:: argh ::

yday went for a wedding dinner. didn't have time to nap before that lor.. =( v tired. i suck at applying makeup. it was disastrous. caused my right eye to go red. got to c my relatives. not bad la, tried to chat more with them. my mom always nag that i dun mix with my relatives, i shld chat more with them. saw elizabeth's family n got a shock. i didn't know she's my distant relative! then benjamin's family came too. double shock. haha.. the food was... alright, very creative. the cold dish didn't have jellyfish. there was salmon, sashimi, prawn, chicken, fried wrapped dumpling. then the shark's fin. my goodness, i've nv seen such disgusting looking shark's fin b4. it was green n slimy. green bits all over. but i tried it n didn't find it that bad after all. there were a few unknown objects inside tt i didn't dare to eat though. then had prawns, roasted duck, spinach, ee-fu noodles (my fav) n dessert. no i didn't eat dessert, becuz it's yam paste. i expected there to have red wine cuz tt was wad i had at alan's wedding dinner. but no red wine. hmm.. took taxi home with mom cuz dad didn't bring along extra helmet. u noe wad i found out?

my mom used to go disco! n her jiu liang is very good! (can drink a lot), even more than me wor! she can drink more than 6 glasses of beer without feeling seh. n i felt very hot after 6 glasses. (we didn't drink tt night la, just a comparison.)

this morning v cold. went for interaction design class. after lesson approached ms wen lei to approve my design concepts. done during class. hahaha.. then went to fy room to look for the rest. they didn't seem to want to eat. anyway.. something happened.

yau called! i was shocked la.. so i first thing ask him, y he call me. i mean after so long already, call me for wad. just to make sure he didn't call the wrong person. he said he called my hse juz now but no one pick up. the number he spelled was correct lor. so i asked him for his new number, wad he doing recently. he asked if i got bf.. tt means he's quite sane n didn't think of me as his gf anymore. he scolded me lor. cuz i always answer questions with, "ok lor" "not bad", like dunno wad i wan, so he scolded me, "so big already still dunno wad u wan" (in chinese) ah and anyway told him i was going to get busy then hung up. after a few minutes he called again, to tell me to eat my lunch. then he smsed me dunno wad he saying sia. but great improvement in his english. then he called again to ask if i got receive his sms. i said yes, then he said sorry. -.-" then i was like thinking, "wad u doing, man.. crazy guy" ah well.

called the t-shirt printing contact jieling gave me.. i asked for details already then ask for the company name. then i realise i had called the same company before already. felt like "argh!!" so silly.. pai seh to tell him tt i have already called b4. ahahaha.. jieling's friend called to discuss details abt the freelance work with me. changes to be made. hmm~ went to look for andy to get from him the printed survey forms. then rachel was also there. she tempted me to go for a trial slimming session with her. n andy drove us to town.

the slimming session was terrible. the consultant keeps promoting the package to me, keep trying to arrange an alternative payment cuz i keep saying i have no money, not interested in the package cuz i have no money. i keep telling her, i just want the free trial treatment (cheapo) n ya, got quite pissed. tried to show it with my black face, but dun think she got it. finally after like dunno how long she finally let me go!!!! *phew*! in the end i didn't go for the trial session. cuz she took too much time pushing the promotion to me until we had to arrange another day for the treatment if i insist. i decided no thanks. then i left the shop. walked around.. felt lonely.. rachel went for the treatment. felt kinda depressed cuz the consultant kept insisting that i need the slimming treatment. i was actually quite ok (although not v happy abt my size) but becuz of wad she said i felt quite affected. just thought of going for the fun of it since i have to wait for my grp project mate Ling until 5+pm.. haiz. as i walked around far east, i saw a lot of clothes n shoes... i have no interest in them. n i started to wonder y. kinda despise my fashion sense, but no money to change it. kinda felt tt no one's interested in me becuz i dunno how to dress up. ah well, materialism. it's not like me to be bothered by tt, but when u're depressed u will usually think of more depressing stuff. so oxymoronic. me being depressed. a sad angel?

hmm.. oh yah, during the consultation earlier on i just wanted to get away from the persuasion of the promotion. so i decided i need to go toilet. there's this interesting thing in the toilet. u turn a knob n there will be water spraying upwards to wash ur butt for u. wanted to try it, but kinda find it weird. then i went out n saw rachel coming in. so i went back in again to talk with her abt the slimming thing. she actually decided to go for it!! n ya anyway i brought the toiletbowl thing up n suggested we try it. hahahahhaa... we made our 10c worth! =x

when Ling arrived we went to ya kun kaya toast for dinner. her friend arrived. we went to a hairdressing salon cuz he wanted to cut his hair. then we started to give out surveys. it's for our entrepreneurship project. rachel helped us give out surveys at macCafe. then andy n rachie arrived. andy helped out a while then left, me n ling went to wheelock place to continue. met this grp of pple who were excited abt our business idea. he wanted our contact but we didn't give. well. he gave us his namecard. finally we finished giving surveys and went to starbucks to tabulate results. hmm..

went home.. yea. nothing much now. just felt very busy, but thank God for helping me arrange my activities.. wed n thur r filled. fri is alright. i can rest on fri finally i hope.

just received a few missed calls i believe is from yau. he's going crazy again.

:: ;) ::

*sniggers*

something is coming up...

despite being broke, i'm spending $200 on something i hope i dun regret...

while the rest of my savings will go to new computer parts.. i just had this crazy idea of dismantling my computer n sell off the parts.. but a little discouraged when wan told me that nobody would buy them. well.. pray that some crazy rich guy decides to buy from me! hehehehe...

i've got... 256mb ram
40GB HDD
40 X 12 X 40 CD-RW drive
floppy disk drive (v low chances that anyone would be interested in this!)
sound card
graphic card
internal 56k modem (low chance too.. i'll sell it at $1!)
basically tt's it..

i would retain my casing n motherboard n mouse n keyboard n maybe monitor n purchase the following items:
1GB ram
80GB HDD
16X DVD-RW drive
better sound card
better graphic card
USB 2.0 ports

hmm.. think tt's all too.

hope when my dad gets his pay he can help me buy some of these!

n i hope my current freelance work will get thru.. i've been given flexible time to do, but due to my computer problems i haven't been able to complete it within 2 weeks.. =(

:: I am Tagged!! WHOA!! ::

Tagged by my laogong sweeyi

Rules: Post 5 Weird and Random Facts about yourself, then at the end list the names of 5 people who are next in line to do this.

#1 I like to store a lot of things, even on my own bed. so i dun even sleep on my own bed. no space!

#2 I am a sucker for travelling. i go for every overseas trip possible.

#3 I have a big tummy! -.-"

#4 I still hug my baobei bolster who has faithfully slept with me for 19 years. heeheehee...

#5 I brought a milk bottle to sch one day n drink from it like a water bottle. that was during my sec sch time (sec 3 or 4). i thought that was cool. heh!


5 lucky ppl to carry on this chain:

1. weiting!
2. shirley sim
3. praisie
4. (i'm not sure who else reads my blog) ermm.. esme? hee
5. anyone! (wild card) haha.. who wanna join the chain just join! =x

:: =x ::

thur slept until i'm satisfied.. hoho.. decided to go library with my laptop to do work.. n find books n listen to music.. cool way to chill out.. went for lesson on time.. this week has been good, praise God.. been going for lesson on time (even if i were a few minutes late the lesson hadn't even started) =)

went to fy room to find nic n david.. wendy treat wor~! she got her pay liao.. woohoo~ went to pastamania for dinner.. felt like trying the dessert, but tt day the dessert i wanted was not available. after dinner walked to mindcafe.. john n david came later.. we played cluedo.. haha.. wendy won 2 games n nic won 1..

fri jialat cuz i couldn't wake up despite setting 2 alarm clocks.. n i went home too late last night.. my parents were asleep already so couldn't inform them wad time to wake me up.. but thank God my dad was still around, can ask him to send me to sch. it was intro to entre lesson. ms ang v nice n motherly.. she allows us to come at most 8.15 cuz she understands we cannot wake up so early! hehe.. went thru lecture... hmm.. somehow i feel there's a reason in me taking that module.. i dunno y.. i took business management during my 1st 3 months in JI too.. v fun.. learnt abt sole proprietorship, limited liability all that... but kinda forgot... =x

it was a 2 hour lesson.. supposed to meet my SBM grp members but since we were allowed to use monday lesson time to brainstorm ideas i decided not to meet them. so i called my dad up to pick me up. we went to vicom cuz he had to pay road tax.. then went to sembawang (something) food centre for lunch..

went to konica minolta service centre in commonwealth to find out how i can repair my camera.. the cost is $150.. straight away my dad decided dun wanna repair, then we left.. the pple there weren't friendly anyway. i was wondering if i shld approach the counter straight, but they just stared at me like wondering what i'm going to do.. there wasn't a welcome or a smile either. idiots.

went home. sleep for abt 1-2 hours then woke up to go for idn conference. was wondering how to get in, whether i shld pay $35 to get in or not.. then my dad decided to eat prata downstairs. haha.. when i was done, hx they all were outside. they lent me their pass (shhh!!) then managed to "smuggle" me n darius n teo hong in. haha.. walked around.. i was quite impressed by some works la.. especially the interaction installations.. becuz i'm taking the module now. bought 4 idn magazines for $30. imagine if i had to pay entrance fee... the magazines wouldn't be worth it liao. darius got a book free when it was supposed to cost $15 lor! hor hor.. haha.. then he went to get autograph.. smudged ink over his shirt.. haiyo.. then he wanted to ask another guy for autograph.. dunno he dao or wad, just anyhow scribbled a word nia lor.. anyway i saw a few thais.. ^.^ i dunno y, just have the urge to go up to them n get to noe them.. =x hehe.. stayed back till the end.. watched the UnitedVisualArtists showcase... v cool.. i like the sperm one.. haha.. they all move randomly, but spin in the same direction at certain intervals.. v synchronised with the music.. i wonder did they create the music themselves or can it be other pple's music?

took mrt home.. fri was a very eventful day for me.. thanks friends who helped me get into designedge!

sat no cell grp.. did my animoweb n packed my room till 3pm then rushed out to Old Saigon.. saw a very handsome guy on the train!!! looks a bit like vanness.. :S but v nice features. It's servio's first month! had vietnamese food... it was quite nice la.. better than the last vietnamese cuisine i had.. =S wee lee drove me n serene to church.. i was the prayer IC for the worship prac that week.. wasn't really prepared.. i just wanted to share a passage, but i don't know how to speak.. i always blabber one whole round n pple dun understand my point... at least that's what i thought. i thought as long as my mind is empty God can use me more easily.. but then i really felt brainless lor.. wasn't using my brain. haiz.. after prac paul sent me n esther home.

next morning i woke up quite on time, i even called esther to make sure she's up.. but i guess i spent a little too long finding clothes.. i dun iron clothes anymore, so i was wondering if i can wear certain shirts n still look neat.. other than that i spent a long time waiting for bus. abt 10-20 min.. not usual lor.. =( in the end we were late..

saw kwek. she is driving!!! so cool... hahaha... i insisted getting a ride i dun care although it was just up n down the slope in SAJC! hehe.. had camp comm meeting after service.. after tt went for lunch with a few of the camp comm members at ikea. didn't have much money, just nice $5.. =x chatted.. wanted to buy box for the camp, but decided can do so another time. went home.. dunno y i guess i was tired.. slept on the train like a log.. i nv drool or snore la... just didn't wake up till punggol. glad to live at the end of the train line. dun have to worry abt missing my stop.

oh.. lately i've been feeling kinda desperate. haiz. was watching tv more often lately.. saw a lot of cute guys on tv... hmm.. watch this show Rainbow Connection.. i really think the guy acting as Martin v cute!!!!! i like that character also.. rich but rather depend on himself to earn a living, strong, tall, dark, handsome, faithful, rather humorous... then i started to pray for such a man to come into my life! hehe.. i still remember adeline (zoe tay)'s words when she spoke to me inn tanjung balai... she said tt i'll surely get a handsome bf in future.. well, i'm looking forward to it!! hehe.. but i wasn't dealing with it the right way. i think on sunday night, i went online.. went to friendster n saw a friend's profile n photos... v disappointed in the change in her, but also rather envy of her beauty n popularity.. i started to become obsessed in a way. .. i ...dun wanna describe the extent of the obsession la.

anyway i haven't been sleeping well these few days.. stress i guess.. nowadays it takes me longer to fall asleep. i'm starting to lose appetite also.. rather conscious of my figure. i'm way past my ideal weight n i'm like not doing anything abt it lor. =( monday i just happened to pass by a noticeboard n i wonder if these r symptoms of depression? hmm.. anyway my SBM grp members for IENTP r v pretty! hoho~ honestly i was quite discouraged when my ideas were not chosen.. but of cuz my ideas r not necessarily the best n that they shld use them ma.. i know that, but just felt discouraged that's all. maybe it was the way they were being shot down. well.. went home n had a 15 min rest before going to meet my mom for dinner. wasn't hungry, but i ate anyway.

tue early lesson again.. not bad, got inspired. after lesson went to fy room to do my freelance work. been putting it back for a long time. my home pc crashed.. but i forgot to bring some essential stuff. kinda wanted to go home to take. showed mr choong my animoweb... he didn't give comments la. continued to work on the freelance thing then went to compass point for dinner with mom. not hungry, don't feel like eating, just wan to sleep. shared a meal with her. went home to watch tv.... now trying to see how i can save my computer. thank God the important files r not in my comp.

my mom is tempting me to go KL in dec... just before the camp.. dunno i can go or not leh... =x

:: heh ::

i agree to the quiz result to a certain extent. i don't tend to speak much, because i really believe that When words are many, sin is not absent, but he who holds his tongue is wise. (Proverbs 10:19) when i blurt out words it's often not kind.. before i criticise, i will hold back n think whether i shld say or not. so pple tend to see me as quiet.. (i hope they dun think i'm dao or that i'm ignoring them) sometimes i dun agree to things, but i also hold back my comments. that's y i always lose out in tongue fight. i need boldness from God!

there's this person who talks nonsense like it's free. what this person doesn't know is he/she has already offended a number of pple thru the nonsense. but i pray that i will forgive that person for offending me n God will forgive me for resenting that person.

animoweb.... dieeeee!!!!

anyway last night went for prayer meeting to help do projection. it was quite a disaster because i dunno how to go to SAV. paul was going to pick me up at potong pasir mrt station, at this road called Meyappa Chetiar Road n i didn't know where it was. i looked at the directory n it was no use because i don't even noe which direction i was facing. jessica told me to walk right (or left) n i walked the opposite direction.. in the end late for the prayer meeting. setup the laptop in a rush n i dun even noe the password to the login. logged in as Guest n i couldn't use the projection program WA. felt quite pai seh cuz i was juz right in front hoping no one's staring at me.. but praise God in all circumstances. after that paul gave me the password n i managed to setup. went for prayer walk. it was night time, the place was deserted, but God's presence was with us so there was no fear. anyway went home on paul's car.. sat at the driver seat for a while haha.. the steering wheel very hard to turn sia.. n i dun dare to test the honk. haha..

this morning had breakfast with my mom cuz she took sick leave. had murtabak with chicken without onion.. very filling sia.. kinda reluctant but i went to office then we went pizza hut at amk for lunch. thanks boss for the treat. i was not realli prepared to eat a lot. wanted to just drink pepsi. but i also had soup and 2 pizza slices. ate slowly so that they wun give me anymore. walked back to office. saw jie mei sam... man, he got fatter sia!! n he noticed i got fatter also.. =( used the comp for a while then decided to go home accompany my mom but esme needed help with the TAT diary. so i stayed back to help her. then yihan kena asthma attack.. this made me thank God for giving me good health, that i'm able to breathe without problem. made me appreciate air even more. but yihan was quite jialat she couldn't even sit up. i remember ever crying until that bad. i managed to finish my work at 6 so i went back home for dinner. mom cooked instant noodles with egg n golden needle mushrooms n vege. the only thing i like abt korea is the instant noodles. how pathetic.

oh yah.. my pay is $3.50 per hour. honestly it's peanuts. as if i'm working not for the salary. as if my family is doing well. my dad juz found a job but it's hell la.. he even had to go back on public holiday n weekends. i dun expect him to work long at that job. my mom is praying for opening of a new job too. too much work for her. see, she's even falling sick now. n my sis is already struggling to pay for her own living. i may have been promised a better pay once my term ends, but i really can't wait.. we gotta pay $200 for our graduation show. my mom stopped giving me allowance for a while. so i had been living on my previous months' pay. now if i get $3.50 per hour n i can only work for 2 days a week it's like around $200 per month? n i have to pay for every snack n drink i take from the office? boss said he was just joking but i was really offended by that, man.

dieeee....animoweb....!!!!!

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:: wow ::

haha.. ok update..

30 oct.. shaun n michael's bday.. was a sunday. had to reach church early so thank God paul came with jessica to give me a lift.. v excited cuz it's the day of the publicity launch for youth camp 2005. haha.. after service supposed to do projection, but since the praise pple can do it, i went off for lunch with my cell grp. wasn't satisfied with the curry chicken noodles in harbourfront food court. after chatting for a while we went downstairs n i bought chicken cutlet from shih lin. i dun like the funny smell.. went to orchard to look for present for jeremy.. went a few places. hmm.. finally bought it.. a DKNY watch (anyway we've presented it to him already) yup. dunno y very tired.. kept yawning haha.. then i realise the singles' club is meeting to celebrate shaun n mic's bday so i went to PS to look for them. had dinner at swensen's. wasn't hungry but i'm glad i can finish my food. walked around. decided to go play pool.. n that was around 9+ i think. played till 11+.. wow i actually won 3 games out of....5 or 6.. haha.. juz "taiko" lor.. ran to catch the last NEL home. haha..

monday
went to work.. after work shaun called to hurry me to join them. went to find them at mac then we went to PS for dinner. then went to MindCafe to play boardgames.. cool place.. played Ride to Europe.. (uh i can't rem the name of the game) basically some boardgame where we have to complete routes to win points. yup. played till 10+ hehe a few cute guys there.. haha..

tue
by rights it's a public holiday, but i went back to work so that i can take friday off. actually the work was supposed to be rushed out by wed. my parents had the day off, so i had breakfast with them at Kopitiam. worked on Adobe Indesign.. picked up this software cuz the work requires the skill. i didn't expect the sch to be closed.. haha.. so i was locked outside. had to use intercom to get my entry. felt weird. haha.. went out for lunch.. hmm.. didn't expect to be able to leave on time also, but since i couldn't do any work no point staying also. the network played me out man.. i saved my stuff on the server n it failed me.. i felt like i couldn't do anything.. had to restart comp a lot of times n see if the server is back up. sucks. shit man i didn't know the diary can wait. n muz bia the calendar first. i did the work at the wrong time. so by the time i realise it i felt very lost. sucks. went for dinner with my parents. had black pepper crab.. it was heaven man.. so i felt better after the meal.. haha.

wed
hmm.. got alot of work done.. but very tedious so i couldn't finish it on time. my dad started work at his new job so he couldn't send me to sch anymore.. sigh.. need to wait for bus, n the journey takes double the time of taking motorbike lor. a bit not used to public transport again. stayed behind to discuss my timetable with my boss. decided to come in on tue n thur. n i dun understand what is daily pay basis. means i get money everyday that i work? hmm.. my parents have cell grp so i cooked instant noodles for dinner. worked on animoweb. very tough cuz my concept is still v rough.

thur
public holiday. PUBLIC HOLIDAY!!!! yay.. took the day to rest. had breakfast with my mom cuz my dad had to work. i wonder y he took up that job lor. now his weekends r burned up too.. =S watched movies on vcd with my mom.. supposed to do animoweb.. =x haha.. watched Beautiful Boxer n Mr & Mrs Smith. mom cooked dinner..

fri
had to go back to work because "we're still learning" ... finally finished the TAT calendar. dunno y still got last minute changes. i'm allowed to do my animoweb but then TAT still need editing, how to do animoweb? i thought it was supposed to be submitted today so i was v worried. i smsed wenlei but she nv reply. turned out that no one turned up to submit. haha.. dinner with my mom. she bought ice cream 0.0

sat
had breakfast with my mom then shopped for groceries. she want to cook dinner again. went home to prepare to go out. reached jeremy's hse around 3.50 i think.. haha =x had cell grp.. jeremy was kinda busy preparing for our bbq dinner that he wasn't with us most of the time. i think it's not a good idea to have cell grp at someone's hse, because the person will be occupied with things going around like picking up the phone, giving instructions to another family member, etc. had bbq.. felt lazy n didn't serve.. hehe.. ate a lot.. had cake cutting n photo taking sessions.. ate ice cream cake (yummy!) by 11 i felt tired already so i dozed off at the couch. after that jeremy announced a "taa-ing" session (finish up the beer) n i woke up. i didn't drink the chang beer at all.. hmm.. shld try. then a few of them went home. i went out with diana jeremy n malcolm to buy more beer. we bought anchor beer. played finger guessing game n then some funny "techno" game. haha.. got forfeited a lot of times, even got a 3 times in a row. forfeit with one quarter glass of beer each time. i guess i can't count how many cans i downed the whole night man. felt v hot around 4am.. a few more went home. i went to jeremy's room with diana to rest for the night. felt like my blood was pumping furiously n i couldn't get to sleep at first.

sun
seem to see someone keep entering the room.. i checked the time, it was 7am.. can slp a bit longer. snoozed my alarm clock till 8.30am.. went to shower. had breakfast then amos came to pick some of us up. i felt it's so cool, the whole cell grp going to church together, those who have car would go pick the others up.. just too bad i live the farthest. had holy communion.. i felt tired but i tell u i didn't sleep during the service at all ok! i closed my eyes that's all but i didn't nod off.. ya anyway after service went to queensway to look at slippers.. hmm.. my slippers is in quite bad condition now, but i dun think i'll get a new one now. maybe later.. ahaha.. (procrastinator) well.. i dun think slippers shld be more than $10 lor.. since i bought my $8 pair, the next one $4, then $2.90... i no longer look at expensive slippers. anyway went to marina square n bought cake. celebrated the november babies birthday at Carl's Junior. a lot of them couldn't eat the cake cuz they had a v full lunch already. then i ordered a meal to share with jac.. it was just nice enough, n i like the bacon burger. man, i can never eat a full meal on my own! i will take the whole day man.. walked around.. quite tired, thinking of my animoweb..... on my way home on brandon's car, shaun called to ask me if i'm going to farah's place.. then i was like "oh no!" forgot abt it! hee.. went home to sleep. woke up for dinner.. mom cooked spaghetti. n watched Daredevil n 2002 on tv.. i was like thinking to myself "hey go n do animoweb la"... but i didn't.. =x only started work at 11pm. do until 3am like tt then went to slp.

today, monday
first day at sch.. haha.. not bad.. had adv web lesson with ms pat. early dismissal hoho.. (first week of sch always like this la) Food Junction is finally open. had lunch with the IM pple. hmm.. what i appreciate abt guys is their sense of loyalty.. maybe not all of them, but still.. i was last to come back to the seats n there was no space already.. the guys actually squeezed to make space for me.. felt touched.. hehe.. went to FY room to slack n watch funny videos. met weiting to pass her thai silk cushion.. haha.. SHE CUT HER OWN HAIR!!! i'm amazed that it turned out not bad.. i mean i didn't even realise it was cut by herself.. hmm.. went for my next lesson.. woo.. hx same lesson as me!! hoho!~ bought new textbook -.-" hmm.. formed groups for the intro to entre. lesson ended early also.. went home to rest. still felt v bloated by the beer.. scared got beer belly.. hahaha a lot of pple dun like beer.. but i'm scared of vodka man.. i wld still drink la, but seldom already. woke up to meet my mom for dinner. blur blur cuz i just woke up, forgot to bring ezlink card so i had to walk a bus stop down.. =x haha.. my mom was right in front of me but i couldn't see her. =x took photos of some road signs.. gonna work on camp logo later~!

cya~!

:: nightlife ::

wahaha! yes that's me, my kor, n amanda~! i'd say the photographer did a great job cuz i seldom look nice on photo.. haha.. taken at Liberte on 28 Oct. cool~

wasn't much of a nightlife la.. went home around 12.. tired.. haha

:: ok, updates ::

friday went for ladies retreat at Sofitel Palm Resort in JB, missed david's bday celebration.. find tt the resort not as high class as phuket one... hoho.. had a great time getting to noe more abt the ladies.. they have tons of advice on marriage, work, etc. i shared room with esther. she brought her work to do wor.. =x haha then i keep telling her dun do work, or else defeat the purpose of the retreat, right! i didn't get to relax a lot during the retreat. probably becuz i chose to go out shopping when i can slp more hahah

the food is quite bad... i realise i was eating rubbish. lots of garlic, n other funny stuff. i even ate dessert!!!

bought a bag, a pair of shoes.. wanted to buy clothes, but when i tried it on i realise it doesn't look good on me. looks better on slim figures. i'm fat....yyyyuuuucccckkksss... there was deliverance session after each sermon session. i love the teaching sessions. very full of the speaker's own life experience. very impactful.

on the way back quite discouraged by the way the tour guide describe christians. but he also said that when he sees us, he feels a sense of peace. at least that makes me glad..

hmm.. monday went to office. thot i was supposed to work. but my boss thought i was just dropping by. o.0 nvm, that's good, can do my own stuff.

tue my boss announced that i'm supposed to start work officially tmr. hmm..~

wed working on organiser. lots of layout.

friday after work went to look for amanda at city hall.. met annabel n some others from shammah. talked to annabel n got to know her better. she got a project for me.. but not confirmed. went for The Tektile Movement's 1st anniversary celebration at Liberte at CHIJMES, cuz kor's part of the team. as DJ wor!!~ *proud of him* but i got a feeling tt he's being bullied leh.. his guest list had to cut short so that the bigger DJ can invite more friends. dotz... there was buffet dinner but i didn't eat much. busy looking around for cute guys but too bad all not my age one. wahaha.. had vodka cranberry.. hmm~ i bought that from DFS when i came back from Phuket. but i didn't open it yet. then jueru n her sis arrived.. went to eat with them.. wow went into a posh italian restaurant. felt uneasy cuz it's not my type of place to hangout. so i tried to behave myself as best as i can, trying to recall what i learnt from etiquette class. there's real application now lor.. like choosing utensils to eat certain food.. :S wow.. i think jueru realli looks like her sis. they're getting more n more alike. cool!

sat went to church earlier to learn thai from amber. wah need to "undo" a lot of pronunciation. hmm.. then cell grp... it was more of a time of reflection. hmm, when they hear that i'm being paid IAP amount for work, they all say i'm being cheated. even macdonald can pay more than 450 per month. it's true.. i dunno la, looking forward to getting promoted. but there's a lot of stress now. i need to bia my minor project by next week. dunno got time or not. die liao..

bia video editing now.. i dun dare to take up jieling's video editing project.. must learn to reject offers if i cannot handle.

:: just some thoughts ::

hmm.. today saw monkeys, prawns, birds, dogs..... hmm.. nice day..

went to upper thomson rd with my dad for "breakfast" at the sembawang hill food centre.. saw pan lingling n her husband hehe.. cool~ had wanton mee.. last night watched soccer with my dad for a while so i slept late. chelsea vs real betis 4-0. real betis has got good looking players!! but chelsea's black guys play better. hmm~

walked to bishan park n saw all those animals.. cool~ my dad thought i LIKE to see monkeys just because i WANT to see one. hmm... walked over to lower peirce reservoir too. took deep breaths of fresh air, but later as we went back to the food centre the polluted air came back again =( well these r some things i get to do when i'm not at work..hoho~ went back home n worked on video editing.

felt a bit upset when being scolded by parents.. i seem to have my own idea of how to do things already... n i dun understand y my mom still blames me that i cannot go phuket during the weekend!! urgh!!

anyway.. just some thoughts...

he who despises good things is a fool.

sia jai ter, jai dum khon!

i saw a truck with the company name "ho kew". imagine it's called "fa kew". heehee

:: jaew ::

i wanted to buy this dvd for v long already. went to phuket n bought it... it doesn't have english subtitles. n NOW IT'S SHOWING IN SINGAPORE!!!

go n watch M.A.I.D. v nice movie.. hehe very funny.. i dunno i wanna watch or not cuz i dun understand the thai version without english subtitles wor..

family photo at kata view point

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taken by sis

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sunset at phromthep cape

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me n sis on boat

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sis n sup

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:: catch me if you can ::

wahaha.. i'm always running around..

hmm.. my holidays is just grrreeaaat~! spent time at home with my dad.. monday went fishing at changi.. no fish n no fun. a lot of mosquito bites... oh i caught a toadfish. ahahha, interesting eh.. too bad i nv bring camera. but i used his hp to take photo. kinda psycho... played with the worms my dad bought as bait. but i got a feeling the fish in the water doesn't know how a centipede tastes like so.. they r not attracted to the bait. sigh~ ate famous nasi lemak for lunch n bak kut teh for dinner. went home to work on jieling's project.. hoho.. paul came to pass me a cd of the video clip we took at the camp comm rekke.. couldn't edit it. kept trying to convert the format.

tue lazy to wake up haa.. but still went out.. went to tekka mall for breakfast. passed by lavender at a motor shop. interesting bikes they have there. hmm.. i feel tt toa payoh is very near lavender. juz separated by balestier. ya? hmm.. went shopping at sheng siong supermarket. not very interested.. cuz i nv bring money haha. saw the potato chips i bought from thailand. hmm~ next time wanna eat dun need to specially go thailand to buy liao. went to market to buy food to cook for dinner.. my dad complained tt he doesn't cook at home because we r too picky n also lazy to wash the dishes. quite true, quite true. went back home n kept trying to convert the video to an editable format. got quite frustrated.. felt tt the shots i took weren't nice n too bad cannot go back to film again..

hmm.. kinda regret signing up for ladies retreat. everyone ask me how come i'm going.. =( n everything clashes with that weekend. i'd miss a photography competition n camp comm meeting.. =( but hopefully i'll enjoy myself n most of all be able to experience a "life-changing" encounter with God~ yup. so malaysia this week. got chance to go indonesia next week, but i think i shld stay home instead. i'm committed to camp comm ma.. hehe..

tmr is godma n serene's birthday. pray that i can finish up the video n the brochure design by tonight!

:: warning ::

WARNING! THIS IS GONNA BE A LONG ENTRY!

Sun
went to church with my parents, a little late.. hehe. it was raining. after service went to join my parents for lunch at seah im food centre. Godma n her sisters n godpa were there too.
after tt went home to do a final packing n then left house for the airport. took taxi. reached around 3.15pm.
wendy michael n shaun came to send me off.. hoho~ i was just checking in when they arrived. walked in circles around the airport with them before going into the departure gate.. haha..
quite irritated cuz there were a lot of old pple rushing into the same plane as us. quite a got a seat with quite a good view. took lots of photos of scenery outside the plane.
bought red wine - in cans! cool~
reached phuket ahead of schedule.. =) it was a smooth flight with Tiger Airways.. took the airport limo service for 300 baht. supposed to take the red and yellow meter taxi but since this price is good we took the limo taxi instead. the taxi took us thru the woods. for a moment we kinda freaked out. but i have peace, that the taxi is bringing us to the correct place. =)
met sis at the Laguna Allamanda. she noticed that i grew fatter.. =( check into the hotel... nice~! our room is in another block. like chalet kinda thing.
went for dinner at the restaurant at the lobby. had kuay tiao soup. went back to bathe then slp.

Mon
woke up for breakfast. ate a lot hoho~ scrambled eggs with ham, milk n cereal, donut, muffin, ham, sausage, etc etc..~! =)
went back to room. received a call from Holiday Club when we were just about to leave for a boat ride. took the shuttle service to another part of Laguna Phuket. took the boat ride. we registered for the 4pm slot cuz this 10am slot was fully booked. but since we were there n the pple who registered did not turn up, we took that one instead. very nice place sia!~!~ went to explore other resorts at the Laguna Phuket.
went back to room n had fruits for lunch, from my sis' bf's dad. haha.. watched National Geographic. interesting~~
went to slp until 2pm then went swimming. felt v relaxed.. haha.. today is meant to be free and easy. relax n recreational. went back to room to bathe and continue watch tv.. wahahaha..
took bus to Lotus Restaurant for dinner.. (the car top can open one!) wonderful sunset! ate a lot.. crab meat omelette.. real crab meat!! shiok~!! prawns with beef, green curry chicken, mango with sticky rice, banana split~!!! woohoo~! ordered extra rice too..
went back to room n watch tv again~!! National Geographic v interesting, got this bird which can do moonwalk like michael jackson!

Tue
indigestion. prayed that i will digest properly n thank God i managed to feel better before breakfast!
ate about the same as yesterday's breakfast. went back n watch tv. (hehehe) slept for a while then sis n her bf Sup came to pick us up in a Toyota. checked out of the hotel. Sup drove us to Patong to find hotel to check in. went to a few to check out the price. sis n sup can speak thai so they helped us to get a good price. i like this Grand Tropicana but sis says inside like very deserted n scary.. =S finally checked into Deevana Resort. smells bad!!! =S inside the room was alright. lobby, restaurant, swimming pool were alright. except outside our room!! smells terrible!!!
sis went for job interview. so i went for lunch with my parents at a restaurant not far from our hotel. good service. good food too~ went back n watched tv cuz there was almost nothing else to do.
sis came back so we all went out. went to Karon beach, where Old Phuket Hotel is.. haha sis was hiding from the pple there. she n sup booked island tour for us. went up to Kata View Point to catch the sun set. rushed to Phromthep Cape to catch another view too. went to sis' place to check it out.
had seafood dinner at Laem Hin restaurant, quite a hidden place from the tourist area. had curry crab, catfish, fried prawns, etc. very full. i couldn't finish my food man... =S
haha i guess i was troublesome ba. i wanted to shop in the supermarket. so we had to make a trip specially. went to Tesco Lotus n bought potato chips (=D the film pple r going to love me for that! jk~) bought facial foam, toothpaste, shower foam, shampoo n conditioner too.
went back room to slp. me n sis share one room.

Wed
dark clouds loomed over Phuket in the morning. had breakfast n it was pouring. after breakfast the clouds began to clear n the sun came out. praise God for the weather! it meant a great deal, cuz we're going ....ISLAND TOUR~! means we're gonna take boat out n jump from island to island.
the minibus came to fetch us from our hotel. it was 1 hr ride to the jetty. wore lifevests n went to take long-tailed boat to a ferry. went to Phang Nga bay.. where it was worst hit by tsunami. if i'm not wrong. there's this bunch of guys who served us drinks n there's this guy who looks a lot like Yongqiang haha... his name is tommy n he reminds me of my thai kelong bf. haha.. very flirty. thai, but very thick american accent when he speaks english.
noticed this cute hk guy but too bad he's got a gf/wife. wahaha~ when we reached phang nga bay we took canoes out. (two passengers with a crew rowing each canoe) explored a bat's cave. heard them screeching. very crowded cuz there were another company with tourists too. went out of the bats cave n got hit by their shit. =S when we came out it doesn't look like shit.
saw a lot of eagles!! they were swooping down to the food some tourists threw into the water. next stop is Horng Island. similar limestone structures with caves. canoe in and out again. when we went back to the boat there were towelettes for us.
n next stop is James Bond Island. very famous. that's where one of James Bond movies was filmed. there was a sleet of stone formed naturally. wad's so special abt it is that it's very straight cut. Got pulled to look at bracelets. yes, there are shops set up there! i was like thinking, dun waste my time la, i wun buy opal bracelets that cost 300 baht lor. took a lot of photos there. went back to the boat for lunch. quite alright la.
fell asleep for a while then tommy came to make fun of me. he wanted to get my number but i decided not to give. i told him to ask my mom for permission to get my number. haha.. i was the youngest around.
Reached Lava Island. canoed with my dad. dipped into the water with my sis. went to shower with well water. had the privilege of having a guy "shower for me". haha.. he just poured a pail of well water over me that's all la.
went back to the boat for coconut.. shiok~! they asked us to sign autograph.. i praised them for their good service. they will pick up our rubbish n often ask us whether we want drinks. tommy played some games with us. interesting... at the last game i was picked to be teased. =x very interesting, he can suck up paper at the bottom of a bottle full of water. he sucked his thumb n asked me to do the same. man! i can't do that!!
tired laew. went back on land about 5pm~
took the minibus back to hotel. went swimming straight. haha.. shiok...i like the pool. 1.4m deep. sis ordered vanilla milkshake. went back to room to bathe n then went out for dinner at a roadside stall. ordered tom yum kung, fried glassnoodles (yummm~~), pig's trotter, mixed vege, ginger chicken.
bought thai silk cushion covers.. very nice!~ at a great price for that too. bought a small sling bag for my camera n money pouch. wanted to shop for slippers. but i can buy slippers at $2.90 in singapore. over there the slippers r average 199 baht. dad went back to hotel cuz he felt uncomfortable. Sup came to join us. mom went crazy n bought A LOT of local food products.. haha.. walked thru Bangla Rd. ALOT of bars n transvesites n prostitutes. my mom got "flashed".. a guy came n showed her an album of pictures of nude girls. -.-|||
Sup's uncle "performs magic". so we went to c. quite interesting, this linking rings... i dun get the trick sia! mom took Sup's motorbike back to hotel then he came back later to fetch me n sis. wow, 3 on a motorbike, without helmet~!!! shiok~! quite scary cuz i felt like i was going to fall off. held my sis' legs tightly haha..
tired. supposed to go clubbing but too tired.

Thur
can afford to wake up later today. had breakfast n then prepared to go SHOPPING~! took the tuk-tuk out to Central Phuket. sis bargained from 300 to 200 baht. split up to shop. bought Jaew DVD. went to B2S to look for my graphic magazines.. but cannot find.. =( spent a lot of time there. wanted to buy some stuff but put them back cuz i couldn't find my sis. went downstairs to Propoganda n bought some interesting stuff. joined my family for coffee at the food court. veri interesting system, have to buy "coupon" first then order food, the remainder in the coupon will be refunded. a bit troublesome lor. had crabmeat n hotdogs (like the one i ate in Surin *miss miss*)
walked to Big C supermarket for more shopping =D split up to shop again. bought a lot of CDs, books, found my graphic magazine! bought a jacket too. went downstairs n back upstairs to buy Potato CD. had a meal at MK by my mom's demand.
went outside n look at the stalls. wanted to buy a top, but i was too FAT for it.. =( sobsob..
took taxi back to hotel 300 baht but we dun care liao la, just want to go back. bathed n packed up n rest. watched Dragon (weird actor acting Bruce Lee's life story) n Armageddeon. ordered Cabonara Spag by room service. I'M NEVER GONNA EAT CABONARA ANYTHING EVER!
Sup came to pick my sis go home cuz she gotta work the next day. slp. mom slept in my room cuz she's afraid i cannot wake up the next morning. gotta catch the taxi to the airport early.

Fri
woke up 5.30am. final packup n check out of the room. had breakfast. left my battery charger in the room so i ran back to take. took photo of the waiter who looks like Ix Shen ;) the taxi came 15 min earlier than booked. but... halfway to the airport it broke down. waited 15 min for a replacement taxi. -.-|||
boarded the plane.. ordered milo.. $2 for that sia.. reached Singapore earlier than scheduled.. =) Home sweet Home~!

:: i'm really such a crybaby ::

sat helped ian move house.. hoho.. very fast cuz he packed liao, all he need is pple to help him carry boxes from bishan to bukit gombak.. then went to church to meet shirley bong n then cell grp.. after cell grp went to bugis to find my YEP friends. i realise tt i was the one who caused the whole grp to be unable to submit the journals to the "pple up there".. sigh.. felt v guilty.. i dun like vietnamese food!! not like food at all!! :@ went to national library wanted to take a look but no chance.. went to breko cafe to eat a decent meal.. saw wendy n shaun.. hoho~ chatted with the yep room 10 guys... went home by bus..

yday was alright... i reached church in time.. haha... was alright all the way until sermon.. i started to tear.. then my tears can't stop flowing... remember there was once i mentioned i feel hurt everytime i think of the past, about my relationship with my mom? yeah i thought abt it again n started to cry.. sigh~

after service celebrated birthdays with cell grp.. then went to AV for lunch.. after tt we went to Queensway.. felt gian to buy running shoes.. haha.. went to chinatown buy cds then went to lau pa sat to meet the singles' club.. haha.. walked to city hall.. bought a pair of New Balance running shoes at $110.. hmm~

my dad came to city hall to pick me up.. went to marina south for dinner with my mom there already. great dinner.. hmm.. haha..

today..

i wore my new running shoes, prepared to go for run before going for work...

then...

my dad forgot to bring helmet downstairs, so i went back home to take..

then..

i slipped n fell outside my neighbour's hse cuz she was washing the corridor. i think there was soap.

i dunno is it becuz of the soap, or is it my new shoes dun have gd friction? =(

i scratched my knee!!!!!!!! :@

was alright until i went downstairs n told my dad wad happened. then i started to tear. lousy!!!!

:: this week ::

monday went out with singles' club to orchard to shop for weiting's present.. her birthday was on monday itself, but i haven't been able to find time to get her present.. they were shocked to noe that i bought a roteiro for her last yr.. haha.. n that she bought a scorpion for me.. (i'm talking about soccer ball here) on monday itself i already know what i wan to get.. juz had to go n choose a design.. wanted to get john's birthday present as well.. but no time.. hmm~

tue after work went to look for ting cuz she was waiting for me at south canteen. gave her the present.. then wendy and michael helped me buy john's present cuz the shop closing soon.. met them at dhoby ghaut.. took very long to decide wad to eat for dinner. michael bought a army t-shirt for his hp.. haha.. we settled at Thai Express. weiting very impressive.... order double portion of noodles...!! i can't do that lor! yeah... then went home liao.. hmm~

wed delivered john's present to him.. haha.. hope he likes it.. after work went to geylang haha.. wendy n michael r there.. went to look for my grandfather's stall.. he used to sell great beef hor fun.. but there were funny things going around the family.. the workers there don't even know me. hmm~ went home to reformat my comp.. very pek cek cuz i keep kena virus n popups once i connect to the internet to activate my windows.. very irritating.. then i think around 1+? i went to slp.

thur went to meet elena linfeng jasmine chihiro thomas n samuel to watch Corpse Bride at shaw lido.. wanted to watch cuz it's animation.. haha.. very long nv watch movie also. but the storyline quite weak. if it's supposed to be funny, then i think it failed. it's not exactly scary too.. i can't stand the fact that it's not meaningful at all.. haha.. went home with chihiro... got to know her better.. hmm~

today boss brought us to bishan for lunch.. then gave us our pay.. very happy hehehehe..

:: dilemma ::

hmm.. my boss wants to employ me even after attachment. i also want to continue working, because it helps to build up my portfolio, besides, i learn new things everyday... i also can get pay..

but..

yday he called up my school the pple in-charge... they told him tt i need rest, it's not advisible to work while studying.. it's not advisible to burn up my holidays. i do feel tt i need break... in fact it's very depressing if i have no break lor..

so last night i calculated my money flow.. i can be satisfied after getting this month's pay, but if i wanna buy stuff like running shoes, etc etc it'll be good if i can work longer.. besides, after attachment my pay wun be PEANUTS anymore..

anyway now tt i've got holidays, i realise tt i cannot go abroad during my weekends. i muz be around in church becuz i'm committed to camp comm. i told my parents i got holiday n my mom suggested going phuket.. i asked if i can go alone, my dad was enthusiastic abt it, but she say better not. sigh~ if i go alone my sis can bring me go clubbing hahaha...

i realise i haven't really asked God wad i shld do abt my holidays..

:: update ::

PMS is over... yeah~!!!! =D

tues same thing at work... =x after work went to bishan to look at the FunkyB t-shirts.. but i was reluctant to buy cuz of the cost. i feel tt a t-shirt isn't worth more than $24 lor. at $24 i wld already be v reluctant to buy. the designs not bad la.. maybe i can do my own :P juz tt the printing of the t-shirts is a problem. yeah i forgot to mention i tried to buy a starhub prepaid topup card to call my sis on monday, but i went to tampines remember? by the time i reached punggol plaza the shop selling the card was closed. so i went on tues n topped-up my prepaid card. it'll expire in next yr march. those of u who wants my number pls sms my current number. no i'm not changing number, but i'm gonna have an extra card so tt i can use the free sms there to sms u all hahah.. it's good to have my extra number so tt in case u receive a msg from me by that number u will know it's me. ya then that night i talked to my sis for only 8 minutes then my card no value liao.. sigh~

wed boss joined us for lunch. so poor thing, no partner to eat lunch with him. went to church after work for worship conference prac.. v tired. nothing much leh.. wore a v big shirt cuz elena thinks i'm feminine. heh! hahahaa.. i'm ah beng ok.

thur boss brought us to a printing company to learn more abt print. i brought a notebook n pen n felt v pissed with myself for forgetting to bring IDN magazine cuz i had questions to ask abt printing abt the magazine. had lunch at bendemeer food centre hoho shiok. had mince meat noodles, chwee kuey, n soya beancurd ;D~~ hehehehe called my mom to ask her wad's gd to eat there cuz she went there b4.. then my mom called back excitedly becuz she realise that when i called her my photo appears on her phone screen. haha.. after work i grabbed some snacks off my office n took cab to church.

during the worship conference day 01, i felt tt it's a time to draw close to God for myself, (day 02 is a time to draw non-believers to God) it was great cuz as brent chambers asked us to stretch out hands out n lift our burdens to God, i was thinking abt my past hurts... after tt i set up last minute psalmist resource corner while Brent was singing "be still and know that I am God" i found it v difficult to be still when in the back of my mind i have a duty to do n i keep thinking, "is it time to go set up the table already?" then i went back with julian. i was still alive when i reached home la, can still do my daily weights, my quiet time.

on friday i was like thinking this week passes damn fast la.. but then can't wait to get off work. when i finally did i was quite worried i'll be v late cuz i don't have enuf money to catch cab so i had to find atm. i'm glad it didn't take v long for the cab to arrive la. it was like $1 cheaper than yday. haha.

worship conference day 02. i wasn't v excited. i dunno y, but i was burdened to pray against spiritual warfare. becuz the devil acts whenever we try to outreach. brent chambers was supposed to share on some topic but last minute due to Holy Spirit's prompting he shared something else. it's good to not follow a schedule. but itz difficult to communicate. i was worried tt the non-christians dun understand what he's saying becuz i myself dun understand v well... i find his accent v strong. n some parts were repeated last night. even the jokes were repeated. i find it hard to laugh. but towards the end everyone juz went crazy n began jumping around hehe.. i had tt experience during Festival of Praise, when Michael from shammah was still around.

was wondering if i shld join my cell grp for supper or not.. becuz if i join i have difficulty going home. if i dun join, i'll lose out in their conversations, their fellowship. so in the end i joined la. i'm glad jeremy persuaded me.. i wld feel v sad if no one tried to ask me along. it was a happening night la.. we were eating prata and chatting at the Perdana restaurant opp jeremy's hse.. we were chatting n laughing so loudly tt i fear gangs may juz come n hack us up becuz we seem like a gang too.. before we left, jieling n kelvin joined us. then malcolm sent amber n i to yishun.

i dropped off at khatib to meet the singles' club. there were 2 bicycles and 4 pple. hmm~ they decided to go fishing at lower seletar reservoir. it was like 3am already. haha.. i dunno how to cycle n i onli tried being a pillion rider once.. v scary haha.. so nic was my chauffeur while michael took the other bike with wendy standing behind. it was fun la.. i wld nv try this without them haha.. the place where we fish is v nice too.. but... we had no catch tt night n it got quite boring, so we went back to khatib. tried to learn to cycle but i still can't get it. went up to michael's place to take a look haha.. i v long, super long nv c them already lor.. didn't know tt michael changed his phone already, n nic joined back the singles' club officially. hmm, wendy n i pretty much the same la.. but i told them the news abt my company too. had breakfast at 848 coffeeshop then went home by bus. it was like 7am already la.. haha..

slept until 12+ then prepared word n went for cell grp. we're undergoing construction. haha.. had dinner with them at tiong bahru market. i think i v slow la, i was suddenly thinking tiong bahru market didn't seem to look like this. wad happened to the famous chwee kuey?? i dunno y i suddenly remember how it used to look. haha.. went home by train with brandon.. v tired.. hehe.. gd nite..

:: hmm ::

feeling better now.. today nv c lawrence at all.. somehow i feel a bit sorry for him.. somehow i feel tt things could be solved in a friendlier way. but i feel as if a friend has just passed away... i feel quite angry with the person who 'murdered' him. but i also feel angry with him for 'attempting suicide'.

last sat went to sentosa with ting.. called her on friday nite cuz i was feeling upset abt work.. then she told me she's going sentosa to tan, so i joined her. long time no c her man~! i got a little burnt la... a bit worried abt my skin.. haha.. tanning is as sinful as clubbing. =x then went to office for urgent meeting, which is to receive the news of the breakup.. then beng yeow drove me n michelle to dunearn road to c my banner being displayed. dunno y my appetite quite small tt day. had worship prac.. tired..

sunday worship conference prac... tired too but thank God i managed to stay alive until the end.. went to cineleisure with elena lin feng shirley n esther n had sushi... ooh v long nv eat tt liao..

this morning when i woke up i felt heaty n a bit sore throat.. muz be the leftover otah i ate last nite.. so i prayed for God's protection over all the pple involved in worship nite, that we'll not fall sick. then the rest of the day my throat felt better, but my stomach felt weak. my bladder also weak.. kept going to toilet.. sigh~

today chatted with kikko.. i'm chatting with her more often now.. she's studying a course to become an air stewardess. chok dee!! her msn nick is in thai n she asked me if i can read it. at first i can onli recognise the word ruk (love) after i copied inside Notepad n increased the font size. after tt i started to recognise all the words. except park. i searched for online thai dictionary and now i know 'park' is mouth. jai yark bork war ruk, tae park yark bork war mai. means the heart wants to say love, but the mouth doesn't. correct? hmm.. Mai, another thai friend has a boyfriend, but it's not benson. so sad. haha.. but mai is very pretty.. kikko said i na-ruk.. hahaha.. i reply "kikko na-ruk duey". she asked "jing ror ka?" then she went offline liao.

i slack a lot at work.. =x cuz both bosses not around. sigh~ now onli left one boss actually.. sigh~~

after work went to tampines to shop for second hand CDs. my main motive is to look for 8 christian cds. when i started looking at the shelves i kinda thot itz impossible cuz out of 100 cds i think onli 1 is a christian one. i managed to buy 8 cds, $3 each!! including Hillsong United Look To You!!! :D :D also bought DC Talk, Jaci Valesque, 4Him, bosson (special edition n autographed!), Savage Garden, n 2 X Kinki Kids cds. felt happy with the accomplishment.. i thot the cds r $5 each, but then got sale! hoho..

:: =( =( =( ::

v depressed at work now.

:: =( ::

this week.. ups and downs i guess.

up becuz my quiet time is good.. i finished reading the book of Proverbs, i happened to look at Ecclesiastes and found it quite interesting so i decided to start reading tt book.. it's good la.. but the first 2 chapters quite depressing. keeps emphasizing tt life is useless.... =S but i agree with the point, What has happened will happen again. well, in the very beginning of creation, cain killed his own brother.. even to this age, killing of each other has not stopped. there r a lot of similarities i can draw from history and present time. n during my quiet time i was suddenly reminded that i had not confessed my sinful acts in the past. i rem when i was in sec 1 my discman was stolen in sch. in sec 2 my wallet was stolen on april fool's day. i cursed the pple who stole my stuff.. i cursed them to die. it was very evil of me.. n now i realise i need to repent. God promised Abraham that He will "curse those who curse you" Genesis 12:3 i myself shld nt curse.

down... becuz of work.. stress. monday to wed i go home after work. suddenly no program, no dinner with single's club. dunno where they r.. haiz. thur i suddenly very sian dunno y juz dun feel like doing work. so i surf the net keep checking mail.. then my boss asked me to do OT to help farah with layout becuz the artwork has to be approved n printed by fri morning. i finished my part around 12am like tt.. then i passed it to yihan to check thoroughly. i can nv be so precise sia. we stayed in the office till 2.50am.. boss treated dinner n let us come to work at 12pm on friday. he sent us home. his driving v scary sia. then friday he treated us to lunch at roti prata cafe at old SMU. now they all noe tt wherever there's food, there's me. haha.. anyway there's a problem at work n it is political n i shall not say what happened la. but friday seems like a very short day for me.

i thot friday got DG so i decided to join jasmine they all at ktv after DG. my dad asked me if i wanna go sengkang for dinner but i said dun wan. after work i saw the yr 2s. wah long time nv c them leh!! hmm.. i called christine, she said it's postponed to next fri. so i can go ktv liao. so i called jasmine, she say no one going already. so i called my dad to pick me up to go sengkang for dinner. -.-" bought my mom a phone.. $47 nia. haha..

:: my week ::

hmm... last friday went to changi village with my dad for dinner.. the FAMOUS nasi lemak. =P~~~ he dropped me home first cuz i got mooncakes from MARRIOTT~~~ hoho~~ left them at home then we went out.

monday nothing much...had dinner with the single's club.. haha... feels like a long time since i joined them for dinner..

tuesday busy busy ah... michael ask me to help him with flash... i stand there v long trying to figure out wad was wrong while weili juz came over n type some script n solved his prob. i feel a bit useless lor... waste time trying.. haiz. after work continued to help michael, then went for prayer meeting in church. was late.. but at least i caught a bit la. canon was asking us to pray for the families in potong pasir, and also for solutions for transport there.

wed supposed to lead bible study for campus crusade DG. but i nv prepare. no time lor.. last nite i thot i can prepare during lunch or juz b4 DG but then christine wans to meet at bishan instead. by the time i get there sure super late la. tried to rush the bible study cuz i promised my dear girl judy to act in her filming project. haha.. had a crazy time jumping for a "concert" but i totally dun like the music. acting ma. wad to do. haha.. had a lot of sandwiches. (sigh~) n got home quite late.

thur hmm nothing to comment leh... i think i asked my dad to send me home cuz my bus too packed. he brought me to compass point for dinner.

friday rushed to bishan salvation army straight after work.. caught the youthFest 2005. it was great.. they sang Open Up the Gates, One Way, Worthy To Be Praised, Highest etc.. then Pastor Ken Lee preached about You Are What You See. the 12 spies went up to Canaan and came back with the report that they saw giants, but Joshua n Caleb went to see for themselves. they saw the Philistines were just like grasshoppers. likewise, there was this reverend bonkey (funny, but i think tt's his name) went to africa for mission trip. when asked whether he sees south africa as a nation that is full of witchcraft and demonic forces, he replied, "no, i see a bloodwashed nation." WOW. then another illustration. a company that sells shoes sent two staff to a city to find out if the market is good for the sales. one came back and said "our shoes sure wouldn't sell. everyone in that city wears sandals!" the other came back and reported, "WE HAVE A MARKET! everyone in that city wears sandals!" well.. that's a lesson about diff perspectives.

after the concert i decided to ask my dad out to pasir ris to catch crabs.. hehe.. but he decided not to. becuz he's going fishing over the weekend n he has to wake up early. well.. tt's one thing i have a weakness in. i try to pack my day to the fullest cuz i believe that there's not always a tomorrow. i dun care tmr gotta wake up early or not... but sometimes if pple ask me out n i lazy to go then i will not stick to my belief haha. =x so in the end we nv go. went home.

that night i dreamt that i was using flash and adjusting the frame all that.. stress. next morning i woke up around 7.50am... i thot i need to go to work. then i think for a while. it's a saturday right? then i went back to slp haha.. around 8+ then i woke up again. went out to serangoon the sports stadium.. walked one whole round outside it to find 66 boundary road. supposed to go there for music workshop. i found the place finally, but i was drenched in perspiration man. it's a terrace house. knocked on the door. i hear no one practising music leh.. no shoes outside the door also. no one came to the door. i went to the back of the house. i dunno which door to knock at. so i went back to the front. back and forth around 3 times then finally someone opened the door at the front. an indonesian lady was apologetic cuz she didn't hear me knock the door. i asked, "is there a music workshop here?" she asked me to come in then she called up the church at salvation army who told me today got music workshop. dunno y i kena pangseh... but she said tt we can meet is totally not by chance. she began to talk to me about worship.. she brought out her amplified bible and shared verses with me. i felt glad to have met her. she went to tanjung balai before and is a pastor at a church in jakarta. went home after that to bring my bible cuz i forgot tt i left it on my bed. shun bian cooked noodles for lunch and bring out extra money haha... went for cell grp, reach at 3pm haha..

cell grp word abt exodus.. jac makes us think a lot. haha.. led prayer for psalmist preparation. used my experience with the indonesian lady to share with them. after practise paul sent me home. sunday woke up at 7am.. took a lot of time trying to figure what to wear, what i can or cannot wear. paul sent me to church too. had worship conference prac after service. then esther dropped me at pasir ris park where i met my parents and brought them to fisherman village and check out the crabbing thing. cool..

i cut my week update till realli short cuz i'm sian and tired right now. kinda having moodswings...

:: flea and easy ::

going, anyone?

:: wow!! ::

sooooo long no update~! hmm.. can't rem wad happened on 19th aug.. so i'll start from 20th. supposed to wake up around 9 to go bukit batok to meet john at 10.45... but i juz wan to slp until i song so late lor.. went to his hse to learn bass guitar from him. well i learnt a lot.. haha.. i nv pay lesson fees one.. hahaha.. around 2pm then class dismissed. by the time i got to bukit batok central it was v late liao.. so i decided to take cab. cuz there's a seminar on relationship n i'm singing for the worship. i wore shirt n jeans... quite formal for a saturday... =x hmm i dun realli think i learnt much becuz the things chris discussed is quite basically wad we all noe already... he shared abt his personal experience too.. after the seminar el shaddai went to the library to talk abt the topic. then we went to tiong bahru for dinner..

supposed to meet shaun wendy n ting at dhoby ghaut mrt at 8.45pm to go zouk together, cuz my kor is spinning for 1 hr at zouk!! wow!! so proud of him! but then actually i dun like zouk.. altho a lot of pple go, n itz very well known, n i actually bought the zouk book 2 yrs ago.. ya anyway i dun like cuz itz very strict, muz check IC (i mean tt's ok i guess) but THEY CONFISCATED MY WATER BOTTLE!!!! cuz they dun allow outside drinks... !@#%#$^&*!!!!! they told me to collect it b4 i leave la. but.. argh!! saw a lot of old friends haha.. my RV friends, maybe they're here to support kor also.. but then they got come b4.. hmm.. itz quite scary man, like going to a club n recognising almost 30% of the pple.. to name some, shuping, sheena, jenna, weizhen, jueru, amanda, elaine, yong teng, siong chew, rach's ex, clara.. i think i'm getting old. soon zouk will be full of pple in my generation. we're gonna rule the future!! haha felt quite bored to juz stand n listen to the songs so decided to get drinks. buy 1 get 1 free ma, so shaun bought a jug of long island tea to share with wendy while me n ting shared the other jug. got quite high.. =x my first time clubbing in 2005. haha.. after around 2am i think, we went to a coffeeshop nearby to rest. took cab with this guy i'm not realli familiar with, but i met him b4 in JI. reached home around 4+am.

actually tt weekend supposed to go tanjung balai.. but i decided to support kor at zouk instead.. hmm =x his first time ma.. then had camp comm meeting on sunday after service.. after tt went home to slp then go downtown east for dinner with my parents. ate a lot.. stomach felt v bloated.. monday borrowed bass guitar from john. supposed to go buy presents for a few pple's birthdays.. but after work went for dinner with singles club at mac then went to find lynn to make banner for campus crusade event. i dunno y i always cannot think of creative ideas for campus crusade stuff. thank God for ian who joined us n gave us the idea for making cubes (interaction design heh). well, we're from DIGITAL MEDIA DESIGN wad. so the things we're good at is designing on computer.... ask me to paint banner? cannot make it.. went home to design the cube n onli went to slp around 2-3am. a little late for work. sian took taxi. tues also take taxi. wanted to rush to junction 8 to get present cuz i monday nv buy.. but no time. rushed to tj pagar to meet jac they all. giving kelvin a birthday surprise ma.. haha.. had a great time at alan's restaurant.. altho vietnamese food is a lot of veggie, i like a few dishes. kept taking photos.. haha.. went home by mrt.

wed oh judy's birthday haha.. quite rush cuz i stay back after work again. went to heeren.. took my time cuz i scared i will bump into her b4 the time i'm supposed to come.. haha.. been planning for this birthday surprise for sometime already hahaha.. been busy getting pple to shared in her present n to sign her birthday card during my lunchtime.. so tt week quite jialat. went to action city to get a toy for her cuz she likes toys ma.. then asked carl to give her, pretending tt itz the only birthday present tt he's giving her haha.. when i arrived at marche i presented an ipod mini to her haha.. n she was v happy.. hoho.. had a great dinner.. but decided not to eat too much. wanted to go punggol beach cuz her bf driving ma.. but when we reached we decided not to go cuz there's coast guards n i dun realli noe if the beach is open or not. went home.

thur i went suntec city with my office pple to attend the Macromedia studio 8 launch. had roti prata for breakfast.. haha.. the new macromedia flash, dreamweaver flashpaper very powerful!! v excited to try it when it comes in to the office next month. i feel happy working.. =x had lunch at suntec city FOODCOURT. -.- haha a bit bad la but i expected my boss to treat lunch =x.. went to carfourre to buy groceries like biscuits for the office. then after work went to ronald's mom's wake at his place with hx. felt sad n worried for him but i didn't cry la. fri i can't rem wad i did also. onli rem after work i asked my parents to go chinatown. had dinner at mei shi street haha.. ate a lot.. teochew dumpling noodles, satay, riceballs, oyster omelette, hmm think tt's all. v full sia.

sat john not free so no bass lesson this time. stayed at home to design logo for the next Destiny workshop topic. went for cell grp n this time i cld not join them for dinner. had cup noodles. went home after worship prac to watch The Bone Collector.. a bit scary, but good movie. wanted to go church early for prayer meeting with MCG, but they dun have prayer meeting. n they're meeting at 8.15 to re-hang flags. decided to take mrt. but i was late.. around 8.10am i decided to alight from kovan mrt to take taxi. sigh~ reached at 8.30am. there was psalmist resource corner n i bought a t-shirt. hmm pink again hoho!~

stayed back for worship conference briefing. then helped pack up the resource corner n went to far east crest with kelvin n jieling to return the consignment books n stuff. had lunch at one of the shops. kelvin had to return the car so he drove us to his block. then we went to queensway cuz JL buying shoes. i also need to buy shoes, but itz not the right time yet. i dun have running shoes at the moment cuz my adidas has opened itz mouth n my nike soles dropped. =x! my sandals broke n i've been wearing the pair of diesel shoes i bought in phuket. but on sunday i bought slippers. bought a pair of nike dumbells.. haha... toned arms, here i come!~ hehehe.. took bus 61 to ben's place to play bball... was quite reluctant cuz i'm not a sports kinda person.... i onli started to like running recently. but my cell grp is realli enthu abt sports sia! hmm.. quite fun la, juz tt i felt like an idiot. lazy to run for the ball n dunno how to aim. lousy.

went home for bah kut teh, not v nice. not salty enuf hehe.. since then i dun have appetite for food. juz dun feel hungry even tho itz time for meals... maybe itz stress? maybe itz cuz i prayed for God to deprive me of food? i feel like visiting Smoky Mountain one day... fasting on my trip juz to provide food for the pple. well... will tt day come? hope so!

well lately quite stress in work. monday went home after work to slp. woke up to do work.... until 3am like tt.. practised bass.. tried to slp at 3am but onli managed to fall asleep around 5.30? sigh~ finally got to slp when itz time to wake up. !!! lousy.

tue went for dinner with singles' club, after quite a long time.. went to thomson to eat zhu chao... but not nice one.. =( saved money during lunch n ate bread n drink milo, end up spending money on this... but ok la... edible. today got dg so didn't join singles' club for dinner. heard tt they went bowling. haha i kinda dun like to spend money on this kinda activities anymore. dg until 9+pm lor. first time so late. discussed abt the bible. learnt quite a lot.. with christine leading she makes us think of questions i've nv thot b4.. if i lead we probably end up juz sharing abt our lives. not a bad thing la, but we dun learn as much.

been reading Proverbs.. haix i kinda stopped at Psalms 55. 1/3 of the whole book sia. sms-ed a verse to my sis but she nv reply leh. got receive or not?
Proverbs 3: 24-26
24 when you lie down, you will not be afraid;
when you lie down, your sleep will be sweet.
25 Have no fear of sudden disaster
or of the ruin that overtakes the wicked,
26 for the LORD will be your confidence
and will keep your foot from being snared.

i've been listening to Planet Shakers Phenomena album. the only album i did not bring to thailand n the only album i did not lose. i think someone will kill me for losing her cds. but if u wan i buy back lor.

:: impact ::

i'm very impacted by the video screened on sunday during service... i feel v burdened for the poor in asia... i feel tt i wan to work, n give the money to organisations that can help, or go into the mission field myself.. i feel for thailand.. juz went to check out this website www.carecornerorphanage.com, checked out ywam.org.sg too... very interested in the Bible Course, but itz $3900 lor.. hmm..



anyway during campus crusade DG (discipleship group) time i didn't plan anything... juz went by faith haha.. ended up talking about marriage, relationships with my DG members.. i learn tt we shld not ask a couple when r they getting married or things like tt.. it might push things with a timing tt God had not intended. itz not good la.. in the same way it is not good to put thots into pple like "when r u getting attached" or try to matchmake them lor.. i also learn tt if u have certain expectations of ur other half, u ought to make sure tt u have those qualities too! like tt then can complement each other ma.. itz not fair to expect something out of someone else when u urself dun have. for example, qualities like patience, good temper etc.. i think itz also time for me to draw up a list of expectations, that i wan to work towards, n also tt i wan to find in my other half hoho~ another thing i learn is, according to my DG members who read this book "When boy meets girl", the person who may be able to help u grow spiritually may not necessarily end up be the one to be in a relationship with u. tt means the process of drawing each other closer to God shld not stop even if the couple breaks up.

feel tt my body is very tensed up.. the only time i relax my body is when i slp... cuz other than that i'm still trying to culture my body to the correct posture n i tend to tense up my muscles the whole day.. i still can't stand properly, i can't sit properly, i tend to pout in order to close my mouth -.-" or frown cuz my fringe is covering my eyes. zzzz...

other than tt... abt work.. hmm i v long nv update the IAP portal thing.. kinda heck care liao.. cuz at work my boss sit behind me sure can c wad i type, so i dun like to do personal things during work. tt means i'm constantly on my toes lor.. minimal personal time. ooh i look forward to sat... but i prefer working there, cuz the software is ALWAYS the most updated ones.. like even macromedia studio softwares (Flash, if u all dunno is a macromedia product)? my bosses r upgrading to studio 8 (version 8)!! wad's more exciting, they're bringing me n all the staff to the launch of the studio 8! i think itz not free admission wor.

somemore my bosses got Marriott hotel mooncakes for us today.. got the praline with whisky thingy... wow, shiok!~ hmm.. pple will go "wad?!" if they noe tt i dun eat the inside of a mooncake. i usually peel n eat the snowskin onli. haha.. well.. chinese. haiz. chinese love unhealthy, environment-unfriendly food. the lotus paste super sweet n the double yolks.. so high in cholestrol! n shark fins during wedding dinners? haiz. terrible.

hmm.. did i mention tt i feel like learning bass guitar? i guess itz cuz of the thai rock songs i listen to recently.. =x hey i can picture myself playing bass for service lor.. now everytime i listen to songs i listen out for the bass.. now listening to Jars Of Clay Furthermore album, the live concert cd.. woo~! shiok!

oh yah last time long ago i mentioned tt i need to pray for forgiveness towards this girl i can't stand for everything tt comes out her mouth?? i realli wan to thank God tt either God changed her, or widened my narrowness in my mindset. i believe itz the former.. she's much bearable now.. =x dun attempt to guess who i'm referring to k.

:: haiz ::

today my bosses treat us to lunch at pizza hut today... ate a lot of cheese... yummy~~~ they realise i'm a big eater... hoho...

my dad suggest i go on diet.

haiz... i gained 10kg since yr 1. can u believe it?~!!?!?!

i realli need to cut down on my food...

i noe God doesn't look at my appearance, n if it's not His will for me to lose weight i shld nt pray abt it.. but.. itz on my mind la...

:: homesweethome ::

thur i went to work early cuz it feels weird to go early on wed n back to normal again on thurs haha.. boss was quite surprised.. but i got nothing to do so juz surf net lor. he bought us a mug each, to make milo or tea during work, so i can throw my styrofoam cup away already. the other boss brought gifts from PlanetMG, a hp accessory..i dunno wad colour to take so i juz took yellow.. CiBoys~! =D

today long day at work.. cuz i cld not leave until around 6.45 i think..got one client la, wants a lot of change.. i'm a bit suspicious abt whether they use the previous designs but pretend they dun accept the design so they dun need to pay for them!~ haha juz joking..

went to buy bean bag.. hoho.. lup one big bean bag around... not me, michael n henry were the ones lup-ing it around.. n not for me, but for this birthday girl called wendy aka soot~! we took taxi to marina south for steamboat.. din feel like eating.. judy called to say she's coming..woohoo~!

walked with bryandt to find her.. hoho.. she wants to eat so i also ate...but indonesian fried rice. in the end i was so tempted by clams n other shellfish i decided to join in hoho.. unpaid tho. :P ate all the way until 11pm.. :P the rest stopped eating n went to play the table soccer i still eating with hx.. haha.. took taxi with her n wendy till marina bay mrt station.. i scared miss last train home ma..

next morning late for work.. =x 20 min like tt.. cuz i stupid la, purposely dun wan to stop at the bus stop, n went into the interchange then change bus.. haix.. anyway i'm working on a new project.. a bit tough.. something i nv done b4.. after work went to TFA for Pencil n Pixels... didn't expect to go, but since christine was still busy i went to c lor.. asked christine to join me too.. hmm.. still got past yr's work.. went for dinner with her at amk s11.. talked to her abt a lot of things.. actually i wan to encourage the christians to join campus crusade for christ.. itz like a way to serve God, not juz limiting the service to sundays onli lor.. she encouraged me to consider giving a few months to a yr after my graduation to serve God. it can be joining the web team in campus crusade, it can be going out to the mission field.. i have other options too.. like studying theology.. my reason being i wan to learn more abt the bible. but she pointed out tt i dun need to go for the course in order to study the bible deeper.. hmm~ i also consider continuing to work at my attachment company, go for a holiday, or find other job... so many options! dunno which to go, so i realli muz start praying for my destiny..

honestly i'm not interested to go for the workshop.. hmm.. maybe cuz itz the price.. =x

sat i woke up at 11am haha.. bathed then went to marine parade to cut my hair.. felt a bit toot... but then the hairstylist looks v professional n can tell from my hair that i v long nv cut, n i coloured my hair by myself. uh.. maybe anyone can tell tt la.. but i think she's nice too... she asked me for my name... n at the end of the cutting she called me by my name n said goodbye. she was recommending products as she applied them on my hair. well sis, wad u can do to sell the club membership is to start promoting once u start talking to the customers la.. rather than establish a friendship first, or else it will be difficult to promote ur stuff liao.. like, "hi are u enjoying ur time in the club so far? r u interested to consider buying a memberhip....? blah blah blah"

wanted to go simlim buy external hard disk since last sunday.. but no chance sia.. after cutting hair it was 2.20 like tt.. time to rush to cell grp in church... hmm.. after cell grp my dad sms-ed me tt he's at "clark key"... so cute.. went to find my parents at Liang Court... i always like going for meals with them cuz itz them who pay :P so i feel v free to order anything i wan.. :P with friends i have to c whether i can afford or not.. cuz if cannot then feel pai seh... tt kinda thing...

walked around clarke quay.. felt like chilling out.. but.. hmm.. bad habit. cannot adopt.

today actually can wake up early, but i went back to slp.... so i was late for service.. the sermon was good, there's this guest speaker from Church of Our Saviour.. talked abt our destiny, "don't waste ur life" ... hmm.. consistent message.. then kelvin chose a song for offertory "who am i" consistent with message shared by jac during cell grp yday.. hmm.. good~! God is good!

after church joined cell grp for lunch at AV.. then chatted until 2+.. went to sim lim sq to buy external hard disk, finally~! walked around n bought other small stuff like memory card reader etc.. went home... house empty.. my parents went to watch fireworks at marina.. sobsob..without me... but nvm la..i keep going out everyday....until i miss home. hmm so stay home lor.. my comp also seldom used cuz i at work everyday... so use this chance to use lor hahaha..

:: weeeee ::

sat.. v happening day.. woke up early to go Labrador Park for CROSS Training.. took bus 408 from harbourfront.. dunno where to alight.. so anyhow alight. tried to figure my way to the Pavilions by the sea. hmm.. on my way down the Aerial staircase i was changing my memory card in my camera. i already told myself to be careful, but i still DROPPED MY MEMORY CARD, not juz to the floor of the staircase, but into the tiny hole between the planks!! how nice! i couldn't do anything abt it since i was late already so i moved on.. found the Psalmists n joined in the "game" of serving breakfast.. it was my fault for being late n unable to receive instructions la.. so i was confused. then there was another "game" of building the tallest structure using twigs n wadever we can find within a boundary. i was distracted by the other grp's progress that i was careless with my own grp. paul pointed tt out n reminded us not to be distracted by other churches' ministries until we lose sight of God. then we had lunch (mac takeaway) n Case study n some sort of presentation of our opinions abt grey issues.

went for cell grp n felt anxious abt my lost memory card. i had approached a park ranger earlier n he told me to come back at 4pm, when he gets off duty n can help me find my memory card. i took bus n walked in.. it was quite a long walk so i decided to run. waited till 5 then he decided he cld leave his post for a while to help me. it was not easy man. the card is like trapped under the staircase lor, seems like no way to get it. but the ranger climbed from the bottom towards where i was n managed to get it. he asked me to write an email to explain y he left his post.. but of cuz i need (i want to, too) to commend him for his act of bravery n helpfulness too la.. jogged back to church.. v happy =D

fireworks~!! tt's my highlight of the week.. been rushing around places to watch fireworks! wanted to go for FOP on sat.. but was a bit reluctant when i thot of the queue. i tried rushing there tho, but quite pissed tt the queue was super long.. i sure cannot get in one.. so decided to give up. called my parents to ask where they r.. maybe we could have dinner together. wanted to watch fireworks so i asked them to come to esplanade. i thot i was early so i took quite some time to figure where i can take bus. finally took bus 16 from kallang indoor stadium. alighted at suntec and tried to figure my way to the esplanade. on my way i heard some thundering sound n i felt anxious... have i missed the fireworks?? where is it!! ran around trying to find out where the sound came from haha.. took photos n videos...

finally reached the esplanade but my parents haven reach yet. so i decided to queue for dinner at Thai Express. man.......it took 1 hour to reach our turn to get seats...... n 1 hour later for our food to be served! it was around 10pm already when our food started arriving -.- but food was Great!~ haha... took bus to clarke quay station then took mrt home.

next morning is sunday, got projection duty.. could have been on time, but waiting for bus n train is realli unpredictable.. =x chi shyan shared message abt Prayer.. after service i chop-chop help to pack up a bit then went to serene's hse to welcome her back from US.. so shiok sia, 3 months there... i also wan haha.. she v funny, first thing she entered her house was to explore her new house.. we were waiting quietly in her room to surprise her, but we sure waited v long haha while she "eeee!!" tt the toiletbowl so nice haha.. she was sure shocked to c us in her room! ate Golden Pillow n juz chatted.. i was wondering, i dun think my cell grp will give me such a surprise...

went off at 5.30pm to meet hx at dhoby ghaut.. wanted to buy external hard disk but i still didn't. she n ronald say itz too late by the time i reach sim lim ... =( so decided to go bugis for dinner instead. ate at Sakae Sushi.. i brought cash for the external hard disk but since i didn't buy, kinda felt like spending more money on food.. =P after tt went to walk around.. bought a coin for my dad at the singapore mint booth.. cuz the design is of Joo Chiat, the place i grew up in, the place my dad used to own a stall.. hmm.. memories...

had coffee at starbucks.. (regret) cuz i couldn't slp tt nite.. sian.. next morning, monday still had to work. been struggling at a project cuz the client was not satisfied. kept changing concept.. haix.. after work slowly took my time to go to church.. saw paul at outram mrt station.. went to church together.. i was early.. nothing to do after work ma.. my cell grp were going to holland v for dinner but i doubt i could reach there in time to join them. felt quite ignored... i used to be very bothered by tt.. but.. decided not to think abt it.

it was the All Nite Prayer.. woo.. somehow this yr i feel tt the time allocated to prayer is not enuf.. a lot of time was spent on worship.. i can't say whether itz a gd thing or bad thing.. juz tt i was expecting more prayer. thank God for those who prayed for me.. Jieling, Jac, Wee Lee, Suzanne, Shirley bong, Carol.. they all prayed for me for the same thing, abt my insecurity, for more confidence... i felt better after each prayer, but then i felt crushed again when i accidentally spilled water on the floor.. =( dunno many pple noticed or not, but i felt tt i couldn't do anything abt it.. but wait for chance to wipe it up. in my heart i was thinking, is other pple thinking how come i so clumsy one, spill water already still dun wipe up.. felt lousy all over again.. sucks... opportunities the devil use to strike.

felt v tired already, but was able to sustain thru the whole nite. woo! it's tuesday. my cell grp going to bukit timah for breakfast.. man i dun have the energy to join them... from there i realli have no transportation home.. felt quite sad.. but all i could think of is slp... dragged myself home, washed my face n slp!!! hoho.. slept until 1pm when i heard my dad come into the room.. i asked him if he saw the coin i bought for him n he said yes, n asked me how much i bought it for.. after tt i heard him leave the house.. i went back to slp until 4+pm.. bathed, then prepared to go out watch fireworks.. =)

went to marina sq to meet the singles' club.. hoho.. i almost could not get into the train sia.. a lot of pple.. found a good spot to sit down.. but around 7.56pm like tt i decided to stand up or else we could not get a good view of the fireworks.. took a lot of photos n videos =P henry joined us after tt.. n then ian. went to esplanade cuz some of them wanted to eat dinner.. i decided to order oyster omelette n egg.. =D~~~~ yummy!~ went back home the same way as sat.

this morning wednesday gotta reach work earlier cuz got deadline to meet for a project.. after tt went for DG. supposedly la, but ended up helping out for an event this friday.. went back at 8pm.. asked my dad to send me home n have dinner hoho.. i think i spent more than half an hour typing this!

:: thinking ::

hmm.. haha today went home to take my hp after work cuz i forgot to bring... then asked my dad to give me a lift to indoor stadium for FOP.. but i saw the queue even tho it was close to 8pm already.. decided to go to eat with my dad instead. we had dinner at old airport road. ate wanton mee.. not v special leh.. hmm. standard drop liao haha..

went to orchard to meet nic, then wendy n michael joined us at taka.. looked at toys at taka square.. then went to the ngee ann city square to slack. took photos, stupid photos.. haha.. then chatted.. toked abt OD.. juz now i went to c my OD... i reminded myself of my feelings.. so easily depressed, so easily amused.. haha..

we also toked abit abt our past relationships.. come to think of it.. i onli have 1 serious one.. the other 2 were juz trying out.. stupidity. n i have been wondering also. n i came to a conclusion. if i got a chance to undo my relationships n start again, i will still choose to go after hao... he was the one who made me mature in my thinking abt relationships.. realli thank him a lot.. but nic always ask me how come i dun have bf now... n i always answer, becuz my expectations r high! realli wad. if u got read my long ago entry abt guys.. u will understand.. briefly describe tt entry: there r diff types of guys n i dun like most of them. maybe i like some for their looks. but full stop. beyond the looks, there's nothing tt makes me realli interested. i went after some guys in the past, but come to think of it, i dun think they're the best choice? i've been dreaming abt this guy, dreaming tt he's my bf.. but then.. in real life i dun realli wan to get involved. even IF he's interested i also dun wan. now's not the time for commitment. haha..

these few days when i take bus or mrt i see mothers and children.. it makes me wonder is it true that all mothers love their children.. r they realli happy, proud to see their children grow up? do they find their children cute? cuz my mom used to always tell me i'm a nuisance.. she nv tells me i'm cute. she seldom buy toys for me cuz she finds it a waste of money.. i used to feel tt she nv loved me.. but now as i grow up, we're becoming more like friends like mother-daughter.. i'm still trying to accept tt she loves me.. when i think of this i feel like crying.. i used to think tt she's juz my money-provider, report-and-consent-form-signer.. i also thot of one time during pri sch she always wake up b4 me, to wake me up for sch.. one day i actually looked at her as she wait for me to leave home for sch. she was asleep on the sofa.. she was tired.. i saw how tired she looked.. suddenly i juz felt fear... scared... i dun understand y.. but when i saw how haggard she looked i felt bad... i think tt was the time i started to treat her better.

abt my dad.. i feel tt my way of spending time with him is having dinner and getting rides on his motorbike. i dunno whether he feels tt itz considered spending time together like tt.. we dun have heart to heart talks. the most i ask is abt road directions.. haha.. he's realli expert on the roads man.. the AYE PIE CTE n the streets r like his friends man. he's better than a taxi driver! haha.. he told me some places he worked b4.. he used to be a lift engineer, a cook in the army.. he used to be my mom's neighbour.. cool man, tt means his whole family knew her whole family lor..

my sis smsed me tt she missed me. (she was drunk) haha.. i showed the msg to esther n she thinks my sis muz be drunk too.. haha.. i kinda envy her cuz she's living on her own in phuket now.. i guess my parents have been teaching us to be independent.. i feel excited when i imagine myself living on my own, independently.. but it wun happen.....yet la. i want to get married at the age of 24, but.. better dun think abt it then rush into marriage la.

hmm.. wad else.. hmm.. abt work.. felt happy today cuz 1. i went for work early. 2. my boss quite ok with my design. 3. i finished 2 projects today.. n count total the projects i did during IAP is 8! hoho.. 4. i learn new things everyday.

:: woohoo ::

long time no update.. well i muz mention SonicFest!~ it was a big event where the christian youths of whole of singapore gather and worship! it was realli ministering... i muz admit tt i treated the event as a concert, but when i reached there, i felt realli touched and i imagined it was the day of the Pentacost! haha

there were Planet Shakers and Sonic Flood... hmm.. i dun like the local band music... i juz dun like rock (thai rock is different!) but i felt touched by the first band tt performed on the first day.. uh.. i arrived late so maybe it wasn't the first band. the lead singer opened the time with a prayer, which i felt is realli important and sets the whole event right.. n i felt Planet Shakers n Sonic Flood r realli ministering thru the music. as i mentioned to my cell grp, my honest impression of the young christian nowadays is that they just go to church for fun.. but i could c that as they worship, i can sense God's presence n peace... it was, "wow"..

after the first nite, thur, shirley jieling kelvin dongwen nelson n i went to kopitiam for supper. then took NEL home. during lunch on friday i called my mom n asked her how is her working condition like.. tt evening i went to meet peiyun kwek bec n benson at west mall to celebrate kwek's bday.. then i rushed to Fort Canning for the SonicFest. missed Planet Shakers.. after tt went for supper at the same place, this time more Elohim pple joined us. i felt stupid to order dessert lor.. end up the last to finish my food n everyone had to leave to catch trains.. thank God i managed to catch a train home from Dhoby Ghaut.. but on the train i took out my hp n found a missed call n a msg. argh.. the singles' club going to Marina South to hang out n they asked me but i nv c the msg until i boarded the train lor.. but i was thinking, i already thanked God tt i can catch a train home, so y shld i change my mind abt going home? so i decided to take a good rest for the nite.

decided not to go for the third day of the SonicFest. i onli regret missing the arts section of the event. watched movie at home with my mom.. then went out for lunch.. walked around Punggol Plaza.. then went for cell grp. malcolm shared abt 'prejudice', from the 40Day fast booklet. after tt had worship prac... i was in charge of PRC for the week. n also.... OFFERTORY!! kept praying tt i wun be so nervous, that i wun keep thinking tt attention is on me, tt itz ok if i made mistake.. after prac we went for supper at The Prata Cafe somewhere near old SMU.. jon yap was sharing the story of how he met Joanne peh one day.. n Chris kept "paper-cutting" him.. haha.. found it v funny listening to them tho.. haha..

sunday... offertory!! hmm.. my mindset was actually to get it over n done with... v nervous becuz i felt tt i will make mistake.. n i realli did.. i forgot a line.. n i kept referrng to the lyrics becuz my mind became a blank.. suddenly i forgot to think abt pitch, beat, breath, posture etc... but i believe the song is offered to God that's all tt matters.. i was juz a bit too bothered by how pple will think. after tt i helped out at the PRC.. n we had worship prac for prayer nite. elaine wanted to come my house n i thot i could make it.. the prac lasted till 5pm.. so i rushed home.. my parents cooked bah kut teh for dinner :D~~~ hoho..

haha feels good to have 2 comps.. feels good to have a scanner.. to have internet access.. praise God for all these luxury.. elaine stayed until 11+pm..

monday i couldn't wake up on time for work.. felt bad.. beng yeow kinda warned me over msn. rough day at work... after work went to sports stadium for a jog with the singles' club.. (gee that's juz a collective noun for that bunch of frenz i hang out with) hehe.. did 6 rounds, slower than last week, even slower than my NAPFA. sigh~ then played badminton at the corridor cuz the court was closed for exams. played until we were chased away by the guards. went for a bath then had dinner at Newton. got my pay check so i gave them a treat.. woohoo i felt happy to be able to eat at newton circus cuz the last time i ate there was like last yr after clubbing with wanling n edwin at chinablack.

went to Newton mrt station n sat there for like abt an hour.. went home quite late.. bathed then slp. tue i couldn't wake up in time for work again.. argh.. called beng yeow. took taxi to sch.. again. sigh~ i hate wasting tt kinda money.. beng yeow asked me for a coffee break n talked abt work. abt punctuality.. gosh i'm not late v often during attachment ma.. then he talked abt after attachment, the possibility of getting fully employed by Coded Pixels. it was a great offer, but i felt v stressed also.. he means i m supposed to cope with work n sch at the same time! like tt cannot enjoy liao lor.. now i already felt tt i dun have enuf time for myself... but.. sigh.. after work i had to rush off but couldn't cuz i cannot "leave on the dot" argh. went to withdraw money to take taxi to church.. sigh~ for prayer meeting... hmm.. i admit tt i onli attend prayer meetings when i'm scheduled to sing or do projection, but i muz say tt everytime i go i have been ministered to. took clifton's car home.. went to slp immediately after bath n quiet time.

today was better.. i reached work on time.. yay! my boss commented tt my designs r alright.. (a good sign already) but beng yeow pointed out some problems. i realise tt his point of view is more accurate.. after work went to blk M to find hx they all.. celebrating yina's bday.. had dinner at KFC.. then went home around 9+pm.. hope tonite can slp early.. so i have finished blogging. tt's how much u've missed! =x haha jk jk