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Saturday, March 31, 2007

:: super stressed right now ::

arghhhh...

1 meeting with client, 1 rush job, 1 cell word, 1 Guitar course facilitator appreciation gift (9 actually), 1 meeting abt tanjung balai... and then suddenly my colleague tells me the rush job wasn't sent properly to my client, which mean i might have wasted my efforts this whole day. and because of tt i went to check my work email n saw another client saying tt i forgot to remove some codes. and i haven't fixed my cell word. thought i had it ready at the beginning of the week, but i can't seem to organise my thoughts. =(

Monday, March 26, 2007

:: shocking dreamzzz ::

thurs
went to raffles city to meet jeff, kelvin n ben. jeff told us to meet at gramophone in raffles city basement, but according to some archive in my brain, gramophone was in capitol building, not inside raffles city... unless it moved. so anyway.

we had dinner at the food court. there was pepper lunch express! wowee..

went to Mos burger to talk. discussed direction for cell word. i haven't prayed abt it.. but glad to hear from the guys tt we do have a common desire, to see our cell grp lead victorious lives! anyway, i found out tt jeff is very talkative. hahaha.

when i reached home i looked thru my books and realise i have ALOT of unread books, including Victory Over Darkness, Bible Promises (probably got it when i got confirmed... oh man!), Fun Facts about the Bible You Never Knew.. etc. i took all 3 of them to read. going to read Victory over Darkness on my way to work, Bible Promises before i leave home - which oops, i couldn't because i'm always rushing in the morning - haha.. n Fun Facts Abt the Bible during QT.

fri
watching Mr Bean with junhao, my son, after work. just before the movie, elena called. abt PRC! i totally forgot abt it, thinking tt it's either not this week or i'm not in charge. oopsss... tried to recall who are the pple i can contact to help out but i can only remember cheryl n vincent. so i smsed them. only the next morning then vincent told me he couldn't make it.

anyway the movie was not bad.. haha i was like thinking "i dun like Mr Bean.. he's so evil" thruout the movie lor. he snatches things from pple but makes it funny. he lost his passport n thruout i was wondering if he was going to get it back! (he didn't!) but the nice thing is the planning of the movie. he could walk straight to his destination, and the objects in the way would just let him step on. (dunno if u understand wad i mean hahaha)

anyway. after the show we decided to go find natalie n darius and their friends. at first when i heard darius' voice i thot it was OLC! i was so happy haha =x went to serangoon garden, chomp chomp to find them, then took cab to natalie's house. she showed me around her house. really impressive =) played a bit of dai dee n mahjong wahaha.. then took cab home. the cab driver was listening to a christian channel. cool.

one thing i learn abt darius is, he's really very humble, the kind of book u definitely shld not judge by its cover. he went to china for attachment (so cool!) n i thought he's not the kind who would go out to explore, but i'm wrong! he actually hired a tour guide just to talk to him though he has visited the place before. i'm really impressed la. haha. i was his OGL, but i didn't really get to know my OG well. =x

sat
woke up, went to Crest to pick up books with cheryl. we didn't pick a lot. but dunno y i strained my left arm, gave me a back ache on the left side the whole day and whole of sunday. thot i'd be late for the precell meeting, but i was in time for lunch. coincidentally met guorong at the mrt station who helped me to bring the stuff to church.

games was fun, thanks to grace who researched on the internet for it. =D kelvin led word, and i had to stay thruout to know wad he shared cuz i'm doing word next week. then i went to do the PRC setup. after tt went for dinner at Ivin's with my cell grp. yummy~ but service was bad.

then we went to jeremy's hse for rootbeer float. i dun like root beer, but i think it'd go well with ice cream, so well. had an orientation of his hse. haha, 2nd orientation this week. cool.

terry decided it was time for us to go, i didn't feel tt it was late, until i reached Bukit Batok mrt station. was so stoned man.

sun
i know i'm supposed to be early, to prepare the PRC table, but i woke up only at 8.15am! got my dad to fetch me to church, but it was 9+am already, weelee had started on her teaching. was still tired, but struggled to pay attention. i did learn something. =)

then there was BBGB enrolment, so service ended early. PRC sales was ok, better than i had expected, since we brought in little stuff. guorong n liesbet helped me at the booth.

packed up and went for lunch with cell grp. at meridien hotel food court. yummy korean food. reminds me of the korean food my sis introduced to me, where Spotlight used to be, maybe it moved there.

after tt i walked to bras basah to buy bass amp (finally!!) haha.. saw this funky orange small amp, going for $55. there's another Smarvo, black, square, leather-looking, looks more steady, for $77. i was more interested in Smarvo, for the better sound it made, but the saleguy tuned the funky one such tt it sounded as good, n he kept pushing for it, more than the Smarvo one. so ok lor, got the $55 one. i had only $50 notes but the guy refused to give me $5 discount :(

didn't realise it was so heavy, instead of walking to the nearest mrt station (dhoby ghaut) i decided to take bus to clarke quay. was also stoned ... dunno y so tired. when i went home i decided to take a nap. locked my door so my parents couldn't come in to disturb me. haha. (they still did, anyway.)

so anyway tt's the start of my shocking dreams, as mentioned in the title of this entry.

i dreamt tt i was with ting at some futuristic-looking place probably future-Sentosa, she bought a small bottle of alcohol n got a bit high, n then we started k**sing passionately!! just then, uncle john caught us in the act and called my name. uh-oh. he told me to follow him. we got on a train also futuristic, metallic looking, where pastor was also on, n he told him wad he saw me doing. then uncle john called my parents and told me to confess what i had done. i didn't, of cuz. but i was free to go. dunno how come but i left with judy instead, n took cab with her n jinwen. went to some place tt was jinwen's "home" (not real, actually) there was a small rundown building where we got off the cab. we went in n saw some art works. then somehow the dream ended there cuz my dad pounded on my door to wake me up for dinner.

had pizza for dinner cuz i wanted to stay home n watch i-Robot. it was quite a sad, scary show, tt weighs heavily in my heart, like the movie Artificial Intelligence. after tt there was The Twins Effect on Channel U. =D Edison Chen!!!!!!!! =D

tt night i had another gloomy dream. that ting brought me around some building, supposedly our sec sch, cuz i saw familiar pple, in sch uniform. it was assembly time, but it was in a very small hall/canteen, sky was still dark, like 5+am rather than the normal assembly time. then i explored the compound. there were rundown shacks around, on slopes around the building... actually the area looks more like my pri sch. nothing much abt this dream la.

i'm still thinking abt my earlier, shocking dream. am i turning into a....?

Wednesday, March 21, 2007

:: chill out ::

*just looking for a place to chill out. found this cafe in Clarke Quay... am waiting for my Marinara and pot of jasmine green tea right now*

Nearby Cafe at Safra Town Club



some random thoughts:

i was ready to rrrrrrock my neighbours lor. (oh my marinara is here.) wanted to go buy a bass amp on tuesday so i could prac on my bass. but when i walked to bras basah, ranking sports was closed (about 7.30pm). can someone tell me wad time ranking sports closes? (a fire alarm is going off now - so many distractions) went to Basheer and spent time looking for a graphic book/magazine to buy but didn't find any.

been walking to chinatown/clarke quay quite often nowadays. better weather. n i've been working out at home. feel so encouraged when evelyn told me tt i look slimmer (heeheeheehee)...

am planning a trip to bkk with my sister in may. i also want to go for family camp in june leh. hopefully it doesn't affect my birthday celebration hehe.. anyone wants to be my roommate?

am playing this riddle thing my sister intro-ed me to: http://www.lautman.net/riddlesofriddles/blast.htm. it has 100 riddles and i'm only at 37 as of now :( haha.. it's addictive alright.


(after my meal and chillin' with my green tea...) let me do some food review here.

location: behind this Dynasty Travel building. has an indoor n outdoor seating available. right now i'm outdoor (i always like the outdoors) but it's facing the back of the building i mentioned earlier, so there's the sound of vents.

food: enjoying my marinara. came in a cold plate, but food itself is warm. LOTSA mussels... yum... (er just a bit too many.) also ordered a pot of jasmine green tea, turns out to be japanese green tea. comes with sugar (erm??!)

price: $7.50 for my marinara and $2.50 for my tea (refillable) not bad a price eh?

service: i would say it's good. the waiter noticed me as i found a seat n passed me a menu straight away.

will i come here again? : yes!

Saturday, March 17, 2007

:: learn something new everyday ::

during the retreat, i learnt tt Janet is same age as me!! i probably mix up the age of the pple in her cell grp.. haha..

during my cell meeting on the first night, jeremy reminded me of the commitment i made. honestly i have forgotten it n started dreaming abt possibilities, then i realise my calling again. haha ah well.

then back at work, chatting with my sis she tells me abt her buying car. OPM stands for Open Market Value. but it probably doesn't matter because OPM is for Singapore only.

she also told me tt she watched Curse of the Golden Flower. i told her i dun like the story because we all know tt Chinese esp in history are very conservative pple. how can they have such revealing clothes in the palace?! but she referred me to Wikipedia, stories of Wu Zetian n all tt.. haha not saying tt my sec sch history teacher didn't do a good job la, but i probably was just not interested in studying then. there was a table at the right of the wikipedia page, stating the dynasties in order. i felt like i never learnt anything abt it before. so i kinda learn it again. =x anyway, andrielle's interest in china during our Hongkong trip last yr spread to me.. i was looking thru her photos taken in china, i really wish i were there! haha i finally got the photos we took at Madame Tussaud's. posted some on friendster. really funny pics. inspired by Roy's "teaching Tiger Woods how to aim".

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on thurs, i went for MCG meeting at suntec after work. Baby Noah was also there! haha.. there was once i tried to carry him n i realise tt my fingernails were too long. i dunno how to carry babies actually *blushes* cuz i scared i will hurt them if i carry wrongly, so i nv try. i also dunno when to be firm n say no to a child, and when to allow them to explore. so last time i often get into trouble with my babysitter who also babysits her grandchildren. i always teach them the wrong things.. =x anyway we had dinner at Pastamania n meeting only started around 9pm.

fri. heh my mom got me into a bad mood man. i learnt that i SHOULD NEVER GO SHOPPING WITH HER ANYMORE. selfish sia. spent 3-digit figure on beauty products, n not willing to spend a $30+ pillow for me. i also wanted to buy *ahem*. but she rather i buy it during the next sale. argh. cuz thur was the day most things go on crazy sale, n fri not so crazy sale. so i missed the offer. she kept blaming me for not being able to make it on thur! !!!!!!

after she left with my dad i went shopping alone. to cheer myself up. i bought a pair of earphones n a dance CD from Heeren HMV n a top from this fashion. cheered up a bit only.

Wednesday, March 14, 2007

:: Leaders' Retreat ::

a bit of Fusion too. fri i took leave from work, to rest at home n pack my bag n wash toilets, inspired by my colleague who took the initiative to wash our office toilet. wanted to meet eileen for lunch, but i dun think i could make it. went to sch at 3pm.

walked a quick round the auditorium, looking out for pple i know. natalie was there to guide me around. then my seniors farah, yihan n sansan came down to see-see. met other seniors like rene also. n then ms pat. went to mac to have my late lunch n also to find junhao. he was studying for english. so cute. he was doing assessment books for Vocab. haha quite fun. then we walked around the sch n thought of the good old days. i used to visit the track n gym quite often, but never used the pool. then we went to blk M. so sad tt our juniors dun get to use Blk L. haha..

went back to Fusion n walked another round, this time eileen was back from her interview with some company n she accompanied me as i collected their namecards. i only know half the batch. then it was time for the screening. i was supposed to go off already, to celebrate jon yap's birthday at ben n jerry's. but i decided to stay for the screening. :P michael's grp did a good job with the animation Solace. gave me a very strong feeling. =)

went back to audi once again... cuz some of the pple from my batch have arrived. took photos with them. i was soooo happy to c OLC! he slimmed down ALOT! but he like quite scared of me. haha. then i decided to go find my cell grp. turns out the celebration was not on yet. anyway i saw nic, on the same train as me. the celebration was fun. we made yap sing a song. haha.. after tt the girls were tired already, so we decided to go back.

sat
my mom helped to wake me up. saw gail on my way to the DCB, meeting point for our Leaders' Retreat. first session was good, learnt a lot.. but towards the end i think most of the pple lost their attention. including me too. so we headed to JB! took alan's car with jac. yay there's servio! he wasn't very guai on the journey. haha.. he even farted in the car =(

we reached and placed our bags in the function room n then went down to the canteen for lunch. food wasn't appealing to me, so i didn't eat much. went back up for games. cool. during free & easy, i took the time to explore the place as it was my first time there. took photos.. then went back to the room. not long later it was time for dinner. sat with a bunch of crazy mission trippers hahahaha... it was fun. after tt played gold with servio n then went up for session. also learnt a lot. after tt we went back to the rooms. my cell grp pple met up for discussion. after tt jac n i went back. showered n slept. had to cover my mouth while i slept, so tt lizard/insects couldn't deposit anything there. =P i'm still not used to the idea of showering outdoors. felt quite scared. =x

next morning.. haha.. my alarm went off n i still didn't wake up. funny thing abt me is, alarm clocks just dun work for me, like i just dun seem to hear anything. but when someone call me to wake up, i hear it! so jac woke me up n we got ready for prayer meeting at 7.30am at the playground. then we went for breakfast. sat at the table tt has an interesting combination. all of us are in pairs, us with our roommates. after breakfast it was time for QT. before going out for the next session, i took a shower. it's getting fun to shower outdoors =P games was fun, planned by rebekah, melissa n garry. had photo taking session n then free & easy time again. i decided to go sleep. the rest played captain's ball, but i dunno y, feel v lethargic.

had dinner, this time at the canteen (there was also a chinese restaurant). after tt i went up for worship prac. doing projection tt night. before the retreat i was quite .....how to say. i dun want to take up any duty for the retreat, because it is a RETREAT, i shld be resting. but during the retreat, when shirley told me to help out since she was leaving, i didn't feel reluctant. probably because i had my share of rest already n it's time to serve. =) was actually quite stress when i realise i'm supposed to use the new version of the Worship Assistant program n it was only minutes away from the start of the session. quite blanked out during the teaching. but i know chris was preaching abt the Sabbath.

after tt i went to find faith n we went to find rj to play card games. a few others joined us n we had fun. i'm very scared to play Heart Attack actually. =P so i watched them play. n i took videos of them, putting toothpaste on each other's faces =P then we changed rules. before we left, i joined them for abt 4 rounds. haha.. slept at 1am tt night.

prayer meeting the same time next day again. last day at the retreat already. awww... had breakfast n then went back to pack up. checked out of the resort n had our last session. been playing with the babies during the sessions.. =x went back to singapore. stopped at Esso along the way. bought chewing *** n stuff =P tt bag wasn't checked at the customs. wow.

alan dropped me n jac at clementi to meet the rest of our cell grp. had lunch at a coffeeshop in the central. after tt i decided to walk around, though i was lugging my big bag around =x wanted to see how much clementi central has changed. grew up here, attended pri sch, hung out with the ah lians n ah bengs... hmmm... saw terry from jeremiah. he looked so skinny now i thought i saw the wrong person, like his brother or something. so i smsed him. it really was him! haha.. took train to pasir ris then took bus.

my dad was at home already. i shld have called him, he might give me a lift home lor. then he jio me to go out cut hair. mine took much longer cuz i asked for wash n cut. n my hair was dry n tangled, hard for the hairstylist man. she's v professional, gave me a good impression. her insurance agent was urging her for a signature, but she told her to wait because she was halfway thru cutting my hair. n though there was a very long queue for her service, she told them to come back 15 min/half n hr/ an hr later. she still styled my hair. =D

my dad didn't want to wait for me, so he went home first. when i reached home, he said i cut = never cut, because it's not obvious. i wasn't happy to hear tt la. he say i waste money. heh.

tue
back to work.. oh another boring day. i'm usually busy at the first half of the day. after lunch, i have nothing to do. haiz. i almost blew up at my colleague abt some work. after checking thru her work, i realise tt there wasn't any mistake. patience... pray for patience...

after work i went to outram park mrt to meet my sis' friend, chris, who was going to phuket. passed him contact lenses tt my sis asked me to buy. then it was pouring heavily man. my mom was pissed with waiting for me. heh. lately i've been wanting to take a walk, but my plan is always foiled by the weather. =(

wed
met melissa n terry for dinner. very interestingly, xiaowen saw us from her bus n we asked her to alight to join us. went to Wiener Kaffeehaus, a viennese coffee house. asked mel whether she wants to order wine or not, then she reminded me tt we r in a COFFEE place. oh yah. so i ordered something tt comes with whipped cream =P actually i think dinner was so-so. it shld have come with sauces, but we had to ask for it. suddenly i realise tt i'm surrounded by akouo pple cuz they started talking abt their cell grp stuff, like retreat. interesting la. =)

after tt we walked to chinatown. took train back. was actually reluctant to go home early, but if i were to join mel with her friends to go esplanade, it wld be too late, i would be too tired to do QT. dunno y but i felt weak n dizzy. caffeine must have some funny effect on me. =S

Friday, March 09, 2007

:: parties II ::

3rd Mar 07
Kor's bday.

Cell grp meeting. Led worship for cell grp. led a hokkien song, a very beautiful song the church often sings in Tanjung Balai. talks about things in nature display their beauty because of what God has done. His blessings to us are so much, so we want to sing and praise Him forevermore.

i think i'm still quite nervous to lead worship.. towards the closing prayer i was losing my concentration already. >.<

worship prac.. then i realise i have a birthday party to attend later. oops.. was quite sloppily dressed lor. the LT was so cold i just wanted to go outside to thaw. rained heavily. sigh.

so i went to the birthday party. if not for the account the birthday boy is my kor, i wouldn't have gone! in town n i'm so sloppily dressed >.< haha.. was quite weird cuz i was expecting him to be there already n tt i could recognise someone there at least. i was still looking around, then yongteng saw me n jenna called me. haha.. it was a small crowd at TCC somerset, but small is good la. can feel the closeness lor. jenna n shuping gave him a present - a pair of boxers with condoms on it. haha.. erm. this party was actually planned by his gf, so sweet lor. she contacted us behind his back. haha. dunno y but i feel strange seeing his gf for the first time. probably because i was close to all his previous gfs n yet i hardly know this one.

ting still reluctant to go home.. haha but i have to la. or else next day cannot wake up. the NEL really very .... one leh, sunday mornings the frequency is 11 min. i was actually early, could have time to buy breakfast.. ended up 5 min late because of the bad timing. really must complain man. haha.

pastor preached 1 Chronicles 15-16 abt King David becoming like a priest, offering sacrifices to God because it was the only appropriate to enter the LORD's presence as a priest, not a king. then he mentioned tt guys shld be like priests to their families, leading them into God's presence. n tt girls shld choose guys who r like priests. so i thought it wld be funny to put my msn nick as "I'm looking for a priest" =)

after service i realise i have to stay back for Guitar course cuz i'm taking photos for it. cuz last week i was away at tj balai ma, so when i come back i feel like i've lost touch with real life =x if u dunno, i'm super forgetful one. but i also have a selective memory. i can remember birthday dates well. =P

i took photos until i ran out of memory. urgh! my tj balai photos haven't been uploaded to my comp so i cannot delete them.

after i reached home i went to slp. my parents v noisy sia, keep trying to wake me up for dinner. :P after dinner i just felt like drinking bubble tea. hmm... chewing pearls make me happy. =)

mon nothing much worth mentioning ba. went to little india for dinner.. feel so cheated. after dinner just go home.. argh.

tue went for prayer meeting. this time i asked terry from akouo along. since he work so near me n tt church is kinda on the way home. (no excuse not to go =P) wanted to go shopping before tt, n probably take a stroll to clarke quay (haven't been doing tt for a very long time) then take train to potong pasir.. but it rained so heavily right after i left the office there was no chance.

wed wanted to take THE stroll to clarke quay after work, but when i reached outram park mrt my mom called. she skipped cell grp!!!! had dinner with her. then went home. sian. asked my dad to accompany me go punggol plaza to pay bills, n misc stuff. spent so much in a day. wow.

thur went to the IT show at suntec city. was dreading the crowd as i imagined it on my way there. really sian. bought an Epson printer n tried to lug it around. finally had to ask my dad to come fetch me. had dinner at the Fountain Terrace. i was halfway done with my dinner when my dad ordered his. he wasn't hungry actually, he just wanted to "eat for fun" sian. cuz i had to help him finish the food! fattening me man. he still say i'm getting fatter. haiz.

had difficulty loading the printer on the motorbox man. but my dad said me + printer = lighter than my mom! haha.. tired by the time i got home.

fri took leave cuz i wanted to show support to my juniors at their Fusion show 2007. also because i hadn't had enough time to rest for a few weekends, so i wanted to take a good rest, do household chores, put my home in order n prepare for the retreat tmr.

Thursday, March 01, 2007

:: stress week ::

sat
woke up at 8.30am, when i was supposed to be at Harbourfront at 8.30am. thanks to someone who called my house phone n woke me up. i keep forgetting to buy batteries for my actual alarm clocks. (i usually set 2 more alarms on my cellphones)

so, we missed the ferry. had to change tickets to board the next one. i pray that it will turn out to be a blessing in disguise. Phei phei says good for her so that she got more time to prepare the food for the party later. *phew* there's persis, jac, franza n aloysius was there to send franza off. we met up at Pacific Coffee... nice ambience. feel tt they really know how to choose a spot for their outlets man. the one in HK really v nice n relaxing too. i think i'll come more often. =)

we stayed at Asun-gugu's place until 3+pm. it was raining very heavily. then we went to church. the youths and the food started to come. met a few new faces. played a couple of games, glad that they enjoy it. then we asked them to take a poll for their interest in the next activity. seems like they like to play badminton! there was a little too much food, but they managed to clear it by ta-pao-ing the extras home. after that we went to Cippes cafe for some drinks. tired n thirsty. i ordered a salty yoghurt. :S tastes funny to me. like they added salt to yakult.

then we bought flowers for the church n went to Indo A. Yani for some grocery shopping. i bought shampoo (again) haha n of cuz Indomie goreng. =D then we went back to the house. Franza shared a lot of her india experiences with us.. it was v funny. hahaha..

next morning persis went back to singapore, while jac franza n me stayed on for Sunday sch. we had breakfast at a nearby coffeeshop n took a walk at the market. then we went to church to prepare. saw a few new faces again. ;D jac quickly thought of a game for the children to play. they seem to enjoy it =D we taught sunday sch, a lesson on forgiveness. to make sure they understand the lesson, we kept asking them questions. haha.. after that the children cooked noodles for us while i brought jac n franza around the church area, to walk and see.

after lunch we went to take the ferry back to singapore. so tired but didn't manage to get seats on the train even at Harbourfront =( tried to call my dad to pick me up. then we had steamboat for dinner. just to clear the leftover food from reunion dinner.

mon
haiz. so sian at work.
after work i went to meet my parents to have dinner at the Chit Chat cafe in chinatown. food's good. theme's good too. =D

tue
was feeling very very upset at work. had very very big problem with a very very big client. almost cried out. sigh. after work i went to sengkang with my dad. had grilled korean saba fish for dinner again. been eating it a bit too often lately. then a guy, an ang moh, from this deaf and mute association, came around to sell a keychain for $5. i wanted to pay him but i dun wan the keychain, but i didn't know how to communicate to him, in the end he signaled tt it's ok, but i feel so sad again i can't help but cry. after tt then i realise y i am so emotional.

went downstairs to metro, to take a look at bedsheets. been wanting to buy since before the new year. finally got a set nice n cheaper than those at the pasar malam. n better quality. so happy. finally cheered up. saw a foldable umbrella for $3.90! metro having mad sale man! then i also bought Za foundation for $10! by now i was smiling. =D my dad got a wallet. after that we went home. really having mood swing man.

wed
wah v stress n busy. wanted to blog on tue but no time. stayed in office till 9pm, cuz a client gave last minute changes to the web design sia. must be live by 1st Mar also. haiz.

thur
had problem with that big client again. yesterday was supposed to be the last day we work with them, but we weren't able to finish some things. drag until today evening. one of my programmers went out for meeting lor. the other programmer knows nothing. i really wonder if i shld report to my boss. becuz, if this goes on, the company suffers. our loss of the big client was partly becuz of the change of programmers lor. so sad.

left office at 7pm. didn't tell my client i was leaving cuz i scared she want to make more changes.