:: work and all that ::

gosh lots to blog.

had a new colleague for a week before Juliana left and a newer colleague came. There were a guy and an indian lady who came for interview, i only caught a glimpse of the guy as i was leaving my office, but i noticed he stared at me. just wouldn't feel comfortable if the 2nd colleague is also a guy, that would make me the only girl (again). not like i'm not comfortable around guys, but i probably scared myself with the thoughts of having after-lunch heart to heart talks like with juliana, with 2 guys. i would cry man. so in a way i persuaded my boss to hire the lady. my impression of indians in the IT is quite good lor. imagined her to be someone intellectual =p

erm. i honestly would say tt i'm suffering at work now. i realise i have nothing to chat with my new colleagues about. we totally have nothing in common. in a way it is training me to grow in uncomfortable situations, but my prayer life declined badly after my christian colleague left. we usually pray for each other before we start our meals, n after lunch go for walks and heart-to-heart talks until our lunch time is up. i really miss that. *sobs* i shouldn't talk bad abt my colleagues la. let's just say i haven't got to know them better yet.

was suffering partly because of ecards also. if u read my msn nick, i had been complaining for many days abt ecards. i prefer looking at html codes to working with animations. there have been a few difficult clients who have requests beyond my ability. but thank God, with His power i have overcome them already. =D

now my workload is filled with new/to-be-revamped websites. at this point, the change of colleagues is really not a good time. i need a lot of programming help, but terry has his own workload n pramila... today i just spent abt an hour explaining to her what i want. the parable of the talents was stuck in my head, so i was thinking of not assigning difficult work to her, but i have nowhere else to turn to. *sobs again* haiz i can't believe a guy can whine so much *sobsssss*

but i gotta thank Terry for introducing his friends to me.. do networking. haha.. his friend Pam always bring us around the area for lunch. usually more at tanjung pagar area so i realise how small singapore is n how near tj pagar is to my workplace! =) she would bring her colleagues along for lunch too, so sometimes lunch is fun.

her workplace is near the bridge filmed in One Last Dance. had been wanting to watch it since before it came out. caught it with Rj n Christina.. really like the show, partly because of Francis Ng. ;) after the movie (last fri) we went to Brewerkz, also with faith, jx n his gf. jx ordered a tower of Indian Pale Ale. didn't like its taste so i didn't drink much. (dun worry, El Shaddai guys! =p) we also ordered a lot of food. dun really like it. :S actually our purpose of going there is to rekke. i initially wanted to book the place for my bday celebration, but after tasting the food n drinks, i dun think so. tt night someone drank until v seh lor. haha got home after 3am. my dad was just about to go to work. =x i still had to stay up n finish the Guitar course form (it's my fault for not going home straight to work on it, and still went out to have fun).

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oh yah about MCG.. i shared with jac briefly how the meeting last sat impacted me. i had been having the wrong idea about missions, n i'm glad to learn so much since i joined MCG. i always thought, i've been going tj balai so often, n i wanted to be in the know of what's going on there. i had always gone as a tripper, not as a missionary, n i wanted to be more involved. the "seniors" in MCG taught me to look at things long term, like, do i wish to see the balai church independent? in what ways can we help them do tt? they can't possibly rely on us to keep going in and bring presents and food for them everytime. how would they grow in this way? they shld be able to function on their own, while we r there to train them. n move on to other places to reach more pple. n our most recent plan, to start a youth cell grp in balai. i hadn't considered whether phei phei is committed to hold the cell grp if we couldn't go in. (thankfully persis assured me that she talked to her already) because ruth suggested that we can't go on doing things for them while they r unwilling to grow. n we can't go in to visit everytime we hear someone falls sick. some things r just beyond our limits.

there's so much so much more to learn about missions. i'm really thankful for the chance to learn all these thru MCG.

sometimes though, i get lost about my long term plans. i had dropped by an OCBC bank near my place one Sat n sat in to listen to a financial plan. my mom was quite interested as well. but it's long term savings. tt time i bought an insurance policy i already had to consider a lot n go thru a time of grieving (haha if u remember) i probably could keep both the insurance n this new financial savings plan if... IF... i worked for 6 yrs. it's hard to predict the future.. really don't know when i'll stop working n go to a Bible college or wad...

anyway, recently been studying Nehemiah. at chapter 3 i decided to search the internet for commentaries. found a study guide for the chapter. really very interesting! shld read it. not sure if u can click this link: http://www.blueletterbible.org/cgi-bin/comm_read.pl?book=Neh&chapter=3&verse=1&Comm=Comm%2Fdavid_guzik%2Fsg%2FNeh_3.html%230@@@@@1@@@@@2@@@@@5@@@@@15%26*David+Guzik%26&Select.x=21&Select.y=14

briefly describe what i learnt la:
1. Eliashib the high priest was mentioned first of all, to show that he led in example in the rebuilding of Jerusalem.
2. He and other priests consecrated the Sheep Gate that they built (so named because shepherds bring their flock to the gate to sell, in those days and up to a few yrs ago) - to God. reminds us that in everything we do, do it for the Lord. (Colossians 3:17)
3. The Tekoites joined in the repair works, but their nobles did not. then in vs 27 they repaired another section, probably to make up for what their nobles would not do. they did not submit to God, so they probably didn't get to enjoy His blessings. Nehemiah didn't mention their names in the account, Pastor David Guzik suggested that it's because God had mercy on them.
4. vs 8 mentions the actual profession of the people who rebuilt the walls. They were all not professional builders! some were goldsmiths, perfume-makers etc. the most important ability in doing God's work is availability.

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hmm on sun i just casually commented that owning an ipod is "carnal". so many pple now own one. if u do, u're following the crowd. i used to despise pple who follow the crowd - tt's y i turned out quite anti-social. erm now... it's hard to be stubborn. yep insisting things to go my way is called stubborn. (i'm going crazy trying to keep balance of things.) ah yah back to ipod. i was tempted to own one at times, but i feel very strongly tt it's a tool to draw even christians away from God. when there's earphones in ur ears, how do u hear when God speaks?

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i was supposed to meet a client on wed. so i dressed up rather formally. then she called to postpone the meeting to fri. oh well. n today, friday, i dressed up formally again. i emailed her the design for her company's website n mentioned tt i'll see her later. then she called n apologised for forgetting to inform me tt the meeting is postponed to after CNY!! i dun like wearing formal u know.

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wed went to IMM with hao. had dinner at Pepper Lunch (it just smells too good to walk away). n after that SHOPPING AT ESPRIT OUTLET!!!! haha i wouldn't know abt it if i hadn't heard from Jac. didn't see the clothes i saw in HK, but it's ok. bought a top n a bottom, at prices u'll see at far east, but it's Esprit! ya i know i used to despise branded goods too, but since owning a Levi's i believe that the price fits the quality. =) i can't say that for every brand though.

our 24:365 reminds me to guard against the temptation of the pleasures of the world. indeed i do have spending power now, but i must always remember that what i have is borrowed from God. must exercise good stewardship over what i have. to my friends who think i must be crazy, money is the root of all evil. with some money, people desire to have more. n more n more. therefore, our God teaches us that money is only temporal. u cannot bring it with u after life. therefore, y view it more important than life itself? some pple can live with plenty, some can live with none. just be contented with ur lot. it's easier to find joy.

this week i went to DCB on tue n thurs for 24:365. i dropped my phone there on tue. only when i was about to slp i started looking for it n realise i had dropped it. so i prayed that it could be found. it wasn't that important to me because i didn't like the phone, and also the sim card inside was a prepaid card. so not v much loss. but would be good to retrieve it cuz i have a lot of contacts n photos n messages in it. on wed, my mom called to say phoebe called her tt she found my phone in church!! praise God! that's y my nick says "i lost my phone, but God found it!"

was quite surprised tt Auntie Pearly was the only non-youth present on thurs.

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Take That is back! with the song Patience... wow.. hear it on Class 95 cuz we have a non-chinese colleague now. (she actually suggested listening to tamil songs... i can only diam-diam) erm anyway. the song is nice!! watched it on You-tube before i believed that it was sung by the original Take That.