Do not miss any line from this...
Sometimes we get what we need and not what we want...
Once there were 3 trees on a hill in the woods.
They were discussing their hopes and dreams when the 1st tree said, "Someday, I hope to be a treasure chest. I could be filled with gold, silver and precious gems and be decorated with intricate carvings. Everyone would see my beauty."
The 2nd tree said, "Someday, I will be a mighty ship. I will take kings and queens across the waters and sail to the corners of other world. Everyone will feel safe in me because of the strength of my hull."
Finally, the 3rd tree said, "I want to grow up to be the tallest and straightest tree in the forest. People will see me on top of the hill and look up to my branches, and think of the heavens and God and how close to them I am reaching. I will be the greatest tree of all time, and people will always remember me."
After a few years of praying that their dreams would come true, a group of woodsmen came upon the trees.
One came to the 1st tree and said, "This looks like a strong tree, I think I should be able to sell the wood to a carpenter," and he began cutting it down. The tree was happy, because he knew that the carpenter would make him into a treasure chest.
At the 2nd tree, one of the other woodsman said, "This looks like a strong tree. I should be able to sell it to the shipyard." The 2nd tree was happy, because he knew he was on his way to becoming a mighty ship.
When the woodsmen came upon the 3rd tree, the tree was frightened, because it knew that, if it is cut down, its dream would not come true. One of the woodsmen said, "I don't need anything special from my tree, so I'll take this one," and he cut it down.
When the 1st tree arrived at the carpenter's, he was made into a feed box for animals, placed in a barn and filled with hay. This was not at all what he had prayed for.
The 2nd tree was cut and made into a small fishing boat. His dreams of being a mighty ship and carrying kings had come to an end.
The 3rd tree was cut into large pieces and left alone in the dark.
The years went by, and the trees forgot about their dreams. Then one filtered day, a man and woman came to the barn. She gave birth, and they placed the baby in the hay in the feed box that was made from the first tree. The man wished that he could have made a crib for the baby, but this manger would have to do. The tree could feel the importance of this event and knew that it had held the greatest treasure of all time.
Years later, a group of men got in the fishing boat made from the second tree. One of them was tired and went to sleep. While they were out on the water, a great storm arose, and the tree didn't think it was strong enough to keep the men safe. The men woke the sleeping man, and he stood and said "Peace," and the storm stopped. At this time, the tree knew that it had carried the KING of Kings in its boat.
Finally, someone came and got the third tree. It was carried through the streets , and the crowd mocked the man who was carrying it. Finally, the man was nailed to the tree and raised in the air to die at the top of a hill. When Sunday came, the tree came to realize that it was strong enough to stand at the top of the hill and be as close to GOD as possible, because JESUS had been crucified on it.
The moral of this story is that, when things don't seem to be going your way, always know that GOD has a plan for you. If you place your trust in HIM, HE will give you great gifts.
Each of the trees got what they wanted, just not in the way they had imagined.
We don't always know what God's plans are for us. We just know that His ways are not our ways, but His ways are always best.
GOD BLESS YOU as you seek HIS WILL!
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Thursday, September 28, 2006
Tuesday, September 26, 2006
:: heartbroken vs hard-hearted vs liberated ::
i was very heartbroken yesterday.
went to meet up with uncle colin, who works at AIA. usually when insurance agents call i say i'm not free, but since he is from my church i decided to meet him. haha biased. he explained abt the policies, n i'm quite interested, but this kinda thing is usually long term like 8 - 20+++ yrs. i'm not sure if i can commit.
that led me to thinking, will i be working still?
God is giving me a choice. it's an either/or. very clearly. i want to make the right choice.
Jesus said, "My food, is to do the will of Him who sent me and to finish His work."
yesterday heartbroken n grieved n cry until si li hua la. i grieved, not because i'm not willing to take the cup. but because i'm human after all. but today i feel that i've moved on. my colleague says that it's a blessing to be able to move on so quickly. but feels like i'm coldhearted. n then again, i do agree that it's a blessing, to be liberated from emotions.
hmm.. today is ting's birthday. i'm honestly quite upset that she didn't plan to celebrate it with me.
went to meet up with uncle colin, who works at AIA. usually when insurance agents call i say i'm not free, but since he is from my church i decided to meet him. haha biased. he explained abt the policies, n i'm quite interested, but this kinda thing is usually long term like 8 - 20+++ yrs. i'm not sure if i can commit.
that led me to thinking, will i be working still?
God is giving me a choice. it's an either/or. very clearly. i want to make the right choice.
Jesus said, "My food, is to do the will of Him who sent me and to finish His work."
yesterday heartbroken n grieved n cry until si li hua la. i grieved, not because i'm not willing to take the cup. but because i'm human after all. but today i feel that i've moved on. my colleague says that it's a blessing to be able to move on so quickly. but feels like i'm coldhearted. n then again, i do agree that it's a blessing, to be liberated from emotions.
hmm.. today is ting's birthday. i'm honestly quite upset that she didn't plan to celebrate it with me.
Sunday, September 24, 2006
:: the weekend flew past ::
bwaahhhhhh so fast!! weekends are going to be over in 3 hours!!
fri
finally, the SBS Transit launched the SeasonPass website officially! http://www.sbstransit.com.sg/SeasonPass/index.asp - designed and programmed by my colleague. saw her get stressed over this project n it's finally over!! i feel quite bad cuz it's not something i can help in, like i mentioned before.
our boss went out and when it was time to knock off he was still not back yet. we felt very bad for leaving his dog alone in the office, but bo bian, we had to go. our hearts ached when she whined! =(
decided to do something different. took bus 147 to punggol park to change bus home. turns out the journey duration is about the same, probably 15 min longer but 42¢ cheaper! gee, if i take bus instead of mrt home everyday, i would save.... around $10 a month!
went to buy groceries for my guests. did my QT before they arrived. there's this verse in a psalm that goes "Come, let us sing for joy to the Lord..." but i can't rem how it goes! i found the song in the chordbook, but stared at it for very long n couldn't figure out! then also some time this week i suddenly thought of the song Lead Me On, n thought jokingly to myself the 2nd meaning to that phrase. =P u could see me grinning when we sang the song today.
finally rj n faith arrived... at 11pm. let them take their pick what movie to watch. i was kinda expecting them to stay n watch A FEW movies. =P waited for joshua to arrive. they called him cinderella cuz he made it to my place just before midnight. i recommended Love Undercover, my all-time favourite movie. =P indeed they had a good laugh over the crappy movie. it's action as well as romance, a good mix. cuz rj wanted action movie, n faith wanted romance movie! after that joshua couldn't make it liao, super tired, so he wanted to go home. so they left at 2.30am.
next morning woke up, had breakfast.. dunno what i did, cooked noodles, watched tv, went for cell grp. today first time none of my cell grp members had to go off early for worshp prac! woohoo~! Jac shared a message on Where are you? unfortunately i had nothing to share then. probably will think of something to share.
went for dinner with cell at lavender food centre. long queue for the wanton mee wor. sigh. when will the queue ever shorten? john sim (uncle john) was with us, told the rest abt how i was like in feetwashers.. oh man.. haha. i'm glad my cell grp guys r nicer now. =P on the way back, in malcolm's car, i said something that made him n john sim go "and they say guys dun understand girls. it's actually the other way round!" n i take back my words. =P
sun
went for breakfast with gail n baoying.. discussed the mission trip plans for sunday sch. then went for service. pastor preached on proskuneo. and he mentioned the word prostrate, i sorta linked 2 words together. "prostitute" and "castrate" - shucks that explains what kinda mind i have. :S sorry for dirtying the worshipful word.
after service went for meditative service prac, had chicken rice for lunch. actually i'm trying to abstain from chicken as much as i could. for the past week there were alot of times i wanted to order chicken in my meals, but tried to make a conscious effort to avoid chicken. not because i'm scared of getting disease. but because from my last trip to tj balai i realise that singapore chicken is not as healthy as the chicken there. i eat too much chicken, must reduce my dependence on it. it's kinda also a way i discipline myself la.
there's this song that we r doing..... wah i felt so breathless singing it.. must train. suddenly i realise i haven't been singing properly for a very long time.
went to joshua's hse to plan with his cell grp for the coming tj balai trip. felt so bad for coming at the wrong time. they were singing songs of worship (careful with the usage of words) when i arrived. i didn't know, so i pressed the doorbell n made Jojo bark. learnt gail's dance. =P sang hokkien songs to teach them.. then we left at 7pm.
fri
finally, the SBS Transit launched the SeasonPass website officially! http://www.sbstransit.com.sg/SeasonPass/index.asp - designed and programmed by my colleague. saw her get stressed over this project n it's finally over!! i feel quite bad cuz it's not something i can help in, like i mentioned before.
our boss went out and when it was time to knock off he was still not back yet. we felt very bad for leaving his dog alone in the office, but bo bian, we had to go. our hearts ached when she whined! =(
decided to do something different. took bus 147 to punggol park to change bus home. turns out the journey duration is about the same, probably 15 min longer but 42¢ cheaper! gee, if i take bus instead of mrt home everyday, i would save.... around $10 a month!
went to buy groceries for my guests. did my QT before they arrived. there's this verse in a psalm that goes "Come, let us sing for joy to the Lord..." but i can't rem how it goes! i found the song in the chordbook, but stared at it for very long n couldn't figure out! then also some time this week i suddenly thought of the song Lead Me On, n thought jokingly to myself the 2nd meaning to that phrase. =P u could see me grinning when we sang the song today.
finally rj n faith arrived... at 11pm. let them take their pick what movie to watch. i was kinda expecting them to stay n watch A FEW movies. =P waited for joshua to arrive. they called him cinderella cuz he made it to my place just before midnight. i recommended Love Undercover, my all-time favourite movie. =P indeed they had a good laugh over the crappy movie. it's action as well as romance, a good mix. cuz rj wanted action movie, n faith wanted romance movie! after that joshua couldn't make it liao, super tired, so he wanted to go home. so they left at 2.30am.
next morning woke up, had breakfast.. dunno what i did, cooked noodles, watched tv, went for cell grp. today first time none of my cell grp members had to go off early for worshp prac! woohoo~! Jac shared a message on Where are you? unfortunately i had nothing to share then. probably will think of something to share.
went for dinner with cell at lavender food centre. long queue for the wanton mee wor. sigh. when will the queue ever shorten? john sim (uncle john) was with us, told the rest abt how i was like in feetwashers.. oh man.. haha. i'm glad my cell grp guys r nicer now. =P on the way back, in malcolm's car, i said something that made him n john sim go "and they say guys dun understand girls. it's actually the other way round!" n i take back my words. =P
sun
went for breakfast with gail n baoying.. discussed the mission trip plans for sunday sch. then went for service. pastor preached on proskuneo. and he mentioned the word prostrate, i sorta linked 2 words together. "prostitute" and "castrate" - shucks that explains what kinda mind i have. :S sorry for dirtying the worshipful word.
after service went for meditative service prac, had chicken rice for lunch. actually i'm trying to abstain from chicken as much as i could. for the past week there were alot of times i wanted to order chicken in my meals, but tried to make a conscious effort to avoid chicken. not because i'm scared of getting disease. but because from my last trip to tj balai i realise that singapore chicken is not as healthy as the chicken there. i eat too much chicken, must reduce my dependence on it. it's kinda also a way i discipline myself la.
there's this song that we r doing..... wah i felt so breathless singing it.. must train. suddenly i realise i haven't been singing properly for a very long time.
went to joshua's hse to plan with his cell grp for the coming tj balai trip. felt so bad for coming at the wrong time. they were singing songs of worship (careful with the usage of words) when i arrived. i didn't know, so i pressed the doorbell n made Jojo bark. learnt gail's dance. =P sang hokkien songs to teach them.. then we left at 7pm.
Thursday, September 21, 2006
:: IKEA ::
received my confirmation! finally felt like i got a status!
yesterday after work i WALKED to IKEA!! woohoo~! took about 1 hour. I love Singapore! my destinations are just straight ahead. walked thru bukit merah, henderson... felt v happy n saw interesting things. bird footprints on a cemented pavement. hey tell me where else u can find it la. saw a few kittens playing with their mom. tried to go near to take photos but the kitten ran to hide inside the drain n the mother snarled at me!! really! unfriendly leh.
well yea. i get so excited over things like this. but i dun care for things like singapore idol. u probably get a little more idea abt what kinda person i am. me too. this walk to IKEA is kinda like my second application of what i learnt from the book that esther lent me (part 1 was my walk to Dhoby Ghaut on kelvin's bday).
ok back to the journey. i wasn't very sure of my directions initially. i just get more n more sure as i walked along. passed a few temples (thai, taoist etc).. suddenly felt like praying for the residents in the area.
when i reached IKEA, my impulse to shop came on! bought a few stuff.. =P a pair of Roman blinds (hehe i can tell which is Roman, which is Venetian!), 3 magnetic tin containers, n a roll of nice wrapping paper. wanted to buy lotsa other stuff, but i realise i can't carry them home. there's this wooden box i wanted to get, but Popeye couldn't even lift it up! =S
felt hungry all the way while shopping.. so after i was done i finally got myself a hotdog. THE IKEA HOTDOG. used to savour it with shuying whenever we go ikea. =)
went home to hang my roman blinds. felt that i finally could sleep better.
next day. nothing to do at work except design a few christmas e-cards. so sian.
wanted to go watch movie with ting today one. but haiya. disappointed. i know she is too, but felt so arghhhh... so i went home after work. can get some rest lor.
yesterday after work i WALKED to IKEA!! woohoo~! took about 1 hour. I love Singapore! my destinations are just straight ahead. walked thru bukit merah, henderson... felt v happy n saw interesting things. bird footprints on a cemented pavement. hey tell me where else u can find it la. saw a few kittens playing with their mom. tried to go near to take photos but the kitten ran to hide inside the drain n the mother snarled at me!! really! unfriendly leh.
talking abt her lor.
The lights came on when i happened to look at the blocks
Model of new IKEA
Fondue at Hagen Daz
Hello Panda "pocky" sticks from indonesia!!
Non-air-con bus! Such a rare sight!
well yea. i get so excited over things like this. but i dun care for things like singapore idol. u probably get a little more idea abt what kinda person i am. me too. this walk to IKEA is kinda like my second application of what i learnt from the book that esther lent me (part 1 was my walk to Dhoby Ghaut on kelvin's bday).
ok back to the journey. i wasn't very sure of my directions initially. i just get more n more sure as i walked along. passed a few temples (thai, taoist etc).. suddenly felt like praying for the residents in the area.
when i reached IKEA, my impulse to shop came on! bought a few stuff.. =P a pair of Roman blinds (hehe i can tell which is Roman, which is Venetian!), 3 magnetic tin containers, n a roll of nice wrapping paper. wanted to buy lotsa other stuff, but i realise i can't carry them home. there's this wooden box i wanted to get, but Popeye couldn't even lift it up! =S
felt hungry all the way while shopping.. so after i was done i finally got myself a hotdog. THE IKEA HOTDOG. used to savour it with shuying whenever we go ikea. =)
went home to hang my roman blinds. felt that i finally could sleep better.
next day. nothing to do at work except design a few christmas e-cards. so sian.
wanted to go watch movie with ting today one. but haiya. disappointed. i know she is too, but felt so arghhhh... so i went home after work. can get some rest lor.
Tuesday, September 19, 2006
:: untitled ::
fri night i was reading Psalms 88. vs 10 reminded me of the song Glory to the Ancient of Days n so i began to sang it, n imagined that we would be singing it for service. n so i imagined myself sharing with Psalmist abt it.
sat was good.. spent some time by myself, feeling like i've got a lot of time on my hands.. very happy. went for cell grp but couldn't join them longer.. then worship prac... n i really got a surprise when i saw one song in the listed. Glory to the Ancient of Days. the chance was probably low because there are new songs we would sing more often now.
had dinner with paul n malcolm.. i ate it so late that i had indigestion. so that night i couldn't sleep till 5.30am. thought abt a lot of things.. abt relationships, friendships, etc.. felt really burdened n as i thought abt those things i said a quick prayer for each.
i didn't sleep also partly because i was worried that i couldn't wake up on sun morning. scared i oversleep. haha ended up in the other extreme. had to wake up at 6.30am cuz i was meeting MCG for breakfast. i was wondering if they would be on time. people nowadays hardly on time. i say that for myself. it becomes a cycle because u r guessing ur friend will be late so u also arrive late. =P by the time i had to leave mac to go to SAJC there was only hannah. haha..
this guy who was present at the prayer meeting last time (think i mentioned before) came to preach. message of love. i was really very stoned because of the fact that i slept only an hour, but i struggled to keep awake. he shared a lot of songs, all played in minor chords. LOL. he seems to like sad songs.
after service went for lunch with my cell grp at maxwell. had prawn noodles n egg beancurd (again?!!) haha.. they all wanted to order the famous porridge, but by the time they got to their turn to order the person told them it's sold out. so wasted! they ate chicken rice instead.
went to people's park to meet faith n ashley n linfeng. walked around. hmm.. i wasn't really in the mood to shop, but still tried on a few clothes. decided to go clarke quay cuz i was tired n just wanted to sit down somewhere. waited for alvin to arrive. then we went to hagen daz. first time there! woohoo~ tried the fondue. had serious talk with faith. =P all the way till i meet my parents in chinatown. at first i didn't know they were coming, then when i called n heard that they are, i was like, "woohoo!" so convenient for me.. or else i wouldn't have joined them for dinner.
went to Tak Po for dim sum.. ate until v full.. haha.. then walked around people's park (again) this time my mom wants to buy toiletries. so shun bian buy a lot of toothpaste (4 tubes!!) hee.. 用不完.. went home n continued a conversation with faith. it's really a long time since i talked on the phone. over the years i've lost the patience to talk on the phone.. which is very sad.
mon my dad drove me to kovan. it was his off day. but it was quite a bad idea to start my train journey from there. i was squished. left my waterbottle in the motorbox. i could only drink water boiled in the office. the last time i drank water from there i got sick. thank God this time i'm fine. went to an interesting shop near my office. my colleague bought a basket bag. i didn't see anything i like leh.
glad to have many small things to do. dun like big projects.
after work went to PS to meet elaine n joshua. was quite worried when elaine didn't pick up my call or reply me sia! then when i reached PS already she called to say she was at a presentation.. n she thought our dinner is off because we didn't let her know earlier.. so wasted.. then i went to yamaha to find joshua. decided to have dinner at Manhattan fish market. ate there before, during a "class" reunion organised by my kor robbin. similar to fish & co, but think this is nicer. i was very sure 2 of us couldn't finish the seafood platter for two, so we didn't order that. i ordered fried calamari n rice. couldn't even finish that! joshua ordered alaskan pollock n chips, the fried layer of the fish tastes better than the meat itself sia.
was so HAPPY TO SEE DAISO!! they actually opened a branch in PS wor. apparently it's been a LOOOONG time since i've been there. sigh. haven't met up with the singles' club for a long time. n that nic never reply my sms on friday la. haiyo. (paiseh, david organised a dinner on sat but no one replied him) thought i would end up buying things, but didn't leh. dunno y. went to Times bookshop as well, it moved a unit. n Daiso occupied its previous area. interested in a magazine, but didn't buy. also interested in children's books (for their illustrations) n interior design course book. wahhhh there's so much i wan to own.
walked over to Cathay.. wanted to watch movie trailers. i'm beginning to like the place more n more. maybe some time i'll go there just to watch trailers. made me wanna watch a lot of movies!! like The Banquet (starring Daniel Wu!), Miami Vice, The Guardian, Gigolo Wannabe, World Trade Centre.......!!! wah so excited now.
saw aijia there.. wah it's her birthday! so honoured that i got to c her on her birthday haha.. she took leave from work wor.. shiok.
walked back to PS. took train home. thinking abt a lot of things on my way home. recently been thinking too much. even had a nightmare last night. :S
this morning felt super weird. 7+am felt n looked like 8+am. was wondering if there was anything wrong with my clocks. if u guys dunno wad i'm talking about, u probably dun observe nature enough. shame on u! (LOL)
had also little things to do n one medium project. saw my colleague very stressed out over her project. n kept hearing her sigh when things go wrong. but that one i dunno how to help her cuz it's programming stuff. supposed to be the day my probation ends, but it's not what i expected. thought it would be something like a birthday surprise, "here's ur confirmation letter!", but no leh. my boss replied "i think so" when i asked him, "am i confirmed today?" dots!!
after work i had wanted to go IKEA but i forgot abt it n walked towards the mrt! tmr, tmr. want to try walking to harbourfront cuz i nv walked that direction before. one of these days~~~
when i reached punggol it was not even 7.30pm n the sun had already set. something funny with the sky today!
feel quite sad today, no reason. my parents dunno went where, i had to eat roti alone at home. so sad. haha.
sat was good.. spent some time by myself, feeling like i've got a lot of time on my hands.. very happy. went for cell grp but couldn't join them longer.. then worship prac... n i really got a surprise when i saw one song in the listed. Glory to the Ancient of Days. the chance was probably low because there are new songs we would sing more often now.
had dinner with paul n malcolm.. i ate it so late that i had indigestion. so that night i couldn't sleep till 5.30am. thought abt a lot of things.. abt relationships, friendships, etc.. felt really burdened n as i thought abt those things i said a quick prayer for each.
i didn't sleep also partly because i was worried that i couldn't wake up on sun morning. scared i oversleep. haha ended up in the other extreme. had to wake up at 6.30am cuz i was meeting MCG for breakfast. i was wondering if they would be on time. people nowadays hardly on time. i say that for myself. it becomes a cycle because u r guessing ur friend will be late so u also arrive late. =P by the time i had to leave mac to go to SAJC there was only hannah. haha..
this guy who was present at the prayer meeting last time (think i mentioned before) came to preach. message of love. i was really very stoned because of the fact that i slept only an hour, but i struggled to keep awake. he shared a lot of songs, all played in minor chords. LOL. he seems to like sad songs.
after service went for lunch with my cell grp at maxwell. had prawn noodles n egg beancurd (again?!!) haha.. they all wanted to order the famous porridge, but by the time they got to their turn to order the person told them it's sold out. so wasted! they ate chicken rice instead.
went to people's park to meet faith n ashley n linfeng. walked around. hmm.. i wasn't really in the mood to shop, but still tried on a few clothes. decided to go clarke quay cuz i was tired n just wanted to sit down somewhere. waited for alvin to arrive. then we went to hagen daz. first time there! woohoo~ tried the fondue. had serious talk with faith. =P all the way till i meet my parents in chinatown. at first i didn't know they were coming, then when i called n heard that they are, i was like, "woohoo!" so convenient for me.. or else i wouldn't have joined them for dinner.
went to Tak Po for dim sum.. ate until v full.. haha.. then walked around people's park (again) this time my mom wants to buy toiletries. so shun bian buy a lot of toothpaste (4 tubes!!) hee.. 用不完.. went home n continued a conversation with faith. it's really a long time since i talked on the phone. over the years i've lost the patience to talk on the phone.. which is very sad.
mon my dad drove me to kovan. it was his off day. but it was quite a bad idea to start my train journey from there. i was squished. left my waterbottle in the motorbox. i could only drink water boiled in the office. the last time i drank water from there i got sick. thank God this time i'm fine. went to an interesting shop near my office. my colleague bought a basket bag. i didn't see anything i like leh.
glad to have many small things to do. dun like big projects.
after work went to PS to meet elaine n joshua. was quite worried when elaine didn't pick up my call or reply me sia! then when i reached PS already she called to say she was at a presentation.. n she thought our dinner is off because we didn't let her know earlier.. so wasted.. then i went to yamaha to find joshua. decided to have dinner at Manhattan fish market. ate there before, during a "class" reunion organised by my kor robbin. similar to fish & co, but think this is nicer. i was very sure 2 of us couldn't finish the seafood platter for two, so we didn't order that. i ordered fried calamari n rice. couldn't even finish that! joshua ordered alaskan pollock n chips, the fried layer of the fish tastes better than the meat itself sia.
was so HAPPY TO SEE DAISO!! they actually opened a branch in PS wor. apparently it's been a LOOOONG time since i've been there. sigh. haven't met up with the singles' club for a long time. n that nic never reply my sms on friday la. haiyo. (paiseh, david organised a dinner on sat but no one replied him) thought i would end up buying things, but didn't leh. dunno y. went to Times bookshop as well, it moved a unit. n Daiso occupied its previous area. interested in a magazine, but didn't buy. also interested in children's books (for their illustrations) n interior design course book. wahhhh there's so much i wan to own.
walked over to Cathay.. wanted to watch movie trailers. i'm beginning to like the place more n more. maybe some time i'll go there just to watch trailers. made me wanna watch a lot of movies!! like The Banquet (starring Daniel Wu!), Miami Vice, The Guardian, Gigolo Wannabe, World Trade Centre.......!!! wah so excited now.
saw aijia there.. wah it's her birthday! so honoured that i got to c her on her birthday haha.. she took leave from work wor.. shiok.
walked back to PS. took train home. thinking abt a lot of things on my way home. recently been thinking too much. even had a nightmare last night. :S
this morning felt super weird. 7+am felt n looked like 8+am. was wondering if there was anything wrong with my clocks. if u guys dunno wad i'm talking about, u probably dun observe nature enough. shame on u! (LOL)
had also little things to do n one medium project. saw my colleague very stressed out over her project. n kept hearing her sigh when things go wrong. but that one i dunno how to help her cuz it's programming stuff. supposed to be the day my probation ends, but it's not what i expected. thought it would be something like a birthday surprise, "here's ur confirmation letter!", but no leh. my boss replied "i think so" when i asked him, "am i confirmed today?" dots!!
after work i had wanted to go IKEA but i forgot abt it n walked towards the mrt! tmr, tmr. want to try walking to harbourfront cuz i nv walked that direction before. one of these days~~~
when i reached punggol it was not even 7.30pm n the sun had already set. something funny with the sky today!
feel quite sad today, no reason. my parents dunno went where, i had to eat roti alone at home. so sad. haha.
Saturday, September 16, 2006
:: another week ::
hmm actually a bit lazy to update.
tue mrpaulchow became my client. it really livens things up to have clients like him. went to meet another client at the same place i went last thur. hmm.. during the meeting i kept staring at one of my clients la.. i admit that he's handsome......... =P
walked to clarke quay after work to meet lin feng.. then walked to river valley rd for dinner. remembered the good old days of chionging.. well, not really good la. but i dunno y, i appreciate the experience that i had. went to liang court.. i've always wanted to take time to go the supermarket there to check out the japanese packaging. was very intrigued by the intricate packaging for PRAWNS!!!!! man, they come in boxes! specially designed some more!! >.<
bought the ice cream.. $4.. oh man really spent a lot on food that day man. also bought 2 small cans of beer, for their packaging. =P spent really long time at the supermarket.. then went to Brewerkz. that place really brews beer!! as in big big tubs!! i always thought they just brew them in pots =x
after that went home. wed thur after work go home.. wah thurs i tried to redesign my website (like my blog? *winks*) but i couldn't!! had high expectations for my website...
i think recently quite stressed while i sleep. been having nightmares/weird dreams.. like going through an obstacle course, one station is to use a card to flick a yellowish white transparent spider (real huge one) off a rock. then got one station is "open window close". there's this room quite tightly sealed on one side n has a window on the other. u can open a small opening on the tightly sealed end but when u open it, the windows on the other side close. u can hear it close one lor. i dunno wad this means la. but it was so strange that it felt like a nightmare.
erm ya and also felt that i have been gritting my teeth while sleeping too, recently.. felt that my jaws ache these few days.. =S going to see a dentist soon, after i receive my medical benefits. my probation ends next tue!!! wheee~!!~
today after work went to church for harvest event thanksgiving.. dunno what to expect.. sat with my cell grp n played with Servio... woohoo i think he smiled at me! =P then we all went into 01-14 to watch videos edited by Gene woohoo!! erm.. honestly i dun like the idea of slowing down the video. esp for the fast song IROCC. but he probably had to. nevertheless, good job!
hmm.. the program ended earlier than i expected.. went out with my cell grp.. really touched that they compromised n went to somewhere convenient for me.. serangoon garden.. jac was v happy to see the icecream Haato.. think it's the same one as liang court one. then we went over to chomp chomp for supper. OOHHH!~~~ the egg beancurd!! with pearls~!!! jianxiong joined us too.. think he was lost when my cell grp started talking abt what we have been discussing.. haha.
just washed my hair cuz my hair smelled like chomp chomp.
tue mrpaulchow became my client. it really livens things up to have clients like him. went to meet another client at the same place i went last thur. hmm.. during the meeting i kept staring at one of my clients la.. i admit that he's handsome......... =P
walked to clarke quay after work to meet lin feng.. then walked to river valley rd for dinner. remembered the good old days of chionging.. well, not really good la. but i dunno y, i appreciate the experience that i had. went to liang court.. i've always wanted to take time to go the supermarket there to check out the japanese packaging. was very intrigued by the intricate packaging for PRAWNS!!!!! man, they come in boxes! specially designed some more!! >.<
bought the ice cream.. $4.. oh man really spent a lot on food that day man. also bought 2 small cans of beer, for their packaging. =P spent really long time at the supermarket.. then went to Brewerkz. that place really brews beer!! as in big big tubs!! i always thought they just brew them in pots =x
after that went home. wed thur after work go home.. wah thurs i tried to redesign my website (like my blog? *winks*) but i couldn't!! had high expectations for my website...
i think recently quite stressed while i sleep. been having nightmares/weird dreams.. like going through an obstacle course, one station is to use a card to flick a yellowish white transparent spider (real huge one) off a rock. then got one station is "open window close". there's this room quite tightly sealed on one side n has a window on the other. u can open a small opening on the tightly sealed end but when u open it, the windows on the other side close. u can hear it close one lor. i dunno wad this means la. but it was so strange that it felt like a nightmare.
erm ya and also felt that i have been gritting my teeth while sleeping too, recently.. felt that my jaws ache these few days.. =S going to see a dentist soon, after i receive my medical benefits. my probation ends next tue!!! wheee~!!~
today after work went to church for harvest event thanksgiving.. dunno what to expect.. sat with my cell grp n played with Servio... woohoo i think he smiled at me! =P then we all went into 01-14 to watch videos edited by Gene woohoo!! erm.. honestly i dun like the idea of slowing down the video. esp for the fast song IROCC. but he probably had to. nevertheless, good job!
hmm.. the program ended earlier than i expected.. went out with my cell grp.. really touched that they compromised n went to somewhere convenient for me.. serangoon garden.. jac was v happy to see the icecream Haato.. think it's the same one as liang court one. then we went over to chomp chomp for supper. OOHHH!~~~ the egg beancurd!! with pearls~!!! jianxiong joined us too.. think he was lost when my cell grp started talking abt what we have been discussing.. haha.
just washed my hair cuz my hair smelled like chomp chomp.
Sunday, September 10, 2006
:: wowweee ::
so much to share!
tue after work went for prayer meeting. there were lotsa times when i had mind blank while Canon John Benson was talking. looked thru his ppt slides before the prayer started, but couldn't remember a thing. so had to depend on his "next slide please" to get the cue. hehe knowing esther, i had to be on the alert doing projection ;)
wed went to church after work again. there was a projection training. after that went to the hall to help guorong see how to improve the layout of the ppt slides for the songs. i was supposed to do flashy stuff for the 1st song, but i could only do up text on blank background, with Worship Assistant functions. (using flash to program)
hmm.. felt that this week passed very quickly. monday we received call from client for a meeting on thurs, n thurs came very quickly! that morning met my colleague at toa payoh, to go straight to our client's office. had burger king breakfast. regret not getting the meal. cheaper than the burger itself man! discussed the revamp of a website. yay yay yay!
after that went back to tpy central to take train back. saw this stall selling nice bags n clothes.. wanted to shop but not nice to take my time during working hours la. went back to office, thought that time would pass v fast, but seemed quite slow. my life is really shortened by this client i have been complaining about. still getting comments on the design when it should be finalised. *screams n vomits blood*
went to church after work again, no purpose actually, just to help out lor. thought i could go home early. but guorong's laptop keep hanging, n he kept restarting it i felt so pek cek. went back home to bia the flash. actually hor, i do until 2am leh, but i really couldn't think of how to do the flashy stuff. was so stressed about it that night that during my sleep i felt that i was clenching my jaws very tight. on friday i felt like i couldn't chew cuz my jaws were aching. time past very fast at work n i felt a bit more joyful.
after work rushed to church. joined in the time of prayer n then guorong said we're using ppt for the first song instead. the flash i did was not used, i was a bit disappointed because afterall i spent time on it when i should be resting. but i was also relieved cuz i think wad i did was not suitable for the song.
if u ask me what i think about the worship conference, now that it's over, i would say that, i think the flow was not smooth, but it's okay, because God's presence was there. i felt it very strongly. i was also praying that God will help me to get over the disappointment, of cuz although i'm not very disappointed, still gotta pray that i WILL NOT be. this kinda thoughts must guard one.
went to set up the PRC booth when i got the cue, Tell the World. but seemed like inside still got a lot of encores. the sajc students left soon. sold a cd. felt super tired but i just gotta hang on for a few more hours!! we had to wrap up super quickly cuz the place gotta be locked up soon, n pple only came out last min. so we didn't get to promote the items to the majority. but it's okay, can't be helped.
after that i got my cell group jersey from xiao quan who ran away from me so i had to chase her. had to get it to wear on sat cuz my cell grp is wearing on sat for bball! got a ride from kelvin to the mrt. went home to sleep! gotta pack my bag for tanjung balai before that.
(though this entry is long, i still gotta share about the balai trip!! i dun wanna break it into 2 entries or else it will lose the flow!)
morning woke up early THEN told my mom i was going tj balai. haha. she gave me (LOTSA) rupiah for shopping for things for her. went to HBF to meet agape n persis at mac. had breakfast then went to Cruise Centre upstairs to check in at 9.25am. met suzanne. jianxiong was also there, to sent his parents. rushed in n boarded the ferry. saw uncle Colin too. saw more chinese cong pple. everyone seems to be going to tj balai.
went up to the top deck cuz faith was sea sick n needed a breather. in the end the whole of agape came up to take photos. tricia n vincent r the best. *winks* after 1hr 45 min of ride, we reached. phei phei n uncle Asun were there to fetch us. after some waiting, we bought tempe (winks), took the oplik to uncle asun's house to put down our stuff. played with Aimei. woohoo~! she showed me the stickers she pasted on her hand! i'm so easily elated when i see her. played with her n Weiwei her cousin cum neighbour. then we went to Indo to eat lunch at Es Teler. i was like jaw-dropping amazed at how much tj balai's standard has upped. it was renovated till like a high class cafe man! they were also playing high class songs like Fixing A Broken Heart, A Shoulder to Cry On etc... i mean, elsewhere they would be playing low class techno la. ordered Mie Ayam, very nice! n Jus Apukat (avacado juice) nice!
no time to shop so we went to church to do wad we were there for. Beauty session for the ladies' ministry! we did facial for them n massage too! before they arrived, i became a "customer" n i got high because there were a lot of agape girls waiting on me! all massaging me.. made me laugh like mad, cannot stop! then uncle asun's wife came n became the first real customer. n then another lady. n another. n another. total i think got 10? i tried to massage this really thin lady, but i really dunno how. end up just squeezing her arm. :P after persis led a short time of bible study with them (i think sharing with them the purpose of the session n what God intends for them) then the agape guys took over with fruit juice n sharing with them about nuitritions in food.
had prayer session after that. n then the team came together to share. went out for prayer walk with phei phei n paul. went out in pairs, with everyone within close distance. shared with evelyn about the background of the place as we prayed. she could feel the dispair in the pple. n she felt that the terrible physical state in the land of rubbish also shows the emotional state of their lives - rubbish. walked thru places i've never walked before. felt that this was something different. something that reminded me of what i learnt thru the Campus Crusade gen12ii thanksgiving message. if u didn't get out of ur comfort zone, if u had stayed in the comforts of sitting down n chatting, u wouldn't see what's out there in the spiritual realm. u wouldn't catch the vision.
went to visit a lady who came just now for the facial, n she asked us to pray for her daughter-in-law's father, who would be going to Medan soon. he was receptive to the prayers we said for him. =D after that we went back to the church. walked to a Nasi Uduk stall for dinner. had lotsa chicken =P my table had tricia n vincent, the best, Posers. wahaha. i did a pendulum thing with faith n evelyn, n when andrielle was about to take video of us doing that i started laughing n couldn't stop cuz i was losing the momentum. LOL. hmm.. must have been a long time since i had such a good laugh. till tears.
took the oplik back to uncle asun's house nearby. stopped to go Indo for shopping. spent a long time there n i was super stoned. was waiting for them at the entrance n i suddenly remembered one more thing my mom asked me to buy for her. so i went back to buy it. after we were all done we walked back. saw a monkey performing by the roadside. so cruel! crossed the road cuz some of them wanted to buy teh botol. then an uncle came to talk to us. he came from singapore many yrs ago, disappointed in the high cost of living n so migrated to tj balai. learnt that he's attending a catholic church in tj balai.
when we reached uncle asun's place we saw that there was a blackout. was told that electricity would be resumed soon. asked to go to the rooftop to see stars. remember pastor chi shyan's message at A Glimpse of Heaven? so sad tj balai no more stars. celebrated athe's birthday there. with Hiro cake n Go-Go drink. had a sharing session about the trip so far. n then we broke up into pairs to pray. prayed with jayne. got to know her better thru this trip. =) n everyone else too. this was my first trip as a MCG member.
paul joined us during our session though he doesn't understand 99% of wad we were talking about, but i think he wants to be part of the fun. i still remember there was once he went out late for ktv. so happening sia. i quite admire his spirit, cuz he did not leave us all the while, though he dunno wad we were talking about. but he was just observing us. n gabriel shared with us n with him that he admires him cuz he saw him fall down today n picked himself up. u may think that what's the big deal? but he's a handicapped. he gets around by using crutches, n crawling whenever crutches were inconvenient. so think back about what i mentioned about him staying out late for ktv.
electricity was still not restored, so most of us were unwilling to bathe, in the dark. i bathed with a candle. o.0 uncle asun received an emergency call. cailing's sister-in-law had fainted, so he went over to pray for her. so while i was bathing i heard someone banging on the door of the house n i felt quite afraid. there was a sense of urgency n fear at the banging of the door. it was cailing, with news that her sister-in-law had not woken yet. we told her that uncle asun had gone over to her place to pray for her sister-in-law. it was 10+pm.
the team gathered to pray for her, cuz we learnt that she was actually under spiritual attack. i felt that i could do nothing but keep praying in tongues. dun ask me y i mention this, but i just really felt helpless at that time. could only pray for God to do something. while we were praying, around 12+am, electricity came back n we had the comfort of having the fan blowing at us. we continued to pray cuz we know that the battle was not over yet. then electricity went off again. we prayed even harder. after a while we started to give thanks n celebrated God's victory over the evil spirits. we sang Shine Jesus Shine n then electricity came back again!! WOW! we received news that the lady has been sent to hospital safely. we shared about what we sensed during the prayer. some of them sensed that there could be spiritual attacks on our families while we were waging war in prayer. i had also suddenly thought about my sister during the prayer. uncle asun came back from the hospital n told us that the lady was demon-possessed, n scratched him n Tai-cek. but she's fine now. YAY! during this time of intense prayer with agape i felt that this is a really prayerful cell grp. the evil spirits of tj balai must have been afraid of God's holiness in them that they stirred up trouble during their stay here.
soon we turned in. wiky came home quite late. learnt that he's working now. didn't get to talk to him. i fell asleep v quickly.
next morning first thing i woke up n thanked God i didn't get any mosquito bites this time!! washed up.. packed up n went out for breakfast near the market. faith told me that i was grinding my teeth soon after i fell asleep. haha.. i thought i stopped doing that. hmm~ (stress??) jayne was so touched when tricia bought her soya bean milk n you tiao. ate carrot cake n martabak too. the pple there very nice, allow us to bring "Outside food" into their coffeeshops one! n i was really impressed by their creativity of converting an old unused television into a fish tank!! andrielle sweet-talked the coffeeshop aunty into taking photo with us n giving us discount the next time we come. =P
faith was telling me about Ragdoll while we walked thru the market after breakfast. faith n jayne bought slippers. i also wanted to buy, but dun have my size. very nice lor the slippers there. went back to the house to prepare to go church for sunday school. Adeline (my zoe tay) reached last min, we were worried n wondering if anything cropped up. she n phei phei led the children in worship. i joined in too. saw some new faces. sigh... have been going often, but i can't remember most of their names. can only remember bena, elisa, timotius, matius, ah heng, ah qing, ah yan, shanti, ezekiel, daniel..
went upstairs to join agape lead teaching session for the younger kids. they were doing noah's ark. gabriel n vincent n persis left first. we did a colouring session. the children coloured pictures of animals cut out n pasted on a paper plate to act as a mask. we were asking for a volunteer to ask as Noah, but none of the boys were willing. finally a handsome young man volunteered. we were all very happy. after acting out the children lost their attention on the story. so we ended it by giving goodie bags to them n dismissed them with a prayer by Ibu Aniong.
waited for the bus to come fetch us. stopped at phei phei's house to pick up kites for persis. really cheap man!! hahaa.. went to a bak kut teh shop near the jetty for lunch. it was a good meal! but didn't have time to finish all the food. haiz. boarded the ferry, didn't get to find a whole row of seats so we were all split up. fell asleep on the ferry. hmm.. faith was seasick but this time i didn't go out to pei her. feel a bit bad.. hope she's ok... bought a lot of fried stuff but didn't get to eat them on the ferry.
asked my dad to fetch me home. it was pouring heavily so when he came he wanted to sit down for a cup of tea first. then i felt FoS. wanted to go home. my dad drove past Marina south, saw this newly opened golf club. my dad said there's gonna be a disneyland there. i was like, how can singapore open disneyland when hongkong is already struggling with the number of expected customers? drove past ECP, thought of the recent night i was there. drove past bedok south. remembered that kelvin mentioned the bah chor mee there v nice. then i realised he was referring to Chai Chee. then i kept praying that God will help me keep the shit in till i reach home. =P
thank God!
had spaghetti for dinner. so Expo is having food fest. my parents bought stuff from expo. just now my dad was complaining about the gorengan i bought back. haiyo.
tue after work went for prayer meeting. there were lotsa times when i had mind blank while Canon John Benson was talking. looked thru his ppt slides before the prayer started, but couldn't remember a thing. so had to depend on his "next slide please" to get the cue. hehe knowing esther, i had to be on the alert doing projection ;)
wed went to church after work again. there was a projection training. after that went to the hall to help guorong see how to improve the layout of the ppt slides for the songs. i was supposed to do flashy stuff for the 1st song, but i could only do up text on blank background, with Worship Assistant functions. (using flash to program)
hmm.. felt that this week passed very quickly. monday we received call from client for a meeting on thurs, n thurs came very quickly! that morning met my colleague at toa payoh, to go straight to our client's office. had burger king breakfast. regret not getting the meal. cheaper than the burger itself man! discussed the revamp of a website. yay yay yay!
after that went back to tpy central to take train back. saw this stall selling nice bags n clothes.. wanted to shop but not nice to take my time during working hours la. went back to office, thought that time would pass v fast, but seemed quite slow. my life is really shortened by this client i have been complaining about. still getting comments on the design when it should be finalised. *screams n vomits blood*
went to church after work again, no purpose actually, just to help out lor. thought i could go home early. but guorong's laptop keep hanging, n he kept restarting it i felt so pek cek. went back home to bia the flash. actually hor, i do until 2am leh, but i really couldn't think of how to do the flashy stuff. was so stressed about it that night that during my sleep i felt that i was clenching my jaws very tight. on friday i felt like i couldn't chew cuz my jaws were aching. time past very fast at work n i felt a bit more joyful.
after work rushed to church. joined in the time of prayer n then guorong said we're using ppt for the first song instead. the flash i did was not used, i was a bit disappointed because afterall i spent time on it when i should be resting. but i was also relieved cuz i think wad i did was not suitable for the song.
if u ask me what i think about the worship conference, now that it's over, i would say that, i think the flow was not smooth, but it's okay, because God's presence was there. i felt it very strongly. i was also praying that God will help me to get over the disappointment, of cuz although i'm not very disappointed, still gotta pray that i WILL NOT be. this kinda thoughts must guard one.
went to set up the PRC booth when i got the cue, Tell the World. but seemed like inside still got a lot of encores. the sajc students left soon. sold a cd. felt super tired but i just gotta hang on for a few more hours!! we had to wrap up super quickly cuz the place gotta be locked up soon, n pple only came out last min. so we didn't get to promote the items to the majority. but it's okay, can't be helped.
after that i got my cell group jersey from xiao quan who ran away from me so i had to chase her. had to get it to wear on sat cuz my cell grp is wearing on sat for bball! got a ride from kelvin to the mrt. went home to sleep! gotta pack my bag for tanjung balai before that.
(though this entry is long, i still gotta share about the balai trip!! i dun wanna break it into 2 entries or else it will lose the flow!)
morning woke up early THEN told my mom i was going tj balai. haha. she gave me (LOTSA) rupiah for shopping for things for her. went to HBF to meet agape n persis at mac. had breakfast then went to Cruise Centre upstairs to check in at 9.25am. met suzanne. jianxiong was also there, to sent his parents. rushed in n boarded the ferry. saw uncle Colin too. saw more chinese cong pple. everyone seems to be going to tj balai.
went up to the top deck cuz faith was sea sick n needed a breather. in the end the whole of agape came up to take photos. tricia n vincent r the best. *winks* after 1hr 45 min of ride, we reached. phei phei n uncle Asun were there to fetch us. after some waiting, we bought tempe (winks), took the oplik to uncle asun's house to put down our stuff. played with Aimei. woohoo~! she showed me the stickers she pasted on her hand! i'm so easily elated when i see her. played with her n Weiwei her cousin cum neighbour. then we went to Indo to eat lunch at Es Teler. i was like jaw-dropping amazed at how much tj balai's standard has upped. it was renovated till like a high class cafe man! they were also playing high class songs like Fixing A Broken Heart, A Shoulder to Cry On etc... i mean, elsewhere they would be playing low class techno la. ordered Mie Ayam, very nice! n Jus Apukat (avacado juice) nice!
no time to shop so we went to church to do wad we were there for. Beauty session for the ladies' ministry! we did facial for them n massage too! before they arrived, i became a "customer" n i got high because there were a lot of agape girls waiting on me! all massaging me.. made me laugh like mad, cannot stop! then uncle asun's wife came n became the first real customer. n then another lady. n another. n another. total i think got 10? i tried to massage this really thin lady, but i really dunno how. end up just squeezing her arm. :P after persis led a short time of bible study with them (i think sharing with them the purpose of the session n what God intends for them) then the agape guys took over with fruit juice n sharing with them about nuitritions in food.
had prayer session after that. n then the team came together to share. went out for prayer walk with phei phei n paul. went out in pairs, with everyone within close distance. shared with evelyn about the background of the place as we prayed. she could feel the dispair in the pple. n she felt that the terrible physical state in the land of rubbish also shows the emotional state of their lives - rubbish. walked thru places i've never walked before. felt that this was something different. something that reminded me of what i learnt thru the Campus Crusade gen12ii thanksgiving message. if u didn't get out of ur comfort zone, if u had stayed in the comforts of sitting down n chatting, u wouldn't see what's out there in the spiritual realm. u wouldn't catch the vision.
went to visit a lady who came just now for the facial, n she asked us to pray for her daughter-in-law's father, who would be going to Medan soon. he was receptive to the prayers we said for him. =D after that we went back to the church. walked to a Nasi Uduk stall for dinner. had lotsa chicken =P my table had tricia n vincent, the best, Posers. wahaha. i did a pendulum thing with faith n evelyn, n when andrielle was about to take video of us doing that i started laughing n couldn't stop cuz i was losing the momentum. LOL. hmm.. must have been a long time since i had such a good laugh. till tears.
took the oplik back to uncle asun's house nearby. stopped to go Indo for shopping. spent a long time there n i was super stoned. was waiting for them at the entrance n i suddenly remembered one more thing my mom asked me to buy for her. so i went back to buy it. after we were all done we walked back. saw a monkey performing by the roadside. so cruel! crossed the road cuz some of them wanted to buy teh botol. then an uncle came to talk to us. he came from singapore many yrs ago, disappointed in the high cost of living n so migrated to tj balai. learnt that he's attending a catholic church in tj balai.
when we reached uncle asun's place we saw that there was a blackout. was told that electricity would be resumed soon. asked to go to the rooftop to see stars. remember pastor chi shyan's message at A Glimpse of Heaven? so sad tj balai no more stars. celebrated athe's birthday there. with Hiro cake n Go-Go drink. had a sharing session about the trip so far. n then we broke up into pairs to pray. prayed with jayne. got to know her better thru this trip. =) n everyone else too. this was my first trip as a MCG member.
paul joined us during our session though he doesn't understand 99% of wad we were talking about, but i think he wants to be part of the fun. i still remember there was once he went out late for ktv. so happening sia. i quite admire his spirit, cuz he did not leave us all the while, though he dunno wad we were talking about. but he was just observing us. n gabriel shared with us n with him that he admires him cuz he saw him fall down today n picked himself up. u may think that what's the big deal? but he's a handicapped. he gets around by using crutches, n crawling whenever crutches were inconvenient. so think back about what i mentioned about him staying out late for ktv.
electricity was still not restored, so most of us were unwilling to bathe, in the dark. i bathed with a candle. o.0 uncle asun received an emergency call. cailing's sister-in-law had fainted, so he went over to pray for her. so while i was bathing i heard someone banging on the door of the house n i felt quite afraid. there was a sense of urgency n fear at the banging of the door. it was cailing, with news that her sister-in-law had not woken yet. we told her that uncle asun had gone over to her place to pray for her sister-in-law. it was 10+pm.
the team gathered to pray for her, cuz we learnt that she was actually under spiritual attack. i felt that i could do nothing but keep praying in tongues. dun ask me y i mention this, but i just really felt helpless at that time. could only pray for God to do something. while we were praying, around 12+am, electricity came back n we had the comfort of having the fan blowing at us. we continued to pray cuz we know that the battle was not over yet. then electricity went off again. we prayed even harder. after a while we started to give thanks n celebrated God's victory over the evil spirits. we sang Shine Jesus Shine n then electricity came back again!! WOW! we received news that the lady has been sent to hospital safely. we shared about what we sensed during the prayer. some of them sensed that there could be spiritual attacks on our families while we were waging war in prayer. i had also suddenly thought about my sister during the prayer. uncle asun came back from the hospital n told us that the lady was demon-possessed, n scratched him n Tai-cek. but she's fine now. YAY! during this time of intense prayer with agape i felt that this is a really prayerful cell grp. the evil spirits of tj balai must have been afraid of God's holiness in them that they stirred up trouble during their stay here.
soon we turned in. wiky came home quite late. learnt that he's working now. didn't get to talk to him. i fell asleep v quickly.
next morning first thing i woke up n thanked God i didn't get any mosquito bites this time!! washed up.. packed up n went out for breakfast near the market. faith told me that i was grinding my teeth soon after i fell asleep. haha.. i thought i stopped doing that. hmm~ (stress??) jayne was so touched when tricia bought her soya bean milk n you tiao. ate carrot cake n martabak too. the pple there very nice, allow us to bring "Outside food" into their coffeeshops one! n i was really impressed by their creativity of converting an old unused television into a fish tank!! andrielle sweet-talked the coffeeshop aunty into taking photo with us n giving us discount the next time we come. =P
faith was telling me about Ragdoll while we walked thru the market after breakfast. faith n jayne bought slippers. i also wanted to buy, but dun have my size. very nice lor the slippers there. went back to the house to prepare to go church for sunday school. Adeline (my zoe tay) reached last min, we were worried n wondering if anything cropped up. she n phei phei led the children in worship. i joined in too. saw some new faces. sigh... have been going often, but i can't remember most of their names. can only remember bena, elisa, timotius, matius, ah heng, ah qing, ah yan, shanti, ezekiel, daniel..
went upstairs to join agape lead teaching session for the younger kids. they were doing noah's ark. gabriel n vincent n persis left first. we did a colouring session. the children coloured pictures of animals cut out n pasted on a paper plate to act as a mask. we were asking for a volunteer to ask as Noah, but none of the boys were willing. finally a handsome young man volunteered. we were all very happy. after acting out the children lost their attention on the story. so we ended it by giving goodie bags to them n dismissed them with a prayer by Ibu Aniong.
waited for the bus to come fetch us. stopped at phei phei's house to pick up kites for persis. really cheap man!! hahaa.. went to a bak kut teh shop near the jetty for lunch. it was a good meal! but didn't have time to finish all the food. haiz. boarded the ferry, didn't get to find a whole row of seats so we were all split up. fell asleep on the ferry. hmm.. faith was seasick but this time i didn't go out to pei her. feel a bit bad.. hope she's ok... bought a lot of fried stuff but didn't get to eat them on the ferry.
asked my dad to fetch me home. it was pouring heavily so when he came he wanted to sit down for a cup of tea first. then i felt FoS. wanted to go home. my dad drove past Marina south, saw this newly opened golf club. my dad said there's gonna be a disneyland there. i was like, how can singapore open disneyland when hongkong is already struggling with the number of expected customers? drove past ECP, thought of the recent night i was there. drove past bedok south. remembered that kelvin mentioned the bah chor mee there v nice. then i realised he was referring to Chai Chee. then i kept praying that God will help me keep the shit in till i reach home. =P
thank God!
had spaghetti for dinner. so Expo is having food fest. my parents bought stuff from expo. just now my dad was complaining about the gorengan i bought back. haiyo.
Monday, September 04, 2006
:: ok day ::
today started bad as well, but got better la. it isn't always true that a bad start will end bad too.
today 2 clients came.. at the same time. wah that was really stressful for me cuz i needed to attend to both at the same time. wad's worse was when the phone rang in the middle of the meeting.
so far okay la, the proj i have been dreading n dragging myself through is going to end SOON. by this week i hope. then the other proj... haiyo ah. postponed, but still got yet another proj to do first (by same client).
i really feel that life has halted because of the worship conference. like i can't do anything i wan during this period. n i can do ANYTHING after that. after 8th sept, i'm going to do these: go tanjung balai, buy bass amp, swim, meet up with friends, work on a free lance proj, clean up my room, do foot massage, go ladies' retreat, go hongkong, go on mission trips!
speaking of bass amp. wanted to go buy today, but feel that it's not urgent. i can use my hi-fi anyway. wanted to go Trumpet Praise to buy the book i wanted for a month. Asia Time Bomb.. but when i reached dhoby ghaut i realised i shld let esther know, in case i can help do anything there. she said she's also going there, offered to help me pick up the book. so i u-turned back home (on the NEL). maybe i u-turned too fast. maybe i shld still go. can buy other stuff anyway.
feels like i didn't accomplish wad i wanted to.
today 2 clients came.. at the same time. wah that was really stressful for me cuz i needed to attend to both at the same time. wad's worse was when the phone rang in the middle of the meeting.
so far okay la, the proj i have been dreading n dragging myself through is going to end SOON. by this week i hope. then the other proj... haiyo ah. postponed, but still got yet another proj to do first (by same client).
i really feel that life has halted because of the worship conference. like i can't do anything i wan during this period. n i can do ANYTHING after that. after 8th sept, i'm going to do these: go tanjung balai, buy bass amp, swim, meet up with friends, work on a free lance proj, clean up my room, do foot massage, go ladies' retreat, go hongkong, go on mission trips!
speaking of bass amp. wanted to go buy today, but feel that it's not urgent. i can use my hi-fi anyway. wanted to go Trumpet Praise to buy the book i wanted for a month. Asia Time Bomb.. but when i reached dhoby ghaut i realised i shld let esther know, in case i can help do anything there. she said she's also going there, offered to help me pick up the book. so i u-turned back home (on the NEL). maybe i u-turned too fast. maybe i shld still go. can buy other stuff anyway.
feels like i didn't accomplish wad i wanted to.
Sunday, September 03, 2006
:: bad day ::
today woke up with a bad start.
still very tired. thought i slept enough. was really struggling to listen to Graham Hendrick preach. hmm.. let me recall what was his points.
be a : 1) secret worshipper, 2) sustained worshipper, 3) i lost him there.
haha.. very happy to see elaine come.
had cake n lunch in church. meeting for worship conference publicity.. end up with nothing. i'm contented la, but some of them prefer to push for more.
thomas tried to influence me to study further. i was 0% interested in studying at first, but now hmm.. probably have 5% hope. from the way i hear pple talk abt uni life, i told myself that i'm not going uni. uni is such a... corrupted place.
my mom wanted me to buy dinner back for her, but i didn't want to, so she got angry n slammed the phone. i was really not in the mood to go anywhere unless my parents r going. went home to sleep.
this is a bad day for me. a little dreading tmr.. cuz i really must finish the proj tmr.
still very tired. thought i slept enough. was really struggling to listen to Graham Hendrick preach. hmm.. let me recall what was his points.
be a : 1) secret worshipper, 2) sustained worshipper, 3) i lost him there.
haha.. very happy to see elaine come.
had cake n lunch in church. meeting for worship conference publicity.. end up with nothing. i'm contented la, but some of them prefer to push for more.
thomas tried to influence me to study further. i was 0% interested in studying at first, but now hmm.. probably have 5% hope. from the way i hear pple talk abt uni life, i told myself that i'm not going uni. uni is such a... corrupted place.
my mom wanted me to buy dinner back for her, but i didn't want to, so she got angry n slammed the phone. i was really not in the mood to go anywhere unless my parents r going. went home to sleep.
this is a bad day for me. a little dreading tmr.. cuz i really must finish the proj tmr.
Saturday, September 02, 2006
:: another all-out weekend ::
hmm.. my msn nick was "vomits blood". seriously, at work, sometimes stress gets to me that i feel suffocated, hard to breathe. i tend to need to take in big gasps of air in those moments. and that stress period was supposed to be over on 21st aug 2006. dragged till friday still haven't complete. not my fault lor. i totally can't visualise what client wants. "design cannot be too boxy." i did a 7th version of the design already la! friday was better at work because thursday was so bad i kept praying for help.
n now my msn nick is "where is the cat?" because everyday on my way to work i always pass by this patch of land and there is a resident cat. it will always be there, just a matter of which part of there. so kinda like Where's Wally, i try to look for the cat everyday. kind of a game to me ba.
hmm okok back to my all-out weekend. after work on fri i took train to city hall.. walked to bras basah since esther n elena hadn't reached yet. went to check out the bass amps at sweelee. the guy recommended a $210 Peavey bass amp. tested it n honestly i'm not knowledgeable to hear the quality. checked out the tuner too. $29.90 seiko brand. but i didn't buy. only bought a cable. yeah finally i can use it to plug into my hi-fi temporarily, before i get a proper amp. i learnt that the converter is to plug into the hi-fi Out hole and plug my earphones. Not directly into my bass. LOL. it was amazing that i could test the stuff n make purchase within 10 min.
walked back to the raffles city shopping centre to meet them since they've reached already. after thinking so long where to eat, we decided to eat at a jap restaurant. the food is affordable and GOOD! they give real scallops man! haha got shocked by esther's "fickle-mindedness". now i know~
went to MIX for dessert and meeting. the atms at the basement were unable to dispense cash. amazing. good thing there's a DBS bank at level 1. guorong arrived. bought a Matcha Wow. not bad.. but i think it was the guava that made it sour. soya whipped cream! woah~ had our PRC meeting. it was a good time of sharing.
after that took bus to jeremy's place. saw an accident at telok blangah. an NTUC truck smashed into a pillar. there were many police vehicles, ambulances, firetruck. n many kaypos watching. LOL.
when i reached his place they were making pancakes and talking about the game they were playing earlier. Cranium. it was a 84 vs 86 game. haha. fellowshipped n then started a new round of Cranium. quite an intellectual game. i didn't do much except roll the die. but the game was fun. haha.
after that was ahpek session. over absolut peach. goes nice with 7-up. n some lemon thing brandon recommended. took a shot of that. n then jeffrey arrived with hoegarden n stella artois. do they go together or what? i like hoegarden.
we had a good, Godly discussion about relationships, marriage, wedding, money, cost of living in Singapore... talked till 6am. by then i really couldn't open my eyes anymore. then we went up to jeremy's room to slp. diana n i squeezed on the bed. lol.
i woke up at 9.10am. feeling FoS. couldn't go back to slp. saw weiyang also feeling terrible. he thinks he got food poisoning cuz he just got it one month ago. must be the buffet he had. i didn't tell my parents that i was not going home last night. =x so this morning called to notify my mom.
watched National Geographic. wow. i love documentaries. (more n more like my ah lian liao) watched this Hunter Hunted. a man killed by a dingo on Fraser Island. one shouldn't run when he sees a wild dog-like animal. the predator will sense the fear of a prey and will give chase. the scientists were trying to understand whether or not he was killed by the dingo using forensic deductions. after that there's this show The Living Edens. Featuring Canyonlands and the animals in it. The way they survive. i dun like scavenging birds. i dun like to watch them swoop over poor little animals and feeding on them. so i switched off the tv n nodded off to slp.
jeffrey went home n came back with his car n woke me up with his entrance to the house. had a little headache. waited for diana then we went off to Seah Im. had breakfast. kelvin left his hp at jeremy's place. but we managed to meet there. he took very fast to reach sia. n then after a short debate to go sentosa or not, we decided to go ahead. i was still wondering if i should renew my Islander membership. trying to consider if i will get to use it often enough to make it worth.
drove into siloso beach carpark. ben joined us there. walked a long way to the beach. lotsa pple sia. found a spot to nua. napped whenever i could. started playing frisbee. then borrowed a volleyball from a neighbouring group. jeff n diana know some pple from there. wow. the whole day they keep meeting pple they know la. lol. haha did some stunts with the volleyball. like the power punch, the header, n uh.. that's it. fun. went down into the water to get cooled for a while. n then continued to play volleyball. saw some disgusting men in their underwear. they think they can pass it off as swimming trunks. *pukes* if they were only 8 yrs old, it's still okay. i remember doing that when i was young.
jeffrey improvised the game with forfeits. we tried as much to pass the ball without dropping it as many times as we could. if we failed at 30, then the person who passed the bad ball had to do 30 squats. our goal was 50. just when he decided to give up trying for 50, we did it!! haa.. went back to our mat to nua. decided to leave at 4pm. time passed very slowly at 3.45-3.50pm. haha
went to kelvin's hse to wash up n then eat a bit at the coffeeshop. took jeff's car to potong pasir to take train home. really dead by then. took a nap, woke up, my mom cooked dinner for me. (WOW!) instant noodles la. not very well-cooked but good effort!
n now my msn nick is "where is the cat?" because everyday on my way to work i always pass by this patch of land and there is a resident cat. it will always be there, just a matter of which part of there. so kinda like Where's Wally, i try to look for the cat everyday. kind of a game to me ba.
hmm okok back to my all-out weekend. after work on fri i took train to city hall.. walked to bras basah since esther n elena hadn't reached yet. went to check out the bass amps at sweelee. the guy recommended a $210 Peavey bass amp. tested it n honestly i'm not knowledgeable to hear the quality. checked out the tuner too. $29.90 seiko brand. but i didn't buy. only bought a cable. yeah finally i can use it to plug into my hi-fi temporarily, before i get a proper amp. i learnt that the converter is to plug into the hi-fi Out hole and plug my earphones. Not directly into my bass. LOL. it was amazing that i could test the stuff n make purchase within 10 min.
walked back to the raffles city shopping centre to meet them since they've reached already. after thinking so long where to eat, we decided to eat at a jap restaurant. the food is affordable and GOOD! they give real scallops man! haha got shocked by esther's "fickle-mindedness". now i know~
went to MIX for dessert and meeting. the atms at the basement were unable to dispense cash. amazing. good thing there's a DBS bank at level 1. guorong arrived. bought a Matcha Wow. not bad.. but i think it was the guava that made it sour. soya whipped cream! woah~ had our PRC meeting. it was a good time of sharing.
after that took bus to jeremy's place. saw an accident at telok blangah. an NTUC truck smashed into a pillar. there were many police vehicles, ambulances, firetruck. n many kaypos watching. LOL.
when i reached his place they were making pancakes and talking about the game they were playing earlier. Cranium. it was a 84 vs 86 game. haha. fellowshipped n then started a new round of Cranium. quite an intellectual game. i didn't do much except roll the die. but the game was fun. haha.
after that was ahpek session. over absolut peach. goes nice with 7-up. n some lemon thing brandon recommended. took a shot of that. n then jeffrey arrived with hoegarden n stella artois. do they go together or what? i like hoegarden.
we had a good, Godly discussion about relationships, marriage, wedding, money, cost of living in Singapore... talked till 6am. by then i really couldn't open my eyes anymore. then we went up to jeremy's room to slp. diana n i squeezed on the bed. lol.
i woke up at 9.10am. feeling FoS. couldn't go back to slp. saw weiyang also feeling terrible. he thinks he got food poisoning cuz he just got it one month ago. must be the buffet he had. i didn't tell my parents that i was not going home last night. =x so this morning called to notify my mom.
watched National Geographic. wow. i love documentaries. (more n more like my ah lian liao) watched this Hunter Hunted. a man killed by a dingo on Fraser Island. one shouldn't run when he sees a wild dog-like animal. the predator will sense the fear of a prey and will give chase. the scientists were trying to understand whether or not he was killed by the dingo using forensic deductions. after that there's this show The Living Edens. Featuring Canyonlands and the animals in it. The way they survive. i dun like scavenging birds. i dun like to watch them swoop over poor little animals and feeding on them. so i switched off the tv n nodded off to slp.
jeffrey went home n came back with his car n woke me up with his entrance to the house. had a little headache. waited for diana then we went off to Seah Im. had breakfast. kelvin left his hp at jeremy's place. but we managed to meet there. he took very fast to reach sia. n then after a short debate to go sentosa or not, we decided to go ahead. i was still wondering if i should renew my Islander membership. trying to consider if i will get to use it often enough to make it worth.
drove into siloso beach carpark. ben joined us there. walked a long way to the beach. lotsa pple sia. found a spot to nua. napped whenever i could. started playing frisbee. then borrowed a volleyball from a neighbouring group. jeff n diana know some pple from there. wow. the whole day they keep meeting pple they know la. lol. haha did some stunts with the volleyball. like the power punch, the header, n uh.. that's it. fun. went down into the water to get cooled for a while. n then continued to play volleyball. saw some disgusting men in their underwear. they think they can pass it off as swimming trunks. *pukes* if they were only 8 yrs old, it's still okay. i remember doing that when i was young.
jeffrey improvised the game with forfeits. we tried as much to pass the ball without dropping it as many times as we could. if we failed at 30, then the person who passed the bad ball had to do 30 squats. our goal was 50. just when he decided to give up trying for 50, we did it!! haa.. went back to our mat to nua. decided to leave at 4pm. time passed very slowly at 3.45-3.50pm. haha
went to kelvin's hse to wash up n then eat a bit at the coffeeshop. took jeff's car to potong pasir to take train home. really dead by then. took a nap, woke up, my mom cooked dinner for me. (WOW!) instant noodles la. not very well-cooked but good effort!
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