:: errr ::

an electric bass guitar is supposed to use electricity to work ya?

i haven't got an amp... no wonder i can't hear anything from it >.<

bought a converter n plugged in my earphone to try.. but can't hear anything.. got quite panic.. wonder if the guit is spoilt or wad..

n then.. i realise..... an electric bass guitar is supposed to use electricity to work!

:: all out ::

haha fri was ALL OUT.

really enjoy the heart-to-heart talks with my colleague by the railway. feels really good. we talked about God, our lives, our views of relationships, basically everything and anything. hope she doesn't leave the company soon.

got "scolded" by our boss cuz he thought we let his dog out of the cupboard while he was not in. :S

after work i rushed to peace centre to get the pledge card for MCG stuff printed. hmm Poster Connection moved.. must have moved to sunshine plaza.. =x too long nv go print stuff :P

then walked to Little India mrt to take train home. think i reached home at 8.30pm. thought of taking a nap till 9.30pm, but decided to wake up earlier, 9pm. i was really blur sia. wanted to buy cake for jianxiong, but when i was waiting for the bus it dawned on me that shopping centre cakeshops might close early. so i panicked. kept praying that i will get to the cakeshop in time. think i was too worried la, bought a cake on impulse. then faith told me that she n rj dun really like black forest flavour.. =x i was worried that the cake was too big for us to finish, but there were no smaller size cake. so bo bian.

wah i waited for an hour i think, the shopping centre even close already, then jx arrived. drove me to meet faith n rj at Orchard Partyworld. reached around 11pm. ktv till 3am.. seems quite long, but we were quite rushing thru the songs. dun like the place sia. so run down n sleazy lor. our finale song was a grand one, it was a duet, so faith n rj sang the first half of the song, In Love With You by Jacky Cheung n Regine then jx n i took over the second half. i mean, we didn't realise that it was the last song but all of us managed to sing it.

brought the cake out for nothing. later u'll know why. after a session of indecisiveness, (all the "shui bian"s) we finally decided to go Esplanade. tried to look for a place for supper. 4 of us split up into 2 cars.. at Esplanade we took the cake out n walked to the Makan Sutra place, but it was closed already. so we decided to go geylang. went to my grandfather's beef hor fun stall. we took the cake out again, ordered 2 plates of beef "hor fun" (they gave us sang mee cuz they run out of hor fun). after eating (super salty sia) we decided to go ECP. rj wanted to ask which year i was born in, he asked, "84 or 85 ah?" wah pengz.. haha..

very funny sia, jx drove all the way on the path where only police cars patrol. wanted to reverse back into the carpark but rj was close behind la. high beam us somemore. heh.. after negotiation with rj, jx made a U-turn to go back to the car park. and then we decided to go to the jetty. went back to the car, this time all of us took jx's car and we went all the way to carpark F. super far sia. joked about leaving rj's car in ECP and let his dad come pick it the next morning (actually it was the next morning already.) took the cake out again n finally managed to sit down n sing birthday song to jx n cut cake. made him bite the candles out. haha.. we all only managed to eat half the cake.

after that went home. wah not bad i know the way back home. haha reached home at 6am. slept for 2 hours, then woke up for breakfast with my mom. prepared the pledge cards before i left home to meet gail they all in church for prayer and preparation.

thought i was late, but i wasn't! haha.. prayer started at 11.45am instead. tried to take a nap while waiting for jayne to come back n open the door, but couldn't sleep. sigh.. i'm sure rj, faith n jx had a better rest than me.. =P

i could have dozed off during the MCG mid-section training, but cannot la. huiting guessed i am 24 yrs old. lol. oh yah.. judy's boyfriend's friend's girlfriend also guessed my age older.

got my bass guitar from nelson today!! (what, u mean i never mentioned in my wishlist that i wanted a bass guitar??) i've been wanting to learn since poly days man! haha..

after the MCG thing, i joined my cell for a while. then went to sajc for PRC setup.

:: feast! ::

wow.. i really feel v honoured today.. got to meet the HPL hotels people.. Hard Rock Hotel! discussed some Maldives hotel website development.. exchanged namecards (felt like exchanging ang pows) haha.. v shiok.. didn't feel that i have to mind my behavior too much, it was quite casual chit chat.

then Vijesh, one of the staff, treated us to lunch at Hard Rock Cafe!! woohoo! my first time there.. felt quite sleepy immediately after the meal haha..

after work went to heeren.. forgot to bring my hp =P celebrated judy's birthday! her bf gave a treat at NYDC.. felt quite sian of western food already.. n cakes. heh.

went to Club 21.. let her choose wadever she wants.. she chose a mac game for her new mac.. haha she was so happy..

carl gave me a lift home and they all head out for drinks. last night also, missed the chance to hang out n have drinks.. but got work to do la. tired. almost done!!!

another birthday celebration tmr. really all out liao.

:: Sabbath ::

woo.. just an application from what i learnt from the book, i went to take a stroll today after work. had plans to celebrate kelvin's bday at 8.30pm, so i was too early after work. somemore MCG meeting cancelled cuz of low attendance.

went to check out the ktv pubs near my office, to find out their rates. felt like a kuku man. they dun have rooms one lor, so public singing. then just order drinks and u can sing already. felt quite silly.

walked to chinatown, went to people's park to look for shampoo, but didn't buy anything. walked to china sq, acts lifestyle to look for book, but no stock. walked to boat quay, wanted to go esplanade park, but it was dangerously dark already, so i didn't. went through old parliament house. it was quite fun exploring places.. hehe.. heard boats chugging away at boat quay, found a "hidden" mosque in the middle of the CBD, a string of spider web swing past in front of a street lamp, saw a kitten hiding in the drain at near parliament hse, a pigeon trying to fall asleep in between the "Corinthian" columns (patterned pillars) tried to take photo, but it flew away when i went nearer.

actually lost my way at the padang, didn't know how to get to dhoby ghaut from there. so just nice got a sign describing the Raffles district. so i learnt that i shld cut through to armenian street, where i found the Substation.. so happy! wanted to go find out where it is since a long time ago.. went to fill myself with design brochures.

continued to walk, through SMU to Cathay Cineplex. at SMU i got myself an Oreo Surprise from Mr Tea. guess the guys r from Dubai.. my drink was so tall that i struggled to finish it before i went up to Ben & Jerry's. it was a great time with my cell grp.. kelvin jieling n jeremy performed.. we had ice cream.. aloysius n aijia were there too.

wanted to join them for drinks after that, but decided to go home. gotta finish up a video before sat.. n i got a feeling that i'm not slping on fri night...

tmr going to meet clients!

:: pepper lunch ::

so happy that i got to bring my mom to pepper lunch for dinner. (*weird stares*) treated her to a meal n she was so happy, she offered to treat me dessert, breakfast... haha

but because of the dessert - i can't have sweet stuff before i sleep - i couldn't sleep! tossed and turned for a full hour before i managed to doze off.

hmm.. been reading Esther's book, The Rest of God.. it's wonderful. picking up reading now. i'll be using the new notebook to jot down learning points! actually ah, i'm really bad at making notes.. i forgot since when, i tried to read the book of Psalms and making notes for each chapter.. i've stopped at chapter 66 and hadn't progressed.. i can read, no prob, but difficult to jot down learning points. i'll get back to Psalms n pick up writing again, after i finished reading my last 6 chapters of Job.

:: oops ::

haha i missed out thurs.

persis smsed me on wed that phei phei is coming to singapore, so she asked if anyone is free for dinner on thurs.

supposed to meet at PS, since her ferry arrives at 6pm.. so i took the train at outram park, and then i called persis. she then told me that pheiphei's ferry will arrive at 8pm instead, so i took the train back to harbourfront.

accompanied persis to shop.. haha.. tried on a few pieces of clothes.. then at 8pm we made our way to the cruise centre to pick phei phei up. uncle asun is also there. phei phei actually came to singapore for some children's seminar at St Andrew's Cathedral.

we had dinner at Han's.. eat until v bloated man. uncle asun shared abt his vietnam trip.. makes me wanna go man!! asked him abt Frenky.. heard that he's fatter now.. haha..

took the NEL with them.. felt as if it was very late already, but actually quite early.

:: Psalmist + Sound Retreat ::

18/8 - 20/8

haha if u ask anyone they will tell u..all i did at the retreat is daidee n bridge!! haha.. i learnt to play bridge last yr at sentosa, with yun, belly n kwek.. but the game rule is so confusing, i forgot totally how to play. haha.. this time my advisor is none other than chris chan wor! :P

went for the retreat on fri.. haven't packed till the last min. after work i went to outram park mrt n decided to call my dad, c if he can pick me up. so we went for dinner at tekka mall. then shopping in mustafa.. haha.. after that, around 9pm reached home. showered, packed my bag n smsed nic. he called to tell me to try to catch the 10.15pm coasta sands shuttle bus at pasir ris. woah. this, i must really thank God.. because i reached the bus stop at pasir ris at 10.10pm.. by the time i walked over to the pick up point the bus was nearly leaving without me. then i saw lin feng n thomas on the bus.

1st night did nothing much, except daidee :P decided to slp early cuz i had work that day.. makes me tired. but couldn't slp lar. noisy paul chow n terry.. :P think they quietened after 2am..? next morning woke up early. had breakfast prepared by chef malcolm n waited for more pple to arrive. played some mass games to mix around.. n esther n melissa (sound) led worship. after that slack.. play games.. lunch.. play games.. slack.. play games.. haha.. it started to pour heavily. so we played station games indoors.

one of the station games was "mouth wide shut". it was killer for me. the rule of the game is simply cannot laugh. how i can not laugh at such situations? i was so relieved after 5 min of tahan-ing. then we played animal game. i find that game v stressful man! after that station my grp (chris me n ruijie) moved to charades by jon yap. first topic for the other team was fast food.. damn funny. how do u act out yoshinoya n mos burger?! jeremy even guessed ramly burger, mcspicy double etc. lol. rj acted out movie titles n i suck at guessing. chris acted out song titles n rj was the one who gets them right. i acted out cartoon characters n chris was impressed that i know how to act all of them.

the last station.. oh man. was endurance test. half-squat position for 20 min. chris went down with dongwen first.. then me.. then the rest stayed to the full 20 min. impressive! after that we had a last mass game outside. peeling fruits without hands. there were orange, grapes, longans, apple, rambutans. it was salivating gross. at the end of peeling the guys had to eat the fruit la! oh ya, there's one girl in each team so we r the ones to hold the fruit for them to peel. hehe.

went back to slack n play games till chi shyan n wee lee arrived. it was so easy to fall into the stone mood.. struggled to keep focus. after pastor's sharing, we had a time of ministry sharing. i shared my vision for the Psalmist ministry n how i felt encouraged by the ministry. it was long session man. my butt aches after the half-squat game. then we had our chef prepare bbq food for us. didn't do much.. didn't eat much too. but i felt F.O.S. went inside to slack n play bridge. haha oh man that's when i started to play the whole night. pausing only to sing birthday song n eat dessert.. lol. i was still blur with the game la. think all the other players v pek cek with me haha.. n thomas is still the one talking nonsense all the time. i suspect he got drunk n high. he was totally siao while we watched the stephen chow show la.

think we stopped playing around 3+am. went out for a walk.. to stretch my aching butts. then went to slp. next morning checked out at 10.20am.. took the shuttle bus back to pasir ris n took train with my cell grp (those who were still around the last day) back to church. reached at 11.50am.. haha.. felt really blessed by the chance to talk to some pple during the retreat n even after. i dun mean abt myself la.

went for lunch at marina sq food court.. starting to love the place, though i always get lost there. decided to walk to esplanade park to find bus to take home. couldn't find, so i walked to clarke quay mrt station. was a hot day, but i really felt peaceful n joyful. =) really feels good to have the time to take a stroll. oh n i celebrated my birthday this yr at esplanade park, which makes it even more memorable. hehe..

took afternoon nap, which explains why i am still awake now. had a weird dream. hmm..

hmm.. wanna thank God for another thing.. which i'm not going to reveal yet.. because His plan is still unfolding. thank God that things happen in His time. i may have down periods, but i was really surprised at the rate God healed me! i mean, in the past i would have dwelled in self-pity, depression for a long time, but now, it's different!

:: Planetshakers ::

friday went for Planetshakers concert at the Expo.. it wasn't very confirmed until the day itself. shirley (bong) was late.. *hor hor* the concert was great.. haha.. got a goodie bag n sat at the back.. inside the goodie bag got a Planetshakers balloon (cool!), face chalk (for drawing on the body), party stuff like whistles n an envelope that says Open Only Upon Instructed.

bought kelvin a Planetshakers CD cuz i lost his Reflector in thailand. liz suggested that as a way of compensation. (relieved!) i myself bought a CD + DVD for $50.. haha.. i wouldn't have spent that money if i weren't earning. but i think it's worth it. got their autographs on the CD.. *smirks*

went home to rest. spent sat morning to afternoon editing the video for sunday publicity. went for combined cell grp.. but left shortly after that for worship prac. realised i forgot to ask for the songlist so i asked Melissa to help me find songs. was worried that the van would leave without us cuz it would take a big round to get to SAJC side. n i dun wanna climb the gate at the bridge! woah. there was a blackout halfway during setup.

after prac went home to do some final editing of the video. couldn't find my cd-rw.. wondering if i left it at kel's place on sun?

sun reached 2nd! haha.. cuz my dad was going to work so he dropped me in church. tricia was 1st.. Chris 3rd! haha.. service was happening. i find this time jayne's msg v interesting.. =P about Pergamum. i'm really curious abt the historical structures around that area.. hmm~

after service went for lunch with cell grp at Tanjong Pagar. bah kut teh.. very pepperish soup. after that jeffrey dropped me n yongqiang at Harbourfront. went home to slp. then woke up around 5+pm to go out meet singles' club. michael suggested marina south steamboat at first, but i saw a marina sq brochure at the bedside.. so i asked him can change to marina sq instead. :P

had dinner at Changing Appetite. went there with camp comm last yr. ordered Seafood combo for 3 n cookie n cream slinkie. haha.. eat until v full.. think i got indigestion that night. couldn't really slp.

but incredibly i can wake up earlier than usual in the morning. shared with my colleague abt the sermon. i'm glad Focus5 website's design is finalised!! dreaded it man. i realise this month i haven't done any EDMs. been doing full websites. cool!

after work took train to cck. saw landy. forgot that he's in PJ (oops!) felt sick since the afternoon. i suspect it's the water at my office. possibility quite low la, cuz it's boiled water. shouldn't have prob right? but tasted like insecticide.. =S went to try to throw up but nothing came out. felt my throat very painful so i went to buy water. didn't realise jianxiong was eating alone. didn't have appetite so i ate only one plate of sushi at Suki. faith n ruijie were almost late. but we bought movie tickets for the movie Click already. thought it would be v touching. seems like i placed my expectation too high again. it was funny la.. but quite crude too. haha.

after the movie faith was v worried cuz i looked paler than usual. in the end after some "nagging" (hee) we went to rj's place. his mom made hot milo for me. hehe.. played the Planetshakers cd n just chillout la. sorry that i kept wanting to go home early. jx wanted to go for supper but i cannot make it anymore. he bo bian had to send me home. then rj sent faith home.

the next day (tue) i still felt terrible. no appetite for lunch though i need a break. my colleague prayed for healing. thank God! (though i kinda wish i can really fall sick n take leave officially - oops) got a new website to design. so happy!

went to dhoby ghaut to wait for hx. realised that the Apple shop is no longer there. saw lin feng. haha.. walked to Cine to continue to wait for hx. went into the Club 21 (shop selling Apple stuff la, not club.) n felt sick again. that place intimidates me. so high-techy. decided to go outside to rest. finally hx arrived. was quite impatient cuz i wanted to go her place to watch the Planetshakers dvd together. n i wanted to go home early after that. so her friend drove us to waffletown in bukit timah to takeaway chicken wings.

finally reached her place at 9pm. felt quite motivated n not so stressed anymore (abt the visuals lor). her "driver" sent me home, with her accompanying. this morning i woke up in disgust. HOW CAN U GIVE HIM MY NUMBER!!!

felt better today.. not so nauseous anymore. but quite blur la. i forgot to ask for no chilli when i ordered my lunch. end up quite sian of eating. after work supposed to go Trumpet Praise to choose books n cds for PRC, but esther postponed it to monday. good also la. today go home early. but on the train i felt sick again. i wonder if i'm actually train-sick.

Listening to Planetshakers album right now. =)

:: thanks ::

*widens my mind*

met a japanese client on tue at tiong bahru, and met ting after that. accompanied her for dinner at Thai Express. then walked around cuz she wanted to get clothes for party that night. went to Dallas' place for fish & chips party. thought it was going to be overnight cuz the next day is a public hol. hmm.. getting over the upsetting part. his place is really cool. he gave a 10 min intro to his home theatre. really very enlightening. got to sit on the "vibrating" chair.

my mom bought the Watson's footspa massager. lazy to take photo of it n upload la. used it the next day.

had a meeting with MCG on national day evening. didn't get to c fireworks at all. aww.. but okay la.

the meeting was really exciting. we went to SMU n did research on the internet to link global revivals to our mission purpose. at GoFest Asia, Joseph Chian mentioned that now is an exciting time for Asia! before i reveal too much details, just wanna say that i learnt alot. what was mentioned in Revelations, the last book of the Bible, written in New Testament times (AD) was also written in Ezekial, Old Testament times (BC). and i'm also trying to figure out if Jerusalem is really at the CENTRE of the earth!

hmm.. conclusion? come for mid-section with MCG on 26 Aug!

gotta start doing video editing now.

anyway, really, thanks all of u who care!

a last note: here's some headlines of an email i received -

It costs Venita Njovu $1.60 a month to send her children to school. Pocket change for most of us, but worth about two days of food for her four children. It is, she says, the only way her children will ever rise above the disaster that awaits nearly every child growing up in this part of Zambia.

“For the last eight years, I didn’t know what it was like to buy shoes for my
children,” Alfredo Jiménez remarked about life before a micro-enterprise loan. He now plans to pay for his daughters’ college tuition.

Care for others like Jesus cares for u!
here's some links: http://www.children.org, http://www.projlife.com and http://www.worldvision.org

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feeling depressed right now. this entry is going to be quite personal to me.

in spite of that, i wanna thank God for answering my prayer. well, i haven't had my period for more than 2 months already. i was worried, though it's an inconvenience. started to get serious abt my health n prayed abt it. i ever wondered if i shld ever have children in future. i mean it's like, what if they turn away from the right path? what if they end up in hell? what if they actually do things that lead pple to hell? i was not hopeful for the future. but then there's the other side. my children could turn out leading pple the right way. they could be the hope for the future. seems like i think far huh. but i just prayed that i wun be barren la.

hmm. felt v hurt last night. cuz i went to meet ting to get my vcd back. i was also blaming myself for forgetting to bring a good movie. i even bought a movie that i find funny and good to watch. in the end no, we aren't watching those. normally i would have been okay abt that. i guess it was the high expectation that i had, that pple would enjoy the movies i brought. i guess it was the tone that hurt me. n i cried all the way home. i do enjoy watching 16 Blocks, but i didn't realise that we were just going to watch one movie.

i also felt very stressed out when they played the Hillsong United dvd. i watched the visuals n i started to cry. i wish i could quit. no i dun mean my job.

i just feel that i need to take time to heal.

and uh. Hurt people hurt people. so, sorry.

:: 21st bday ::

haha no la i'm not 21 yet.. still got less than a yr to go. but my mom "popped the question" just now: how do i want to celebrate?

she suggested booking a chalet.. clichè~. i asked her, "do you rem how (my sis) celebrated hers?" she went to europe. so my mom asked, so u want to go europe ah? mentioned that i've never been there before, so i am interested to go. she replied that she also never went before. sounds like we'll be going together. =P

anyway. haha long update. >.< no la.

hmm. wed had meeting with worship conference pub team pple. wanted to end by 8.30pm, but ended at 9+pm instead. bought chicken n calamari from the British takeaway at Raffles City Shopping Centre basement. not bad, but couldn't finish.

thurs went for sectional training after work. 1st to reach!! =) this time i wasn't very lost. (usually i am) cuz we were talking about harvest event.

fri wanted to go home early. but decided to get my thai cds back from Chihiro, so went to Chinatown Point to meet her, have dinner then go home together. went to her place to get my cds, but had to wait for her to finish copying them. walked home. by the time i reached home it was close to 11pm. tired sia. did the pub video halfway then went to rest.

sat woke up quite early la. i mean, it's a sat, i usually sleep in la. had breakfast with my parents then went back home to work on the video somemore. dunno y pple think video v easy to do. sigh. if there's a choice i would let others do video. complained to my sis abt it. i shouldn't be so unhappy to do God's work.

went for cell grp. walked all the way to SAJC to pass the video to the projectionist. n walked all the way back to join my cell to slack n wait for the soccer guys to go for dinner. i like walking, but it's very sian to walk to the bridge only to find it locked n turn back to walk another way.

had dinner at Amk. miss my sch area. haha. went home to iron my clothes. (ya ya, i seldom do that)

sun brought my Christian message t-shirt for liz. hmm.. during service there was altar call for those who feel tired out. i was a BIT tired out for More to This Life, but my involvement is not as heavy as the coming pub - which is killing me. yes i have to admit that i am harbouring resentment. my perspective is wrong. i need to be corrected. maybe it's just that this week i happen to be occupied with different things, i haven't been going home straight after work, i haven't been sleeping at 10pm punctually. but thank God for jac for praying for me.

had lunch with kelvin, jeremy, n malcolm. had teh-o ice kosong.. >.< no sugar added!! went to harbourfront to meet judy to get my laptop back. her friend gave me a lift to kelvin's hse. had meeting there n steamboat dinner. ate until super bloated. stayed back to help clean up n wash the dishes n terry opened my laptop's iTunes n found lotsa techno tracks. haha the old days la. really v long nv touch those songs n my laptop liao! =P we all (jeremy, tricia, malcolm, kelvin, terry n myself)slacked for a while in kelvin's room, listened to Hillsong United songs n singing to them.

we went to 7-eleven to get icecream yoghurt (but dun have). settled for ice cream. =P

today boss is not around again. Val came. discussion is getting better. i'm influencing my colleague to like thai songs! =P realise that my whole company (4 of us) likes to go thailand. haha.

looking forward to Fish n Chips tmr. *winks*

:: wah still online ::

so late liao still online.. tmr work die liao.

i resolve to make better use of my working hours. to serve my boss as faithfully as i'm serving my Lord. feel bad cuz i did some personal stuff during working hours these few days.. before he even thinks of sacking me, i must improve!

went shopping after work today.. bought 2 pants for $32. very happy.

today then i realised that Pearl Centre is NOT zhen zhu fang!!!! People's Park is!

oh yah. my whole family is working now. my mom found a job about 3 weeks ago. :P sorry for the late news ya.

went for prayer meeting after shopping.. haha sang some happening songs. I still dunno who's the guy who preached today.