:: parties ::

umm.. new blogger feature.

CNY..... haha. sat went to Vivocity with my family. to watch Protègè!! Wee!! my cute guys. had lunch at Food republic (we prefer there to Kopitiam now). And walked around. i was quite bored la. wanted to take the Sentosa Express but my mom says no because my sis says no. urgh.

went home for reunion dinner. it was ... bad. the steamboat/bbq thing was new, so we didn't really know how to use it. other than beef, nothing else seems cooked. after that wanted to go out with singles' club one, but my mom dun allow (?!?!?!) so weird. stayed at home to watch Curse of the Golden Flower. not nice sia. but i watch movie must watch to the end one.

next day.. sunday. almost couldn't wake up for service. service was fun :D there's this funny song with funny action n its unforgettable stuck-in-the-head rap that goes "nothing, nothing, absolutely nothing..." after service went downstairs, there was a resource corner selling bibles and books for kids. i've been wanting to find time to go Crest to buy presents for my cousins last week, so i'm glad i could buy something there! it was hard to find something suitable, but i bought a rainbow Good News Bible for my sec 2 cousin. not too kiddy but not too serious. great!

then we went to find my grandmother. she very cute sia. we bai nian to her with oranges, she return us the same oranges when she has her own oranges! haha.. n she opened the red packets she brought to check the amount inside before giving us. hahahaha...

at first we were going for lunch with her, then she said she's meeting a friend. But in the end she still joined us for lunch at Clementi, n even followed us to my mom's sis' place at bukit batok! keke. my aunt wasn't at home!!!! oh no! so we went to west mall to chill. wanted to catch another movie, but my sis decided to forgo the movie to accompany my mom home. ahhh... that's kinda y i seldom watch movies. always kena pang seh.

went home n played mahjong with my dad - only. haha. won a few games. =D then we had a real reunion steamboat dinner. with COOKED food. this was better =)

next day monday holiday songbo. went to my mom's boss' place to bai nian. my fav movie, My Girl (thai movie) was screened on Channel U! dubbed with chinese though. didn't get to watch the whole movie before we had to move on to visit my other aunt. all these while my dad was not around cuz he gotta work. so cham.

at my aunt's place i watched my dad play mahjong with the kings and queen of mahjong. i was quite intimidated. haha. in the end my dad ONLY lost $2+. he was losing alot at first, but manage to catch up at the end. couldn't recognise my cousins' children, like who is whose. hehe.

tue also holiday. went to sengkang to visit my dad's side of the relatives. passed the presents to them. didn't get to see 3 other cousins so i couldn't see their expression of receiving the presents. had lunch with them n went home, with them. actually just an uncle, my aunt n her daughter. i had to go shirley's house so i kinda rushed them. they wanted to follow me out since they just wanted to visit for a while. oops. i was v late. =x took train to outram park then took a cab from there. before i realised it, the cab driver took me a round when he could have just gone straight. =x

had very good food at shirley's place. love the chawanmushi n the kueh pie tee~! da-pao-ed for my family, but they turned soft along the way =x didn't stay for long cuz i had another drop-by to make. went to bukit batok (again! haa) to wish bec happy birthday. it's our tradition to meet up for the birthdays of each person in the grp, usually at west mall coffee bean. it's bec's 21st, so we gave her diamond! pendant. had a great chat with them before they went to bec's hse for dinner, n me to the airport. before i took the train i had some "trouble" in the toilet. (that's why i was so late)

reached airport (i could have been there 4th time tt week if i had gone to send matthias n jia off). had dinner at crystal jade. food is so-so. but the crab meat + crab roe was great!!!

took bus to the budget terminal to send my sis off. there was some fun stuff at the terminal. we took a family photo at the photo-taking booth. quite well taken, except that they could have adjusted the lighting on the image a bit. also went up to caishenye to get angpow (which contains gold chocolate coins). had took the dragonbeard candy from the booth. fun :D

there was a promotion on Harry Potter book leh... U.P. $25.00, but they're selling for $9.90 in the Times bookshop inside the dutyfree lor. urgh... wanted to buy 1 to sell, but my sis didn't buy it. :( she was enthu abt the idea at first. turn out she didn't buy because it was "too heavy" ... :(

wed
back to work. couldn't wake up :P so i was 15 minute late. >.<

went to my dad's cell grp CNY party (at bukit batok - again) on behalf of my mom cuz she got company dinner. i was arrowed to be the projectionist the moment i reached! surprised to see jac there. her grandma had come for the party. it was an outreach party. food was good. =) i think Rev John Loong's cantonese really v clear. i could understand his message man! i couldn't really understand the skit though.

thur
reached office earlier than my colleagues! i thought it was some holiday or something. oh dear.
met natalie n junhao for lunch. finally can bring them to somewhere i couldn't have gone with my colleagues. cuz one of them cannot eat pork *sobs* ya i abandoned my colleagues tt day. asked terry akouo along too, since we're all from DMD n junhao was from games. wah i really miss the minced pork mee pok with abalone!! :D

after work went to aljunied to find ting, who was filming there. that place got ALOT OF CATS! =D they wrapped up at abt 7+pm, then we took cab to jeananne's place to drop the camera n other equipment. then ting n i went to BUKIT BATOK. it was jenna's 21st. i wasn't invited till i smsed her a greeting. keke. sounds like quite a few exclassmates from sec sch will be there so i was glad. it was a good reunion la. getting surprised n shocked at how much their looks have changed. didn't know the theme was retro till kor told me y he chose to dress tt way!! by the time we reached, dinner was almost leftovers. but it was good. =) i really didn't recognise many pple except my own classmates. the girls from other classes n our juniors really look different.. prettier sia! n slim lor. ... >.<

jenna's NUS friends v funny. there was this guy who asked her to go over, n showed her the presents from the whole grp, one by one, with long stories. n at the end of the stories, she was so touched she wanted to hug him for being so sweet. BUT WHO KNOWS! he turned her n got the other friends to carry her, by each limb... n sang a birthday song...n threw her into the pool!!! whoa that was ultimate. well-thought plan. haha..

fast forward n skip the details.. i managed to run for the NEL at outram. it was the last train of the day!! i'd almost miss it by 20 seconds. :D

today.. ok la, lunch time was a bit sad cuz yesterday too happy liao. u know, such a big difference. a lot of work. but ok la. i'd rather have many small work to do rather than few big ones.

:: work part 2 ::

it's really tough to instruct my colleagues about work. i'm the youngest among them, yet i'm the most senior. During the first few weeks of their arrival, i was really struggling, because i'm not used to their working style. for example i thought it would be useful to write down stuffs, but Juliana reminded me tt it's just a preference of working style la. so i cheered up abit.

been having poor appetite due to stress n unhappiness at work, but these few days my appetite picked up. =)

on wed Valentine's day i wanted to hang out with singles' club...but everyone in army, n wendy is having a sweet time with michael. *winks* so i had dinner with my parents at Little India n went shopping for reunion dinner food. but tt day i took the opportunity to sms my dear friends from pri sch, sec sch, JI, n poly. really miss the feeling of sms-ing non-stop! =D

anyway, CNY is coming! i think this yr will be different. more relax.

my sis is back for CNY... last night she came into my room n dropped 2 thai cds. =D i vaguely saw her n thanked God in my sleep tt she's back safely. still dun get to chat with her yet. she busy la.

i dun have new clothes for CNY. wore them in advance already =P see la, if tmr i go out i might find something.

dunno wad to say. everytime at work i got lots to say, but when i reach home i forget everything. sia la.

:: work and all that ::

gosh lots to blog.

had a new colleague for a week before Juliana left and a newer colleague came. There were a guy and an indian lady who came for interview, i only caught a glimpse of the guy as i was leaving my office, but i noticed he stared at me. just wouldn't feel comfortable if the 2nd colleague is also a guy, that would make me the only girl (again). not like i'm not comfortable around guys, but i probably scared myself with the thoughts of having after-lunch heart to heart talks like with juliana, with 2 guys. i would cry man. so in a way i persuaded my boss to hire the lady. my impression of indians in the IT is quite good lor. imagined her to be someone intellectual =p

erm. i honestly would say tt i'm suffering at work now. i realise i have nothing to chat with my new colleagues about. we totally have nothing in common. in a way it is training me to grow in uncomfortable situations, but my prayer life declined badly after my christian colleague left. we usually pray for each other before we start our meals, n after lunch go for walks and heart-to-heart talks until our lunch time is up. i really miss that. *sobs* i shouldn't talk bad abt my colleagues la. let's just say i haven't got to know them better yet.

was suffering partly because of ecards also. if u read my msn nick, i had been complaining for many days abt ecards. i prefer looking at html codes to working with animations. there have been a few difficult clients who have requests beyond my ability. but thank God, with His power i have overcome them already. =D

now my workload is filled with new/to-be-revamped websites. at this point, the change of colleagues is really not a good time. i need a lot of programming help, but terry has his own workload n pramila... today i just spent abt an hour explaining to her what i want. the parable of the talents was stuck in my head, so i was thinking of not assigning difficult work to her, but i have nowhere else to turn to. *sobs again* haiz i can't believe a guy can whine so much *sobsssss*

but i gotta thank Terry for introducing his friends to me.. do networking. haha.. his friend Pam always bring us around the area for lunch. usually more at tanjung pagar area so i realise how small singapore is n how near tj pagar is to my workplace! =) she would bring her colleagues along for lunch too, so sometimes lunch is fun.

her workplace is near the bridge filmed in One Last Dance. had been wanting to watch it since before it came out. caught it with Rj n Christina.. really like the show, partly because of Francis Ng. ;) after the movie (last fri) we went to Brewerkz, also with faith, jx n his gf. jx ordered a tower of Indian Pale Ale. didn't like its taste so i didn't drink much. (dun worry, El Shaddai guys! =p) we also ordered a lot of food. dun really like it. :S actually our purpose of going there is to rekke. i initially wanted to book the place for my bday celebration, but after tasting the food n drinks, i dun think so. tt night someone drank until v seh lor. haha got home after 3am. my dad was just about to go to work. =x i still had to stay up n finish the Guitar course form (it's my fault for not going home straight to work on it, and still went out to have fun).

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oh yah about MCG.. i shared with jac briefly how the meeting last sat impacted me. i had been having the wrong idea about missions, n i'm glad to learn so much since i joined MCG. i always thought, i've been going tj balai so often, n i wanted to be in the know of what's going on there. i had always gone as a tripper, not as a missionary, n i wanted to be more involved. the "seniors" in MCG taught me to look at things long term, like, do i wish to see the balai church independent? in what ways can we help them do tt? they can't possibly rely on us to keep going in and bring presents and food for them everytime. how would they grow in this way? they shld be able to function on their own, while we r there to train them. n move on to other places to reach more pple. n our most recent plan, to start a youth cell grp in balai. i hadn't considered whether phei phei is committed to hold the cell grp if we couldn't go in. (thankfully persis assured me that she talked to her already) because ruth suggested that we can't go on doing things for them while they r unwilling to grow. n we can't go in to visit everytime we hear someone falls sick. some things r just beyond our limits.

there's so much so much more to learn about missions. i'm really thankful for the chance to learn all these thru MCG.

sometimes though, i get lost about my long term plans. i had dropped by an OCBC bank near my place one Sat n sat in to listen to a financial plan. my mom was quite interested as well. but it's long term savings. tt time i bought an insurance policy i already had to consider a lot n go thru a time of grieving (haha if u remember) i probably could keep both the insurance n this new financial savings plan if... IF... i worked for 6 yrs. it's hard to predict the future.. really don't know when i'll stop working n go to a Bible college or wad...

anyway, recently been studying Nehemiah. at chapter 3 i decided to search the internet for commentaries. found a study guide for the chapter. really very interesting! shld read it. not sure if u can click this link: http://www.blueletterbible.org/cgi-bin/comm_read.pl?book=Neh&chapter=3&verse=1&Comm=Comm%2Fdavid_guzik%2Fsg%2FNeh_3.html%230@@@@@1@@@@@2@@@@@5@@@@@15%26*David+Guzik%26&Select.x=21&Select.y=14

briefly describe what i learnt la:
1. Eliashib the high priest was mentioned first of all, to show that he led in example in the rebuilding of Jerusalem.
2. He and other priests consecrated the Sheep Gate that they built (so named because shepherds bring their flock to the gate to sell, in those days and up to a few yrs ago) - to God. reminds us that in everything we do, do it for the Lord. (Colossians 3:17)
3. The Tekoites joined in the repair works, but their nobles did not. then in vs 27 they repaired another section, probably to make up for what their nobles would not do. they did not submit to God, so they probably didn't get to enjoy His blessings. Nehemiah didn't mention their names in the account, Pastor David Guzik suggested that it's because God had mercy on them.
4. vs 8 mentions the actual profession of the people who rebuilt the walls. They were all not professional builders! some were goldsmiths, perfume-makers etc. the most important ability in doing God's work is availability.

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hmm on sun i just casually commented that owning an ipod is "carnal". so many pple now own one. if u do, u're following the crowd. i used to despise pple who follow the crowd - tt's y i turned out quite anti-social. erm now... it's hard to be stubborn. yep insisting things to go my way is called stubborn. (i'm going crazy trying to keep balance of things.) ah yah back to ipod. i was tempted to own one at times, but i feel very strongly tt it's a tool to draw even christians away from God. when there's earphones in ur ears, how do u hear when God speaks?

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i was supposed to meet a client on wed. so i dressed up rather formally. then she called to postpone the meeting to fri. oh well. n today, friday, i dressed up formally again. i emailed her the design for her company's website n mentioned tt i'll see her later. then she called n apologised for forgetting to inform me tt the meeting is postponed to after CNY!! i dun like wearing formal u know.

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wed went to IMM with hao. had dinner at Pepper Lunch (it just smells too good to walk away). n after that SHOPPING AT ESPRIT OUTLET!!!! haha i wouldn't know abt it if i hadn't heard from Jac. didn't see the clothes i saw in HK, but it's ok. bought a top n a bottom, at prices u'll see at far east, but it's Esprit! ya i know i used to despise branded goods too, but since owning a Levi's i believe that the price fits the quality. =) i can't say that for every brand though.

our 24:365 reminds me to guard against the temptation of the pleasures of the world. indeed i do have spending power now, but i must always remember that what i have is borrowed from God. must exercise good stewardship over what i have. to my friends who think i must be crazy, money is the root of all evil. with some money, people desire to have more. n more n more. therefore, our God teaches us that money is only temporal. u cannot bring it with u after life. therefore, y view it more important than life itself? some pple can live with plenty, some can live with none. just be contented with ur lot. it's easier to find joy.

this week i went to DCB on tue n thurs for 24:365. i dropped my phone there on tue. only when i was about to slp i started looking for it n realise i had dropped it. so i prayed that it could be found. it wasn't that important to me because i didn't like the phone, and also the sim card inside was a prepaid card. so not v much loss. but would be good to retrieve it cuz i have a lot of contacts n photos n messages in it. on wed, my mom called to say phoebe called her tt she found my phone in church!! praise God! that's y my nick says "i lost my phone, but God found it!"

was quite surprised tt Auntie Pearly was the only non-youth present on thurs.

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Take That is back! with the song Patience... wow.. hear it on Class 95 cuz we have a non-chinese colleague now. (she actually suggested listening to tamil songs... i can only diam-diam) erm anyway. the song is nice!! watched it on You-tube before i believed that it was sung by the original Take That.

:: encouragement ::

healing from a heartbreak...

=x not v serious la, just a crush only... but v disappointed.. :S

saw this encouraging words in an email (i sign up for LOTSA enewsletters =P)


No man can ever claim you unless he claims you from me
I reserved a man for you who has my heart and loves me more than he'll love you
I won't give you unless he asks you from me
Soon you will know him, i have the perfect time
Your my princess, my daughter
Let no prince claim you unless unless he asks you from my hand
For i am your Father, the King of Kings..
You my princess, is worth loving...

:: missed out. ::

yeah missed out something in my update last night.

last ...tue i think. i was using my home comp halfway n then it hung on me. waited quite long n then i decided to press the Sleep button on my keyboard. then the screen went blank. pressed the reset button on my Barebone CPU but nothing happened. couldn't get it to even boot up. finally decided i was wasting too much time on trying n so i gave up. i rather slp earlier n try again the next day. wed tried again, but to no avail.

finally on thurs after praying hard, for wisdom to find out how to fix it, i opened up the covers n blasted the aircon at it. (i wore my super thick Baby Milo jacket cuz i'm super afraid of the cold.) prayed that God will allow my comp to work for even just one hour, so that i can backup my stuff n i will be v v thankful! and WOW! it managed to boot up! really not sure if it will fail me again or not, but i was desperately burning my files into DVDs to backup. u know the burner program will show a progress bar, show how many percent done. every 10% i thank God, until 100! after burning one dvd, the one hr i prayed for was up. but i decided to burn another dvd to test n c if still can work. yay! but after that it was bedtime, so i decided to give my pc a rest.

n sun night i was upset abt another thing as well. feel that my cell grp is losing members. =( must try hard to bring in friends.

mmm. can't rem what else i missed out.

:: HA. ::

whatever happened to the "i don't wanna miss out a day of my life" belief.

recently... quite a bit of stuff to update.

had a sectional potluck on 12th Jan. took a bus during the heavy rain. the journey was really.... argh.. makes me hate bukit timah during peak hours. took 2 hrs to reach Esther leong's place. even got lost. but managed to cool down before the guys came out to find me. was very very hungry on the bus, but got over it by the time i reached. the gift exchange part was quite cool. disorganised :P but some pple got really funny gifts! after that went for midnight movie with most of them at bukit batok.

15 Jan mon - after work went to dhoby ghaut to meet persis n gail to discuss abt tj balai plans for 2007. felt v weird for not going or doing anything abt tj balai for so long. managed to get some concrete plans out =) but too tired to type email by the time i reach home. walked around daiso. =)

thur - new colleague came. it's a guy. non-christian. very sad. after Jul leave there won't be anyone to hang out with me during lunch break n it's quite hard to talk crap with the guy. he's the 4th Terry i know. pray hard that i'll have another colleague - female n christian - SOON!

sat - went to serene's hse, prepared while we wait for the guys to arrive, then jac n i started to do facials for them while diana n aijia do shoulder massage, n cat n grace operate the foot massager n prepare the water to soak their feet). the guys were scared do let us do facial on them =( cheers to the guys who did! after that we had dinner.. yummy~! n the guys performed for us. hehe it was really fun~!

sun - went KTV with faith n weiyang after service n after lunch. it's been a few months since i last went, so it's ok. used to dread going ktv actually. but this time was fun. my singing was bad but just wanted to try the new songs i hear on radio esp since Jul only like 93.3FM. haha everytime i change the channel the next morning she'll change back to 93.3. heh.

after that went to shop for farewell gift for her. i dun have much time to shop one lor.. n when i need to get a gift for someone i tend to choose v carefully, n then end up not buying cuz i got not enough time or not sure if the item is worth the money. yah. well. anyway i was super pissed. with my phone. think it only happens to my phone anyway. for a few hours i dun receive any sms, but when i make a call or sms someone, then the sms-es start coming in. that was wad happened then. my dad said he kept calling me, but my phone seemed to be off. n i thought he would get off work at 9pm, so i took my time to shop for the gift. when i reached his workplace, there was no one around! i started to call him n then i started to receive 2 sms-es. 1 from my dad, sent at 8.10pm, telling me tt he's going home already. i was so angry with my phone that doesn't function as a phone n had the urge to smash it on the ground. .... thank God for self-control. but i was so angry i started to cry. yeah, in orchard road. but cannot take it anymore, cannot wait till i hide somewhere to let it out. now i'm okay. but i wanna change phone soon. been wanting to do so, but i can't bear to do so till i can download the pics i took with my phone. can't dl it except by cable. ...!!!

it's silly to get so angry with a phone.

:: wedding and a birthday ::

fri
went to chinatown food centre for dinner with my parents. always like visiting n trying food at new places. =)
food there OK only.

sat
woke up early, dressed up, go for Christine's wedding!! she was my NYP Campus Crusade DG leader. it was held at Tampines Lighthouse Evangelical church. concert style.. haha.. but one thing bad abt the place is, the aisles are at 2 sides..... usually the bride will walk down the centre while the people stand at the pews, watching her n applauding n cheering.. but this one not everyone could see her. n also the couple didn't go up the stage, but they stood at the front of the seats, so hardly anything to see. but the skit put up by their friends about them, the duet they sang... really a joyous occasion. i was even touched to tears.. =P

went home to get changed n get ready for cell grp. jac set up a few carnival games.. cool! had a time of reflection for 2006 and sharing for 2007. too bad i had to go off early. went home cuz i was expecting my new Singnet modem to be delivered. i had been using Jetpack ma, limited in volume. $19.95 for about 325MB per month. i've been exceeding the limit for a few months already, so decided to change to unlimited, shun bian get a wireless modem so that my laptop can also connect. after calculation, i think i made a good choice. =) the delivery came around 7pm. though i could have left cell grp later, still it's good to be prepared before the delivery man came. after all i was alone at home, gotta keep the underwear properly, closed the other room doors, sweep the floor... =P

after that i went to jinwen's bday party. went to get VCDs for him as bday present. think that award winning movies are good presents. hmm... so sorry i didn't get christmas presents for most of my friends... i do feel bad for not giving presents.. hmm.. those of u reading, got chance we go Candy Empire i let u choose anything u want k? *terms and conditions apply.

didn't know what to expect for his party.. just expected it to be a SDN DMD IM gathering. saw ze jian, darius, sab, valencis, esme, michelle. at first i couldn't recognise the crowd at the downstairs of j's block. just saw a lot of hiphoppers but not sure if that's his friends. didn't wear my glasses also. anyway. zj is still as crappy. the guys r in army now.. so when they meet up they sure talk abt army. then zj will say "ok la dun talk abt army. ... eh u know tekong...." (something like that) and he suan sab until v funny. "everything got exception." =P

reached home around 12am.

sun
woke up late for the Sunday Morning Teaching. =x
first service of the year. 2 electric guits today, somehow i really felt that it made an impact. encouraged me to worship God. =)
had lunch with my cell grp at marina sq, weiyang drove. v steady man. had bbq saba fish set meal, whoa! great man. weiyang kept praising the food. =x i had an exceptionally big fish. v happy. =D shopped around, but i didn't buy anything.. i guess i won't buy anything from shops like G2000, esprit, Dorothy Perkins, etc except in other countries where there is warehouse/outlet sale. *winks* in singapore, the shops i frequent would be This Fashion. =P

went to sentosa after that. have to reach before 5pm, to collect my membership card. well, since i was there, decided to take a walk at the beach. chose a good spot at Siloso beach... where the sun sets directly in my path. too bad i nv bring my camera out!! decided to take out my Bible to read a few chapters, to speed up the rate of completing my Bible reading plan. i really nv read thru it before. 2006 was the yr i finished reading thru Psalms, this yr is going to be exciting! it's good to start from Genesis la, where the tribes start. spent abt 2 hrs there, felt v refreshed by the sea breeze. had a good time thinking abt God and my plans for 2007, but somehow felt like i didn't get a conclusion.

after the sun set i wanted to quickly go toilet then go home. but when i reached Vivocity i saw an interesting ship docked behind and went closer to take a look. the guy said there was an exhibition in the shopping mall, so i went in. hmm, it's a Swedish ship. v interesting. the exhibition also displayed photos of Sweden... wah makes me v gian to visit Sweden! seems like a land of creativity (where IKEA came from) then after that i went downstairs to go MRT, n decided to go take a look in Candy Empire. wahhhhhhhh... i don't like chocolate, but lately been pigging out on Kinder Bueno.. =x the packaging design of the sweets and chocolates make me wanna own them! i think they will make good presents too. (hence my earlier suggestion) bought Arnott's butter shortbread. OK only.

v tired.

mon
woke up early cuz my dad was giving me a lift. had lunch at Haveli, where Paul (Liew) works. haha.. after lunch i decided to take a nap, n it felt like i took the whole afternoon of nap. dreamt that i woke up, went downstairs to get something, went back, found a comfortable position n immediately fell asleep again - in my dream. also dreamt that i saw a few pple in my office (there shld actually be only me n my colleague), as if it were bigger and had more rooms. when i woke up it felt like a few hrs of nap, but turns out only an hour. dunno if it's a good thing or not. then my colleague went out for interview. it was tempting to go back to slp, but by that time i had things to do.

grrr... CNY ecards. eeee. really no idea how to design CNY ecards. i dun want it to have anything to do with dragons/Chinese zodiac/religious objects, so my designs r mainly abt spring blossoms, wordplay. quite limited. then chat with my sis regarding holiday plans for Mar. hee..

had lunch with my mom at People's Park. shopped for toiletries.

:: keep on blogging ::

sometimes quite sian of having to blog.. yet i don't wanna miss out a day of my life? if one day i suffer amnesia, my blog would be the best way to help me understand what kinda life i led! =)

29 dec fri
half day of work. quite puzzled y my boss didn't inform me directly. is it because he knows my colleague will surely tell me? went to have lunch at People's Park. slightly further cuz we don't need to report back to office after lunch. took train with my colleague to tampines. fell asleep on the train all the way the EW line. hadn't rested enough even after my trip man. took the shuttle bus to Ikea -> Courts Megastore to find my parents. the interior of Ikea Tampines is somewhat like Ikea Alexandra. So i didn't feel unfamiliar. met some DMD juniors there. bought 4 big boxes. packed my stuff into the boxes. but i kept getting scratched against the edges of the cardboard. =(

30 dec
no cell grp today. stayed at home almost whole day. bia sectional training homework.. was even wondering if i shld go to church for PRC setup. in the end i did. i haven't got a reply from andr and roy, so i wondered if they were ok. but i had faith that God will protect them. nevertheless, i called them to find out how they were doing. glad that they're fine. went home to continue on my homework. halfway done but i was too tired to continue.

31 dec
wahh last day of the year!
went for service n passed some stuff to Agape from andr n roy. went for lunch with cell grp at kallang.. prawn noodles wor. the place we sat had a smell... like stinking beancurd...... :S
after lunch i went home to continue to work on my homework. finally submitted it n went to rest. tried to remove my contact lenses but it was v difficult. :( caused my eyes to go red. eeeee...
woke up n went out to meet singles' club. woohoo!~ long time no meet them! went to lau pa sat for dinner n then i took train to church. managed to get David to follow me.. if he go home he sure don't wanna go out again one sia. had a great time at the service, but my contact lenses kept giving me probs.
5,4,3,2,1!! weee!! i'm glad i celebrated countdown in church, not at some meaningless party. :)
half-guessed that my cell grp wld go chomp chomp after that. yay.. cuz later shun bian going nic's hse ma. had my egg beancurd n had fun with my cell grp. but too bad chomp chomp closing early that night man. then mic n wendy came n joined us. went to nic's hse n played mahjong till 6am, i bueh tahan liao.

1st jan 2007!
took bus home but didn't see my parents at home. packed my room till they came back. quite satisfied. =) my parents went to mustafa to buy a DVD recorder.. no more VCR~! =P watched the last episode of my fav hk serial =) now i can finally sleep early because the next 10pm channel U serial is not worth me staying up to watch.

2 jan
woke up quite late =P had brunch with my parents n walked around. then continued to pack my room. this time i caused a lot of dust to come out.. i kept sneezing n having runny nose the whole day =( but i'm satisfied with the clean look of my room =)
went fishing with my dad at punggol jetty. caught 2 fish!! =D but before we went back my dad told me to release them. =( mom cooked dinner.. errr... ok only la. but we were v happy with the CP honey wings. LOL.
andr n roy came back today. andr came to my place to exchange luggage.. around 12+am.. my nose was blocked n runny n i couldn't slp the whole night. =(

3 jan
went to work.. still with runny nose n i just don't feel well. after lunch i took a break n rested since i got no work coming in. thought i felt much better cuz at least i could breathe thru my nose. but instead of having runny nose i blew out phlegm. :S went out to buy ginger tea, but didn't seem to work.
nevertheless, praise God for the work today. it kept coming in and the workload was just enough to keep me occupied so i don't feel like i skived. =)

hope the dust settles.

:: Youth Camp + Hong Kong 2006 ::

15 dec fri
had dim sum for lunch. =)

Youth camp! brought my stuff to work so i could go to the campsite straight. last min on the bus to sentosa, before it drove off i remembered that i forgot to buy dinner, since i already told my camp grp leaders that i don't need dinner. when i reached the campsite, pearlwyn was just driving in, so i got a lift from her. the session has started already n i just found myself a space at the back. so coincidentally that my grp is just there. there were Jason n Arena, from children's camp also in my grp. kinda the first time i felt like a big sister in youth camp (sobz)... roy was also in my grp. the funny thing is, we're going hk together, but i still didn't get his number (even during the camp >.<)

played night game... i got quite sian after interviewing a few pple to find clues..

my bed was on the upper deck. first time i had to sleep on the upper deck cuz i came late. usually i would snatch the lower deck cuz i feel very heavy, no strength to push myself up n climb trees. =(

16 dec
had quiet time with my camp grp. a good time near the beach. really felt that i'm a big sister to the kids in my grp!! but i forgot abt my projection duty following that. oopssss.....

played beach games.. got myself dirty, but it's ok, i've grown up.. haha.. i used to be really reserved, prim n proper (uh.. i think) don't like to make a fool of myself. but now, mature a bit, don't need to care so much abt face. =)

got night session duty too. it's really a time of liberation and celebration. =) had a great time losing my voice.

17 dec
slept longer =) managed to join the prayer session for a minute. >.< had camp grp time at one of the rooms. played Charades, El Shaddai version. =) really feel that my grp leaders did a great job in leading.

played Amazing Race. i have no idea how the game is played man. seems like Treasure Hunt to me. played in the rain. thank God i wore the right slippers man. all my other slippers are slippery one lor. had great fun malu-ing ourselves. =)

finale night was fun too... laughed my head off. did a mass dance. haha.. great job, camp comm! =)

18 dec
went off to work in the morning. tired, but can tahan la. had roti prata n teh tarik. just nice i had only $1.90, and the meal cost $1.90. praise God!

after work wanted to go home slp, but i saw a cute kitty at the Police Cantonment building!! awww... such a scaredy cat.

22 dec
got my pay n bonus (*smilez*) went to the bank after lunch to bank in the money. called mom to find out where she is, i would probably go find her. cuz my boss told us if we don't have anything already we can go back =) but i got my cell grp Christmas party at Alan's place, which is near my workplace, so i dunno wad to do.

went to bugis to find my mom, shop around a bit. then took bus to Alan's place. he was not in. think he only lent us the place. haha.. malcolm n some of the guys helped out with the food. the girls did the decor. =) then alan n zane came back with Servio, so we played with him. he's so smart! smiling more often and is able to use sign language to say "Please" and "thank you"!

then we played animal game, drinking goggles, and whose line is it anyway. LOL. one of the games i went blur, so i got a forfeit.... to eat a cup of raw veggies... it was really very tough for such a picky girl. so tough until i teared. ermm... there were onions la. i dunno. i closed my eyes n stuffed the veggies inside n chewed for half an hour before i swallowed it. YUCKS. so pai seh..

after that brandon gave some of us a lift back. then i packed my luggage for the trip the next day !!!

23 dec
woke up to continue packing. went to Punggol plaza to get a fresh towel and contact lenses. found out that my degree went down, but myopia got worse. :S actually i waited quite long for the shop to open. by the time i got back home i had to quickly leave. went to the airport with my mom.

my dad came after work, we had lunch at the Al-dunno wad Mediterranean cuisine. not bad la. i had seafood pizza. went down to the staff canteen for soya beancurd dessert then Andrielle and Roy arrived. we checked in our luggage, had my parents pray for us, then we went down to the canteen again, cuz they haven't eaten.

just nice first day of our trip was also the first day of our period. but think it's going to be okay. boarded the plane... so excited!! =)

was quite late by the time we reached HK. hungry too. so we got mcChicken meal n took the bus to our hostel. it's easy to get around, just ask for directions. in English, Mandarin, Canto also can. =) it took us quite a while to check in, cuz we were shifted to another building. quite weird la. but that's the way budget hostels work i guess. wanted to go out to explore, but it was too late to take a tram. so we just walked around our area - Fortress Hill. 2 MTR stops from Causeway Bay. had supper.

relooked into our itinerary, did our quiet time, n went to sleep at 2am.

24 dec
woke up rather early. took the MTR out to Jordan stop for dim sum breakfast, then attended church service at St Andrew's Church. it was rather traditional looking. there was a church organ too, playing to Hillsongs. LOL. walked down Nathan Rd to look for Esprit outlet, but couldn't find it. so we took the MTR up to Mong Kok. shopped around the Ladies' Market. bought some stuff, not much sia. jialat i keep looking at guys' clothes.. if i got bf i wld buy for him, but since i dun have, i wanna buy for myself. u know, adopt a hip hop look. =P

found a Baleno outlet, so we went in. as you know, they r the same family as Samuel & Kevin and I.P. Zone, so there is more variety. the surprising thing is the place is very small, but we didn't wait very long for the fitting rooms. after a while there were only 3 of us. then we found Esprit outlet, in Mong Kok! (not Tsim Sha Tsui everyone!) regrettably i only bought 3 tops. haha..

very tired already. esp my legs, when i'm having heavy flow. =S wanted to go back to TST. when we were wondering which mode of transport to take, we saw a bus with a sign that says Star Ferry. thank God! boarded that bus. took the Star Ferry back to Central pier. while waiting for a bus to get to the Peak Tram terminus, roy bought a nice ice cream - Mister Softee.. =) got to the Peak Tram lower terminus n got a shock. so many pple think like me.. they want to go up to the Peak for a nice view n countdown to Christmas.. =( good thing is we wanted to go to the Madame Tussauds wax museum as well, so we bought the combo tickets n got priority to queue for the tram. =)

couldn't get seats to Cafe Deco, so we settled for less for dinner. it was quite bad. =( at least service was bad. after dinner we went into Madame Tussauds museum. took LOTSA funny photos with the wax figures. LOL.

decided that we don't have a good spot to celebrate countdown, so we decided to go down to Santa Town. quite a bad idea. was pissed off by a couple while boarding the Peak Tram down. the man used his body to push me n the woman pushed me away from the seat cuz she wanted to reserve the seat for the man. yucks! n poor andrielle didn't manage to get seats for us so we were split up.

tried to find our way to Santa Town. i was awfully tired. just wanted to sit down wherever i can. finally at 10+pm we decided to take the tram back to our hostel. also because i felt like i've stained my pants and it just felt like something was running down my legs. terrible feeling. had a bath n went downstairs for supper. then we realised that we missed the Christmas fireworks at TST. awwww!!!

every night slept at 2am cuz there was much to plan n replan. n i had to look into my finances, make sure i didn't overspend.

25 dec mon
quite a relax day, according to itinerary. went to take a tram down Shaukeiwan. thought we could take a loop. there was a minibus-park. took one to CWB. didn't know how to alight so we wanted to observe other passengers and see how they alight. just wanted to find SOGO, Times Square and G.O.D. bought wife's biscuits, quite cheap, but they don't come in individual packaging. =( also tried some exotic stuff like roadside calamari. there was the stinking beancurd but i don't dare to try. haha.

after G.O.D. we took a minibus to stanley. andrielle likes to ask policemen for directions ; ) the one we asked actually pointed us to a shortcut thru a back alley. not bad. Stanley is amazing, doesn't look like Hong Kong. not at all like the city. it's a very.. alfresco place. lovely. had a coffee at Pacific Coffee, for 2 hrs. just slack thru la. after that we took a minibus to Ocean Park (overshot, so we had to walk in) wah i tell u uh, minibuses r expensive as compared to other modes of transport man, don't count the taxi la, which we never took at all. i think we tried ALL modes of transport there already. hehe. at Ocean Park we didn't go in. just wanted to go toilet n take a photo at the entrance, as planned (*grinz*) then we took a bus to Aberdeen Promenade, to take a shuttle ferry to the Jumbo floating restaurant.

actually i didn't plan to go inside Jumbo for dinner.. was just thinking of somewhere near where we have a good view of it. but i think we can afford it la. =P just don't order too much lor. heard that there's a food court there anyway. but in the end we had dinner on the top deck. think it's much cheaper compared to the chinese seafood 10-course dinner downstairs. had pizza n South African wine... i think it's much nicer than the one i had with my cell grp. think Andr enjoyed the dinner. =)

took the shuttle ferry back to Aberdeen n took a bus. wanted to go visit the Central Mid-levels escalators, but seems hard to find the place sia. it turned out to be just a long stretch of escalators. Goes up to SoHo. wanted to chill out at Lan Kwai Fong, but we didn't find the place. was quite tired anyway. so decided to go back. on the way to the tramstop we spotted a HK cafe, so decided to try our luck, see if we can get to eat roasted goose n pigeon there or not. in the end ordered a Po Lo Pau n Yit Lai Cha. took the tram back.

26 dec
last day!! went downstairs for wanton mee.. ordered a roasted goose leg.. wah so fattening n tastes like duck la. LOL. went back for final packing n check out of our room, deposited my luggage ( i changed with andrielle) at the main building of our hostel. wanted to go toilet but very hard to find one. by the time we found one my face turned green already. sent them off at TST KCR station. they were heading for shenzhen to go china. closed in prayer n we parted. awww.... i walked around TST, Avenue of Stars.. then Jac contacted me. going to meet them in the area. went to Tom Lee music store cuz i wanted to see if i could get any accessories for my bass guitar. bought a guide book n a tuner. i'd probably get the tuner HKD 8 cheaper if i approached the right guy. but.. nvm la.

met up with Jac n Jeff.. explored TST further... never walked into the small lanes before. had lunch at a cafe. i think i didn't eat lunch at all for the past few days, so i couldn't finish this meal. didn't expect to shop, but managed to get some clothes. i should have more interest in clothes, but not that day. it was a bad day for me. my legs were super tired. kept wanting to rest. finally at 4.30pm i decided to go back to the hostel to get my luggage. time was just nice. didn't wait long for the bus to the airport. but after i changed luggage with Andr, it was a little too heavy for me to lift up to the bus. i was very sleepy n tired physically.

got to the airport. supposed to check in 2 hrs earlier, but i was 15 min late. there was a long queue anyway. too sian to walk around, so i went into the gates early. ha on the plane... i was too short to put my hand luggage up the overhead compartment, n there were pple waiting behind me. got quite frustrated by my helplessness. then i realise i forgot to switch off my handphone. n wanted to take out my money to buy airfood. but i was too pai seh to ask for my luggage. somehow i was suddenly filled with loneliness and helplessness i started to cry. my first time taking a plane alone. n i remember that i asked God to keep me alive till i got the chance to go HK. now that i've completed my journey, i was wondering if i was gonna die there n then. felt the seat was very cramped (on Jetstar) n i was thirsty n feeling hard to breathe. i asked whether plain water is chargable. man, it's $2 for a bottled mineral water. next time pls rem to buy water before u board a budget plane!!! really felt like i was gonna die. esp halfway in the air i felt very cold even though i had my new jacket on (if u've seen it u'd think it's thick enough)

Praise God i made it back alive!! bought Chivas for ting.. as promised. =) wanted to get another bottle for myself but i think the limit is one litre of liquor per passenger. saw dong wen outside the DFS. waited for my luggage to come round the conveyor belt, but didn't see it. then i saw something on the floor that looks like Andr's luggage. instantly i was mad. which crazy fella took the luggage out that i almost could have waited till daylight!

went home with my parents. whoa the taxi queue was crazy man.

27 dec
Apparently there was an earthquake while i was just up in the air. Praise God it didn't affect my flight. not sure how Andr n roy r doing over in china. didn't get a reply from them (till i was at work) they called. dunno y i just felt v happy to receive their call.

played with kitty on the way home. it's very hard to get her to come near me. i managed to touch her a little bit before she ran into a hole.

:: dec ::

ok let me start with... 29th nov wed! haha.. faith, ruifen n i planned a surprise for rj cuz his birthday was long over but he was having exams so couldn't celebrate for him till then. i didn't contribute much la, just helped to drag time while faith n rf decorate his room. he was at home so i had to ask him to come all the way to outram to meet me until the girls were ready. i was trying super hard not to am chio the whole time n pretending that faith is going to come so we just need to wait. aiya cut the long story short, he said that he totally had no clue that it was a sham. have to say there were moments i dunno what to say to bluff him.. but i'm glad it pulled off!

1st dec fri - super happening. =P after work i went to find sou mun, who sounded like she got conned to work at a pub. when i got there.. wah seh, the place super high class la. need to make reservation then can get a seat one lor. and the decor... wow. makes me feel like it's not singapore. it's along holland rd, u know, where the expats stay. since she seem to be working in a good place i felt relieved la, n i left. went to holland v to meet my cell grp. i was early, so i decided to take a walk first. then i met elohim. went to IndoChine siem reap with them n shared a Magarita with landy. after that went to Wala's to queue. almost couldn't catch the happy hour offer. cut the long story short again, that night i drank a little too much. got high halfway n didn't know what i was doing already. i rem going to the washroom 3 times n saw a lady inside, semi-conscious, only my third time inside that someone tried to help her. the floor was filled with puke. gross. met ros.. she had a friend who seem depressed, but i think i got over-high la. i rem giving my number to her.. falling down n a few silly things. thanks bran for sending me home. i rem throwing up the moment i reached home. was too seh to do QT. really bad decision to overdrink.

sat - woke up feeling super distracted. what the heck have i done last night? still haven't finished throwing up. supposed to lead worship for cell grp, so i used the morning to prepare. wanted to watch the drama serial my mom helped me record but decided that wasn't impt. felt rather bad cuz i kept trying to recall what silly things i did last night. also felt guilty for not controlling my drinks. went for worship prac n after that had dinner at hongkong street. been wanting to go there but haven't had the chance. so happy. was thinking of watching the drama when i reach home, but decided that can wait la. must sleep early.

sun - woke up late. haiz. must be fri night play till too late n still having the after effects on sun. feel bad lor. after service faith still wanna go out. wanted to go home n slp after lunch at serangoon garden market, but i thought no one accompany her, so i went lor. rj was also there. chey. haha. went to orchard wisma. H2O+ in Isetan. she bought some stuff. i was still not convinced to use such high class products, but got some samples. then i a bit soft-hearted. even tried to influence my colleague that the money really goes into the quality. =P sia lah. then went to lucky plaza cuz she wanted to sell her old phone. we went around asking for quote. the lowest must be $75 if i'm not wrong. she managed to sell her motorola phone for $150. wee~ went to taka n had pretzels. then went home to slp. after i woke up i had dinner with my parents at punggol plaza n sold some cds n gave my printer away at Cash converters. they tested my printer n declared that it doesn't work. pissed. but i just wanted to get rid of it la. was expecting a $20, in the end, $0. only sold 2 cds for $2. cheap thrill. paid the bills. =( last month (nov) my internet usage exceeded though i was seldom at home. so my mom "subsidised" $50 for my internet bills.

mon - went to people's park to shop, but ended up buying toiletries only. there was a pair of jeans that i like, but $35, n comes from HK. might as well go there n buy. but the shopkeeper said i might not find it there, cuz some of their stuff r for export only. i didn't buy in the end.

tue - went to church, not for prayer meeting, but for Psalmist quarterly discipleship training. what i learnt from it? Purpose n Passion. i think i have forgotten abt them after some time of serving, so it was a good reminder la. i have focused on many other things n have forgotten these basic reasons for serving.

wed - wanted to go out, but i kept telling myself, "haven't i been complaining that i didn't get enough rest? go home la!" it's like that la. when i'm tired i wished i have more time. when i'm not tired i make myself tired. such a endless meaningless cycle. n dunno y i feel that i didn't really control my finances this month. :S

thur - met up with andrielle n roy, my hk trip mates. had dim sum with them at outram park. yeah i like to ask pple to come find me, cuz it's a really nice place to explore la. anyway i realise i have been too busy that i didn't check n update the itinerary. 12 more days!!! after dim sum we went to mei shi jie at smith street for satay n ahballing. talk crap with them. i know i will enjoy the fellowship with them in hk. =)

fri - supposed to meet my cell grp at 7pm at Ivin's, but i didn't have enough money, so i walked all the way to pearl centre to withdraw money then walk back to the 174 bus stop. missed a bus n in the end reached at 8 lor.. :S dinner was great. Servio is a happier boy. =P met some children's camp kids.. i shared the same room as her but i forgot her name! Nikki i think. very pretty girl. after that went to Dempsey's. it's so near the beautiful place i newly found. waited till 10pm then there were seats in the Wine Network. finally got it off my chest abt last fri. they all teased me abt ros lor. haha.. but it's ok la.. had fun. =P i realise i dun really like wine. was finding it hard to drink it. but beer was easy leh, like soft drink. so the guys teased me, told me not to taa the wine like beer, need to control. LOL. ok la, i was also conscious that i shldn't get myself so high again. really enjoy the fellowship with my cell grp. =) after wine we went for supper at river valley road. we saw the traffic police in action n alan quickly went to park his car properly. had roti prata, teh n bbq stingray. yummy~ hang out till 2am i think.

sat - played a new game at cell grp. we didn't expect the game to drag so long so we only played one round. really fun man. it's like guessing the number, but instead of number, it's a specific thing. my grp managed to guess Armageddon after 8 yes/no questions from the category non-animated movie. n the other grp didn't manage to guess our Rowen Atkinson/Mr Bean from the category actor! =P it was fun. after cell went for worship prac. this time it took quite long because it's a Youth band!! haha (like it hadn't been a youth band) but it was the E-band! Elohim-El Shaddai-Epainos band. =P finished prac close to 10pm. woah. had dinner/supper at indian temple coffeeshop.

sun - haha service was funny la. couple of jokes. had prac for youth camp after service.. wanted to ask my parents to go out n eat chili crab, but my dad said we shldn't spend so much already. dunno y man, dec i really spend n spend without control sia.

in closing, yay. 13 more days!

:: Children's Camp 2006 ::

lemme start with sun, 19th nov, my sis came back for a short break. i was asleep when she reached home. next morning i had to wake up early for church so i missed her too. we shifted location for service, so i was quite worried she could not find her way. i forgot to bring my hps also. haiyo. after service rushed off for a quick lunch with my family n rushed back to DCB for children's camp meeting. my mom was quite pissed with me for that.

there were foreign speakers (dunno y i didn't c them at the camp at all) and Auntie Daphne shared abt passing the gospel down the generation. she mentioned that word so many times i couldn't count. after that had a quick briefing of what was to take place when the camp starts. then i went home.

mon
chihiro came to my hse to send her resume n to chat on msn n go on friendster. haiz. thought she would zi dong when i'm abt to sleep, but nv leh. i wonder if she earns her income by.... (shhh...)

tue
after work went to changi airport to send my sis off. i reach first, then waited for my mom, then waited for my dad n sis to come from home. i knew they were going to be late. (zai zai la) had dinner at the Soup Restaurant.

it was a rushed dinner. didn't digest the food and we have to run for the shuttle bus to get to the budget terminal.

thur
Children's camp! brought a big bag to work. after work went to HBF to take bus to sentosa. =) applied for Islander card. wanted to renew, but i didn't realise that their idea of renewal is continue from when my card expired. so rugi! so it's a new application. $19.50 leh. haiz. have to go in 7 times to make the card worth. =P

was quite blur on the first day, panic cuz i lost my way n it was dark n there was construction going around the campsite. dangerous leh. any worker can jump out on me n drag me into the contruction site n *eeeek!!* =S went up to my room to put down my stuff, then had my da-bao-ed dinner. went up for session. i didn't get to know my group yet. wah i didn't expect to learn something new. Nicodemus was mentioned 3 times in John n the speaker drew a link to his progress. the message is: Therefore, if anyone is in Christ, he is a new creation; the old has gone, the new has come!

Supper time. my group dispersed. =( they washed up n went to bed. camp parents got debriefing. slept around 12am. didn't really sleep well, i rem waking up at 3+am cuz i heard sounds. the kids sleeptalk man.

fri
woke up around 7am.. went to work at 7.30am.. still very early. good. =) went to harbourfront to eat roti prata n teh tarik =P took my time to go to office.

after work same thing, went to sentosa. but this time a bit faster cuz i didn't have to apply for the sentosa card. the kids r very friendly.. they would come n talk to me when they see me eating alone. so nice of them!

had night walk after praise n worship n dance prac. wah i was wearing killer heels man. killed my feet. but i had to bear with it lor, i nv bring other shoes.

sat
yay dun need to go to work. joined the kids in morning PT. i met a few girls who remind me of myself when i were their age. =X

oh forgot to mention, my group is Transformers! it was the first thing that came to my mind when uncle John asked the camp parents to come up with a name for our groups. my group name had to start with T.

we had Quiet Time together. went through a chapter from the book of Esther. so cute, there was a question in the activity book that ask for Queen Esther's age. we couldn't find the answer.

then we had afternoon session (Naaman who had leprosy) n lunch. took a short nap during rest time. made kites for art & crafts but the weather didn't permit us to go fly kite.

then we gathered in groups to discuss the skit for the night. i went off around 5.30pm to go church to help set up for PRC n for MCG meeting for plans for Tanjung Balai 2007. wah i think i went back at the right time. after setting up the booth for PRC we went in for prayer n prep, Dallas shared abt remembering our calling, even though we dun seem to be doing anything related to our calling right now, but don't be discouraged. felt like the message is for me.

went to DCB to meet hannah n persis. outside the DCB there was a cat who affectionately rubbed against me.. i felt so happy.. until persis told me that the cat is just due for the mating season. if not for the season she wouldn't be so affectionate to me. =(

went to mac to meet Gail n to start our discussion. manage to come up with a plan. tired. sigh. went back to camp. i was just in time to catch the performances! my grp did well! Calvin was very funny when acting God the judge. "i'm sorry.... no wait why should i be sorry?" "a few years ago u sang in the church choir.. i can't remember when.. no wait, of cuz i can remember." hahahaha. then another grp acted well too! esp Joshua.. he's wonderful, man! in the end his grp won, but my grp came in 2nd! =)

Been reading a book i bought from Doulos. it's very good. =) stayed up to write finale notes to my kids n chat with baoying n kelvin n nic. i guess "last nights" of camps help to build friendships. =) slept at 4am. woke up at 7+am. late for breakfast. =X packed up n took grp photos n went back to church for service. performed the dance at the end of the service. i thought we would perform early then i can sneak back to youth service for a while. then there was reception after service. =) n prize presentation. TRANSFORMERS WON!!!!!!!~!!!! seriously i nv had the experience of my group winning. i was overjoyed. =D took a last grp photo, without me inside, but it's ok. i'm the photographer. =)

:: sinful ::

was watching A1头条.. got Edison Chen!! hmm... but when i saw him i had sinful thoughts.. =x

:: early Christmas present ::

went to "buy" a Christmas present for myself.

my MILK Angel Doll.. get one at Wisma Atria Concierge (Level 1) today at a pledge of min. $30! More info here. Quick get one! only 300 available! Full proceeds go to the MILK (Mainly I Love Kids) Fund for the programmes that support disadvantaged children. The 12 Special Angel Dolls costs at least $400, up to $900+.

How do I know abt this? I'm not a shopaholic as most of u know, but I'm a designer... *winks*

Haven't given her a name.

:: spiritual attack ::

i'm down with cold, just seen a doc today, for my insect bites too.. Persis n Suzanne also caught the bites..

been feeling really down for the past 2 weeks.. i really shouldn't let the devil put me down n making me feel so terrible. been feeling breathless due to stress at work.. it only happens once in a while.. sometimes i dun even much work to do.

i ought to rejoice n praise God n let Him make miracles happen, but i guess i was too stressed over the tj balai trip, depended too much on human strength n wisdom to get things done. they usually dun happen the way i wanted, n so frustrations kick in.

think i struggle too hard. very little faith.

actually i am very blessed during the trip, but i let my mood get the better of me that i overlooked the blessings.. so i hope it won't happen again.

:: jai yen yen part 2 ::

actually today wanted to complain more.. cuz yesterday had a bad day at work. but some things happened that cheered me up, so i shall describe the happy things.

i also cheered up when i met m'kk to plan the coming tj balai trip.

was craving for dairy food while at work. then when i met my mom for dinner she suggested getting bubble tea. She seldom buys that lor! i ordered strawberry pudding milk bubble tea with pearl. =)

decided to go to the basement of Punggol Plaza to see what happened to the shop space since the budget shop moved up to replace Hang Ten (i was wondering how long Hang Ten can last here *evil grinz*) And GUESS WAD! to my pleasant surprise (i wasn't just pleasantly surprised la, i was jumping for joy) Cash Converter!! Thank God i dun need to travel all the way to Tampines to sell my printer! it's not open yet though. hope my mom can be 'auntie' enough to find out when it opens.

thank God also for helping me shit. me no-butt!

:: jai yen yen ::

i am having PMS. need to jai yen yen.

quite pissed these few days.

quite a large part is my fault.

i was supposed to email the ferry services company to reserve 10 seats, but i was unable to confirm because i didn't ask for the number of pple confirm going.
because of that some pple didn't know that i was asking for passport details. n so when he found out that his passport expired it was rather last min already. i dunno when it can get done.

my fault for not reminding her to send email to my other email address that i can access at work. from after prayer meeting till i got home i was super anxious la.

got her email. i finally just emailed Penguin. without his passport expiry date. praying hard.

really angry with myself for not doing this job well. if we can't all get on the same ferry i'm going to scream at myself.

i'm sorry but i just habitually think of the worst case scenario - so little faith!

:: new camera ::

wed bought a new Canon camera! it's the first Canon product i've ever owned! *looks around, confirms what is typed* it was a swift purchase, cuz last week i went to Funan to rekke already n found a shop that i wan to buy from. managed to get the complimentary gifts from the shop itself so that i dun need to go down to Canon to redeem them. they include 4 GP-2100 batteries + charger and a 1.0GB SD card! (if not 1.0 SD card it would be 512mb sd card + Canon camera case. i'd rather go for the bigger capacity card.)

thur brought my cam to work n took photos around my office area during lunch. fun =D

fri my dad came to pearl centre to pick me up. had dinner with my parents at Citylink mall The Asian Kitchen. ooh the Mushroom minced chicken noodles VERY NICE!!! the xiao long bao is ok la, but ex leh. walked to Marina Sq. my mom subscribes to Simply Her, so she got some redemption thing at the Women's Fair there. she got a perfume from the lucky dip n a spa voucher.

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Sat 28 oct was shaun's bday celebration. so ulu lor the place. fairy point bungalow. went with judy. we met at tampines to buy his present. remus drove us there, n picked us from there. shaun brought his dog along lor, so cute. anyway i didn't go home straight though my hse quite near changi. cuz that judy la, haha.. rushing to get home to pass something to someone.. so we went to bukit panjang first then to punggol. i fell asleep (i think) in remus' van. i lay down at the back together with lotsa boxes and hazardous bulky items. haha.. reached home at 2+am.
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:: loneleeee - the reason ::

haha forgot to mention y i'm loneleeee... actually sunday my parents went to genting WITHOUT ME!!!!! n can't rem which day, i came home n found a pair of movie tickets on my table.. was my mom trying to remind me that they went to watch a movie WITHOUT ME??!! suddenly feel so extra at home.

but actually i'm ok alone at home la. suddenly v obsessed with washing toilet. went to buy toilet cleaners. Duck ah, Kiwi ah.. etc.

then last night i imagined my 21st bday celebration. at Brewerkz, n my BEST BDAY PRESENT... (drumroll) 2 kittens n a mother cat!! weeee~! actually i can't wait to move out so that i can keep cats. i was so touched that i cried very hard. n i also imagined i was so touched that i hugged my dream guy. *winks*

:: loneleeee ::

fri

went to kallang/boon keng area to meet a client. i love to work in warehouses. =P makes me feel like a man. (oops!) took bus 61 back to office.

after work walked to city hall. walked on thur too. (i didn't mention that?) was looking for a new Canon digital camera. got confused by 2 clashing persuasions by 4 shopkeepers. so fri i went to Peninsula Plaza, supposedly got a few electronics shops, but i didn't get what i wanted.

decided to go Funan cuz i thought there's a pretzel stall. met jeremy there. then kelvin arrived. so we went down to the food court for dinner. ordered a large plate of beehoon + fried chicken for $2.50. ;)

amos arrived then we walked to the pub behind The Substation. i've seen that place before, but didn't know that's Timbre's. jeff was there already. watched ACDC while we ordered Erdinger promotion set for the Oktoberfest. Then yap, diana n jac arrived. around 10.15pm the band came up n started to play. yawns.. bedtime. haha..

reached home around 12+am.. n my mom was still awake.

sat
had breakfast with my mom. spent time packing my room. shiok. tired by the time i went for cell grp.

weelee shared abt breakups. my cell grp has been having discussion on BGR, in case i haven't mentioned before. n 'breakups' is a topic considered a taboo to me. i don't like to talk abt it, or ask pple abt it. it's an awkward topic. but it was great hearing weelee share. she also gave this so-called personality test, to help us identify our relational style. I'm a Pleaser. after thinking abt it, i realise it's true. i'm the kind who would show love to pple "my way". guess it means that i show love in a way that is "sacrificial".. i mean i would have the mindset that "i dun mind doing all these for u, it doesn't matter though it hurts me" n "you might not realise it, but i'm suffering alone n it's okay" n i'm the type who won't confront pple when things go wrong - generally. i probably only confront pple i dunno haha.. like in my sec sch days i would be like a da jie to my friends. "if anyone bully u, tell me, i go confront that person."

we also talked abt "moving on". how long would be a good cool off period before getting into a relationship again? preferably one yr. i dun support my friends going into a relationship too soon after a previous one. (u noe who u r.) n how do u know that u have totally "healed" from a broken relationship n r ready for a next one? when u can see ur ex n be able to exchange a casual conversation. if u r not able to do this, that means there's unforgiveness. this is not some supernatural cheem word, this is not "ha-leh-lu-ya", my dear girl. unforgiveness is a sickness that makes fear stay inside u. for example ur ex is a very helpful guy, but because of his helpfulness he got to know this girl n he broke up with u to get with this girl. out of unforgiveness u tend to have a dislike for helpful guys for the fear that ur next bf will leave u the same way. hmm.. is this example clear enough?

hmm hao if u're reading this, i hope that u will move on. it does make me feel slightly uncomfortable (putting it in a nice way) whenever u talk abt our past n what u remember abt me. actually i tend to laugh it off or ignore it but this can't go on la. it's good that we can still hang out like normal friends but it's not healthy to keep trying to remember the past. u're now the only guy who treats me so well n i'm starting to feel not used to it. i don't mean that we r not going to talk anymore but that show me u can move on k? dun live in the past anymore..

that time i said that i could "get over a heart break".. think that was last month.. recently my emotions r coming back. it sucks. i was supposed to be liberated from my emotions, but now i feel suffocated by them. causes me to do stupid things. help!

:: Ladies Retreat part II ::

PROCRASTINATE NO MORE!

finish blogging or it'll be clogging!

ok back to Ladies Retreat night 1. that night dunno y, wondering is it the hotel shower foam and the lotion i used, i had internal rashes the next morning. didn't really sleep well cuz i was scratching my palms n feeling itchy. woke up at 7am automatically as though i was waking up for work. went down for dim sum breakfast! woohoo! unforgettably great!

The session after that was very interesting, first time hearing from this speaker. Ang Mo who lived in China, spent her childhood making jiao zi (dumplings). so cool! her message was overtimed, but it's okay, i love to hear missionary stories.

We had this 'sit in silence' session. i have to admit that i nodded off during the silence. =x then auntie Adeline shared abt her Orang Asli mission trip. it was cool. there's this guy who used to be a bomoh, but after he saw how God works, he converted, and although he didn't learn how to pray for healing for other people, he tried and God really healed!

during free time i went out to Jonker Walk with my aunt and jieling's mom n another auntie. bought a small sling bag n pineapple tarts n blah blah blah (food).. haha. walked back to the hotel with some other aunties who also went to Jonker Walk. one of them bought mini stools (still heavy) and we helped to carry one each. wah by the time we got back i was super tired.

oh yah forgot to mention that yday (as in, the day before) while i went out with Auntie Maria i drank a roadside medical hall chrysanthemum tea (or something like that). after that i felt like throwing up. find that my stomach got upset with me quite often on this trip.

dinner was at the restaurant at the ground floor. it was marvelous, but too many things to try out. i couldn't eat so much.. aww.. but there was ice cream! hehe.. ate a lot of fruits this trip.

had another session.. this time i felt ready to ask for prayer. suddenly i thought of tanjung balai, n i began to xi li hua la. had 4 specific people to pray for. sigh. felt v heartbroken when i think of them.

after the session i felt like chionging to the room for a shower. had the urge to submerge my whole self in the tub (like water baptism). there was a problem doing that la. shan't say y. =P

still having this internal rashes. on my palms and seems to spread wherever i scratch. it's not external, so it's not dirty. Auntie Maria, the camp nurse, diagnosed it as dry skin, like Ae...zi...mer. She gave me antiseptic cream to apply, but like no use leh.

Next morning had continental breakfast. a bit lousy - their egg corner dun have cheese and ham one. i asked for scrambled eggs, the chef told me he doesn't have milk! managed to find some ham from the buffet section to add in.

we had a thanksgiving session before the last message and lunch after we check out of our rooms. then my camera batt died on me. so i started to use Fay's camera. during lunch the committee did a penguin dance for us. cute. then they played some games. called out the eldest lady n the youngest - which is, me. had to answer "what have i learnt these few days from interacting with the ladies".. tried to put it tactfully. haa.

haiya then something unfortunate happened la. on the bus Fay passed me her SD card so i could upload the retreat last day's photos into my comp. when we stopped over at Yongpeng i forgot that i didn't keep it well, i must have dropped it there. only realised it when the bus reached singapore! so careless of me.

the following week i got a SD card back for her n one extra for myself.

n thank God my rashes were gone after a few days! might be something happening in the spiritual realm, cuz the rashes n the stomach upset all that made me feel very self conscious, as in, i focus a lot on myself because of physical problems.

tue there was a thanksgiving session for the retreat. went with my mom.

wanted to take passport photo to renew my sentosa card, so i decided to go NYP to meet ting n take photo on wed (18 oct). then thru sms she told me that she's not having dinner with me, instantly i flared up. jumped to conclusion that she's going to pang seh me again. smsed her something that i had thought thru, but didn't realise that she thought it was something hurtful. her reply made me cry la. then i replied something in anger, but she thought i felt sorry abt it. (haha it's ok to say it since it's past) in any case, thank God that she did, because it cooled me down a lot. really felt that this "conversation" was in God's hands. we could have exchanged hurtful words n then probably end our 7-yr friendship there, but that would be so immature. anyway, in the end i went to AMK to meet her. bought a dress there at $12 (i wore on sunday) so glad! she bought a pair of pointy heels.

fri after work went to Holland V for Serene's bday celebration at Spizza. we have to "dress up" like Serene n give a reason how we dress like her. i wore my sis' dress that i think Serene would wear. =P ate alot sia. haha.. tried a variety of pizzas. shiok. then we played Charades after cutting cake. it has since become our cell grp game. took cab home with Aijia.

sat went to bishan to meet the SD card seller i found on ebay. then took bus to church for cell grp. had a hearty session when jeffrey led word. it was hilarious. ok la, but after all the message sure got through.

had worship prac.. a lot of waiting here n there. but prac ended early. we went to Lai Wah. =P

shared with esther that i've been feeling troubled by 4 friends, that from my conversations with them over the week i felt v burdened.

had a guest speaker for service n he shared a simple yet effective message on putting ur foot forward, dun hold back. certainly touches us youths (or is it because he's an ang moh speaker?? :Þ)

went for lunch with my cell grp at Marina Sq. took a photo at the instant photo machine. i zoomed in too much! didn't realise it would crop off so much. dunno whether the photo can be used since my head was cropped off quite a bit. my face super big la. :S

went to Cathay cineplex to meet sweeyi they all. pissed cuz we were asked to be on time, yet...!!! the longer i waited the more i fumed. haha i thought sweeyi really felt bad so she decided to treat me (actually is she wanted to return me money for the last movie we watched) =P then that hx ah.. hmm.. find that she advances v fast. now got new hairstyle wor. makes me wanna find a sugar daddy. =P

skip skip skip to tues. went to harbourfront to meet ting, wanted to go sentosa, but the queue for the bus was so overwhelming. eeeuuu. somemore cannot walk in. haiz. went inside Vivocity cuz ting still haven't gone to the roof top. i suggested we suntan up there, but weird la. there's this "shore"-like feature n we waded in it. forgot to bring my charged camera batt! argh!

in the end we decided to take bus to ECP (we didn't). we took bus 65 cuz we waited super long for bus 30 n dun wan to wait anymore. ended up in Tampines. had a long great conversation with her. lots of catching up to do. i always tell my friends that ting is someone even though we dun say anything, we will burst out in laughter abt the same matter. someone u r comfortable with even in the silence.

chilled out at Cottage Pies Cafe. really great place. beg me to bring u there!

dinner with MCG at Kenny Rogers'. it was exciting. really can feel that we are Finally doing something! =P

wed
went to Forum for lunch with clients. =) it was an all girls meeting cum lunch. genki sushi.. woo! the chawanmushi is really...... drool-invoking. real crab meat inside! had ice cream for dessert. this whole week haven't eat fruit yet.

had sectional training after work. have i been worshipping HK? i admit that i was quite obsessed with HK when i was younger. had wanted to go there since sec sch time. waited 7 yrs for this trip man. dug out my research on HK n i really have lots of magazine cuttings from everywhere man.

oh man! i type this entry for like 2 hours???!

go sleep la!