:: what's the world coming to ::

last week i forgot to mention anything abt the shooting that shook the world.
just felt tt the media is giving the killer too much attention. they're digging into his past and realising tt they shld have noticed something wrong n done something abt it. i just thought tt it would make pple like him crave the attention he got, n do similar actions to get the same world-shaking effect.

probably i was potentially someone like that, tt's y i "know" what pple like him think. hmm.. did i ever mention before tt i used to have depression, because i wanted to seek attention?

i used to hurt myself with sharp objects - wanted to just pierce it thru my skin, but i was also too scared to do tt. i only tried to rub it against my skin till it turned red. tt was when i was in sec 3-4. i remember talking to my classmate abt it n realise tt she also did tt before. but i didn't get the attention i wanted la. n i woke up out of it. really have to thank God that i know Him. if i hadn't i would be so lost n very much dead by now.

n when this shooting case got blown up by the media, i expect there would be pple who would do the same thing, because they see an example to follow. indeed within the week there was another shooting case in the news (actually there r shooting cases everyday, but media is particularly concerned abt similar cases. pple see pple do la). my sis showed me the website for phuket online news. i was so shocked to read so many shooting cases! how can anyone live in a place like tt? they own guns so easily.

Say Mr A gets a gun for self-defence, in case he meets an armed robber, he can retaliate with his own gun. The robber sure will shoot him because he is armed. compared to if he doesn't retaliate by taking out his gun, the robber would just use his gun to scare him. and then Mr B, who lives next door to Mr A, and they go drinking together often. wouldn't Mr B want to own a gun too, in case Mr A uses his gun on him (which depends on how much trust there is between them). n one day both of them got drunk n got into a heated argument. Mr A has a gun, it's his tool of Power. and with the gun, Mr B will be scared n give in. if Mr B doesn't, just shoot him la! where's the moral ethics?

if i have a say in gun control, i would ban guns from citizens. only the army n police officers can own them. there will not be any firearms shop open to public. dun care if citizens feel unsafe n just want to own guns for "self-defence". rubbish. weaponless is the best self-defence. it doesn't provoke the person threatening u, as much as having a weapon.

just something to think about, if not for God's grace would u still be alive? what r u doing abt it? still living as if ur life doesn't lie in God's hands? shouldn't there be a deep sense of gratitude to God for every new day u're alive? don't u realise tt God can just decide to let u die when u crack ur neck too hard? or slip and fall and hit a sharp edge? or let something heavy drop on u? i know very well tt my life is preserved thus far for a purpose, which is yet fulfilled, but i know tt even still, God can change his mind. who am i to say tt i will surely live tomorrow?