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Friday, September 30, 2005

:: this week ::

monday went out with singles' club to orchard to shop for weiting's present.. her birthday was on monday itself, but i haven't been able to find time to get her present.. they were shocked to noe that i bought a roteiro for her last yr.. haha.. n that she bought a scorpion for me.. (i'm talking about soccer ball here) on monday itself i already know what i wan to get.. juz had to go n choose a design.. wanted to get john's birthday present as well.. but no time.. hmm~

tue after work went to look for ting cuz she was waiting for me at south canteen. gave her the present.. then wendy and michael helped me buy john's present cuz the shop closing soon.. met them at dhoby ghaut.. took very long to decide wad to eat for dinner. michael bought a army t-shirt for his hp.. haha.. we settled at Thai Express. weiting very impressive.... order double portion of noodles...!! i can't do that lor! yeah... then went home liao.. hmm~

wed delivered john's present to him.. haha.. hope he likes it.. after work went to geylang haha.. wendy n michael r there.. went to look for my grandfather's stall.. he used to sell great beef hor fun.. but there were funny things going around the family.. the workers there don't even know me. hmm~ went home to reformat my comp.. very pek cek cuz i keep kena virus n popups once i connect to the internet to activate my windows.. very irritating.. then i think around 1+? i went to slp.

thur went to meet elena linfeng jasmine chihiro thomas n samuel to watch Corpse Bride at shaw lido.. wanted to watch cuz it's animation.. haha.. very long nv watch movie also. but the storyline quite weak. if it's supposed to be funny, then i think it failed. it's not exactly scary too.. i can't stand the fact that it's not meaningful at all.. haha.. went home with chihiro... got to know her better.. hmm~

today boss brought us to bishan for lunch.. then gave us our pay.. very happy hehehehe..

Wednesday, September 28, 2005

:: dilemma ::

hmm.. my boss wants to employ me even after attachment. i also want to continue working, because it helps to build up my portfolio, besides, i learn new things everyday... i also can get pay..

but..

yday he called up my school the pple in-charge... they told him tt i need rest, it's not advisible to work while studying.. it's not advisible to burn up my holidays. i do feel tt i need break... in fact it's very depressing if i have no break lor..

so last night i calculated my money flow.. i can be satisfied after getting this month's pay, but if i wanna buy stuff like running shoes, etc etc it'll be good if i can work longer.. besides, after attachment my pay wun be PEANUTS anymore..

anyway now tt i've got holidays, i realise tt i cannot go abroad during my weekends. i muz be around in church becuz i'm committed to camp comm. i told my parents i got holiday n my mom suggested going phuket.. i asked if i can go alone, my dad was enthusiastic abt it, but she say better not. sigh~ if i go alone my sis can bring me go clubbing hahaha...

i realise i haven't really asked God wad i shld do abt my holidays..

Saturday, September 24, 2005

:: update ::

PMS is over... yeah~!!!! =D

tues same thing at work... =x after work went to bishan to look at the FunkyB t-shirts.. but i was reluctant to buy cuz of the cost. i feel tt a t-shirt isn't worth more than $24 lor. at $24 i wld already be v reluctant to buy. the designs not bad la.. maybe i can do my own :P juz tt the printing of the t-shirts is a problem. yeah i forgot to mention i tried to buy a starhub prepaid topup card to call my sis on monday, but i went to tampines remember? by the time i reached punggol plaza the shop selling the card was closed. so i went on tues n topped-up my prepaid card. it'll expire in next yr march. those of u who wants my number pls sms my current number. no i'm not changing number, but i'm gonna have an extra card so tt i can use the free sms there to sms u all hahah.. it's good to have my extra number so tt in case u receive a msg from me by that number u will know it's me. ya then that night i talked to my sis for only 8 minutes then my card no value liao.. sigh~

wed boss joined us for lunch. so poor thing, no partner to eat lunch with him. went to church after work for worship conference prac.. v tired. nothing much leh.. wore a v big shirt cuz elena thinks i'm feminine. heh! hahahaa.. i'm ah beng ok.

thur boss brought us to a printing company to learn more abt print. i brought a notebook n pen n felt v pissed with myself for forgetting to bring IDN magazine cuz i had questions to ask abt printing abt the magazine. had lunch at bendemeer food centre hoho shiok. had mince meat noodles, chwee kuey, n soya beancurd ;D~~ hehehehe called my mom to ask her wad's gd to eat there cuz she went there b4.. then my mom called back excitedly becuz she realise that when i called her my photo appears on her phone screen. haha.. after work i grabbed some snacks off my office n took cab to church.

during the worship conference day 01, i felt tt it's a time to draw close to God for myself, (day 02 is a time to draw non-believers to God) it was great cuz as brent chambers asked us to stretch out hands out n lift our burdens to God, i was thinking abt my past hurts... after tt i set up last minute psalmist resource corner while Brent was singing "be still and know that I am God" i found it v difficult to be still when in the back of my mind i have a duty to do n i keep thinking, "is it time to go set up the table already?" then i went back with julian. i was still alive when i reached home la, can still do my daily weights, my quiet time.

on friday i was like thinking this week passes damn fast la.. but then can't wait to get off work. when i finally did i was quite worried i'll be v late cuz i don't have enuf money to catch cab so i had to find atm. i'm glad it didn't take v long for the cab to arrive la. it was like $1 cheaper than yday. haha.

worship conference day 02. i wasn't v excited. i dunno y, but i was burdened to pray against spiritual warfare. becuz the devil acts whenever we try to outreach. brent chambers was supposed to share on some topic but last minute due to Holy Spirit's prompting he shared something else. it's good to not follow a schedule. but itz difficult to communicate. i was worried tt the non-christians dun understand what he's saying becuz i myself dun understand v well... i find his accent v strong. n some parts were repeated last night. even the jokes were repeated. i find it hard to laugh. but towards the end everyone juz went crazy n began jumping around hehe.. i had tt experience during Festival of Praise, when Michael from shammah was still around.

was wondering if i shld join my cell grp for supper or not.. becuz if i join i have difficulty going home. if i dun join, i'll lose out in their conversations, their fellowship. so in the end i joined la. i'm glad jeremy persuaded me.. i wld feel v sad if no one tried to ask me along. it was a happening night la.. we were eating prata and chatting at the Perdana restaurant opp jeremy's hse.. we were chatting n laughing so loudly tt i fear gangs may juz come n hack us up becuz we seem like a gang too.. before we left, jieling n kelvin joined us. then malcolm sent amber n i to yishun.

i dropped off at khatib to meet the singles' club. there were 2 bicycles and 4 pple. hmm~ they decided to go fishing at lower seletar reservoir. it was like 3am already. haha.. i dunno how to cycle n i onli tried being a pillion rider once.. v scary haha.. so nic was my chauffeur while michael took the other bike with wendy standing behind. it was fun la.. i wld nv try this without them haha.. the place where we fish is v nice too.. but... we had no catch tt night n it got quite boring, so we went back to khatib. tried to learn to cycle but i still can't get it. went up to michael's place to take a look haha.. i v long, super long nv c them already lor.. didn't know tt michael changed his phone already, n nic joined back the singles' club officially. hmm, wendy n i pretty much the same la.. but i told them the news abt my company too. had breakfast at 848 coffeeshop then went home by bus. it was like 7am already la.. haha..

slept until 12+ then prepared word n went for cell grp. we're undergoing construction. haha.. had dinner with them at tiong bahru market. i think i v slow la, i was suddenly thinking tiong bahru market didn't seem to look like this. wad happened to the famous chwee kuey?? i dunno y i suddenly remember how it used to look. haha.. went home by train with brandon.. v tired.. hehe.. gd nite..

Monday, September 19, 2005

:: hmm ::

feeling better now.. today nv c lawrence at all.. somehow i feel a bit sorry for him.. somehow i feel tt things could be solved in a friendlier way. but i feel as if a friend has just passed away... i feel quite angry with the person who 'murdered' him. but i also feel angry with him for 'attempting suicide'.

last sat went to sentosa with ting.. called her on friday nite cuz i was feeling upset abt work.. then she told me she's going sentosa to tan, so i joined her. long time no c her man~! i got a little burnt la... a bit worried abt my skin.. haha.. tanning is as sinful as clubbing. =x then went to office for urgent meeting, which is to receive the news of the breakup.. then beng yeow drove me n michelle to dunearn road to c my banner being displayed. dunno y my appetite quite small tt day. had worship prac.. tired..

sunday worship conference prac... tired too but thank God i managed to stay alive until the end.. went to cineleisure with elena lin feng shirley n esther n had sushi... ooh v long nv eat tt liao..

this morning when i woke up i felt heaty n a bit sore throat.. muz be the leftover otah i ate last nite.. so i prayed for God's protection over all the pple involved in worship nite, that we'll not fall sick. then the rest of the day my throat felt better, but my stomach felt weak. my bladder also weak.. kept going to toilet.. sigh~

today chatted with kikko.. i'm chatting with her more often now.. she's studying a course to become an air stewardess. chok dee!! her msn nick is in thai n she asked me if i can read it. at first i can onli recognise the word ruk (love) after i copied inside Notepad n increased the font size. after tt i started to recognise all the words. except park. i searched for online thai dictionary and now i know 'park' is mouth. jai yark bork war ruk, tae park yark bork war mai. means the heart wants to say love, but the mouth doesn't. correct? hmm.. Mai, another thai friend has a boyfriend, but it's not benson. so sad. haha.. but mai is very pretty.. kikko said i na-ruk.. hahaha.. i reply "kikko na-ruk duey". she asked "jing ror ka?" then she went offline liao.

i slack a lot at work.. =x cuz both bosses not around. sigh~ now onli left one boss actually.. sigh~~

after work went to tampines to shop for second hand CDs. my main motive is to look for 8 christian cds. when i started looking at the shelves i kinda thot itz impossible cuz out of 100 cds i think onli 1 is a christian one. i managed to buy 8 cds, $3 each!! including Hillsong United Look To You!!! :D :D also bought DC Talk, Jaci Valesque, 4Him, bosson (special edition n autographed!), Savage Garden, n 2 X Kinki Kids cds. felt happy with the accomplishment.. i thot the cds r $5 each, but then got sale! hoho..

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v depressed at work now.

Friday, September 16, 2005

:: =( ::

this week.. ups and downs i guess.

up becuz my quiet time is good.. i finished reading the book of Proverbs, i happened to look at Ecclesiastes and found it quite interesting so i decided to start reading tt book.. it's good la.. but the first 2 chapters quite depressing. keeps emphasizing tt life is useless.... =S but i agree with the point, What has happened will happen again. well, in the very beginning of creation, cain killed his own brother.. even to this age, killing of each other has not stopped. there r a lot of similarities i can draw from history and present time. n during my quiet time i was suddenly reminded that i had not confessed my sinful acts in the past. i rem when i was in sec 1 my discman was stolen in sch. in sec 2 my wallet was stolen on april fool's day. i cursed the pple who stole my stuff.. i cursed them to die. it was very evil of me.. n now i realise i need to repent. God promised Abraham that He will "curse those who curse you" Genesis 12:3 i myself shld nt curse.

down... becuz of work.. stress. monday to wed i go home after work. suddenly no program, no dinner with single's club. dunno where they r.. haiz. thur i suddenly very sian dunno y juz dun feel like doing work. so i surf the net keep checking mail.. then my boss asked me to do OT to help farah with layout becuz the artwork has to be approved n printed by fri morning. i finished my part around 12am like tt.. then i passed it to yihan to check thoroughly. i can nv be so precise sia. we stayed in the office till 2.50am.. boss treated dinner n let us come to work at 12pm on friday. he sent us home. his driving v scary sia. then friday he treated us to lunch at roti prata cafe at old SMU. now they all noe tt wherever there's food, there's me. haha.. anyway there's a problem at work n it is political n i shall not say what happened la. but friday seems like a very short day for me.

i thot friday got DG so i decided to join jasmine they all at ktv after DG. my dad asked me if i wanna go sengkang for dinner but i said dun wan. after work i saw the yr 2s. wah long time nv c them leh!! hmm.. i called christine, she said it's postponed to next fri. so i can go ktv liao. so i called jasmine, she say no one going already. so i called my dad to pick me up to go sengkang for dinner. -.-" bought my mom a phone.. $47 nia. haha..

Sunday, September 11, 2005

:: my week ::

hmm... last friday went to changi village with my dad for dinner.. the FAMOUS nasi lemak. =P~~~ he dropped me home first cuz i got mooncakes from MARRIOTT~~~ hoho~~ left them at home then we went out.

monday nothing much...had dinner with the single's club.. haha... feels like a long time since i joined them for dinner..

tuesday busy busy ah... michael ask me to help him with flash... i stand there v long trying to figure out wad was wrong while weili juz came over n type some script n solved his prob. i feel a bit useless lor... waste time trying.. haiz. after work continued to help michael, then went for prayer meeting in church. was late.. but at least i caught a bit la. canon was asking us to pray for the families in potong pasir, and also for solutions for transport there.

wed supposed to lead bible study for campus crusade DG. but i nv prepare. no time lor.. last nite i thot i can prepare during lunch or juz b4 DG but then christine wans to meet at bishan instead. by the time i get there sure super late la. tried to rush the bible study cuz i promised my dear girl judy to act in her filming project. haha.. had a crazy time jumping for a "concert" but i totally dun like the music. acting ma. wad to do. haha.. had a lot of sandwiches. (sigh~) n got home quite late.

thur hmm nothing to comment leh... i think i asked my dad to send me home cuz my bus too packed. he brought me to compass point for dinner.

friday rushed to bishan salvation army straight after work.. caught the youthFest 2005. it was great.. they sang Open Up the Gates, One Way, Worthy To Be Praised, Highest etc.. then Pastor Ken Lee preached about You Are What You See. the 12 spies went up to Canaan and came back with the report that they saw giants, but Joshua n Caleb went to see for themselves. they saw the Philistines were just like grasshoppers. likewise, there was this reverend bonkey (funny, but i think tt's his name) went to africa for mission trip. when asked whether he sees south africa as a nation that is full of witchcraft and demonic forces, he replied, "no, i see a bloodwashed nation." WOW. then another illustration. a company that sells shoes sent two staff to a city to find out if the market is good for the sales. one came back and said "our shoes sure wouldn't sell. everyone in that city wears sandals!" the other came back and reported, "WE HAVE A MARKET! everyone in that city wears sandals!" well.. that's a lesson about diff perspectives.

after the concert i decided to ask my dad out to pasir ris to catch crabs.. hehe.. but he decided not to. becuz he's going fishing over the weekend n he has to wake up early. well.. tt's one thing i have a weakness in. i try to pack my day to the fullest cuz i believe that there's not always a tomorrow. i dun care tmr gotta wake up early or not... but sometimes if pple ask me out n i lazy to go then i will not stick to my belief haha. =x so in the end we nv go. went home.

that night i dreamt that i was using flash and adjusting the frame all that.. stress. next morning i woke up around 7.50am... i thot i need to go to work. then i think for a while. it's a saturday right? then i went back to slp haha.. around 8+ then i woke up again. went out to serangoon the sports stadium.. walked one whole round outside it to find 66 boundary road. supposed to go there for music workshop. i found the place finally, but i was drenched in perspiration man. it's a terrace house. knocked on the door. i hear no one practising music leh.. no shoes outside the door also. no one came to the door. i went to the back of the house. i dunno which door to knock at. so i went back to the front. back and forth around 3 times then finally someone opened the door at the front. an indonesian lady was apologetic cuz she didn't hear me knock the door. i asked, "is there a music workshop here?" she asked me to come in then she called up the church at salvation army who told me today got music workshop. dunno y i kena pangseh... but she said tt we can meet is totally not by chance. she began to talk to me about worship.. she brought out her amplified bible and shared verses with me. i felt glad to have met her. she went to tanjung balai before and is a pastor at a church in jakarta. went home after that to bring my bible cuz i forgot tt i left it on my bed. shun bian cooked noodles for lunch and bring out extra money haha... went for cell grp, reach at 3pm haha..

cell grp word abt exodus.. jac makes us think a lot. haha.. led prayer for psalmist preparation. used my experience with the indonesian lady to share with them. after practise paul sent me home. sunday woke up at 7am.. took a lot of time trying to figure what to wear, what i can or cannot wear. paul sent me to church too. had worship conference prac after service. then esther dropped me at pasir ris park where i met my parents and brought them to fisherman village and check out the crabbing thing. cool..

i cut my week update till realli short cuz i'm sian and tired right now. kinda having moodswings...