it. it's an awkward topic. but it was great hearing weelee share. she also gave this so-called personality test, to help us identify our relational style. I'm a Pleaser. after thinking abt it, i realise it's true. i'm the kind who would show love to pple "my way". guess it means that i show love in a way that is "sacrificial".. i mean i would have the mindset that "i dun mind doing all these for u, it doesn't matter though it hurts me" n "you might not realise it, but i'm suffering alone n it's okay" n i'm the type who won't confront pple when things go wrong - generally. i probably only confront pple i dunno haha.. like in my sec sch days i would be like a da jie to my friends. "if anyone bully u, tell me, i go confront that person."

we also talked abt "moving on". how long would be a good cool off period before getting into a relationship again? preferably one yr. i dun support my friends going into a relationship too soon after a previous one. (u noe who u r.) n how do u know that u have totally "healed" from a broken relationship n r ready for a next one? when u can see ur ex n be able to exchange a casual conversation. if u r not able to do this, that means there's unforgiveness. this is not some supernatural cheem word, this is not "ha-leh-lu-ya", my dear girl. unforgiveness is a sickness that makes fear stay inside u. for example ur ex is a very helpful guy, but because of his helpfulness he got to know this girl n he broke up with u to get with this girl. out of unforgiveness u tend to have a dislike for helpful guys for the fear that ur next bf will leave u the same way. hmm.. is this example clear enough?

hmm hao if u're reading this, i hope that u will move on. it does make me feel slightly uncomfortable (putting it in a nice way) whenever u talk abt our past n what u remember abt me. actually i tend to laugh it off or ignore it but this can't go on la. it's good that we can still hang out like normal friends but it's not healthy to keep trying to remember the past. u're now the only guy who treats me so well n i'm starting to feel not used to it. i don't mean that we r not going to talk anymore but that show me u can move on k? dun live in the past anymore..

that time i said that i could "get over a heart break".. think that was last month.. recently my emotions r coming back. it sucks. i was supposed to be liberated from my emotions, but now i feel suffocated by them. causes me to do stupid things. help!

:: Ladies Retreat part II ::

PROCRASTINATE NO MORE!

finish blogging or it'll be clogging!

ok back to Ladies Retreat night 1. that night dunno y, wondering is it the hotel shower foam and the lotion i used, i had internal rashes the next morning. didn't really sleep well cuz i was scratching my palms n feeling itchy. woke up at 7am automatically as though i was waking up for work. went down for dim sum breakfast! woohoo! unforgettably great!

The session after that was very interesting, first time hearing from this speaker. Ang Mo who lived in China, spent her childhood making jiao zi (dumplings). so cool! her message was overtimed, but it's okay, i love to hear missionary stories.

We had this 'sit in silence' session. i have to admit that i nodded off during the silence. =x then auntie Adeline shared abt her Orang Asli mission trip. it was cool. there's this guy who used to be a bomoh, but after he saw how God works, he converted, and although he didn't learn how to pray for healing for other people, he tried and God really healed!

during free time i went out to Jonker Walk with my aunt and jieling's mom n another auntie. bought a small sling bag n pineapple tarts n blah blah blah (food).. haha. walked back to the hotel with some other aunties who also went to Jonker Walk. one of them bought mini stools (still heavy) and we helped to carry one each. wah by the time we got back i was super tired.

oh yah forgot to mention that yday (as in, the day before) while i went out with Auntie Maria i drank a roadside medical hall chrysanthemum tea (or something like that). after that i felt like throwing up. find that my stomach got upset with me quite often on this trip.

dinner was at the restaurant at the ground floor. it was marvelous, but too many things to try out. i couldn't eat so much.. aww.. but there was ice cream! hehe.. ate a lot of fruits this trip.

had another session.. this time i felt ready to ask for prayer. suddenly i thought of tanjung balai, n i began to xi li hua la. had 4 specific people to pray for. sigh. felt v heartbroken when i think of them.

after the session i felt like chionging to the room for a shower. had the urge to submerge my whole self in the tub (like water baptism). there was a problem doing that la. shan't say y. =P

still having this internal rashes. on my palms and seems to spread wherever i scratch. it's not external, so it's not dirty. Auntie Maria, the camp nurse, diagnosed it as dry skin, like Ae...zi...mer. She gave me antiseptic cream to apply, but like no use leh.

Next morning had continental breakfast. a bit lousy - their egg corner dun have cheese and ham one. i asked for scrambled eggs, the chef told me he doesn't have milk! managed to find some ham from the buffet section to add in.

we had a thanksgiving session before the last message and lunch after we check out of our rooms. then my camera batt died on me. so i started to use Fay's camera. during lunch the committee did a penguin dance for us. cute. then they played some games. called out the eldest lady n the youngest - which is, me. had to answer "what have i learnt these few days from interacting with the ladies".. tried to put it tactfully. haa.

haiya then something unfortunate happened la. on the bus Fay passed me her SD card so i could upload the retreat last day's photos into my comp. when we stopped over at Yongpeng i forgot that i didn't keep it well, i must have dropped it there. only realised it when the bus reached singapore! so careless of me.

the following week i got a SD card back for her n one extra for myself.

n thank God my rashes were gone after a few days! might be something happening in the spiritual realm, cuz the rashes n the stomach upset all that made me feel very self conscious, as in, i focus a lot on myself because of physical problems.

tue there was a thanksgiving session for the retreat. went with my mom.

wanted to take passport photo to renew my sentosa card, so i decided to go NYP to meet ting n take photo on wed (18 oct). then thru sms she told me that she's not having dinner with me, instantly i flared up. jumped to conclusion that she's going to pang seh me again. smsed her something that i had thought thru, but didn't realise that she thought it was something hurtful. her reply made me cry la. then i replied something in anger, but she thought i felt sorry abt it. (haha it's ok to say it since it's past) in any case, thank God that she did, because it cooled me down a lot. really felt that this "conversation" was in God's hands. we could have exchanged hurtful words n then probably end our 7-yr friendship there, but that would be so immature. anyway, in the end i went to AMK to meet her. bought a dress there at $12 (i wore on sunday) so glad! she bought a pair of pointy heels.

fri after work went to Holland V for Serene's bday celebration at Spizza. we have to "dress up" like Serene n give a reason how we dress like her. i wore my sis' dress that i think Serene would wear. =P ate alot sia. haha.. tried a variety of pizzas. shiok. then we played Charades after cutting cake. it has since become our cell grp game. took cab home with Aijia.

sat went to bishan to meet the SD card seller i found on ebay. then took bus to church for cell grp. had a hearty session when jeffrey led word. it was hilarious. ok la, but after all the message sure got through.

had worship prac.. a lot of waiting here n there. but prac ended early. we went to Lai Wah. =P

shared with esther that i've been feeling troubled by 4 friends, that from my conversations with them over the week i felt v burdened.

had a guest speaker for service n he shared a simple yet effective message on putting ur foot forward, dun hold back. certainly touches us youths (or is it because he's an ang moh speaker?? :Þ)

went for lunch with my cell grp at Marina Sq. took a photo at the instant photo machine. i zoomed in too much! didn't realise it would crop off so much. dunno whether the photo can be used since my head was cropped off quite a bit. my face super big la. :S

went to Cathay cineplex to meet sweeyi they all. pissed cuz we were asked to be on time, yet...!!! the longer i waited the more i fumed. haha i thought sweeyi really felt bad so she decided to treat me (actually is she wanted to return me money for the last movie we watched) =P then that hx ah.. hmm.. find that she advances v fast. now got new hairstyle wor. makes me wanna find a sugar daddy. =P

skip skip skip to tues. went to harbourfront to meet ting, wanted to go sentosa, but the queue for the bus was so overwhelming. eeeuuu. somemore cannot walk in. haiz. went inside Vivocity cuz ting still haven't gone to the roof top. i suggested we suntan up there, but weird la. there's this "shore"-like feature n we waded in it. forgot to bring my charged camera batt! argh!

in the end we decided to take bus to ECP (we didn't). we took bus 65 cuz we waited super long for bus 30 n dun wan to wait anymore. ended up in Tampines. had a long great conversation with her. lots of catching up to do. i always tell my friends that ting is someone even though we dun say anything, we will burst out in laughter abt the same matter. someone u r comfortable with even in the silence.

chilled out at Cottage Pies Cafe. really great place. beg me to bring u there!

dinner with MCG at Kenny Rogers'. it was exciting. really can feel that we are Finally doing something! =P

wed
went to Forum for lunch with clients. =) it was an all girls meeting cum lunch. genki sushi.. woo! the chawanmushi is really...... drool-invoking. real crab meat inside! had ice cream for dessert. this whole week haven't eat fruit yet.

had sectional training after work. have i been worshipping HK? i admit that i was quite obsessed with HK when i was younger. had wanted to go there since sec sch time. waited 7 yrs for this trip man. dug out my research on HK n i really have lots of magazine cuttings from everywhere man.

oh man! i type this entry for like 2 hours???!

go sleep la!

:: Ladies Retreat part I ::

hmm.. ok actually i think my motive for the trip was quite wrong. I LOVE MALACCA. i was just thrilled to know that this yr's Ladies' Retreat is at Malacca. tried to find a roommate, but couldn't find, until last minute Fay says her friend not joining. yay.. finally i can go! took leave, paid for it and settled! at first i thought without roommate cannot go. funny. then i felt that if they anyhow put me with any of the ladies i would feel weird. then i thought of Family Camp i think 2 yrs ago. i was arranged to room with Anna, Amos' sister. but i brought along my darling bolster, n i felt pai seh to take out my bolster in front of her, so i went to my parents' room to bunk instead. to think of it now, i feel v bad! think i caused her to feel left out.. at that time i still thought i had done a good thing by letting her have the whole room to herself.

ok back to the retreat, the start wasn't so well.. on the bus Fay was leading worship, but the ladies behind me were chatting abt their own stuff.. quite loudly. wanted to sleep on the bus, but had to do something for the chairlady.. so i didn't get to sleep. only managed to, when fay n i decided not to do the work anymore. when we reached the hotel, we played some icebreakers in a function room. then we checked into our rooms. it was not bad. i like the toiletries. =P we had 2 hrs of rest time, i felt that i need to explore the place instead of sleeping. so i went out with Auntie Maria. went to a nearby shop n i bought ALOT OF THINGS!! wahhaa.. melaka food products. =P spent nearly RM100. explored the shophouses around the area.. then went back to hotel for dinner.

had a session with our special guest speaker. she preached about having individuality, in the sense of uniqueness. Our theme is You are Uniquely Precious! don't let the devil deceive u to think that u r lousy or wad. God is bigger than the devil! we lean on God! later there was a prayer session, but i didn't go up to be prayed for. hmm better dun say y.

oops okok chihiro coming to my place soon. update abt the 2nd day another time!

:: wahhahaa ::

last mon: met up with ting, wanted to watch movie (i won tickets to GV Vivocity thru SBS Transit promotion) but didn't have any good movie. wanted to watch Miami Vice, but ting watched it already. went to take a walk at the rooftop garden while waiting for her to arrive. took photos of the scenery. =P the rooftop garden is indeed a very couple-ish place to go. i imagined seeing *someone* n *someone* there. =x

wah we walked over an hour, trying to find a place to eat dinner. we ended up in Seah Im!!! lolx.

tue: decided to take the evening after work to rest.

wed: went to meet hao after work to watch movie and sell him my 8310. was caught up in work so i was panicking about the movie. thank God it starts at 7.30pm, not 7. caught the movie The Banquet. overall i think it's a good movie, except for the gory scenes. it's a bit too artistic for me to understand.

thur: my parents came to my workplace to find me for lunch. my dad took an off day. gave them the GV Vivocity movie passes. it didn't occur to me initially to give the tickets to them. i wanted to use it for myself. selfish me.

after work went to meet uncle Colin to talk abt the insurance thing again. this time i got a bit clearer idea of wad plan i want. just still trying to decide if i can pay it off. i was very stoned after that. so i decided to take train home.

fri: took leave off for Ladies' Retreat! at Malacca, Renaissance Hotel. oh dear it's so late now i better update another time.

:: (long) highlights ::

wahaha more than a week never blog...

just wanna highlight my week(s):
- had sushi dinner at hougang on wed 27 sept. ate so full that i had indigestion n woke up late the next day for work.
- fri had sectional training in church. Akouo was also there. "see you tomorrow!"
- went to Tanjung balai again on sat 30 sept - sun 1 oct, with Akouo.
- tue made an effort to wake up early and reach office early, but boss was late instead. wahaha. yes of cuz i go early is to improve his impression of me. he doesn't say anything as long as i stay the extra 10-15 min (or how long i was late for) and able to complete my work by deadlines.
- the indian shop near my workplace has been closed for super long.. dunno is it for ramadhan or wad. i crave for roti prata!!
- bought a new top on my way to church - i was planning to walk to clarke quay to take train cuz i got time, but i stopped at a shop in Pearl Centre to look at clothes, i only had time to walk till chinatown mrt station. i realise i will buy clothes before prayer meeting one lor. (once last month, dunno next month will or not)
- went for prayer meeting. felt v encouraged that the focus was on missions. Anita Benson had a vision while praying, of wine being poured into new wineskin. John Suan reminded us that we need to be challenged to take on something better, rather than stick to the good old ways.
- thur went to tampines to find my parents. had dinner at Ding Tai Fung.. yay!! but ate until v full, which is not a good thing. bought Marriott mooncakes from the promotion stall. So glad that i asked my mom to come!! she got M1 phone so we got 20% discount! bought the mooncakes that i desired for a few weeks.
- fri haha quite happening. went to cck to meet rj and faith. bought ramly burger from the pasar malam!! bought also quite a few other food.. =P went up to his place to eat and watch korean drama Full House, 2 episodes. i seriously dread watching korean dramas becuz they r so draggy. have to admit that i was criticising the show quite a lot. they still have a lot to learn from Japanese and Hongkong dramas in filming. wanted to carry lanterns and play with sparklers that rj "hunted" for. but the haze outside was so terrible we don't want to pollute the air anymore. boo to those who still did! faith mentioned that jayne says we shouldn't celebrate the festival, but my main focus is the food. i wanted to share the Marriott mooncakes i bought. we had a time of sharing n praise and worship n prayer, like cell grp. after that tried to solve rj's modem prob, but couldn't.
- 1am went to faith's house to stay over. had a shower then we chatted till 3am.
- next day woke up, not by my alarm clock, but by her dog. it was about the time i wanted to wake up la. made breakfast (coffeeshop kind of breakfast set - save money) then went to meet Jac at outram park mrt station. took the EW line ma. the seats very small sia. ya la i'm getting fatter. then the DOM beside me relax his arms, dunno purposely or not. i squeezed until v uncomfortable. ALL DOM GO TO HELL!
- met jac and showed her my sudoku problem. headache man, friday's Today paper's sudoku super hard! went to my place, she was v impressed with the LRT.
- showed her how to use Flash. she needs to use it for a school proj. then she left at around 12.30pm. i showered and cooked noodles before heading for cell grp. wanted to take a nap but no time la. channel 8 got a nice drama on sats, but couldn't stay to watch.
- ahaha this highlight is getting longer! had combined cell grp with Elohim. Feetwashers supposed to join us but most of them didn't come. Landy n Nat planned a couple of games. first one was rated 4½ stars, but some of us felt that it shld be 1 star. =P 2nd one was hilarious. the purpose is to laugh at each other. 3rd one was witty. we had to think of ways to use the materials given, to protect an egg while we drop it from the 3rd floor. very funny when all of us gathered to drop the eggs.
- elizabeth shared word on the human eye. interesting..
- went for worship prac. we all complained abt the haze. sat was the worst.
- after prac some of us went for dinner at Lai Wah restaurant. =P dinner was good. ate until quite full. (oh no!)
- still troubled over my sudoku prob, but decided i shouldn't spend too much time on it.
- next day sun supposed to wake up at 6.30am, but something must have happened. i woke up at 8am, startled, and looked at my alarm clock, it's off!! my phone's alarm seem to have gone off too, but i didn't hear anything at all. i only woke up cuz i heard my sms tone. Gail smsed me. i had to miss the 8am prayer. argh!!
- thank God that my dad was still around and about to leave for work. he drove me to church so i was only 10 min late. chi shyan had reminded us not to rush, but to have peace on our way to church, but cannot la.
- actually while singing i felt quite lousy. felt that i couldn't sing. i either sing loud and zau sia, or soft and safe. disgusting.
- had lunch with cell grp at Ikea. ahaha my fav place. had ice cream after that - wah still giving in to temptations!
- went to queensway to walk around with cell grp. some of the guys bought something. only the girls were emptyhanded.
- went home to take a nap. woke up when jeremy called. was v touched when he offered to give me to lift to sengkang. he finally got his licence back. went for alvin's grandfather's wake. the relatives served us food and we couldn't refuse, so we ate. jeremy joked abt his family. jeffrey shared abt his hell week, the SP/SIM guys talked abt the food in their canteen and the wakes of their friends.
- yay i'm done!

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Do not miss any line from this...

Sometimes we get what we need and not what we want...

Once there were 3 trees on a hill in the woods.

They were discussing their hopes and dreams when the 1st tree said, "Someday, I hope to be a treasure chest. I could be filled with gold, silver and precious gems and be decorated with intricate carvings. Everyone would see my beauty."

The 2nd tree said, "Someday, I will be a mighty ship. I will take kings and queens across the waters and sail to the corners of other world. Everyone will feel safe in me because of the strength of my hull."

Finally, the 3rd tree said, "I want to grow up to be the tallest and straightest tree in the forest. People will see me on top of the hill and look up to my branches, and think of the heavens and God and how close to them I am reaching. I will be the greatest tree of all time, and people will always remember me."

After a few years of praying that their dreams would come true, a group of woodsmen came upon the trees.

One came to the 1st tree and said, "This looks like a strong tree, I think I should be able to sell the wood to a carpenter," and he began cutting it down. The tree was happy, because he knew that the carpenter would make him into a treasure chest.
At the 2nd tree, one of the other woodsman said, "This looks like a strong tree. I should be able to sell it to the shipyard." The 2nd tree was happy, because he knew he was on his way to becoming a mighty ship.

When the woodsmen came upon the 3rd tree, the tree was frightened, because it knew that, if it is cut down, its dream would not come true. One of the woodsmen said, "I don't need anything special from my tree, so I'll take this one," and he cut it down.

When the 1st tree arrived at the carpenter's, he was made into a feed box for animals, placed in a barn and filled with hay. This was not at all what he had prayed for.

The 2nd tree was cut and made into a small fishing boat. His dreams of being a mighty ship and carrying kings had come to an end.

The 3rd tree was cut into large pieces and left alone in the dark.

The years went by, and the trees forgot about their dreams. Then one filtered day, a man and woman came to the barn. She gave birth, and they placed the baby in the hay in the feed box that was made from the first tree. The man wished that he could have made a crib for the baby, but this manger would have to do. The tree could feel the importance of this event and knew that it had held the greatest treasure of all time.

Years later, a group of men got in the fishing boat made from the second tree. One of them was tired and went to sleep. While they were out on the water, a great storm arose, and the tree didn't think it was strong enough to keep the men safe. The men woke the sleeping man, and he stood and said "Peace," and the storm stopped. At this time, the tree knew that it had carried the KING of Kings in its boat.

Finally, someone came and got the third tree. It was carried through the streets , and the crowd mocked the man who was carrying it. Finally, the man was nailed to the tree and raised in the air to die at the top of a hill. When Sunday came, the tree came to realize that it was strong enough to stand at the top of the hill and be as close to GOD as possible, because JESUS had been crucified on it.

The moral of this story is that, when things don't seem to be going your way, always know that GOD has a plan for you. If you place your trust in HIM, HE will give you great gifts.

Each of the trees got what they wanted, just not in the way they had imagined.

We don't always know what God's plans are for us. We just know that His ways are not our ways, but His ways are always best.


GOD BLESS YOU as you seek HIS WILL!

:: heartbroken vs hard-hearted vs liberated ::

i was very heartbroken yesterday.

went to meet up with uncle colin, who works at AIA. usually when insurance agents call i say i'm not free, but since he is from my church i decided to meet him. haha biased. he explained abt the policies, n i'm quite interested, but this kinda thing is usually long term like 8 - 20+++ yrs. i'm not sure if i can commit.

that led me to thinking, will i be working still?

God is giving me a choice. it's an either/or. very clearly. i want to make the right choice.

Jesus said, "My food, is to do the will of Him who sent me and to finish His work."

yesterday heartbroken n grieved n cry until si li hua la. i grieved, not because i'm not willing to take the cup. but because i'm human after all. but today i feel that i've moved on. my colleague says that it's a blessing to be able to move on so quickly. but feels like i'm coldhearted. n then again, i do agree that it's a blessing, to be liberated from emotions.


hmm.. today is ting's birthday. i'm honestly quite upset that she didn't plan to celebrate it with me.

:: the weekend flew past ::

bwaahhhhhh so fast!! weekends are going to be over in 3 hours!!

fri
finally, the SBS Transit launched the SeasonPass website officially! http://www.sbstransit.com.sg/SeasonPass/index.asp - designed and programmed by my colleague. saw her get stressed over this project n it's finally over!! i feel quite bad cuz it's not something i can help in, like i mentioned before.

our boss went out and when it was time to knock off he was still not back yet. we felt very bad for leaving his dog alone in the office, but bo bian, we had to go. our hearts ached when she whined! =(

decided to do something different. took bus 147 to punggol park to change bus home. turns out the journey duration is about the same, probably 15 min longer but 42¢ cheaper! gee, if i take bus instead of mrt home everyday, i would save.... around $10 a month!

went to buy groceries for my guests. did my QT before they arrived. there's this verse in a psalm that goes "Come, let us sing for joy to the Lord..." but i can't rem how it goes! i found the song in the chordbook, but stared at it for very long n couldn't figure out! then also some time this week i suddenly thought of the song Lead Me On, n thought jokingly to myself the 2nd meaning to that phrase. =P u could see me grinning when we sang the song today.

finally rj n faith arrived... at 11pm. let them take their pick what movie to watch. i was kinda expecting them to stay n watch A FEW movies. =P waited for joshua to arrive. they called him cinderella cuz he made it to my place just before midnight. i recommended Love Undercover, my all-time favourite movie. =P indeed they had a good laugh over the crappy movie. it's action as well as romance, a good mix. cuz rj wanted action movie, n faith wanted romance movie! after that joshua couldn't make it liao, super tired, so he wanted to go home. so they left at 2.30am.

next morning woke up, had breakfast.. dunno what i did, cooked noodles, watched tv, went for cell grp. today first time none of my cell grp members had to go off early for worshp prac! woohoo~! Jac shared a message on Where are you? unfortunately i had nothing to share then. probably will think of something to share.

went for dinner with cell at lavender food centre. long queue for the wanton mee wor. sigh. when will the queue ever shorten? john sim (uncle john) was with us, told the rest abt how i was like in feetwashers.. oh man.. haha. i'm glad my cell grp guys r nicer now. =P on the way back, in malcolm's car, i said something that made him n john sim go "and they say guys dun understand girls. it's actually the other way round!" n i take back my words. =P

sun
went for breakfast with gail n baoying.. discussed the mission trip plans for sunday sch. then went for service. pastor preached on proskuneo. and he mentioned the word prostrate, i sorta linked 2 words together. "prostitute" and "castrate" - shucks that explains what kinda mind i have. :S sorry for dirtying the worshipful word.

after service went for meditative service prac, had chicken rice for lunch. actually i'm trying to abstain from chicken as much as i could. for the past week there were alot of times i wanted to order chicken in my meals, but tried to make a conscious effort to avoid chicken. not because i'm scared of getting disease. but because from my last trip to tj balai i realise that singapore chicken is not as healthy as the chicken there. i eat too much chicken, must reduce my dependence on it. it's kinda also a way i discipline myself la.

there's this song that we r doing..... wah i felt so breathless singing it.. must train. suddenly i realise i haven't been singing properly for a very long time.

went to joshua's hse to plan with his cell grp for the coming tj balai trip. felt so bad for coming at the wrong time. they were singing songs of worship (careful with the usage of words) when i arrived. i didn't know, so i pressed the doorbell n made Jojo bark. learnt gail's dance. =P sang hokkien songs to teach them.. then we left at 7pm.

:: IKEA ::

received my confirmation! finally felt like i got a status!

yesterday after work i WALKED to IKEA!! woohoo~! took about 1 hour. I love Singapore! my destinations are just straight ahead. walked thru bukit merah, henderson... felt v happy n saw interesting things. bird footprints on a cemented pavement. hey tell me where else u can find it la. saw a few kittens playing with their mom. tried to go near to take photos but the kitten ran to hide inside the drain n the mother snarled at me!! really! unfriendly leh.

talking abt her lor.

The lights came on when i happened to look at the blocks

Model of new IKEA

Fondue at Hagen Daz

Hello Panda "pocky" sticks from indonesia!!

Non-air-con bus! Such a rare sight!

well yea. i get so excited over things like this. but i dun care for things like singapore idol. u probably get a little more idea abt what kinda person i am. me too. this walk to IKEA is kinda like my second application of what i learnt from the book that esther lent me (part 1 was my walk to Dhoby Ghaut on kelvin's bday).

ok back to the journey. i wasn't very sure of my directions initially. i just get more n more sure as i walked along. passed a few temples (thai, taoist etc).. suddenly felt like praying for the residents in the area.

when i reached IKEA, my impulse to shop came on! bought a few stuff.. =P a pair of Roman blinds (hehe i can tell which is Roman, which is Venetian!), 3 magnetic tin containers, n a roll of nice wrapping paper. wanted to buy lotsa other stuff, but i realise i can't carry them home. there's this wooden box i wanted to get, but Popeye couldn't even lift it up! =S

felt hungry all the way while shopping.. so after i was done i finally got myself a hotdog. THE IKEA HOTDOG. used to savour it with shuying whenever we go ikea. =)

went home to hang my roman blinds. felt that i finally could sleep better.

next day. nothing to do at work except design a few christmas e-cards. so sian.

wanted to go watch movie with ting today one. but haiya. disappointed. i know she is too, but felt so arghhhh... so i went home after work. can get some rest lor.

:: untitled ::

fri night i was reading Psalms 88. vs 10 reminded me of the song Glory to the Ancient of Days n so i began to sang it, n imagined that we would be singing it for service. n so i imagined myself sharing with Psalmist abt it.

sat was good.. spent some time by myself, feeling like i've got a lot of time on my hands.. very happy. went for cell grp but couldn't join them longer.. then worship prac... n i really got a surprise when i saw one song in the listed. Glory to the Ancient of Days. the chance was probably low because there are new songs we would sing more often now.

had dinner with paul n malcolm.. i ate it so late that i had indigestion. so that night i couldn't sleep till 5.30am. thought abt a lot of things.. abt relationships, friendships, etc.. felt really burdened n as i thought abt those things i said a quick prayer for each.

i didn't sleep also partly because i was worried that i couldn't wake up on sun morning. scared i oversleep. haha ended up in the other extreme. had to wake up at 6.30am cuz i was meeting MCG for breakfast. i was wondering if they would be on time. people nowadays hardly on time. i say that for myself. it becomes a cycle because u r guessing ur friend will be late so u also arrive late. =P by the time i had to leave mac to go to SAJC there was only hannah. haha..

this guy who was present at the prayer meeting last time (think i mentioned before) came to preach. message of love. i was really very stoned because of the fact that i slept only an hour, but i struggled to keep awake. he shared a lot of songs, all played in minor chords. LOL. he seems to like sad songs.

after service went for lunch with my cell grp at maxwell. had prawn noodles n egg beancurd (again?!!) haha.. they all wanted to order the famous porridge, but by the time they got to their turn to order the person told them it's sold out. so wasted! they ate chicken rice instead.

went to people's park to meet faith n ashley n linfeng. walked around. hmm.. i wasn't really in the mood to shop, but still tried on a few clothes. decided to go clarke quay cuz i was tired n just wanted to sit down somewhere. waited for alvin to arrive. then we went to hagen daz. first time there! woohoo~ tried the fondue. had serious talk with faith. =P all the way till i meet my parents in chinatown. at first i didn't know they were coming, then when i called n heard that they are, i was like, "woohoo!" so convenient for me.. or else i wouldn't have joined them for dinner.

went to Tak Po for dim sum.. ate until v full.. haha.. then walked around people's park (again) this time my mom wants to buy toiletries. so shun bian buy a lot of toothpaste (4 tubes!!) hee.. 用不完.. went home n continued a conversation with faith. it's really a long time since i talked on the phone. over the years i've lost the patience to talk on the phone.. which is very sad.

mon my dad drove me to kovan. it was his off day. but it was quite a bad idea to start my train journey from there. i was squished. left my waterbottle in the motorbox. i could only drink water boiled in the office. the last time i drank water from there i got sick. thank God this time i'm fine. went to an interesting shop near my office. my colleague bought a basket bag. i didn't see anything i like leh.

glad to have many small things to do. dun like big projects.

after work went to PS to meet elaine n joshua. was quite worried when elaine didn't pick up my call or reply me sia! then when i reached PS already she called to say she was at a presentation.. n she thought our dinner is off because we didn't let her know earlier.. so wasted.. then i went to yamaha to find joshua. decided to have dinner at Manhattan fish market. ate there before, during a "class" reunion organised by my kor robbin. similar to fish & co, but think this is nicer. i was very sure 2 of us couldn't finish the seafood platter for two, so we didn't order that. i ordered fried calamari n rice. couldn't even finish that! joshua ordered alaskan pollock n chips, the fried layer of the fish tastes better than the meat itself sia.

was so HAPPY TO SEE DAISO!! they actually opened a branch in PS wor. apparently it's been a LOOOONG time since i've been there. sigh. haven't met up with the singles' club for a long time. n that nic never reply my sms on friday la. haiyo. (paiseh, david organised a dinner on sat but no one replied him) thought i would end up buying things, but didn't leh. dunno y. went to Times bookshop as well, it moved a unit. n Daiso occupied its previous area. interested in a magazine, but didn't buy. also interested in children's books (for their illustrations) n interior design course book. wahhhh there's so much i wan to own.

walked over to Cathay.. wanted to watch movie trailers. i'm beginning to like the place more n more. maybe some time i'll go there just to watch trailers. made me wanna watch a lot of movies!! like The Banquet (starring Daniel Wu!), Miami Vice, The Guardian, Gigolo Wannabe, World Trade Centre.......!!! wah so excited now.

saw aijia there.. wah it's her birthday! so honoured that i got to c her on her birthday haha.. she took leave from work wor.. shiok.

walked back to PS. took train home. thinking abt a lot of things on my way home. recently been thinking too much. even had a nightmare last night. :S

this morning felt super weird. 7+am felt n looked like 8+am. was wondering if there was anything wrong with my clocks. if u guys dunno wad i'm talking about, u probably dun observe nature enough. shame on u! (LOL)

had also little things to do n one medium project. saw my colleague very stressed out over her project. n kept hearing her sigh when things go wrong. but that one i dunno how to help her cuz it's programming stuff. supposed to be the day my probation ends, but it's not what i expected. thought it would be something like a birthday surprise, "here's ur confirmation letter!", but no leh. my boss replied "i think so" when i asked him, "am i confirmed today?" dots!!

after work i had wanted to go IKEA but i forgot abt it n walked towards the mrt! tmr, tmr. want to try walking to harbourfront cuz i nv walked that direction before. one of these days~~~

when i reached punggol it was not even 7.30pm n the sun had already set. something funny with the sky today!

feel quite sad today, no reason. my parents dunno went where, i had to eat roti alone at home. so sad. haha.

:: another week ::

hmm actually a bit lazy to update.

tue mrpaulchow became my client. it really livens things up to have clients like him. went to meet another client at the same place i went last thur. hmm.. during the meeting i kept staring at one of my clients la.. i admit that he's handsome......... =P

walked to clarke quay after work to meet lin feng.. then walked to river valley rd for dinner. remembered the good old days of chionging.. well, not really good la. but i dunno y, i appreciate the experience that i had. went to liang court.. i've always wanted to take time to go the supermarket there to check out the japanese packaging. was very intrigued by the intricate packaging for PRAWNS!!!!! man, they come in boxes! specially designed some more!! >.<

bought the ice cream.. $4.. oh man really spent a lot on food that day man. also bought 2 small cans of beer, for their packaging. =P spent really long time at the supermarket.. then went to Brewerkz. that place really brews beer!! as in big big tubs!! i always thought they just brew them in pots =x

after that went home. wed thur after work go home.. wah thurs i tried to redesign my website (like my blog? *winks*) but i couldn't!! had high expectations for my website...

i think recently quite stressed while i sleep. been having nightmares/weird dreams.. like going through an obstacle course, one station is to use a card to flick a yellowish white transparent spider (real huge one) off a rock. then got one station is "open window close". there's this room quite tightly sealed on one side n has a window on the other. u can open a small opening on the tightly sealed end but when u open it, the windows on the other side close. u can hear it close one lor. i dunno wad this means la. but it was so strange that it felt like a nightmare.

erm ya and also felt that i have been gritting my teeth while sleeping too, recently.. felt that my jaws ache these few days.. =S going to see a dentist soon, after i receive my medical benefits. my probation ends next tue!!! wheee~!!~

today after work went to church for harvest event thanksgiving.. dunno what to expect.. sat with my cell grp n played with Servio... woohoo i think he smiled at me! =P then we all went into 01-14 to watch videos edited by Gene woohoo!! erm.. honestly i dun like the idea of slowing down the video. esp for the fast song IROCC. but he probably had to. nevertheless, good job!

hmm.. the program ended earlier than i expected.. went out with my cell grp.. really touched that they compromised n went to somewhere convenient for me.. serangoon garden.. jac was v happy to see the icecream Haato.. think it's the same one as liang court one. then we went over to chomp chomp for supper. OOHHH!~~~ the egg beancurd!! with pearls~!!! jianxiong joined us too.. think he was lost when my cell grp started talking abt what we have been discussing.. haha.

just washed my hair cuz my hair smelled like chomp chomp.

:: wowweee ::

so much to share!

tue after work went for prayer meeting. there were lotsa times when i had mind blank while Canon John Benson was talking. looked thru his ppt slides before the prayer started, but couldn't remember a thing. so had to depend on his "next slide please" to get the cue. hehe knowing esther, i had to be on the alert doing projection ;)

wed went to church after work again. there was a projection training. after that went to the hall to help guorong see how to improve the layout of the ppt slides for the songs. i was supposed to do flashy stuff for the 1st song, but i could only do up text on blank background, with Worship Assistant functions. (using flash to program)

hmm.. felt that this week passed very quickly. monday we received call from client for a meeting on thurs, n thurs came very quickly! that morning met my colleague at toa payoh, to go straight to our client's office. had burger king breakfast. regret not getting the meal. cheaper than the burger itself man! discussed the revamp of a website. yay yay yay!

after that went back to tpy central to take train back. saw this stall selling nice bags n clothes.. wanted to shop but not nice to take my time during working hours la. went back to office, thought that time would pass v fast, but seemed quite slow. my life is really shortened by this client i have been complaining about. still getting comments on the design when it should be finalised. *screams n vomits blood*

went to church after work again, no purpose actually, just to help out lor. thought i could go home early. but guorong's laptop keep hanging, n he kept restarting it i felt so pek cek. went back home to bia the flash. actually hor, i do until 2am leh, but i really couldn't think of how to do the flashy stuff. was so stressed about it that night that during my sleep i felt that i was clenching my jaws very tight. on friday i felt like i couldn't chew cuz my jaws were aching. time past very fast at work n i felt a bit more joyful.

after work rushed to church. joined in the time of prayer n then guorong said we're using ppt for the first song instead. the flash i did was not used, i was a bit disappointed because afterall i spent time on it when i should be resting. but i was also relieved cuz i think wad i did was not suitable for the song.

if u ask me what i think about the worship conference, now that it's over, i would say that, i think the flow was not smooth, but it's okay, because God's presence was there. i felt it very strongly. i was also praying that God will help me to get over the disappointment, of cuz although i'm not very disappointed, still gotta pray that i WILL NOT be. this kinda thoughts must guard one.

went to set up the PRC booth when i got the cue, Tell the World. but seemed like inside still got a lot of encores. the sajc students left soon. sold a cd. felt super tired but i just gotta hang on for a few more hours!! we had to wrap up super quickly cuz the place gotta be locked up soon, n pple only came out last min. so we didn't get to promote the items to the majority. but it's okay, can't be helped.

after that i got my cell group jersey from xiao quan who ran away from me so i had to chase her. had to get it to wear on sat cuz my cell grp is wearing on sat for bball! got a ride from kelvin to the mrt. went home to sleep! gotta pack my bag for tanjung balai before that.

(though this entry is long, i still gotta share about the balai trip!! i dun wanna break it into 2 entries or else it will lose the flow!)

morning woke up early THEN told my mom i was going tj balai. haha. she gave me (LOTSA) rupiah for shopping for things for her. went to HBF to meet agape n persis at mac. had breakfast then went to Cruise Centre upstairs to check in at 9.25am. met suzanne. jianxiong was also there, to sent his parents. rushed in n boarded the ferry. saw uncle Colin too. saw more chinese cong pple. everyone seems to be going to tj balai.

went up to the top deck cuz faith was sea sick n needed a breather. in the end the whole of agape came up to take photos. tricia n vincent r the best. *winks* after 1hr 45 min of ride, we reached. phei phei n uncle Asun were there to fetch us. after some waiting, we bought tempe (winks), took the oplik to uncle asun's house to put down our stuff. played with Aimei. woohoo~! she showed me the stickers she pasted on her hand! i'm so easily elated when i see her. played with her n Weiwei her cousin cum neighbour. then we went to Indo to eat lunch at Es Teler. i was like jaw-dropping amazed at how much tj balai's standard has upped. it was renovated till like a high class cafe man! they were also playing high class songs like Fixing A Broken Heart, A Shoulder to Cry On etc... i mean, elsewhere they would be playing low class techno la. ordered Mie Ayam, very nice! n Jus Apukat (avacado juice) nice!

no time to shop so we went to church to do wad we were there for. Beauty session for the ladies' ministry! we did facial for them n massage too! before they arrived, i became a "customer" n i got high because there were a lot of agape girls waiting on me! all massaging me.. made me laugh like mad, cannot stop! then uncle asun's wife came n became the first real customer. n then another lady. n another. n another. total i think got 10? i tried to massage this really thin lady, but i really dunno how. end up just squeezing her arm. :P after persis led a short time of bible study with them (i think sharing with them the purpose of the session n what God intends for them) then the agape guys took over with fruit juice n sharing with them about nuitritions in food.

had prayer session after that. n then the team came together to share. went out for prayer walk with phei phei n paul. went out in pairs, with everyone within close distance. shared with evelyn about the background of the place as we prayed. she could feel the dispair in the pple. n she felt that the terrible physical state in the land of rubbish also shows the emotional state of their lives - rubbish. walked thru places i've never walked before. felt that this was something different. something that reminded me of what i learnt thru the Campus Crusade gen12ii thanksgiving message. if u didn't get out of ur comfort zone, if u had stayed in the comforts of sitting down n chatting, u wouldn't see what's out there in the spiritual realm. u wouldn't catch the vision.

went to visit a lady who came just now for the facial, n she asked us to pray for her daughter-in-law's father, who would be going to Medan soon. he was receptive to the prayers we said for him. =D after that we went back to the church. walked to a Nasi Uduk stall for dinner. had lotsa chicken =P my table had tricia n vincent, the best, Posers. wahaha. i did a pendulum thing with faith n evelyn, n when andrielle was about to take video of us doing that i started laughing n couldn't stop cuz i was losing the momentum. LOL. hmm.. must have been a long time since i had such a good laugh. till tears.

took the oplik back to uncle asun's house nearby. stopped to go Indo for shopping. spent a long time there n i was super stoned. was waiting for them at the entrance n i suddenly remembered one more thing my mom asked me to buy for her. so i went back to buy it. after we were all done we walked back. saw a monkey performing by the roadside. so cruel! crossed the road cuz some of them wanted to buy teh botol. then an uncle came to talk to us. he came from singapore many yrs ago, disappointed in the high cost of living n so migrated to tj balai. learnt that he's attending a catholic church in tj balai.

when we reached uncle asun's place we saw that there was a blackout. was told that electricity would be resumed soon. asked to go to the rooftop to see stars. remember pastor chi shyan's message at A Glimpse of Heaven? so sad tj balai no more stars. celebrated athe's birthday there. with Hiro cake n Go-Go drink. had a sharing session about the trip so far. n then we broke up into pairs to pray. prayed with jayne. got to know her better thru this trip. =) n everyone else too. this was my first trip as a MCG member.

paul joined us during our session though he doesn't understand 99% of wad we were talking about, but i think he wants to be part of the fun. i still remember there was once he went out late for ktv. so happening sia. i quite admire his spirit, cuz he did not leave us all the while, though he dunno wad we were talking about. but he was just observing us. n gabriel shared with us n with him that he admires him cuz he saw him fall down today n picked himself up. u may think that what's the big deal? but he's a handicapped. he gets around by using crutches, n crawling whenever crutches were inconvenient. so think back about what i mentioned about him staying out late for ktv.

electricity was still not restored, so most of us were unwilling to bathe, in the dark. i bathed with a candle. o.0 uncle asun received an emergency call. cailing's sister-in-law had fainted, so he went over to pray for her. so while i was bathing i heard someone banging on the door of the house n i felt quite afraid. there was a sense of urgency n fear at the banging of the door. it was cailing, with news that her sister-in-law had not woken yet. we told her that uncle asun had gone over to her place to pray for her sister-in-law. it was 10+pm.

the team gathered to pray for her, cuz we learnt that she was actually under spiritual attack. i felt that i could do nothing but keep praying in tongues. dun ask me y i mention this, but i just really felt helpless at that time. could only pray for God to do something. while we were praying, around 12+am, electricity came back n we had the comfort of having the fan blowing at us. we continued to pray cuz we know that the battle was not over yet. then electricity went off again. we prayed even harder. after a while we started to give thanks n celebrated God's victory over the evil spirits. we sang Shine Jesus Shine n then electricity came back again!! WOW! we received news that the lady has been sent to hospital safely. we shared about what we sensed during the prayer. some of them sensed that there could be spiritual attacks on our families while we were waging war in prayer. i had also suddenly thought about my sister during the prayer. uncle asun came back from the hospital n told us that the lady was demon-possessed, n scratched him n Tai-cek. but she's fine now. YAY! during this time of intense prayer with agape i felt that this is a really prayerful cell grp. the evil spirits of tj balai must have been afraid of God's holiness in them that they stirred up trouble during their stay here.

soon we turned in. wiky came home quite late. learnt that he's working now. didn't get to talk to him. i fell asleep v quickly.

next morning first thing i woke up n thanked God i didn't get any mosquito bites this time!! washed up.. packed up n went out for breakfast near the market. faith told me that i was grinding my teeth soon after i fell asleep. haha.. i thought i stopped doing that. hmm~ (stress??) jayne was so touched when tricia bought her soya bean milk n you tiao. ate carrot cake n martabak too. the pple there very nice, allow us to bring "Outside food" into their coffeeshops one! n i was really impressed by their creativity of converting an old unused television into a fish tank!! andrielle sweet-talked the coffeeshop aunty into taking photo with us n giving us discount the next time we come. =P

faith was telling me about Ragdoll while we walked thru the market after breakfast. faith n jayne bought slippers. i also wanted to buy, but dun have my size. very nice lor the slippers there. went back to the house to prepare to go church for sunday school. Adeline (my zoe tay) reached last min, we were worried n wondering if anything cropped up. she n phei phei led the children in worship. i joined in too. saw some new faces. sigh... have been going often, but i can't remember most of their names. can only remember bena, elisa, timotius, matius, ah heng, ah qing, ah yan, shanti, ezekiel, daniel..

went upstairs to join agape lead teaching session for the younger kids. they were doing noah's ark. gabriel n vincent n persis left first. we did a colouring session. the children coloured pictures of animals cut out n pasted on a paper plate to act as a mask. we were asking for a volunteer to ask as Noah, but none of the boys were willing. finally a handsome young man volunteered. we were all very happy. after acting out the children lost their attention on the story. so we ended it by giving goodie bags to them n dismissed them with a prayer by Ibu Aniong.

waited for the bus to come fetch us. stopped at phei phei's house to pick up kites for persis. really cheap man!! hahaa.. went to a bak kut teh shop near the jetty for lunch. it was a good meal! but didn't have time to finish all the food. haiz. boarded the ferry, didn't get to find a whole row of seats so we were all split up. fell asleep on the ferry. hmm.. faith was seasick but this time i didn't go out to pei her. feel a bit bad.. hope she's ok... bought a lot of fried stuff but didn't get to eat them on the ferry.

asked my dad to fetch me home. it was pouring heavily so when he came he wanted to sit down for a cup of tea first. then i felt FoS. wanted to go home. my dad drove past Marina south, saw this newly opened golf club. my dad said there's gonna be a disneyland there. i was like, how can singapore open disneyland when hongkong is already struggling with the number of expected customers? drove past ECP, thought of the recent night i was there. drove past bedok south. remembered that kelvin mentioned the bah chor mee there v nice. then i realised he was referring to Chai Chee. then i kept praying that God will help me keep the shit in till i reach home. =P

thank God!

had spaghetti for dinner. so Expo is having food fest. my parents bought stuff from expo. just now my dad was complaining about the gorengan i bought back. haiyo.

:: ok day ::

today started bad as well, but got better la. it isn't always true that a bad start will end bad too.

today 2 clients came.. at the same time. wah that was really stressful for me cuz i needed to attend to both at the same time. wad's worse was when the phone rang in the middle of the meeting.

so far okay la, the proj i have been dreading n dragging myself through is going to end SOON. by this week i hope. then the other proj... haiyo ah. postponed, but still got yet another proj to do first (by same client).

i really feel that life has halted because of the worship conference. like i can't do anything i wan during this period. n i can do ANYTHING after that. after 8th sept, i'm going to do these: go tanjung balai, buy bass amp, swim, meet up with friends, work on a free lance proj, clean up my room, do foot massage, go ladies' retreat, go hongkong, go on mission trips!

speaking of bass amp. wanted to go buy today, but feel that it's not urgent. i can use my hi-fi anyway. wanted to go Trumpet Praise to buy the book i wanted for a month. Asia Time Bomb.. but when i reached dhoby ghaut i realised i shld let esther know, in case i can help do anything there. she said she's also going there, offered to help me pick up the book. so i u-turned back home (on the NEL). maybe i u-turned too fast. maybe i shld still go. can buy other stuff anyway.

feels like i didn't accomplish wad i wanted to.

:: bad day ::

today woke up with a bad start.

still very tired. thought i slept enough. was really struggling to listen to Graham Hendrick preach. hmm.. let me recall what was his points.
be a : 1) secret worshipper, 2) sustained worshipper, 3) i lost him there.

haha.. very happy to see elaine come.

had cake n lunch in church. meeting for worship conference publicity.. end up with nothing. i'm contented la, but some of them prefer to push for more.

thomas tried to influence me to study further. i was 0% interested in studying at first, but now hmm.. probably have 5% hope. from the way i hear pple talk abt uni life, i told myself that i'm not going uni. uni is such a... corrupted place.

my mom wanted me to buy dinner back for her, but i didn't want to, so she got angry n slammed the phone. i was really not in the mood to go anywhere unless my parents r going. went home to sleep.

this is a bad day for me. a little dreading tmr.. cuz i really must finish the proj tmr.

:: another all-out weekend ::

hmm.. my msn nick was "vomits blood". seriously, at work, sometimes stress gets to me that i feel suffocated, hard to breathe. i tend to need to take in big gasps of air in those moments. and that stress period was supposed to be over on 21st aug 2006. dragged till friday still haven't complete. not my fault lor. i totally can't visualise what client wants. "design cannot be too boxy." i did a 7th version of the design already la! friday was better at work because thursday was so bad i kept praying for help.

n now my msn nick is "where is the cat?" because everyday on my way to work i always pass by this patch of land and there is a resident cat. it will always be there, just a matter of which part of there. so kinda like Where's Wally, i try to look for the cat everyday. kind of a game to me ba.

hmm okok back to my all-out weekend. after work on fri i took train to city hall.. walked to bras basah since esther n elena hadn't reached yet. went to check out the bass amps at sweelee. the guy recommended a $210 Peavey bass amp. tested it n honestly i'm not knowledgeable to hear the quality. checked out the tuner too. $29.90 seiko brand. but i didn't buy. only bought a cable. yeah finally i can use it to plug into my hi-fi temporarily, before i get a proper amp. i learnt that the converter is to plug into the hi-fi Out hole and plug my earphones. Not directly into my bass. LOL. it was amazing that i could test the stuff n make purchase within 10 min.

walked back to the raffles city shopping centre to meet them since they've reached already. after thinking so long where to eat, we decided to eat at a jap restaurant. the food is affordable and GOOD! they give real scallops man! haha got shocked by esther's "fickle-mindedness". now i know~

went to MIX for dessert and meeting. the atms at the basement were unable to dispense cash. amazing. good thing there's a DBS bank at level 1. guorong arrived. bought a Matcha Wow. not bad.. but i think it was the guava that made it sour. soya whipped cream! woah~ had our PRC meeting. it was a good time of sharing.

after that took bus to jeremy's place. saw an accident at telok blangah. an NTUC truck smashed into a pillar. there were many police vehicles, ambulances, firetruck. n many kaypos watching. LOL.

when i reached his place they were making pancakes and talking about the game they were playing earlier. Cranium. it was a 84 vs 86 game. haha. fellowshipped n then started a new round of Cranium. quite an intellectual game. i didn't do much except roll the die. but the game was fun. haha.

after that was ahpek session. over absolut peach. goes nice with 7-up. n some lemon thing brandon recommended. took a shot of that. n then jeffrey arrived with hoegarden n stella artois. do they go together or what? i like hoegarden.

we had a good, Godly discussion about relationships, marriage, wedding, money, cost of living in Singapore... talked till 6am. by then i really couldn't open my eyes anymore. then we went up to jeremy's room to slp. diana n i squeezed on the bed. lol.

i woke up at 9.10am. feeling FoS. couldn't go back to slp. saw weiyang also feeling terrible. he thinks he got food poisoning cuz he just got it one month ago. must be the buffet he had. i didn't tell my parents that i was not going home last night. =x so this morning called to notify my mom.

watched National Geographic. wow. i love documentaries. (more n more like my ah lian liao) watched this Hunter Hunted. a man killed by a dingo on Fraser Island. one shouldn't run when he sees a wild dog-like animal. the predator will sense the fear of a prey and will give chase. the scientists were trying to understand whether or not he was killed by the dingo using forensic deductions. after that there's this show The Living Edens. Featuring Canyonlands and the animals in it. The way they survive. i dun like scavenging birds. i dun like to watch them swoop over poor little animals and feeding on them. so i switched off the tv n nodded off to slp.

jeffrey went home n came back with his car n woke me up with his entrance to the house. had a little headache. waited for diana then we went off to Seah Im. had breakfast. kelvin left his hp at jeremy's place. but we managed to meet there. he took very fast to reach sia. n then after a short debate to go sentosa or not, we decided to go ahead. i was still wondering if i should renew my Islander membership. trying to consider if i will get to use it often enough to make it worth.

drove into siloso beach carpark. ben joined us there. walked a long way to the beach. lotsa pple sia. found a spot to nua. napped whenever i could. started playing frisbee. then borrowed a volleyball from a neighbouring group. jeff n diana know some pple from there. wow. the whole day they keep meeting pple they know la. lol. haha did some stunts with the volleyball. like the power punch, the header, n uh.. that's it. fun. went down into the water to get cooled for a while. n then continued to play volleyball. saw some disgusting men in their underwear. they think they can pass it off as swimming trunks. *pukes* if they were only 8 yrs old, it's still okay. i remember doing that when i was young.

jeffrey improvised the game with forfeits. we tried as much to pass the ball without dropping it as many times as we could. if we failed at 30, then the person who passed the bad ball had to do 30 squats. our goal was 50. just when he decided to give up trying for 50, we did it!! haa.. went back to our mat to nua. decided to leave at 4pm. time passed very slowly at 3.45-3.50pm. haha

went to kelvin's hse to wash up n then eat a bit at the coffeeshop. took jeff's car to potong pasir to take train home. really dead by then. took a nap, woke up, my mom cooked dinner for me. (WOW!) instant noodles la. not very well-cooked but good effort!