hmm... last friday went to changi village with my dad for dinner.. the FAMOUS nasi lemak. =P~~~ he dropped me home first cuz i got mooncakes from MARRIOTT~~~ hoho~~ left them at home then we went out.
monday nothing much...had dinner with the single's club.. haha... feels like a long time since i joined them for dinner..
tuesday busy busy ah... michael ask me to help him with flash... i stand there v long trying to figure out wad was wrong while weili juz came over n type some script n solved his prob. i feel a bit useless lor... waste time trying.. haiz. after work continued to help michael, then went for prayer meeting in church. was late.. but at least i caught a bit la. canon was asking us to pray for the families in potong pasir, and also for solutions for transport there.
wed supposed to lead bible study for campus crusade DG. but i nv prepare. no time lor.. last nite i thot i can prepare during lunch or juz b4 DG but then christine wans to meet at bishan instead. by the time i get there sure super late la. tried to rush the bible study cuz i promised my dear girl judy to act in her filming project. haha.. had a crazy time jumping for a "concert" but i totally dun like the music. acting ma. wad to do. haha.. had a lot of sandwiches. (sigh~) n got home quite late.
thur hmm nothing to comment leh... i think i asked my dad to send me home cuz my bus too packed. he brought me to compass point for dinner.
friday rushed to bishan salvation army straight after work.. caught the youthFest 2005. it was great.. they sang Open Up the Gates, One Way, Worthy To Be Praised, Highest etc.. then Pastor Ken Lee preached about You Are What You See. the 12 spies went up to Canaan and came back with the report that they saw giants, but Joshua n Caleb went to see for themselves. they saw the Philistines were just like grasshoppers. likewise, there was this reverend bonkey (funny, but i think tt's his name) went to africa for mission trip. when asked whether he sees south africa as a nation that is full of witchcraft and demonic forces, he replied, "no, i see a bloodwashed nation." WOW. then another illustration. a company that sells shoes sent two staff to a city to find out if the market is good for the sales. one came back and said "our shoes sure wouldn't sell. everyone in that city wears sandals!" the other came back and reported, "WE HAVE A MARKET! everyone in that city wears sandals!" well.. that's a lesson about diff perspectives.
after the concert i decided to ask my dad out to pasir ris to catch crabs.. hehe.. but he decided not to. becuz he's going fishing over the weekend n he has to wake up early. well.. tt's one thing i have a weakness in. i try to pack my day to the fullest cuz i believe that there's not always a tomorrow. i dun care tmr gotta wake up early or not... but sometimes if pple ask me out n i lazy to go then i will not stick to my belief haha. =x so in the end we nv go. went home.
that night i dreamt that i was using flash and adjusting the frame all that.. stress. next morning i woke up around 7.50am... i thot i need to go to work. then i think for a while. it's a saturday right? then i went back to slp haha.. around 8+ then i woke up again. went out to serangoon the sports stadium.. walked one whole round outside it to find 66 boundary road. supposed to go there for music workshop. i found the place finally, but i was drenched in perspiration man. it's a terrace house. knocked on the door. i hear no one practising music leh.. no shoes outside the door also. no one came to the door. i went to the back of the house. i dunno which door to knock at. so i went back to the front. back and forth around 3 times then finally someone opened the door at the front. an indonesian lady was apologetic cuz she didn't hear me knock the door. i asked, "is there a music workshop here?" she asked me to come in then she called up the church at salvation army who told me today got music workshop. dunno y i kena pangseh... but she said tt we can meet is totally not by chance. she began to talk to me about worship.. she brought out her amplified bible and shared verses with me. i felt glad to have met her. she went to tanjung balai before and is a pastor at a church in jakarta. went home after that to bring my bible cuz i forgot tt i left it on my bed. shun bian cooked noodles for lunch and bring out extra money haha... went for cell grp, reach at 3pm haha..
cell grp word abt exodus.. jac makes us think a lot. haha.. led prayer for psalmist preparation. used my experience with the indonesian lady to share with them. after practise paul sent me home. sunday woke up at 7am.. took a lot of time trying to figure what to wear, what i can or cannot wear. paul sent me to church too. had worship conference prac after service. then esther dropped me at pasir ris park where i met my parents and brought them to fisherman village and check out the crabbing thing. cool..
i cut my week update till realli short cuz i'm sian and tired right now. kinda having moodswings...
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Wednesday, August 31, 2005
:: wow!! ::
sooooo long no update~! hmm.. can't rem wad happened on 19th aug.. so i'll start from 20th. supposed to wake up around 9 to go bukit batok to meet john at 10.45... but i juz wan to slp until i song so late lor.. went to his hse to learn bass guitar from him. well i learnt a lot.. haha.. i nv pay lesson fees one.. hahaha.. around 2pm then class dismissed. by the time i got to bukit batok central it was v late liao.. so i decided to take cab. cuz there's a seminar on relationship n i'm singing for the worship. i wore shirt n jeans... quite formal for a saturday... =x hmm i dun realli think i learnt much becuz the things chris discussed is quite basically wad we all noe already... he shared abt his personal experience too.. after the seminar el shaddai went to the library to talk abt the topic. then we went to tiong bahru for dinner..
supposed to meet shaun wendy n ting at dhoby ghaut mrt at 8.45pm to go zouk together, cuz my kor is spinning for 1 hr at zouk!! wow!! so proud of him! but then actually i dun like zouk.. altho a lot of pple go, n itz very well known, n i actually bought the zouk book 2 yrs ago.. ya anyway i dun like cuz itz very strict, muz check IC (i mean tt's ok i guess) but THEY CONFISCATED MY WATER BOTTLE!!!! cuz they dun allow outside drinks... !@#%#$^&*!!!!! they told me to collect it b4 i leave la. but.. argh!! saw a lot of old friends haha.. my RV friends, maybe they're here to support kor also.. but then they got come b4.. hmm.. itz quite scary man, like going to a club n recognising almost 30% of the pple.. to name some, shuping, sheena, jenna, weizhen, jueru, amanda, elaine, yong teng, siong chew, rach's ex, clara.. i think i'm getting old. soon zouk will be full of pple in my generation. we're gonna rule the future!! haha felt quite bored to juz stand n listen to the songs so decided to get drinks. buy 1 get 1 free ma, so shaun bought a jug of long island tea to share with wendy while me n ting shared the other jug. got quite high.. =x my first time clubbing in 2005. haha.. after around 2am i think, we went to a coffeeshop nearby to rest. took cab with this guy i'm not realli familiar with, but i met him b4 in JI. reached home around 4+am.
actually tt weekend supposed to go tanjung balai.. but i decided to support kor at zouk instead.. hmm =x his first time ma.. then had camp comm meeting on sunday after service.. after tt went home to slp then go downtown east for dinner with my parents. ate a lot.. stomach felt v bloated.. monday borrowed bass guitar from john. supposed to go buy presents for a few pple's birthdays.. but after work went for dinner with singles club at mac then went to find lynn to make banner for campus crusade event. i dunno y i always cannot think of creative ideas for campus crusade stuff. thank God for ian who joined us n gave us the idea for making cubes (interaction design heh). well, we're from DIGITAL MEDIA DESIGN wad. so the things we're good at is designing on computer.... ask me to paint banner? cannot make it.. went home to design the cube n onli went to slp around 2-3am. a little late for work. sian took taxi. tues also take taxi. wanted to rush to junction 8 to get present cuz i monday nv buy.. but no time. rushed to tj pagar to meet jac they all. giving kelvin a birthday surprise ma.. haha.. had a great time at alan's restaurant.. altho vietnamese food is a lot of veggie, i like a few dishes. kept taking photos.. haha.. went home by mrt.
wed oh judy's birthday haha.. quite rush cuz i stay back after work again. went to heeren.. took my time cuz i scared i will bump into her b4 the time i'm supposed to come.. haha.. been planning for this birthday surprise for sometime already hahaha.. been busy getting pple to shared in her present n to sign her birthday card during my lunchtime.. so tt week quite jialat. went to action city to get a toy for her cuz she likes toys ma.. then asked carl to give her, pretending tt itz the only birthday present tt he's giving her haha.. when i arrived at marche i presented an ipod mini to her haha.. n she was v happy.. hoho.. had a great dinner.. but decided not to eat too much. wanted to go punggol beach cuz her bf driving ma.. but when we reached we decided not to go cuz there's coast guards n i dun realli noe if the beach is open or not. went home.
thur i went suntec city with my office pple to attend the Macromedia studio 8 launch. had roti prata for breakfast.. haha.. the new macromedia flash, dreamweaver flashpaper very powerful!! v excited to try it when it comes in to the office next month. i feel happy working.. =x had lunch at suntec city FOODCOURT. -.- haha a bit bad la but i expected my boss to treat lunch =x.. went to carfourre to buy groceries like biscuits for the office. then after work went to ronald's mom's wake at his place with hx. felt sad n worried for him but i didn't cry la. fri i can't rem wad i did also. onli rem after work i asked my parents to go chinatown. had dinner at mei shi street haha.. ate a lot.. teochew dumpling noodles, satay, riceballs, oyster omelette, hmm think tt's all. v full sia.
sat john not free so no bass lesson this time. stayed at home to design logo for the next Destiny workshop topic. went for cell grp n this time i cld not join them for dinner. had cup noodles. went home after worship prac to watch The Bone Collector.. a bit scary, but good movie. wanted to go church early for prayer meeting with MCG, but they dun have prayer meeting. n they're meeting at 8.15 to re-hang flags. decided to take mrt. but i was late.. around 8.10am i decided to alight from kovan mrt to take taxi. sigh~ reached at 8.30am. there was psalmist resource corner n i bought a t-shirt. hmm pink again hoho!~
stayed back for worship conference briefing. then helped pack up the resource corner n went to far east crest with kelvin n jieling to return the consignment books n stuff. had lunch at one of the shops. kelvin had to return the car so he drove us to his block. then we went to queensway cuz JL buying shoes. i also need to buy shoes, but itz not the right time yet. i dun have running shoes at the moment cuz my adidas has opened itz mouth n my nike soles dropped. =x! my sandals broke n i've been wearing the pair of diesel shoes i bought in phuket. but on sunday i bought slippers. bought a pair of nike dumbells.. haha... toned arms, here i come!~ hehehe.. took bus 61 to ben's place to play bball... was quite reluctant cuz i'm not a sports kinda person.... i onli started to like running recently. but my cell grp is realli enthu abt sports sia! hmm.. quite fun la, juz tt i felt like an idiot. lazy to run for the ball n dunno how to aim. lousy.
went home for bah kut teh, not v nice. not salty enuf hehe.. since then i dun have appetite for food. juz dun feel hungry even tho itz time for meals... maybe itz stress? maybe itz cuz i prayed for God to deprive me of food? i feel like visiting Smoky Mountain one day... fasting on my trip juz to provide food for the pple. well... will tt day come? hope so!
well lately quite stress in work. monday went home after work to slp. woke up to do work.... until 3am like tt.. practised bass.. tried to slp at 3am but onli managed to fall asleep around 5.30? sigh~ finally got to slp when itz time to wake up. !!! lousy.
tue went for dinner with singles' club, after quite a long time.. went to thomson to eat zhu chao... but not nice one.. =( saved money during lunch n ate bread n drink milo, end up spending money on this... but ok la... edible. today got dg so didn't join singles' club for dinner. heard tt they went bowling. haha i kinda dun like to spend money on this kinda activities anymore. dg until 9+pm lor. first time so late. discussed abt the bible. learnt quite a lot.. with christine leading she makes us think of questions i've nv thot b4.. if i lead we probably end up juz sharing abt our lives. not a bad thing la, but we dun learn as much.
been reading Proverbs.. haix i kinda stopped at Psalms 55. 1/3 of the whole book sia. sms-ed a verse to my sis but she nv reply leh. got receive or not?
Proverbs 3: 24-26
24 when you lie down, you will not be afraid;
when you lie down, your sleep will be sweet.
25 Have no fear of sudden disaster
or of the ruin that overtakes the wicked,
26 for the LORD will be your confidence
and will keep your foot from being snared.
i've been listening to Planet Shakers Phenomena album. the only album i did not bring to thailand n the only album i did not lose. i think someone will kill me for losing her cds. but if u wan i buy back lor.
supposed to meet shaun wendy n ting at dhoby ghaut mrt at 8.45pm to go zouk together, cuz my kor is spinning for 1 hr at zouk!! wow!! so proud of him! but then actually i dun like zouk.. altho a lot of pple go, n itz very well known, n i actually bought the zouk book 2 yrs ago.. ya anyway i dun like cuz itz very strict, muz check IC (i mean tt's ok i guess) but THEY CONFISCATED MY WATER BOTTLE!!!! cuz they dun allow outside drinks... !@#%#$^&*!!!!! they told me to collect it b4 i leave la. but.. argh!! saw a lot of old friends haha.. my RV friends, maybe they're here to support kor also.. but then they got come b4.. hmm.. itz quite scary man, like going to a club n recognising almost 30% of the pple.. to name some, shuping, sheena, jenna, weizhen, jueru, amanda, elaine, yong teng, siong chew, rach's ex, clara.. i think i'm getting old. soon zouk will be full of pple in my generation. we're gonna rule the future!! haha felt quite bored to juz stand n listen to the songs so decided to get drinks. buy 1 get 1 free ma, so shaun bought a jug of long island tea to share with wendy while me n ting shared the other jug. got quite high.. =x my first time clubbing in 2005. haha.. after around 2am i think, we went to a coffeeshop nearby to rest. took cab with this guy i'm not realli familiar with, but i met him b4 in JI. reached home around 4+am.
actually tt weekend supposed to go tanjung balai.. but i decided to support kor at zouk instead.. hmm =x his first time ma.. then had camp comm meeting on sunday after service.. after tt went home to slp then go downtown east for dinner with my parents. ate a lot.. stomach felt v bloated.. monday borrowed bass guitar from john. supposed to go buy presents for a few pple's birthdays.. but after work went for dinner with singles club at mac then went to find lynn to make banner for campus crusade event. i dunno y i always cannot think of creative ideas for campus crusade stuff. thank God for ian who joined us n gave us the idea for making cubes (interaction design heh). well, we're from DIGITAL MEDIA DESIGN wad. so the things we're good at is designing on computer.... ask me to paint banner? cannot make it.. went home to design the cube n onli went to slp around 2-3am. a little late for work. sian took taxi. tues also take taxi. wanted to rush to junction 8 to get present cuz i monday nv buy.. but no time. rushed to tj pagar to meet jac they all. giving kelvin a birthday surprise ma.. haha.. had a great time at alan's restaurant.. altho vietnamese food is a lot of veggie, i like a few dishes. kept taking photos.. haha.. went home by mrt.
wed oh judy's birthday haha.. quite rush cuz i stay back after work again. went to heeren.. took my time cuz i scared i will bump into her b4 the time i'm supposed to come.. haha.. been planning for this birthday surprise for sometime already hahaha.. been busy getting pple to shared in her present n to sign her birthday card during my lunchtime.. so tt week quite jialat. went to action city to get a toy for her cuz she likes toys ma.. then asked carl to give her, pretending tt itz the only birthday present tt he's giving her haha.. when i arrived at marche i presented an ipod mini to her haha.. n she was v happy.. hoho.. had a great dinner.. but decided not to eat too much. wanted to go punggol beach cuz her bf driving ma.. but when we reached we decided not to go cuz there's coast guards n i dun realli noe if the beach is open or not. went home.
thur i went suntec city with my office pple to attend the Macromedia studio 8 launch. had roti prata for breakfast.. haha.. the new macromedia flash, dreamweaver flashpaper very powerful!! v excited to try it when it comes in to the office next month. i feel happy working.. =x had lunch at suntec city FOODCOURT. -.- haha a bit bad la but i expected my boss to treat lunch =x.. went to carfourre to buy groceries like biscuits for the office. then after work went to ronald's mom's wake at his place with hx. felt sad n worried for him but i didn't cry la. fri i can't rem wad i did also. onli rem after work i asked my parents to go chinatown. had dinner at mei shi street haha.. ate a lot.. teochew dumpling noodles, satay, riceballs, oyster omelette, hmm think tt's all. v full sia.
sat john not free so no bass lesson this time. stayed at home to design logo for the next Destiny workshop topic. went for cell grp n this time i cld not join them for dinner. had cup noodles. went home after worship prac to watch The Bone Collector.. a bit scary, but good movie. wanted to go church early for prayer meeting with MCG, but they dun have prayer meeting. n they're meeting at 8.15 to re-hang flags. decided to take mrt. but i was late.. around 8.10am i decided to alight from kovan mrt to take taxi. sigh~ reached at 8.30am. there was psalmist resource corner n i bought a t-shirt. hmm pink again hoho!~
stayed back for worship conference briefing. then helped pack up the resource corner n went to far east crest with kelvin n jieling to return the consignment books n stuff. had lunch at one of the shops. kelvin had to return the car so he drove us to his block. then we went to queensway cuz JL buying shoes. i also need to buy shoes, but itz not the right time yet. i dun have running shoes at the moment cuz my adidas has opened itz mouth n my nike soles dropped. =x! my sandals broke n i've been wearing the pair of diesel shoes i bought in phuket. but on sunday i bought slippers. bought a pair of nike dumbells.. haha... toned arms, here i come!~ hehehe.. took bus 61 to ben's place to play bball... was quite reluctant cuz i'm not a sports kinda person.... i onli started to like running recently. but my cell grp is realli enthu abt sports sia! hmm.. quite fun la, juz tt i felt like an idiot. lazy to run for the ball n dunno how to aim. lousy.
went home for bah kut teh, not v nice. not salty enuf hehe.. since then i dun have appetite for food. juz dun feel hungry even tho itz time for meals... maybe itz stress? maybe itz cuz i prayed for God to deprive me of food? i feel like visiting Smoky Mountain one day... fasting on my trip juz to provide food for the pple. well... will tt day come? hope so!
well lately quite stress in work. monday went home after work to slp. woke up to do work.... until 3am like tt.. practised bass.. tried to slp at 3am but onli managed to fall asleep around 5.30? sigh~ finally got to slp when itz time to wake up. !!! lousy.
tue went for dinner with singles' club, after quite a long time.. went to thomson to eat zhu chao... but not nice one.. =( saved money during lunch n ate bread n drink milo, end up spending money on this... but ok la... edible. today got dg so didn't join singles' club for dinner. heard tt they went bowling. haha i kinda dun like to spend money on this kinda activities anymore. dg until 9+pm lor. first time so late. discussed abt the bible. learnt quite a lot.. with christine leading she makes us think of questions i've nv thot b4.. if i lead we probably end up juz sharing abt our lives. not a bad thing la, but we dun learn as much.
been reading Proverbs.. haix i kinda stopped at Psalms 55. 1/3 of the whole book sia. sms-ed a verse to my sis but she nv reply leh. got receive or not?
Proverbs 3: 24-26
24 when you lie down, you will not be afraid;
when you lie down, your sleep will be sweet.
25 Have no fear of sudden disaster
or of the ruin that overtakes the wicked,
26 for the LORD will be your confidence
and will keep your foot from being snared.
i've been listening to Planet Shakers Phenomena album. the only album i did not bring to thailand n the only album i did not lose. i think someone will kill me for losing her cds. but if u wan i buy back lor.
Thursday, August 18, 2005
:: impact ::
i'm very impacted by the video screened on sunday during service... i feel v burdened for the poor in asia... i feel tt i wan to work, n give the money to organisations that can help, or go into the mission field myself.. i feel for thailand.. juz went to check out this website www.carecornerorphanage.com, checked out ywam.org.sg too... very interested in the Bible Course, but itz $3900 lor.. hmm..
anyway during campus crusade DG (discipleship group) time i didn't plan anything... juz went by faith haha.. ended up talking about marriage, relationships with my DG members.. i learn tt we shld not ask a couple when r they getting married or things like tt.. it might push things with a timing tt God had not intended. itz not good la.. in the same way it is not good to put thots into pple like "when r u getting attached" or try to matchmake them lor.. i also learn tt if u have certain expectations of ur other half, u ought to make sure tt u have those qualities too! like tt then can complement each other ma.. itz not fair to expect something out of someone else when u urself dun have. for example, qualities like patience, good temper etc.. i think itz also time for me to draw up a list of expectations, that i wan to work towards, n also tt i wan to find in my other half hoho~ another thing i learn is, according to my DG members who read this book "When boy meets girl", the person who may be able to help u grow spiritually may not necessarily end up be the one to be in a relationship with u. tt means the process of drawing each other closer to God shld not stop even if the couple breaks up.
feel tt my body is very tensed up.. the only time i relax my body is when i slp... cuz other than that i'm still trying to culture my body to the correct posture n i tend to tense up my muscles the whole day.. i still can't stand properly, i can't sit properly, i tend to pout in order to close my mouth -.-" or frown cuz my fringe is covering my eyes. zzzz...
other than tt... abt work.. hmm i v long nv update the IAP portal thing.. kinda heck care liao.. cuz at work my boss sit behind me sure can c wad i type, so i dun like to do personal things during work. tt means i'm constantly on my toes lor.. minimal personal time. ooh i look forward to sat... but i prefer working there, cuz the software is ALWAYS the most updated ones.. like even macromedia studio softwares (Flash, if u all dunno is a macromedia product)? my bosses r upgrading to studio 8 (version 8)!! wad's more exciting, they're bringing me n all the staff to the launch of the studio 8! i think itz not free admission wor.
somemore my bosses got Marriott hotel mooncakes for us today.. got the praline with whisky thingy... wow, shiok!~ hmm.. pple will go "wad?!" if they noe tt i dun eat the inside of a mooncake. i usually peel n eat the snowskin onli. haha.. well.. chinese. haiz. chinese love unhealthy, environment-unfriendly food. the lotus paste super sweet n the double yolks.. so high in cholestrol! n shark fins during wedding dinners? haiz. terrible.
hmm.. did i mention tt i feel like learning bass guitar? i guess itz cuz of the thai rock songs i listen to recently.. =x hey i can picture myself playing bass for service lor.. now everytime i listen to songs i listen out for the bass.. now listening to Jars Of Clay Furthermore album, the live concert cd.. woo~! shiok!
oh yah last time long ago i mentioned tt i need to pray for forgiveness towards this girl i can't stand for everything tt comes out her mouth?? i realli wan to thank God tt either God changed her, or widened my narrowness in my mindset. i believe itz the former.. she's much bearable now.. =x dun attempt to guess who i'm referring to k.
anyway during campus crusade DG (discipleship group) time i didn't plan anything... juz went by faith haha.. ended up talking about marriage, relationships with my DG members.. i learn tt we shld not ask a couple when r they getting married or things like tt.. it might push things with a timing tt God had not intended. itz not good la.. in the same way it is not good to put thots into pple like "when r u getting attached" or try to matchmake them lor.. i also learn tt if u have certain expectations of ur other half, u ought to make sure tt u have those qualities too! like tt then can complement each other ma.. itz not fair to expect something out of someone else when u urself dun have. for example, qualities like patience, good temper etc.. i think itz also time for me to draw up a list of expectations, that i wan to work towards, n also tt i wan to find in my other half hoho~ another thing i learn is, according to my DG members who read this book "When boy meets girl", the person who may be able to help u grow spiritually may not necessarily end up be the one to be in a relationship with u. tt means the process of drawing each other closer to God shld not stop even if the couple breaks up.
feel tt my body is very tensed up.. the only time i relax my body is when i slp... cuz other than that i'm still trying to culture my body to the correct posture n i tend to tense up my muscles the whole day.. i still can't stand properly, i can't sit properly, i tend to pout in order to close my mouth -.-" or frown cuz my fringe is covering my eyes. zzzz...
other than tt... abt work.. hmm i v long nv update the IAP portal thing.. kinda heck care liao.. cuz at work my boss sit behind me sure can c wad i type, so i dun like to do personal things during work. tt means i'm constantly on my toes lor.. minimal personal time. ooh i look forward to sat... but i prefer working there, cuz the software is ALWAYS the most updated ones.. like even macromedia studio softwares (Flash, if u all dunno is a macromedia product)? my bosses r upgrading to studio 8 (version 8)!! wad's more exciting, they're bringing me n all the staff to the launch of the studio 8! i think itz not free admission wor.
somemore my bosses got Marriott hotel mooncakes for us today.. got the praline with whisky thingy... wow, shiok!~ hmm.. pple will go "wad?!" if they noe tt i dun eat the inside of a mooncake. i usually peel n eat the snowskin onli. haha.. well.. chinese. haiz. chinese love unhealthy, environment-unfriendly food. the lotus paste super sweet n the double yolks.. so high in cholestrol! n shark fins during wedding dinners? haiz. terrible.
hmm.. did i mention tt i feel like learning bass guitar? i guess itz cuz of the thai rock songs i listen to recently.. =x hey i can picture myself playing bass for service lor.. now everytime i listen to songs i listen out for the bass.. now listening to Jars Of Clay Furthermore album, the live concert cd.. woo~! shiok!
oh yah last time long ago i mentioned tt i need to pray for forgiveness towards this girl i can't stand for everything tt comes out her mouth?? i realli wan to thank God tt either God changed her, or widened my narrowness in my mindset. i believe itz the former.. she's much bearable now.. =x dun attempt to guess who i'm referring to k.
Monday, August 15, 2005
:: haiz ::
today my bosses treat us to lunch at pizza hut today... ate a lot of cheese... yummy~~~ they realise i'm a big eater... hoho...
my dad suggest i go on diet.
haiz... i gained 10kg since yr 1. can u believe it?~!!?!?!
i realli need to cut down on my food...
i noe God doesn't look at my appearance, n if it's not His will for me to lose weight i shld nt pray abt it.. but.. itz on my mind la...
my dad suggest i go on diet.
haiz... i gained 10kg since yr 1. can u believe it?~!!?!?!
i realli need to cut down on my food...
i noe God doesn't look at my appearance, n if it's not His will for me to lose weight i shld nt pray abt it.. but.. itz on my mind la...
Sunday, August 14, 2005
:: homesweethome ::
thur i went to work early cuz it feels weird to go early on wed n back to normal again on thurs haha.. boss was quite surprised.. but i got nothing to do so juz surf net lor. he bought us a mug each, to make milo or tea during work, so i can throw my styrofoam cup away already. the other boss brought gifts from PlanetMG, a hp accessory..i dunno wad colour to take so i juz took yellow.. CiBoys~! =D
today long day at work.. cuz i cld not leave until around 6.45 i think..got one client la, wants a lot of change.. i'm a bit suspicious abt whether they use the previous designs but pretend they dun accept the design so they dun need to pay for them!~ haha juz joking..
went to buy bean bag.. hoho.. lup one big bean bag around... not me, michael n henry were the ones lup-ing it around.. n not for me, but for this birthday girl called wendy aka soot~! we took taxi to marina south for steamboat.. din feel like eating.. judy called to say she's coming..woohoo~!
walked with bryandt to find her.. hoho.. she wants to eat so i also ate...but indonesian fried rice. in the end i was so tempted by clams n other shellfish i decided to join in hoho.. unpaid tho. :P ate all the way until 11pm.. :P the rest stopped eating n went to play the table soccer i still eating with hx.. haha.. took taxi with her n wendy till marina bay mrt station.. i scared miss last train home ma..
next morning late for work.. =x 20 min like tt.. cuz i stupid la, purposely dun wan to stop at the bus stop, n went into the interchange then change bus.. haix.. anyway i'm working on a new project.. a bit tough.. something i nv done b4.. after work went to TFA for Pencil n Pixels... didn't expect to go, but since christine was still busy i went to c lor.. asked christine to join me too.. hmm.. still got past yr's work.. went for dinner with her at amk s11.. talked to her abt a lot of things.. actually i wan to encourage the christians to join campus crusade for christ.. itz like a way to serve God, not juz limiting the service to sundays onli lor.. she encouraged me to consider giving a few months to a yr after my graduation to serve God. it can be joining the web team in campus crusade, it can be going out to the mission field.. i have other options too.. like studying theology.. my reason being i wan to learn more abt the bible. but she pointed out tt i dun need to go for the course in order to study the bible deeper.. hmm~ i also consider continuing to work at my attachment company, go for a holiday, or find other job... so many options! dunno which to go, so i realli muz start praying for my destiny..
honestly i'm not interested to go for the workshop.. hmm.. maybe cuz itz the price.. =x
sat i woke up at 11am haha.. bathed then went to marine parade to cut my hair.. felt a bit toot... but then the hairstylist looks v professional n can tell from my hair that i v long nv cut, n i coloured my hair by myself. uh.. maybe anyone can tell tt la.. but i think she's nice too... she asked me for my name... n at the end of the cutting she called me by my name n said goodbye. she was recommending products as she applied them on my hair. well sis, wad u can do to sell the club membership is to start promoting once u start talking to the customers la.. rather than establish a friendship first, or else it will be difficult to promote ur stuff liao.. like, "hi are u enjoying ur time in the club so far? r u interested to consider buying a memberhip....? blah blah blah"
wanted to go simlim buy external hard disk since last sunday.. but no chance sia.. after cutting hair it was 2.20 like tt.. time to rush to cell grp in church... hmm.. after cell grp my dad sms-ed me tt he's at "clark key"... so cute.. went to find my parents at Liang Court... i always like going for meals with them cuz itz them who pay :P so i feel v free to order anything i wan.. :P with friends i have to c whether i can afford or not.. cuz if cannot then feel pai seh... tt kinda thing...
walked around clarke quay.. felt like chilling out.. but.. hmm.. bad habit. cannot adopt.
today actually can wake up early, but i went back to slp.... so i was late for service.. the sermon was good, there's this guest speaker from Church of Our Saviour.. talked abt our destiny, "don't waste ur life" ... hmm.. consistent message.. then kelvin chose a song for offertory "who am i" consistent with message shared by jac during cell grp yday.. hmm.. good~! God is good!
after church joined cell grp for lunch at AV.. then chatted until 2+.. went to sim lim sq to buy external hard disk, finally~! walked around n bought other small stuff like memory card reader etc.. went home... house empty.. my parents went to watch fireworks at marina.. sobsob..without me... but nvm la..i keep going out everyday....until i miss home. hmm so stay home lor.. my comp also seldom used cuz i at work everyday... so use this chance to use lor hahaha..
today long day at work.. cuz i cld not leave until around 6.45 i think..got one client la, wants a lot of change.. i'm a bit suspicious abt whether they use the previous designs but pretend they dun accept the design so they dun need to pay for them!~ haha juz joking..
went to buy bean bag.. hoho.. lup one big bean bag around... not me, michael n henry were the ones lup-ing it around.. n not for me, but for this birthday girl called wendy aka soot~! we took taxi to marina south for steamboat.. din feel like eating.. judy called to say she's coming..woohoo~!
walked with bryandt to find her.. hoho.. she wants to eat so i also ate...but indonesian fried rice. in the end i was so tempted by clams n other shellfish i decided to join in hoho.. unpaid tho. :P ate all the way until 11pm.. :P the rest stopped eating n went to play the table soccer i still eating with hx.. haha.. took taxi with her n wendy till marina bay mrt station.. i scared miss last train home ma..
next morning late for work.. =x 20 min like tt.. cuz i stupid la, purposely dun wan to stop at the bus stop, n went into the interchange then change bus.. haix.. anyway i'm working on a new project.. a bit tough.. something i nv done b4.. after work went to TFA for Pencil n Pixels... didn't expect to go, but since christine was still busy i went to c lor.. asked christine to join me too.. hmm.. still got past yr's work.. went for dinner with her at amk s11.. talked to her abt a lot of things.. actually i wan to encourage the christians to join campus crusade for christ.. itz like a way to serve God, not juz limiting the service to sundays onli lor.. she encouraged me to consider giving a few months to a yr after my graduation to serve God. it can be joining the web team in campus crusade, it can be going out to the mission field.. i have other options too.. like studying theology.. my reason being i wan to learn more abt the bible. but she pointed out tt i dun need to go for the course in order to study the bible deeper.. hmm~ i also consider continuing to work at my attachment company, go for a holiday, or find other job... so many options! dunno which to go, so i realli muz start praying for my destiny..
honestly i'm not interested to go for the workshop.. hmm.. maybe cuz itz the price.. =x
sat i woke up at 11am haha.. bathed then went to marine parade to cut my hair.. felt a bit toot... but then the hairstylist looks v professional n can tell from my hair that i v long nv cut, n i coloured my hair by myself. uh.. maybe anyone can tell tt la.. but i think she's nice too... she asked me for my name... n at the end of the cutting she called me by my name n said goodbye. she was recommending products as she applied them on my hair. well sis, wad u can do to sell the club membership is to start promoting once u start talking to the customers la.. rather than establish a friendship first, or else it will be difficult to promote ur stuff liao.. like, "hi are u enjoying ur time in the club so far? r u interested to consider buying a memberhip....? blah blah blah"
wanted to go simlim buy external hard disk since last sunday.. but no chance sia.. after cutting hair it was 2.20 like tt.. time to rush to cell grp in church... hmm.. after cell grp my dad sms-ed me tt he's at "clark key"... so cute.. went to find my parents at Liang Court... i always like going for meals with them cuz itz them who pay :P so i feel v free to order anything i wan.. :P with friends i have to c whether i can afford or not.. cuz if cannot then feel pai seh... tt kinda thing...
walked around clarke quay.. felt like chilling out.. but.. hmm.. bad habit. cannot adopt.
today actually can wake up early, but i went back to slp.... so i was late for service.. the sermon was good, there's this guest speaker from Church of Our Saviour.. talked abt our destiny, "don't waste ur life" ... hmm.. consistent message.. then kelvin chose a song for offertory "who am i" consistent with message shared by jac during cell grp yday.. hmm.. good~! God is good!
after church joined cell grp for lunch at AV.. then chatted until 2+.. went to sim lim sq to buy external hard disk, finally~! walked around n bought other small stuff like memory card reader etc.. went home... house empty.. my parents went to watch fireworks at marina.. sobsob..without me... but nvm la..i keep going out everyday....until i miss home. hmm so stay home lor.. my comp also seldom used cuz i at work everyday... so use this chance to use lor hahaha..
Wednesday, August 10, 2005
:: weeeee ::
sat.. v happening day.. woke up early to go Labrador Park for CROSS Training.. took bus 408 from harbourfront.. dunno where to alight.. so anyhow alight. tried to figure my way to the Pavilions by the sea. hmm.. on my way down the Aerial staircase i was changing my memory card in my camera. i already told myself to be careful, but i still DROPPED MY MEMORY CARD, not juz to the floor of the staircase, but into the tiny hole between the planks!! how nice! i couldn't do anything abt it since i was late already so i moved on.. found the Psalmists n joined in the "game" of serving breakfast.. it was my fault for being late n unable to receive instructions la.. so i was confused. then there was another "game" of building the tallest structure using twigs n wadever we can find within a boundary. i was distracted by the other grp's progress that i was careless with my own grp. paul pointed tt out n reminded us not to be distracted by other churches' ministries until we lose sight of God. then we had lunch (mac takeaway) n Case study n some sort of presentation of our opinions abt grey issues.
went for cell grp n felt anxious abt my lost memory card. i had approached a park ranger earlier n he told me to come back at 4pm, when he gets off duty n can help me find my memory card. i took bus n walked in.. it was quite a long walk so i decided to run. waited till 5 then he decided he cld leave his post for a while to help me. it was not easy man. the card is like trapped under the staircase lor, seems like no way to get it. but the ranger climbed from the bottom towards where i was n managed to get it. he asked me to write an email to explain y he left his post.. but of cuz i need (i want to, too) to commend him for his act of bravery n helpfulness too la.. jogged back to church.. v happy =D
fireworks~!! tt's my highlight of the week.. been rushing around places to watch fireworks! wanted to go for FOP on sat.. but was a bit reluctant when i thot of the queue. i tried rushing there tho, but quite pissed tt the queue was super long.. i sure cannot get in one.. so decided to give up. called my parents to ask where they r.. maybe we could have dinner together. wanted to watch fireworks so i asked them to come to esplanade. i thot i was early so i took quite some time to figure where i can take bus. finally took bus 16 from kallang indoor stadium. alighted at suntec and tried to figure my way to the esplanade. on my way i heard some thundering sound n i felt anxious... have i missed the fireworks?? where is it!! ran around trying to find out where the sound came from haha.. took photos n videos...
finally reached the esplanade but my parents haven reach yet. so i decided to queue for dinner at Thai Express. man.......it took 1 hour to reach our turn to get seats...... n 1 hour later for our food to be served! it was around 10pm already when our food started arriving -.- but food was Great!~ haha... took bus to clarke quay station then took mrt home.
next morning is sunday, got projection duty.. could have been on time, but waiting for bus n train is realli unpredictable.. =x chi shyan shared message abt Prayer.. after service i chop-chop help to pack up a bit then went to serene's hse to welcome her back from US.. so shiok sia, 3 months there... i also wan haha.. she v funny, first thing she entered her house was to explore her new house.. we were waiting quietly in her room to surprise her, but we sure waited v long haha while she "eeee!!" tt the toiletbowl so nice haha.. she was sure shocked to c us in her room! ate Golden Pillow n juz chatted.. i was wondering, i dun think my cell grp will give me such a surprise...
went off at 5.30pm to meet hx at dhoby ghaut.. wanted to buy external hard disk but i still didn't. she n ronald say itz too late by the time i reach sim lim ... =( so decided to go bugis for dinner instead. ate at Sakae Sushi.. i brought cash for the external hard disk but since i didn't buy, kinda felt like spending more money on food.. =P after tt went to walk around.. bought a coin for my dad at the singapore mint booth.. cuz the design is of Joo Chiat, the place i grew up in, the place my dad used to own a stall.. hmm.. memories...
had coffee at starbucks.. (regret) cuz i couldn't slp tt nite.. sian.. next morning, monday still had to work. been struggling at a project cuz the client was not satisfied. kept changing concept.. haix.. after work slowly took my time to go to church.. saw paul at outram mrt station.. went to church together.. i was early.. nothing to do after work ma.. my cell grp were going to holland v for dinner but i doubt i could reach there in time to join them. felt quite ignored... i used to be very bothered by tt.. but.. decided not to think abt it.
it was the All Nite Prayer.. woo.. somehow this yr i feel tt the time allocated to prayer is not enuf.. a lot of time was spent on worship.. i can't say whether itz a gd thing or bad thing.. juz tt i was expecting more prayer. thank God for those who prayed for me.. Jieling, Jac, Wee Lee, Suzanne, Shirley bong, Carol.. they all prayed for me for the same thing, abt my insecurity, for more confidence... i felt better after each prayer, but then i felt crushed again when i accidentally spilled water on the floor.. =( dunno many pple noticed or not, but i felt tt i couldn't do anything abt it.. but wait for chance to wipe it up. in my heart i was thinking, is other pple thinking how come i so clumsy one, spill water already still dun wipe up.. felt lousy all over again.. sucks... opportunities the devil use to strike.
felt v tired already, but was able to sustain thru the whole nite. woo! it's tuesday. my cell grp going to bukit timah for breakfast.. man i dun have the energy to join them... from there i realli have no transportation home.. felt quite sad.. but all i could think of is slp... dragged myself home, washed my face n slp!!! hoho.. slept until 1pm when i heard my dad come into the room.. i asked him if he saw the coin i bought for him n he said yes, n asked me how much i bought it for.. after tt i heard him leave the house.. i went back to slp until 4+pm.. bathed, then prepared to go out watch fireworks.. =)
went to marina sq to meet the singles' club.. hoho.. i almost could not get into the train sia.. a lot of pple.. found a good spot to sit down.. but around 7.56pm like tt i decided to stand up or else we could not get a good view of the fireworks.. took a lot of photos n videos =P henry joined us after tt.. n then ian. went to esplanade cuz some of them wanted to eat dinner.. i decided to order oyster omelette n egg.. =D~~~~ yummy!~ went back home the same way as sat.
this morning wednesday gotta reach work earlier cuz got deadline to meet for a project.. after tt went for DG. supposedly la, but ended up helping out for an event this friday.. went back at 8pm.. asked my dad to send me home n have dinner hoho.. i think i spent more than half an hour typing this!
went for cell grp n felt anxious abt my lost memory card. i had approached a park ranger earlier n he told me to come back at 4pm, when he gets off duty n can help me find my memory card. i took bus n walked in.. it was quite a long walk so i decided to run. waited till 5 then he decided he cld leave his post for a while to help me. it was not easy man. the card is like trapped under the staircase lor, seems like no way to get it. but the ranger climbed from the bottom towards where i was n managed to get it. he asked me to write an email to explain y he left his post.. but of cuz i need (i want to, too) to commend him for his act of bravery n helpfulness too la.. jogged back to church.. v happy =D
fireworks~!! tt's my highlight of the week.. been rushing around places to watch fireworks! wanted to go for FOP on sat.. but was a bit reluctant when i thot of the queue. i tried rushing there tho, but quite pissed tt the queue was super long.. i sure cannot get in one.. so decided to give up. called my parents to ask where they r.. maybe we could have dinner together. wanted to watch fireworks so i asked them to come to esplanade. i thot i was early so i took quite some time to figure where i can take bus. finally took bus 16 from kallang indoor stadium. alighted at suntec and tried to figure my way to the esplanade. on my way i heard some thundering sound n i felt anxious... have i missed the fireworks?? where is it!! ran around trying to find out where the sound came from haha.. took photos n videos...
finally reached the esplanade but my parents haven reach yet. so i decided to queue for dinner at Thai Express. man.......it took 1 hour to reach our turn to get seats...... n 1 hour later for our food to be served! it was around 10pm already when our food started arriving -.- but food was Great!~ haha... took bus to clarke quay station then took mrt home.
next morning is sunday, got projection duty.. could have been on time, but waiting for bus n train is realli unpredictable.. =x chi shyan shared message abt Prayer.. after service i chop-chop help to pack up a bit then went to serene's hse to welcome her back from US.. so shiok sia, 3 months there... i also wan haha.. she v funny, first thing she entered her house was to explore her new house.. we were waiting quietly in her room to surprise her, but we sure waited v long haha while she "eeee!!" tt the toiletbowl so nice haha.. she was sure shocked to c us in her room! ate Golden Pillow n juz chatted.. i was wondering, i dun think my cell grp will give me such a surprise...
went off at 5.30pm to meet hx at dhoby ghaut.. wanted to buy external hard disk but i still didn't. she n ronald say itz too late by the time i reach sim lim ... =( so decided to go bugis for dinner instead. ate at Sakae Sushi.. i brought cash for the external hard disk but since i didn't buy, kinda felt like spending more money on food.. =P after tt went to walk around.. bought a coin for my dad at the singapore mint booth.. cuz the design is of Joo Chiat, the place i grew up in, the place my dad used to own a stall.. hmm.. memories...
had coffee at starbucks.. (regret) cuz i couldn't slp tt nite.. sian.. next morning, monday still had to work. been struggling at a project cuz the client was not satisfied. kept changing concept.. haix.. after work slowly took my time to go to church.. saw paul at outram mrt station.. went to church together.. i was early.. nothing to do after work ma.. my cell grp were going to holland v for dinner but i doubt i could reach there in time to join them. felt quite ignored... i used to be very bothered by tt.. but.. decided not to think abt it.
it was the All Nite Prayer.. woo.. somehow this yr i feel tt the time allocated to prayer is not enuf.. a lot of time was spent on worship.. i can't say whether itz a gd thing or bad thing.. juz tt i was expecting more prayer. thank God for those who prayed for me.. Jieling, Jac, Wee Lee, Suzanne, Shirley bong, Carol.. they all prayed for me for the same thing, abt my insecurity, for more confidence... i felt better after each prayer, but then i felt crushed again when i accidentally spilled water on the floor.. =( dunno many pple noticed or not, but i felt tt i couldn't do anything abt it.. but wait for chance to wipe it up. in my heart i was thinking, is other pple thinking how come i so clumsy one, spill water already still dun wipe up.. felt lousy all over again.. sucks... opportunities the devil use to strike.
felt v tired already, but was able to sustain thru the whole nite. woo! it's tuesday. my cell grp going to bukit timah for breakfast.. man i dun have the energy to join them... from there i realli have no transportation home.. felt quite sad.. but all i could think of is slp... dragged myself home, washed my face n slp!!! hoho.. slept until 1pm when i heard my dad come into the room.. i asked him if he saw the coin i bought for him n he said yes, n asked me how much i bought it for.. after tt i heard him leave the house.. i went back to slp until 4+pm.. bathed, then prepared to go out watch fireworks.. =)
went to marina sq to meet the singles' club.. hoho.. i almost could not get into the train sia.. a lot of pple.. found a good spot to sit down.. but around 7.56pm like tt i decided to stand up or else we could not get a good view of the fireworks.. took a lot of photos n videos =P henry joined us after tt.. n then ian. went to esplanade cuz some of them wanted to eat dinner.. i decided to order oyster omelette n egg.. =D~~~~ yummy!~ went back home the same way as sat.
this morning wednesday gotta reach work earlier cuz got deadline to meet for a project.. after tt went for DG. supposedly la, but ended up helping out for an event this friday.. went back at 8pm.. asked my dad to send me home n have dinner hoho.. i think i spent more than half an hour typing this!
Saturday, August 06, 2005
:: thinking ::
hmm.. haha today went home to take my hp after work cuz i forgot to bring... then asked my dad to give me a lift to indoor stadium for FOP.. but i saw the queue even tho it was close to 8pm already.. decided to go to eat with my dad instead. we had dinner at old airport road. ate wanton mee.. not v special leh.. hmm. standard drop liao haha..
went to orchard to meet nic, then wendy n michael joined us at taka.. looked at toys at taka square.. then went to the ngee ann city square to slack. took photos, stupid photos.. haha.. then chatted.. toked abt OD.. juz now i went to c my OD... i reminded myself of my feelings.. so easily depressed, so easily amused.. haha..
we also toked abit abt our past relationships.. come to think of it.. i onli have 1 serious one.. the other 2 were juz trying out.. stupidity. n i have been wondering also. n i came to a conclusion. if i got a chance to undo my relationships n start again, i will still choose to go after hao... he was the one who made me mature in my thinking abt relationships.. realli thank him a lot.. but nic always ask me how come i dun have bf now... n i always answer, becuz my expectations r high! realli wad. if u got read my long ago entry abt guys.. u will understand.. briefly describe tt entry: there r diff types of guys n i dun like most of them. maybe i like some for their looks. but full stop. beyond the looks, there's nothing tt makes me realli interested. i went after some guys in the past, but come to think of it, i dun think they're the best choice? i've been dreaming abt this guy, dreaming tt he's my bf.. but then.. in real life i dun realli wan to get involved. even IF he's interested i also dun wan. now's not the time for commitment. haha..
these few days when i take bus or mrt i see mothers and children.. it makes me wonder is it true that all mothers love their children.. r they realli happy, proud to see their children grow up? do they find their children cute? cuz my mom used to always tell me i'm a nuisance.. she nv tells me i'm cute. she seldom buy toys for me cuz she finds it a waste of money.. i used to feel tt she nv loved me.. but now as i grow up, we're becoming more like friends like mother-daughter.. i'm still trying to accept tt she loves me.. when i think of this i feel like crying.. i used to think tt she's juz my money-provider, report-and-consent-form-signer.. i also thot of one time during pri sch she always wake up b4 me, to wake me up for sch.. one day i actually looked at her as she wait for me to leave home for sch. she was asleep on the sofa.. she was tired.. i saw how tired she looked.. suddenly i juz felt fear... scared... i dun understand y.. but when i saw how haggard she looked i felt bad... i think tt was the time i started to treat her better.
abt my dad.. i feel tt my way of spending time with him is having dinner and getting rides on his motorbike. i dunno whether he feels tt itz considered spending time together like tt.. we dun have heart to heart talks. the most i ask is abt road directions.. haha.. he's realli expert on the roads man.. the AYE PIE CTE n the streets r like his friends man. he's better than a taxi driver! haha.. he told me some places he worked b4.. he used to be a lift engineer, a cook in the army.. he used to be my mom's neighbour.. cool man, tt means his whole family knew her whole family lor..
my sis smsed me tt she missed me. (she was drunk) haha.. i showed the msg to esther n she thinks my sis muz be drunk too.. haha.. i kinda envy her cuz she's living on her own in phuket now.. i guess my parents have been teaching us to be independent.. i feel excited when i imagine myself living on my own, independently.. but it wun happen.....yet la. i want to get married at the age of 24, but.. better dun think abt it then rush into marriage la.
hmm.. wad else.. hmm.. abt work.. felt happy today cuz 1. i went for work early. 2. my boss quite ok with my design. 3. i finished 2 projects today.. n count total the projects i did during IAP is 8! hoho.. 4. i learn new things everyday.
went to orchard to meet nic, then wendy n michael joined us at taka.. looked at toys at taka square.. then went to the ngee ann city square to slack. took photos, stupid photos.. haha.. then chatted.. toked abt OD.. juz now i went to c my OD... i reminded myself of my feelings.. so easily depressed, so easily amused.. haha..
we also toked abit abt our past relationships.. come to think of it.. i onli have 1 serious one.. the other 2 were juz trying out.. stupidity. n i have been wondering also. n i came to a conclusion. if i got a chance to undo my relationships n start again, i will still choose to go after hao... he was the one who made me mature in my thinking abt relationships.. realli thank him a lot.. but nic always ask me how come i dun have bf now... n i always answer, becuz my expectations r high! realli wad. if u got read my long ago entry abt guys.. u will understand.. briefly describe tt entry: there r diff types of guys n i dun like most of them. maybe i like some for their looks. but full stop. beyond the looks, there's nothing tt makes me realli interested. i went after some guys in the past, but come to think of it, i dun think they're the best choice? i've been dreaming abt this guy, dreaming tt he's my bf.. but then.. in real life i dun realli wan to get involved. even IF he's interested i also dun wan. now's not the time for commitment. haha..
these few days when i take bus or mrt i see mothers and children.. it makes me wonder is it true that all mothers love their children.. r they realli happy, proud to see their children grow up? do they find their children cute? cuz my mom used to always tell me i'm a nuisance.. she nv tells me i'm cute. she seldom buy toys for me cuz she finds it a waste of money.. i used to feel tt she nv loved me.. but now as i grow up, we're becoming more like friends like mother-daughter.. i'm still trying to accept tt she loves me.. when i think of this i feel like crying.. i used to think tt she's juz my money-provider, report-and-consent-form-signer.. i also thot of one time during pri sch she always wake up b4 me, to wake me up for sch.. one day i actually looked at her as she wait for me to leave home for sch. she was asleep on the sofa.. she was tired.. i saw how tired she looked.. suddenly i juz felt fear... scared... i dun understand y.. but when i saw how haggard she looked i felt bad... i think tt was the time i started to treat her better.
abt my dad.. i feel tt my way of spending time with him is having dinner and getting rides on his motorbike. i dunno whether he feels tt itz considered spending time together like tt.. we dun have heart to heart talks. the most i ask is abt road directions.. haha.. he's realli expert on the roads man.. the AYE PIE CTE n the streets r like his friends man. he's better than a taxi driver! haha.. he told me some places he worked b4.. he used to be a lift engineer, a cook in the army.. he used to be my mom's neighbour.. cool man, tt means his whole family knew her whole family lor..
my sis smsed me tt she missed me. (she was drunk) haha.. i showed the msg to esther n she thinks my sis muz be drunk too.. haha.. i kinda envy her cuz she's living on her own in phuket now.. i guess my parents have been teaching us to be independent.. i feel excited when i imagine myself living on my own, independently.. but it wun happen.....yet la. i want to get married at the age of 24, but.. better dun think abt it then rush into marriage la.
hmm.. wad else.. hmm.. abt work.. felt happy today cuz 1. i went for work early. 2. my boss quite ok with my design. 3. i finished 2 projects today.. n count total the projects i did during IAP is 8! hoho.. 4. i learn new things everyday.
Wednesday, August 03, 2005
:: woohoo ::
long time no update.. well i muz mention SonicFest!~ it was a big event where the christian youths of whole of singapore gather and worship! it was realli ministering... i muz admit tt i treated the event as a concert, but when i reached there, i felt realli touched and i imagined it was the day of the Pentacost! haha
there were Planet Shakers and Sonic Flood... hmm.. i dun like the local band music... i juz dun like rock (thai rock is different!) but i felt touched by the first band tt performed on the first day.. uh.. i arrived late so maybe it wasn't the first band. the lead singer opened the time with a prayer, which i felt is realli important and sets the whole event right.. n i felt Planet Shakers n Sonic Flood r realli ministering thru the music. as i mentioned to my cell grp, my honest impression of the young christian nowadays is that they just go to church for fun.. but i could c that as they worship, i can sense God's presence n peace... it was, "wow"..
after the first nite, thur, shirley jieling kelvin dongwen nelson n i went to kopitiam for supper. then took NEL home. during lunch on friday i called my mom n asked her how is her working condition like.. tt evening i went to meet peiyun kwek bec n benson at west mall to celebrate kwek's bday.. then i rushed to Fort Canning for the SonicFest. missed Planet Shakers.. after tt went for supper at the same place, this time more Elohim pple joined us. i felt stupid to order dessert lor.. end up the last to finish my food n everyone had to leave to catch trains.. thank God i managed to catch a train home from Dhoby Ghaut.. but on the train i took out my hp n found a missed call n a msg. argh.. the singles' club going to Marina South to hang out n they asked me but i nv c the msg until i boarded the train lor.. but i was thinking, i already thanked God tt i can catch a train home, so y shld i change my mind abt going home? so i decided to take a good rest for the nite.
decided not to go for the third day of the SonicFest. i onli regret missing the arts section of the event. watched movie at home with my mom.. then went out for lunch.. walked around Punggol Plaza.. then went for cell grp. malcolm shared abt 'prejudice', from the 40Day fast booklet. after tt had worship prac... i was in charge of PRC for the week. n also.... OFFERTORY!! kept praying tt i wun be so nervous, that i wun keep thinking tt attention is on me, tt itz ok if i made mistake.. after prac we went for supper at The Prata Cafe somewhere near old SMU.. jon yap was sharing the story of how he met Joanne peh one day.. n Chris kept "paper-cutting" him.. haha.. found it v funny listening to them tho.. haha..
sunday... offertory!! hmm.. my mindset was actually to get it over n done with... v nervous becuz i felt tt i will make mistake.. n i realli did.. i forgot a line.. n i kept referrng to the lyrics becuz my mind became a blank.. suddenly i forgot to think abt pitch, beat, breath, posture etc... but i believe the song is offered to God that's all tt matters.. i was juz a bit too bothered by how pple will think. after tt i helped out at the PRC.. n we had worship prac for prayer nite. elaine wanted to come my house n i thot i could make it.. the prac lasted till 5pm.. so i rushed home.. my parents cooked bah kut teh for dinner :D~~~ hoho..
haha feels good to have 2 comps.. feels good to have a scanner.. to have internet access.. praise God for all these luxury.. elaine stayed until 11+pm..
monday i couldn't wake up on time for work.. felt bad.. beng yeow kinda warned me over msn. rough day at work... after work went to sports stadium for a jog with the singles' club.. (gee that's juz a collective noun for that bunch of frenz i hang out with) hehe.. did 6 rounds, slower than last week, even slower than my NAPFA. sigh~ then played badminton at the corridor cuz the court was closed for exams. played until we were chased away by the guards. went for a bath then had dinner at Newton. got my pay check so i gave them a treat.. woohoo i felt happy to be able to eat at newton circus cuz the last time i ate there was like last yr after clubbing with wanling n edwin at chinablack.
went to Newton mrt station n sat there for like abt an hour.. went home quite late.. bathed then slp. tue i couldn't wake up in time for work again.. argh.. called beng yeow. took taxi to sch.. again. sigh~ i hate wasting tt kinda money.. beng yeow asked me for a coffee break n talked abt work. abt punctuality.. gosh i'm not late v often during attachment ma.. then he talked abt after attachment, the possibility of getting fully employed by Coded Pixels. it was a great offer, but i felt v stressed also.. he means i m supposed to cope with work n sch at the same time! like tt cannot enjoy liao lor.. now i already felt tt i dun have enuf time for myself... but.. sigh.. after work i had to rush off but couldn't cuz i cannot "leave on the dot" argh. went to withdraw money to take taxi to church.. sigh~ for prayer meeting... hmm.. i admit tt i onli attend prayer meetings when i'm scheduled to sing or do projection, but i muz say tt everytime i go i have been ministered to. took clifton's car home.. went to slp immediately after bath n quiet time.
today was better.. i reached work on time.. yay! my boss commented tt my designs r alright.. (a good sign already) but beng yeow pointed out some problems. i realise tt his point of view is more accurate.. after work went to blk M to find hx they all.. celebrating yina's bday.. had dinner at KFC.. then went home around 9+pm.. hope tonite can slp early.. so i have finished blogging. tt's how much u've missed! =x haha jk jk
there were Planet Shakers and Sonic Flood... hmm.. i dun like the local band music... i juz dun like rock (thai rock is different!) but i felt touched by the first band tt performed on the first day.. uh.. i arrived late so maybe it wasn't the first band. the lead singer opened the time with a prayer, which i felt is realli important and sets the whole event right.. n i felt Planet Shakers n Sonic Flood r realli ministering thru the music. as i mentioned to my cell grp, my honest impression of the young christian nowadays is that they just go to church for fun.. but i could c that as they worship, i can sense God's presence n peace... it was, "wow"..
after the first nite, thur, shirley jieling kelvin dongwen nelson n i went to kopitiam for supper. then took NEL home. during lunch on friday i called my mom n asked her how is her working condition like.. tt evening i went to meet peiyun kwek bec n benson at west mall to celebrate kwek's bday.. then i rushed to Fort Canning for the SonicFest. missed Planet Shakers.. after tt went for supper at the same place, this time more Elohim pple joined us. i felt stupid to order dessert lor.. end up the last to finish my food n everyone had to leave to catch trains.. thank God i managed to catch a train home from Dhoby Ghaut.. but on the train i took out my hp n found a missed call n a msg. argh.. the singles' club going to Marina South to hang out n they asked me but i nv c the msg until i boarded the train lor.. but i was thinking, i already thanked God tt i can catch a train home, so y shld i change my mind abt going home? so i decided to take a good rest for the nite.
decided not to go for the third day of the SonicFest. i onli regret missing the arts section of the event. watched movie at home with my mom.. then went out for lunch.. walked around Punggol Plaza.. then went for cell grp. malcolm shared abt 'prejudice', from the 40Day fast booklet. after tt had worship prac... i was in charge of PRC for the week. n also.... OFFERTORY!! kept praying tt i wun be so nervous, that i wun keep thinking tt attention is on me, tt itz ok if i made mistake.. after prac we went for supper at The Prata Cafe somewhere near old SMU.. jon yap was sharing the story of how he met Joanne peh one day.. n Chris kept "paper-cutting" him.. haha.. found it v funny listening to them tho.. haha..
sunday... offertory!! hmm.. my mindset was actually to get it over n done with... v nervous becuz i felt tt i will make mistake.. n i realli did.. i forgot a line.. n i kept referrng to the lyrics becuz my mind became a blank.. suddenly i forgot to think abt pitch, beat, breath, posture etc... but i believe the song is offered to God that's all tt matters.. i was juz a bit too bothered by how pple will think. after tt i helped out at the PRC.. n we had worship prac for prayer nite. elaine wanted to come my house n i thot i could make it.. the prac lasted till 5pm.. so i rushed home.. my parents cooked bah kut teh for dinner :D~~~ hoho..
haha feels good to have 2 comps.. feels good to have a scanner.. to have internet access.. praise God for all these luxury.. elaine stayed until 11+pm..
monday i couldn't wake up on time for work.. felt bad.. beng yeow kinda warned me over msn. rough day at work... after work went to sports stadium for a jog with the singles' club.. (gee that's juz a collective noun for that bunch of frenz i hang out with) hehe.. did 6 rounds, slower than last week, even slower than my NAPFA. sigh~ then played badminton at the corridor cuz the court was closed for exams. played until we were chased away by the guards. went for a bath then had dinner at Newton. got my pay check so i gave them a treat.. woohoo i felt happy to be able to eat at newton circus cuz the last time i ate there was like last yr after clubbing with wanling n edwin at chinablack.
went to Newton mrt station n sat there for like abt an hour.. went home quite late.. bathed then slp. tue i couldn't wake up in time for work again.. argh.. called beng yeow. took taxi to sch.. again. sigh~ i hate wasting tt kinda money.. beng yeow asked me for a coffee break n talked abt work. abt punctuality.. gosh i'm not late v often during attachment ma.. then he talked abt after attachment, the possibility of getting fully employed by Coded Pixels. it was a great offer, but i felt v stressed also.. he means i m supposed to cope with work n sch at the same time! like tt cannot enjoy liao lor.. now i already felt tt i dun have enuf time for myself... but.. sigh.. after work i had to rush off but couldn't cuz i cannot "leave on the dot" argh. went to withdraw money to take taxi to church.. sigh~ for prayer meeting... hmm.. i admit tt i onli attend prayer meetings when i'm scheduled to sing or do projection, but i muz say tt everytime i go i have been ministered to. took clifton's car home.. went to slp immediately after bath n quiet time.
today was better.. i reached work on time.. yay! my boss commented tt my designs r alright.. (a good sign already) but beng yeow pointed out some problems. i realise tt his point of view is more accurate.. after work went to blk M to find hx they all.. celebrating yina's bday.. had dinner at KFC.. then went home around 9+pm.. hope tonite can slp early.. so i have finished blogging. tt's how much u've missed! =x haha jk jk
Thursday, July 28, 2005
:: stay out ::
thur rushed to peace centre to find paul n jessica, to print the polaroid sleeve to sell during family day.. while waiting to print the stuff we went to eat dinner... i had rochor soya beancurd.. famous i guess.. tt's where jon yap saw joanne peh.. haha..
haha friday went out with singles' club members excluding those who went china n the one who went NS.. we had dinner at amk... the teahouse at jubilee..my first time there.. hoho.. stayed n chat for quite a long while then decided to go somewhere else.. thot of watching movie haha.. but dun wan la.. then we acc michael go buy model for his animation assignment..
went to buy bubble tea n sat down at the steps where the children ride small cars.. we sat there n chatted... then suddenly they thot of going night cycling.. too bad i dunno how to cycle haha.. then they suggest go airport ton.. so i went home to bring my laptop.. wendy followed me home haha... took bus 3 to tampines n meet michael n david. no more bus so we took taxi..
took the time to design logo for COR.. i onli have one idea so i worked on it. around 2-3am we felt hungry so we went for supper... at BK. shaun arrived at this time.. i had kid's meal... v bo hua sia.. i spend $1 can get a better meal lor.. =x but i got a toy hahaha... we sat there n chatted until i decided to go back to the viewing mall to slp.. haha..
went back home n slept a while... overslept... in the end took taxi to church cuz i was still designing the COR logo... had worship prac... learnt actions to the songs lor. haha.. after tt went for cell grp. after cell grp joined them for dinner at AV.. chatted with zane.. shared dim sum n carrot cake with her n diana.. took brandon's car home... dropped by jeremy's hse for him to pick up his stuff cuz he staying over with brandon. feel quite pai seh first time take his car..
next morning i also wake up late.. took taxi to church.. itz COR family day!! was busy after service to sell polaroid photos.. macam flag day.. cuz i keep asking around "wanna take photo?" like "hi would u like to donate?" hahaha... elena n shirley took the most photos hoho so supportive..
i nv eat lunch... not tt i find it expensive, but from experience the food like not realli nice.. i was thinking if got leftovers maybe they'll give out free hahaha... went to the library to evaluate the event.. took jianxiong's car to marina sq with paul n jessica for "lunch".. expensive sia.. but i share the meal with jessica cuz i thot my parents going somewhere for dinner to celebrate my dad's bday..
took the car to woodlands mrt... i felt lost abt my direction when i went to the bus terminal cuz it was not the usual way i go home.. i took quite long to find my bus.. by the time i found it the bus juz left sia.. suay... went home.. there got some racial harmony day celebration.. had dinner at blk 198... ok la the food but expensive.. my hse nearby got new bus service liao, go to changi airport hoho.. if got go changi village i song eh..
haha friday went out with singles' club members excluding those who went china n the one who went NS.. we had dinner at amk... the teahouse at jubilee..my first time there.. hoho.. stayed n chat for quite a long while then decided to go somewhere else.. thot of watching movie haha.. but dun wan la.. then we acc michael go buy model for his animation assignment..
went to buy bubble tea n sat down at the steps where the children ride small cars.. we sat there n chatted... then suddenly they thot of going night cycling.. too bad i dunno how to cycle haha.. then they suggest go airport ton.. so i went home to bring my laptop.. wendy followed me home haha... took bus 3 to tampines n meet michael n david. no more bus so we took taxi..
took the time to design logo for COR.. i onli have one idea so i worked on it. around 2-3am we felt hungry so we went for supper... at BK. shaun arrived at this time.. i had kid's meal... v bo hua sia.. i spend $1 can get a better meal lor.. =x but i got a toy hahaha... we sat there n chatted until i decided to go back to the viewing mall to slp.. haha..
went back home n slept a while... overslept... in the end took taxi to church cuz i was still designing the COR logo... had worship prac... learnt actions to the songs lor. haha.. after tt went for cell grp. after cell grp joined them for dinner at AV.. chatted with zane.. shared dim sum n carrot cake with her n diana.. took brandon's car home... dropped by jeremy's hse for him to pick up his stuff cuz he staying over with brandon. feel quite pai seh first time take his car..
next morning i also wake up late.. took taxi to church.. itz COR family day!! was busy after service to sell polaroid photos.. macam flag day.. cuz i keep asking around "wanna take photo?" like "hi would u like to donate?" hahaha... elena n shirley took the most photos hoho so supportive..
i nv eat lunch... not tt i find it expensive, but from experience the food like not realli nice.. i was thinking if got leftovers maybe they'll give out free hahaha... went to the library to evaluate the event.. took jianxiong's car to marina sq with paul n jessica for "lunch".. expensive sia.. but i share the meal with jessica cuz i thot my parents going somewhere for dinner to celebrate my dad's bday..
took the car to woodlands mrt... i felt lost abt my direction when i went to the bus terminal cuz it was not the usual way i go home.. i took quite long to find my bus.. by the time i found it the bus juz left sia.. suay... went home.. there got some racial harmony day celebration.. had dinner at blk 198... ok la the food but expensive.. my hse nearby got new bus service liao, go to changi airport hoho.. if got go changi village i song eh..
Wednesday, July 20, 2005
:: attachment ::
this is my first week of attachment!! quite exciting... my bosses v good, but starting already quite stressful.. cuz first day i got project to do already. at least tt's wad i like to do, cracking my head n using my brains to come up with gd designs. another thing v stressful is tt my boss sit directly behind me... no divider... wad i do on my comp can be seen lor.. =x haha.. dun realli have the liberty to chat n play game..
went out with audrey on mon after work.. long time no c her.. we had dinner at cine foodcourt. the jap food bento v cheap wor! $3.90 nia~! walked to heeren to shop around... v long time no go there.. bought a top.. wanted to buy another one but not enuf money, muz restrict myself.
been going out for dinner with the singles' club de members haha.. feel quite bad cuz i spend little time at home.. no chance to sit down n chat with my parents.. yday v happy cuz on our way to orchard ian saw weiting at yck mrt station.. i pa jiao cannot recognise pple de.. =x asked her to join us till she go to meet miaoyue liyin n limin.. had dinner at far east plaza.. dunno y i feel quite worried tt my mom will think i go out with boyfriend then seldom go home early. haha.. went to cine cuz wendy wan to buy the shell tt can contain toys. then we went to heeren cuz cannot find in cine. saw weili n kathy n their friend (from rv also) long time no c weili... still the same girl. i also saw huixiang!!! hoho~ finally got to meet carl. showed hx the top i bought n the top i wanted to buy but didn't. she tried it on n quite like it too..
i feel v happy to meet friends outside.. i feel even happier if they start conversations n initiate to noe my other friends as well.. like tt then everyone around me also friends... happy tree friends... hahahaa... juz joking...
today woke up super early to send nic n ian off to china.. had mac for breakfast then went to sch to work.. a bit dreading work cuz like i say quite stressful esp after i submitted the 1st project already n got the 2nd proj liao... so fast hor! the prob is i feel v tired easily nowadays.. hmm... muz drink some tonic liao.. haha..
a bit brain dead to come up with better designs. my boss has high expectations of me.. he also said i can come into tt company becuz he requested for a good IM student.. make me feel so honoured! i wun feel proud la cuz i noe my standard.. but tt makes me strive hard to prove myself. in a way itz a good thing.
today supposed to have DG but postponed cuz 2 out of 3 members cannot make it.. my hp low batt so i assumed the meeting cancel liao.. so paiseh cuz the one who can make it was kinda waiting for me..
today i heard a song on radio (my office always blast Class 95fm) sounds VERY similar to the song Lost In Your Love by amos hong... haha maybe he adapted tt song..
i v tired now... but muz try to come up with concept for my work. no time to plan for portfolio leh.. unless i... give up going out for dinner with my friends.. work or friends, which one more important? if i choose work, hope u all understand n encourage me.. haha..
went out with audrey on mon after work.. long time no c her.. we had dinner at cine foodcourt. the jap food bento v cheap wor! $3.90 nia~! walked to heeren to shop around... v long time no go there.. bought a top.. wanted to buy another one but not enuf money, muz restrict myself.
been going out for dinner with the singles' club de members haha.. feel quite bad cuz i spend little time at home.. no chance to sit down n chat with my parents.. yday v happy cuz on our way to orchard ian saw weiting at yck mrt station.. i pa jiao cannot recognise pple de.. =x asked her to join us till she go to meet miaoyue liyin n limin.. had dinner at far east plaza.. dunno y i feel quite worried tt my mom will think i go out with boyfriend then seldom go home early. haha.. went to cine cuz wendy wan to buy the shell tt can contain toys. then we went to heeren cuz cannot find in cine. saw weili n kathy n their friend (from rv also) long time no c weili... still the same girl. i also saw huixiang!!! hoho~ finally got to meet carl. showed hx the top i bought n the top i wanted to buy but didn't. she tried it on n quite like it too..
i feel v happy to meet friends outside.. i feel even happier if they start conversations n initiate to noe my other friends as well.. like tt then everyone around me also friends... happy tree friends... hahahaa... juz joking...
today woke up super early to send nic n ian off to china.. had mac for breakfast then went to sch to work.. a bit dreading work cuz like i say quite stressful esp after i submitted the 1st project already n got the 2nd proj liao... so fast hor! the prob is i feel v tired easily nowadays.. hmm... muz drink some tonic liao.. haha..
a bit brain dead to come up with better designs. my boss has high expectations of me.. he also said i can come into tt company becuz he requested for a good IM student.. make me feel so honoured! i wun feel proud la cuz i noe my standard.. but tt makes me strive hard to prove myself. in a way itz a good thing.
today supposed to have DG but postponed cuz 2 out of 3 members cannot make it.. my hp low batt so i assumed the meeting cancel liao.. so paiseh cuz the one who can make it was kinda waiting for me..
today i heard a song on radio (my office always blast Class 95fm) sounds VERY similar to the song Lost In Your Love by amos hong... haha maybe he adapted tt song..
i v tired now... but muz try to come up with concept for my work. no time to plan for portfolio leh.. unless i... give up going out for dinner with my friends.. work or friends, which one more important? if i choose work, hope u all understand n encourage me.. haha..
Sunday, July 17, 2005
:: back from malacca ::
had FYP presentation on thur, not as bad as i expected, so i felt alrite. the presentation was v long sia... like more than 1 hr... went to south canteen to find nic, sheralyn n michael.. while waiting for elaine to go for lunch.. there was a food fest, bought a "shark's fin" soup.. n egg tarts, da pao to FJ eat.. while i eat ban mian also.. =x my pants v tight..
transferred files n deleted my unwanted junk from the FYP comp... until 5pm, went for napfa... i failed it hahaha... did 30 situps in 1 min.. quite slow but i was the fastest among those beside me.. hahaha.. IFAH.. i was confident to do many cuz i think my arm muscles v strong (sadly they look BIG for nothing) did onli 7.. standing broad jump, i heard, is every girls' nightmare.. i passed shuttle run juz by a bit.. haha.. the 2.4km run.. wah.... i realli shld have trained harder.. =x i mean train more often... yr 2 sem 1 tt time i got go run regularly.. sem 2 like no more.. i failed it by around 3 min.. v much sia..
was v stressed on friday... been chionging portfolio for the whole day cuz my IAP company de boss wants to c it.. didn't need to go to sch.. =D i chiong until sat morning, no slp at all... i was v worried cuz i could not send the work to print personally cuz i wld be in malacca during the weekend.. so i had been trying to find pple to help me print... asked hx at first.. but she nv online, so when elaine chat with me on msn i thot of asking her to help me instead. i v pek cek around 2am lor.. keep trying to send/upload to gmail but cannot, network like v slow.. pek cek until i cry sia.. 2 ways to c how desperate i was abt it: i had to apply for a gmail account cuz faj says can attach files more than 10MB, which turned out to be false. i connected my pc to the internet which i wld nv do becuz it catches viruses from the internet super easily.. my ibook was super lag tt nite..
by 5.45am if i'm not wrong i managed to upload all the files finally... went to malacca with a lighter heart.. neck ache tho.. can say tt i enjoy the trip, cuz i explored places i nv been b4.. i was surprised tt the trip was a tour package.. thot its free n easy all the way.. went with my dad's colleagues (canteen aunties and uncles) oh man i tell u the coach was super noisy... i realli dun like the way aunties shout to each other across a few seats lor.. so gross! during the trip i had no discman..forgot to take back from esther =x the aunties sang karaoke.. >.< unbearable!! haha the tour guide quite cute ;) he sang a teochew song v funny one..
he brought us to yong peng which is not the one i expected.. tt yong peng was juz a toilet stop nia... the one i expected had food centre n supermarket selling local food products de... the ride was v long.. stopped outside malacca, ayer keroh, if i'm not wrong, to go to Jusco shopping.. i walked around on my own..hoho.. i grow up liao can be more independent liao.. didn't buy anything... wanted to buy underwear, but there were not up to my expectation.. =x hhaa.. wanted to buy a razor back top but somehow dun realli convince myself tt i like it..
then bus brought us into malacca where we alighted to have our lunch at a restoran peranakan. the design quite nice.. food so-so nia.. after lunch went to Jonker walk.. been there countless times.. felt like i've juz been there not long ago. in fact i last went there 1 yr ago. didn't buy anything... went to check into the hotel Equatorial.. short, EQ hotel. shared a room with a 15 yr old girl tt i dunno.. felt weird.. put down my bag n went to Mahkota shopping centre with my parents.. again i had the chance to walk around on my own.. saw some nice clothes n wondered maybe i shld change my wardrobe. but then again, i do have many clothes, juz without the confidence to wear them.. gosh itz my figure la.. gross.. bought a triumph bra hoho.. i onli bought it after asking my mom for opinion.. it costs around SGD$22.70 hahaa when i come back i go compare price. =p hopefully after buying tt bra it'll boost my confidence to wear spags.
went back to hotel around 6pm to prepare to go out.. the tour guide brought us to jonker walk again to experience the nitelife this time. (i've experienced both b4 anyway haha) mom wanted to eat the chicken rice balls, but in my opinion, there's nothing special abt the ball... after all when it comes to my mouth, its a mashed up mess like when i eat normal chicken rice.. haha.. ate a bit of fish laksa, shrimp dumpling noodle, n seafood noodle (share with my parents) n dimsum... we even walked to the hawker centre near the hotel we used to stay in juz to eat sting ray! v regretful for not ordering hao jian, fried kuay tiao n cheong fun!!! (oops does it sound a lot to u?) we rushed back to our meeting place after eating stingray tt's y no time to eat others.. v happy cuz it was time well spent rushing around juz to eat a famous/favourite food. found tt the whole golden legacy hotel was closed for revonation.. v kua zhang sia..
went back to jonker walk n walked thru the street to get to our meeting point.. along the way my mom n i thot we had time so we ordered hotdog waffle.. man, food is damn cheap in msia!! i realli dun mind eating more! =p went back to hotel.. decided to get a beer while seating at the hotel lounge.. i reminise the time i had with my YEP frenz having drinks at the Gold Orchid Hotel in bangkok! spent not a long time there... watched a bit of soccer.. went back to my room.. my roommate v shy, she went to bathe in her mom's room instead.. i felt guilty for leaving her alone.. felt tt 9+pm was too early to slp.. so watch tv till 11+ haha.. dreamt of someone ;p
next morning woke up 7.40am.. went down for breakfast. not tt superb but there was the egg guy!! cool!! like bangkok! ordered a ham n mushroom omelette hoho.. had a lot of food for breakfast in fact.. fried noodles + some side dishes, porridge, milk n cereal, muffins, erm.. sounds a lot heh! walked around with my parents, explored some historical places tt i've nv been b4.. went back to hotel room n took a good bath.. then checked out. wait, tt's not the end of my trip! the tour guide brought us to a shop to buy local food products.. bought alot =P then we had lunch at a Beijing style restaurant. the table cloth is terrible... got holes n black marks... -.- food was good tho.
took the coach out of malacca... to a well tt pple believe can bring luck then to yong peng (same place) then to a durian farm.. someone from our coach bought a lot of durians for us to share.. =D~~ ate a lot.. on the bus the aunties had karaoke again, but this time the songs r cantonese (makes life more bearable)
during the trip i took a lot of photos.. haha.. ok such a long account sia..
tmr start attachment liao.. yay, new start!
hmm.. quite sad no chance to realli meet new guys. cuz my attachment is in sch.. =( hahaha
transferred files n deleted my unwanted junk from the FYP comp... until 5pm, went for napfa... i failed it hahaha... did 30 situps in 1 min.. quite slow but i was the fastest among those beside me.. hahaha.. IFAH.. i was confident to do many cuz i think my arm muscles v strong (sadly they look BIG for nothing) did onli 7.. standing broad jump, i heard, is every girls' nightmare.. i passed shuttle run juz by a bit.. haha.. the 2.4km run.. wah.... i realli shld have trained harder.. =x i mean train more often... yr 2 sem 1 tt time i got go run regularly.. sem 2 like no more.. i failed it by around 3 min.. v much sia..
was v stressed on friday... been chionging portfolio for the whole day cuz my IAP company de boss wants to c it.. didn't need to go to sch.. =D i chiong until sat morning, no slp at all... i was v worried cuz i could not send the work to print personally cuz i wld be in malacca during the weekend.. so i had been trying to find pple to help me print... asked hx at first.. but she nv online, so when elaine chat with me on msn i thot of asking her to help me instead. i v pek cek around 2am lor.. keep trying to send/upload to gmail but cannot, network like v slow.. pek cek until i cry sia.. 2 ways to c how desperate i was abt it: i had to apply for a gmail account cuz faj says can attach files more than 10MB, which turned out to be false. i connected my pc to the internet which i wld nv do becuz it catches viruses from the internet super easily.. my ibook was super lag tt nite..
by 5.45am if i'm not wrong i managed to upload all the files finally... went to malacca with a lighter heart.. neck ache tho.. can say tt i enjoy the trip, cuz i explored places i nv been b4.. i was surprised tt the trip was a tour package.. thot its free n easy all the way.. went with my dad's colleagues (canteen aunties and uncles) oh man i tell u the coach was super noisy... i realli dun like the way aunties shout to each other across a few seats lor.. so gross! during the trip i had no discman..forgot to take back from esther =x the aunties sang karaoke.. >.< unbearable!! haha the tour guide quite cute ;) he sang a teochew song v funny one..
he brought us to yong peng which is not the one i expected.. tt yong peng was juz a toilet stop nia... the one i expected had food centre n supermarket selling local food products de... the ride was v long.. stopped outside malacca, ayer keroh, if i'm not wrong, to go to Jusco shopping.. i walked around on my own..hoho.. i grow up liao can be more independent liao.. didn't buy anything... wanted to buy underwear, but there were not up to my expectation.. =x hhaa.. wanted to buy a razor back top but somehow dun realli convince myself tt i like it..
then bus brought us into malacca where we alighted to have our lunch at a restoran peranakan. the design quite nice.. food so-so nia.. after lunch went to Jonker walk.. been there countless times.. felt like i've juz been there not long ago. in fact i last went there 1 yr ago. didn't buy anything... went to check into the hotel Equatorial.. short, EQ hotel. shared a room with a 15 yr old girl tt i dunno.. felt weird.. put down my bag n went to Mahkota shopping centre with my parents.. again i had the chance to walk around on my own.. saw some nice clothes n wondered maybe i shld change my wardrobe. but then again, i do have many clothes, juz without the confidence to wear them.. gosh itz my figure la.. gross.. bought a triumph bra hoho.. i onli bought it after asking my mom for opinion.. it costs around SGD$22.70 hahaa when i come back i go compare price. =p hopefully after buying tt bra it'll boost my confidence to wear spags.
went back to hotel around 6pm to prepare to go out.. the tour guide brought us to jonker walk again to experience the nitelife this time. (i've experienced both b4 anyway haha) mom wanted to eat the chicken rice balls, but in my opinion, there's nothing special abt the ball... after all when it comes to my mouth, its a mashed up mess like when i eat normal chicken rice.. haha.. ate a bit of fish laksa, shrimp dumpling noodle, n seafood noodle (share with my parents) n dimsum... we even walked to the hawker centre near the hotel we used to stay in juz to eat sting ray! v regretful for not ordering hao jian, fried kuay tiao n cheong fun!!! (oops does it sound a lot to u?) we rushed back to our meeting place after eating stingray tt's y no time to eat others.. v happy cuz it was time well spent rushing around juz to eat a famous/favourite food. found tt the whole golden legacy hotel was closed for revonation.. v kua zhang sia..
went back to jonker walk n walked thru the street to get to our meeting point.. along the way my mom n i thot we had time so we ordered hotdog waffle.. man, food is damn cheap in msia!! i realli dun mind eating more! =p went back to hotel.. decided to get a beer while seating at the hotel lounge.. i reminise the time i had with my YEP frenz having drinks at the Gold Orchid Hotel in bangkok! spent not a long time there... watched a bit of soccer.. went back to my room.. my roommate v shy, she went to bathe in her mom's room instead.. i felt guilty for leaving her alone.. felt tt 9+pm was too early to slp.. so watch tv till 11+ haha.. dreamt of someone ;p
next morning woke up 7.40am.. went down for breakfast. not tt superb but there was the egg guy!! cool!! like bangkok! ordered a ham n mushroom omelette hoho.. had a lot of food for breakfast in fact.. fried noodles + some side dishes, porridge, milk n cereal, muffins, erm.. sounds a lot heh! walked around with my parents, explored some historical places tt i've nv been b4.. went back to hotel room n took a good bath.. then checked out. wait, tt's not the end of my trip! the tour guide brought us to a shop to buy local food products.. bought alot =P then we had lunch at a Beijing style restaurant. the table cloth is terrible... got holes n black marks... -.- food was good tho.
took the coach out of malacca... to a well tt pple believe can bring luck then to yong peng (same place) then to a durian farm.. someone from our coach bought a lot of durians for us to share.. =D~~ ate a lot.. on the bus the aunties had karaoke again, but this time the songs r cantonese (makes life more bearable)
during the trip i took a lot of photos.. haha.. ok such a long account sia..
tmr start attachment liao.. yay, new start!
hmm.. quite sad no chance to realli meet new guys. cuz my attachment is in sch.. =( hahaha
Tuesday, July 12, 2005
:: nothing to say ::
ahhh.... sunday over lunch there was a discussion abt worms in our bodies... i hate the fact that there ARE worms in our body, according to some pple... makes me feel conscious everytime i feel funny inside..
joined my cell grp, well, 4 of them after lunch to chill out.. kelvin drove us to great world city.. walked around zara.. hmm... some clothes are nice, but i will nv buy them... becuz honestly i feel tt money shld not be spent tt way.. if i had $100 i would use probably half to buy my own stuff, give 10% to tithe, n the remaining i would donate to organations like Children International or SPCA.. in zara, the price range is actually v great, u can get something for $9.90, u can also find stuff over $300! but it was a great time looking at the clothes with jieling.. makes me feel ashamed of wad i was wearing.. i've grown out of my clothes already, but haven't got time n money to "change" my wardrobe... i feel bad if i throw my clothes away, i also feel awful if i keep them n yet dun wan to wear them anymore...
took bus to orchard then changed to 174 to terry's house.. first time there... he's got a cat!! cute...but noty, she actually will bite ur hand if u offer her! not bite la, but it sure wasn't friendly to put my hand in her mouth.... watched De-Lovely halfway then stopped.. talked abt psalmist.. watched a few scenes of Undercover Brother too.. wasn't funny.. then kelvin came.. after a while we had dinner at a coffee shop.. sorta wondered if i shld eat or not.. but when i thot of rice i decided to.. gosh i was never such a sucker for rice! took taxi with jieling n kelvin, dropped at yew tee mrt then took train to woodlands. changed to bus..... n I OVERSLEPT on the bus n missed my stop!! i was 7 stops away already when i woke up... i felt quite amazed at myself.. =x it was close to 12, but thank God buses travel fast during tt time. i reached home a little after 12..
when i reached home, i realised tt VINEE WAS GONE!!! i seriously dunno where it went... maybe it got blown away by the thunderstorm.. but it was my fault to wait till today to check if vinee is still downstairs..
fyp realli sucks for me... after i realise tt attachment is coming soon, i look forward to it, n hope i can skip the presentation part sia.. i noe i will kena big trouble already... so.. haiz..
n guess where i'm attached to..? haha.. when i saw the address i realli dunno to laugh or to cry... itz the same as my sch.. ... .... .. my attachment is in sch. sobz.... maybe itz God's blessing in disguise... i say 'disguise' becuz i still cannot tell in wad way it is a blessing. but certainly enuf i wanna thank God tt i got pay even tho i'm working in sch... itz an average pay, but i rem seeing one of my classmates getting a lower pay... hmm... i dun mind working OT if got extra pay =P
today v stress.. but when i hang out with my friends we dun tok abt work.. so i dun feel stress.. but tt is escaping reality la.. i'm juz glad tt i'm able to help my SIT partner solve Director scripting problems.. n i'm glad tt she appreciates =)
went to "train" for napfa with yongcheng n swee yi after sch today.. onli train the 2.4km run la.. n not even train, itz juz warming up lor... i mean i always run one round then rest, one round then rest, realli useless kinda training lor.. i'm so lazy!!
joined my cell grp, well, 4 of them after lunch to chill out.. kelvin drove us to great world city.. walked around zara.. hmm... some clothes are nice, but i will nv buy them... becuz honestly i feel tt money shld not be spent tt way.. if i had $100 i would use probably half to buy my own stuff, give 10% to tithe, n the remaining i would donate to organations like Children International or SPCA.. in zara, the price range is actually v great, u can get something for $9.90, u can also find stuff over $300! but it was a great time looking at the clothes with jieling.. makes me feel ashamed of wad i was wearing.. i've grown out of my clothes already, but haven't got time n money to "change" my wardrobe... i feel bad if i throw my clothes away, i also feel awful if i keep them n yet dun wan to wear them anymore...
took bus to orchard then changed to 174 to terry's house.. first time there... he's got a cat!! cute...but noty, she actually will bite ur hand if u offer her! not bite la, but it sure wasn't friendly to put my hand in her mouth.... watched De-Lovely halfway then stopped.. talked abt psalmist.. watched a few scenes of Undercover Brother too.. wasn't funny.. then kelvin came.. after a while we had dinner at a coffee shop.. sorta wondered if i shld eat or not.. but when i thot of rice i decided to.. gosh i was never such a sucker for rice! took taxi with jieling n kelvin, dropped at yew tee mrt then took train to woodlands. changed to bus..... n I OVERSLEPT on the bus n missed my stop!! i was 7 stops away already when i woke up... i felt quite amazed at myself.. =x it was close to 12, but thank God buses travel fast during tt time. i reached home a little after 12..
when i reached home, i realised tt VINEE WAS GONE!!! i seriously dunno where it went... maybe it got blown away by the thunderstorm.. but it was my fault to wait till today to check if vinee is still downstairs..
fyp realli sucks for me... after i realise tt attachment is coming soon, i look forward to it, n hope i can skip the presentation part sia.. i noe i will kena big trouble already... so.. haiz..
n guess where i'm attached to..? haha.. when i saw the address i realli dunno to laugh or to cry... itz the same as my sch.. ... .... .. my attachment is in sch. sobz.... maybe itz God's blessing in disguise... i say 'disguise' becuz i still cannot tell in wad way it is a blessing. but certainly enuf i wanna thank God tt i got pay even tho i'm working in sch... itz an average pay, but i rem seeing one of my classmates getting a lower pay... hmm... i dun mind working OT if got extra pay =P
today v stress.. but when i hang out with my friends we dun tok abt work.. so i dun feel stress.. but tt is escaping reality la.. i'm juz glad tt i'm able to help my SIT partner solve Director scripting problems.. n i'm glad tt she appreciates =)
went to "train" for napfa with yongcheng n swee yi after sch today.. onli train the 2.4km run la.. n not even train, itz juz warming up lor... i mean i always run one round then rest, one round then rest, realli useless kinda training lor.. i'm so lazy!!
Saturday, July 09, 2005
:: jialat jialat jialat ::
argh.. u all noe tt i'm having fyp rite... now is the most stressful period. itz called the "Last Minute". itz a phenomenon if i can overcome it.. if i can pass it... if i can even get an A... it'll be a miracle..
haha.. today went for SM training. SM does not stand for super mouse, or wadever u're thinking... but Spiritual Multipliers. tt means a bible study leader, who is not juz concerned abt making sure God's message gets across thru me, but also concerned abt the growth of my disciples. it was at 10am.. i was struggling... becuz weekends...man, i love weekends. i learn to cherish weekends during my FYP... i'll continue to cherish weekends during attachment.... i'd like to sleep in on a weekend... i'd like to clean up my house on a weekend...
anyway. went to tekka mall after tt... well i've never been in there.... i've onli been to the food court. bah.. called my parents.. cuz i think their fav hangout on saturdays is tekka mall. but turn out they're in plaza singapura... haha.. well.. i haven't been spending time with them these few weeks after my sis went back to phuket.. yday decided to have dinner with them, but my mom lazy to go out.. =( haha.. i saw bryandt waiting at dhoby ghaut mrt station... poor thing, by the time i left he was still there!
the first thing my dad said when he saw me today was, "NI PANG LE..." (translated: u've become fatter) OH MAN!!!! jialat man!
went to sentosa to collect my islander card.. hoho.. then went straight to church.. had a crazy time today.. esp during worship prac haha.. had dinner with terry jon n jieling.. we all changed names liao..
my name is now called....MARIANN.. (sounds a bit filipino)
haha.. today went for SM training. SM does not stand for super mouse, or wadever u're thinking... but Spiritual Multipliers. tt means a bible study leader, who is not juz concerned abt making sure God's message gets across thru me, but also concerned abt the growth of my disciples. it was at 10am.. i was struggling... becuz weekends...man, i love weekends. i learn to cherish weekends during my FYP... i'll continue to cherish weekends during attachment.... i'd like to sleep in on a weekend... i'd like to clean up my house on a weekend...
anyway. went to tekka mall after tt... well i've never been in there.... i've onli been to the food court. bah.. called my parents.. cuz i think their fav hangout on saturdays is tekka mall. but turn out they're in plaza singapura... haha.. well.. i haven't been spending time with them these few weeks after my sis went back to phuket.. yday decided to have dinner with them, but my mom lazy to go out.. =( haha.. i saw bryandt waiting at dhoby ghaut mrt station... poor thing, by the time i left he was still there!
the first thing my dad said when he saw me today was, "NI PANG LE..." (translated: u've become fatter) OH MAN!!!! jialat man!
went to sentosa to collect my islander card.. hoho.. then went straight to church.. had a crazy time today.. esp during worship prac haha.. had dinner with terry jon n jieling.. we all changed names liao..
my name is now called....MARIANN.. (sounds a bit filipino)
Monday, July 04, 2005
:: psalmist retreat 05 ::
hmm.. honestly i think the date for the psalmist retreat is not a good time.. july 1st got the nationwide prayer concert at singapore expo... we had to miss it... campus crusade organised a GIG leaders training tt evening also.. had to miss tt too.. then july 2nd n 3rd persis going balai with gail.... i wld like to go along.. but since i've already confirmed my place at the retreat, dun need to consider liao. but.... the retreat was great~! gave me time to think thru some stuff.. been prayed for abt my FYP too.
been slping a lot hahaha itz gd to replenish my slp =P i like playing polar bear... haha..
took a lot of photos but they dun turn out nice... most r blurry..
hmm i still need to pray abt forgiveness towards someone... there's this someone who offends me everytime she opens her mouth..! thank God for esther who prayed for me regarding forgiveness but i dun think she noes who exactly i'm referring to.. but i'm sure God spoke to her to pray abt tt issue! hehe..
thanks liz n yongqiang for praying for me too.. may God bless those who bless me!~ =)
been slping a lot hahaha itz gd to replenish my slp =P i like playing polar bear... haha..
took a lot of photos but they dun turn out nice... most r blurry..
hmm i still need to pray abt forgiveness towards someone... there's this someone who offends me everytime she opens her mouth..! thank God for esther who prayed for me regarding forgiveness but i dun think she noes who exactly i'm referring to.. but i'm sure God spoke to her to pray abt tt issue! hehe..
thanks liz n yongqiang for praying for me too.. may God bless those who bless me!~ =)
Thursday, June 30, 2005
:: purpose ::
=) i dunno... but i guess i'm starting to discover the purpose of the fyp... God's purpose for me.. =)
i'm starting to get v interested in the animals i'm working on... today on my way home i was reading a book on giraffes... three times i laughed while reading..
for my fyp i need to include the place where the animal lives, n in the book it is stated tt giraffes lives in open woodlands. i wonder if the MINDS students will go to Woodlands to find giraffes...? n i was trying to imagine giraffes with high blood pressure... well, they do have it in fact.. then there's the part abt birth.. lemme quote the paragraph... "The birth itself takes between one and two hours. The female does not make matters easy for the calf because she gives birth standing up. The calf's arrival into the world is followed by a 2-metre drop on to hard ground..." poor thing.. i feel so awed by how cute n small the baby giraffe is compared to the adult!
i feel especially amazed with God, for the natural instincts of survival... when browsing (the term used for giraffe eating leaves), the males always take the taller part of the tree while the females can take the slightly lower part.. tt's so tt there wun be competition for food!! wow! v considerate n intelligent of them to think of tt! getting to noe these animals better makes me want to understand more... i wan to watch the way these animals realli behave, rather than juz reading abt them off books...
i'm starting to love giraffes.. becuz they r realli friendly, they look out for one another while feeding/drinking water, even together with other animals! they rank themselves after a test of strength not by violent fighting, but necking.. hmm.. i love the pic of a young giraffe hiding between its mother's legs!!
praise God for providing for these animals n giving them the intelligence to protect themselves n ensure the safety of their next generation...
i'm starting to get v interested in the animals i'm working on... today on my way home i was reading a book on giraffes... three times i laughed while reading..
for my fyp i need to include the place where the animal lives, n in the book it is stated tt giraffes lives in open woodlands. i wonder if the MINDS students will go to Woodlands to find giraffes...? n i was trying to imagine giraffes with high blood pressure... well, they do have it in fact.. then there's the part abt birth.. lemme quote the paragraph... "The birth itself takes between one and two hours. The female does not make matters easy for the calf because she gives birth standing up. The calf's arrival into the world is followed by a 2-metre drop on to hard ground..." poor thing.. i feel so awed by how cute n small the baby giraffe is compared to the adult!
i feel especially amazed with God, for the natural instincts of survival... when browsing (the term used for giraffe eating leaves), the males always take the taller part of the tree while the females can take the slightly lower part.. tt's so tt there wun be competition for food!! wow! v considerate n intelligent of them to think of tt! getting to noe these animals better makes me want to understand more... i wan to watch the way these animals realli behave, rather than juz reading abt them off books...
i'm starting to love giraffes.. becuz they r realli friendly, they look out for one another while feeding/drinking water, even together with other animals! they rank themselves after a test of strength not by violent fighting, but necking.. hmm.. i love the pic of a young giraffe hiding between its mother's legs!!
praise God for providing for these animals n giving them the intelligence to protect themselves n ensure the safety of their next generation...
Tuesday, June 28, 2005
christopher and angeline
christopher and angeline
Originally uploaded by djgemz.
lol... thanks all those who attended my wedding.. i have no idea which christopher.. but surely itz not the one who always wears green pants... lol...
Saturday, June 25, 2005
:: fearful ::
itz been 8 weeks.
i might fail fypj.
starting to imagine.. starting to get myself prepared to get retained.
the supervisor doesn't like me.. she'll fail me.
i dun have evidence of work to back me up.
i mean.. all the work i've done.
...r all useless.
not used in the final product.
during presentation i'll sure kena shoot.
starting to imagine, wad if i fail. i sure dun wanna do the same project again.
but i fear.. i dunno how to explain to my parents.
they dunno tt i always cannot wake up for sch..
fearful..
i pray...
God can do anything... but i feel tt i dun realli deserve to pass.
wad's the 'but' doing there in the above sentence if i realli trust God?
thank God for zane for sharing word during cell grp today.. itz v relevant to my circumstance.
outside of work.. well, my lecturer warned me to cut down on my social life during this period... muz rush in my project.. i might have a chance to catch up on my marks..
but... i'll die without social life.. =x
thur.. i studied for my bahasa test, but nothing gets in..
i passed it.. 78%... we got the grades on the spot..
thank God itz over... right now i dun realli wanna spend time on it..
i can concentrate on my thai right now. -.-||| haha..
friday my fyp partners went off earlier. thot eric tan coming to check on us but he didn't. went for campus crusade recruitment committee evaluation meeting at 6pm.. i was quite stoned... whole week i've been feeling weary... finally itz the weekend but i feel like resting..
around 7.30 i went off to meet belly, kwek, bec, n yun at scotts coffee bean. i'm broke already... even owed ken $2.. =x owed kwek more money in order to get myself a drink.. =x sounds pathetic.
got a present from them... realli thank God for blessings.. for things i need, for things i want.. itz a thai language book + CD!!! wow!! after tt walked to plaza singapura starbucks to find my sec 4 classmates... i couldn't recognise them lor!! heng got yun help me recognise qingren.. gosh he's darker now.. n xinpei so much prettier~~ i like her hairstyle.. n yeli.. hmm.. her sense of dressing change slightly already.. n the rest... hmm.. miss them!
took mrt home with shareen...
then today had breakfast with parents.. went to church to sort photos with paul n jessica.. quite fun.. haha..
cell grp..
vitra..
dinner with family at golden studio.. steamboat.. nothing special.. dunno y tt place so crowded.. by the time we finished dinner, golden mile complex the supermarket close liao... cannot buy wad i wanted =( haha.. =x
ok gd nite.. better have a gd rest..
i might fail fypj.
starting to imagine.. starting to get myself prepared to get retained.
the supervisor doesn't like me.. she'll fail me.
i dun have evidence of work to back me up.
i mean.. all the work i've done.
...r all useless.
not used in the final product.
during presentation i'll sure kena shoot.
starting to imagine, wad if i fail. i sure dun wanna do the same project again.
but i fear.. i dunno how to explain to my parents.
they dunno tt i always cannot wake up for sch..
fearful..
i pray...
God can do anything... but i feel tt i dun realli deserve to pass.
wad's the 'but' doing there in the above sentence if i realli trust God?
thank God for zane for sharing word during cell grp today.. itz v relevant to my circumstance.
outside of work.. well, my lecturer warned me to cut down on my social life during this period... muz rush in my project.. i might have a chance to catch up on my marks..
but... i'll die without social life.. =x
thur.. i studied for my bahasa test, but nothing gets in..
i passed it.. 78%... we got the grades on the spot..
thank God itz over... right now i dun realli wanna spend time on it..
i can concentrate on my thai right now. -.-||| haha..
friday my fyp partners went off earlier. thot eric tan coming to check on us but he didn't. went for campus crusade recruitment committee evaluation meeting at 6pm.. i was quite stoned... whole week i've been feeling weary... finally itz the weekend but i feel like resting..
around 7.30 i went off to meet belly, kwek, bec, n yun at scotts coffee bean. i'm broke already... even owed ken $2.. =x owed kwek more money in order to get myself a drink.. =x sounds pathetic.
got a present from them... realli thank God for blessings.. for things i need, for things i want.. itz a thai language book + CD!!! wow!! after tt walked to plaza singapura starbucks to find my sec 4 classmates... i couldn't recognise them lor!! heng got yun help me recognise qingren.. gosh he's darker now.. n xinpei so much prettier~~ i like her hairstyle.. n yeli.. hmm.. her sense of dressing change slightly already.. n the rest... hmm.. miss them!
took mrt home with shareen...
then today had breakfast with parents.. went to church to sort photos with paul n jessica.. quite fun.. haha..
cell grp..
vitra..
dinner with family at golden studio.. steamboat.. nothing special.. dunno y tt place so crowded.. by the time we finished dinner, golden mile complex the supermarket close liao... cannot buy wad i wanted =( haha.. =x
ok gd nite.. better have a gd rest..
Tuesday, June 21, 2005
:: Roti prata ::
my fav food... hoho..
went to thomson to eat prata with the Singles' Club lol.. (got wendy shaun david n me onli)...even tho i told my dad i want dinner... =x
took photo of the funny chicken house finally!!! muahaha..
went to the strudel house cuz david wanted to da bao.
went home n watched tv until 12 then slp.
quite worried tt the supervisor might come in anytime or walk past to monitor my progress cuz sometimes i not in lor.. but my progress is realli a lot compared to last wed-fri.
today i nv join the ..hmm wad do i call them? sdn club pple..? usual dmd slackers..? hmm.. well "them" la. they were going to the thomson prata place again. haiyo go 2 days in a row, shaun u not sian ah? haha.. my dad coming to fetch me home after bible study in sch. time to buy bus stamp again...
we went to compass point n ate a student meal.. (whoa at this rate i'm realli getting fat!) had apple pie n yoghurt in sch mac earlier on lor. =x some pple ignored my dad when he asked them qn. aarghhh... stupid pple!! i hate the way they juz ignore him lor!!
went to thomson to eat prata with the Singles' Club lol.. (got wendy shaun david n me onli)...even tho i told my dad i want dinner... =x
took photo of the funny chicken house finally!!! muahaha..
went to the strudel house cuz david wanted to da bao.
went home n watched tv until 12 then slp.
quite worried tt the supervisor might come in anytime or walk past to monitor my progress cuz sometimes i not in lor.. but my progress is realli a lot compared to last wed-fri.
today i nv join the ..hmm wad do i call them? sdn club pple..? usual dmd slackers..? hmm.. well "them" la. they were going to the thomson prata place again. haiyo go 2 days in a row, shaun u not sian ah? haha.. my dad coming to fetch me home after bible study in sch. time to buy bus stamp again...
we went to compass point n ate a student meal.. (whoa at this rate i'm realli getting fat!) had apple pie n yoghurt in sch mac earlier on lor. =x some pple ignored my dad when he asked them qn. aarghhh... stupid pple!! i hate the way they juz ignore him lor!!
Monday, June 20, 2005
my sis' stall
my sis' stall
Originally uploaded by djgemz.
wow i din noe she has a stall at old airport road.
but of cuz tt name is a general name la. juz tt the stall owner is very likely to be Christian. who else wld give such a lively name to something pple wld usually name 'shun sheng' etc? lol
:: part-time ::
if u're feeling lonely, feeling like u wan a partner but seems like there's no one for u, or u feel neglected by ur partner, come to me!
well i'm currently holding a part-time volunteer job as a relationship counsellor. for relationship problems can come to me. consultation is free. hmm haha.
cuz rite now i'm counselling 3 pple.. =x haha.. i welcome u dun worry..
well i'm currently holding a part-time volunteer job as a relationship counsellor. for relationship problems can come to me. consultation is free. hmm haha.
cuz rite now i'm counselling 3 pple.. =x haha.. i welcome u dun worry..
Sunday, June 19, 2005
Singles' Club 'Cafe'
Singles' Club 'Cafe'
Originally uploaded by djgemz.
new hangout place.. realli nice ambience.. but terrible food. i nv eat but i can tell.
:: bbq ::
hmm was quite reluctant to go for the bbq.. firstly becuz it was a last minute notice.. i realli dun believe many pple will turn up.. secondly becuz i was scolded by my fyp supervisor juz b4 tt. i thot she wouldn't check on me after tues.. but turns out she knew my every movement. |= * ( |< ! she warned me again abt failing me for fyp. haiz
on the bus to ecp i was rather upset... kept thinking things like 'if onli my project is like jiayi n jinwen's...' 'if onli we're doing the project in blk M' 'if onli i dun have tt guy as my partner' but thing is i shld nv question y things turn out the way they r.. things tt i cannot choose, is up to God. i can't blame God too. so, i realli dunno how, i onli noe how to complain to hx abt my situation.. i guess i can blame myself for lacking in discipline too. i almost teared. then an old man sat beside me.. i felt super scared whenever he puts his hand on his lap.. like anytime his hand can move towards mine.. *argh!!* sorry guys tt i think so weird.. but i realli have phobia of old men. so i wanted to sit beside wendy but tt seat was wet. in the end i sat between michael n david.
tt michael realli dua kang king man... he brought a deflated volleyball n said he nv bring pump for it. he also said he nv bring poker cards. in the end got bring lor.. now i dunno can believe anything he said.
anyway i was the 'Butter-girl' for the bbq.. in charge of applying butter on all the food. well, crab stick tastes superb with lots of butter. haha.. but the smoke kept getting into my eyes until it was super painful. i didn't feel the effect until now... my left eye is red now man. time passed v fast n when i got tired of buttering food it was probably past midnight already. i bent down most of the time.. now backache liao sia.
went to bathe (juz wash hair onli actually) with pearlyn.. she v cute.. lent her my super baggy top to change. came back n went to 7-Eleven with gab to get drinks.. she tried this weird brand of beer.. it tastes bland man. i like carlsberg better. then wendy wanted to buy too so i went with her n shaun. they bought long island tea. i nv tried tt b4 so i asked shaun to let me try. heng i nv buy... if i drink the whole thing i sure get high one..
played dai dee for a while (kept getting the best card but sometimes i nv win) then went to mac with john n david. waste of food man, we realli bought more than needed. v easy to get sian of bbq food.. dunno how we passed time.. but around 5am like tt i think, we started the fire again in our pit to cook food again. tried to cook as much food as we can.. v waste food lor =( imagine those pple in poor countries... haiz.
slept for a while in nic's 4-men tent. when i woke up it was time to go. 9am they return their bikes n we divided the leftovers, c who bring wad home. i volunteered to bring home the watermelon. david helped me carry it.. went home n did quiet time n then slp for a while before going out. v last min (sorry sorry) but i bought the presents for the June babies in my church then. i was already late for my cell grp's sports day.. was reluctant also la.. dun like sports competitions.
reached church then realised i wasn't wearing the right colour. so i dun dare to face them.. hehe.. tried to slp on the couch in the library but difficult la. woke up at 6.30 to get dinner from paccan. i like the way the cse char pple work. like my dad, fast movement. but dunno y i so slow one. i can nv work in tt kinda environment. i'll onli be scolded for getting in the way.
after worship prac esther decided to go back to pasir ris. so she drove me paul jon n dropped shirley at her place. we had supper at old airport road.. =D~~ u noe the last time i went there was like 6 yrs ago when i was in Feetwashers...? haha. ate wanton mee.. standard dropped. maybe itz becuz the boss thinks too highly of himself becuz he's getting media attention. =x haha..
esther dropped me home.. oh i got my present from her, from a lot of pple, i dun realli noe also.. she listed terry n kelvin n tt's all i rem. it's a pair of SEINNHEISER earphones!! cool!!
the next morning.. =X i went back to my room to 'rest' a while after esther called me.. heng my dad woke up. i heard him come out of his room so i woke up.. v reluctant to wake up cuz i didn't have enuf sleep. decided tt my green blouse was too creased so i ironed my clothes. end up a bit late.. oops... gave the present to my parents b4 i left the house.
hehehe today alot of us were in green.. had camp comm meeting at harbourfront foodcourt. was a noisy place. not a condusive environment for meeting. my sis came back but i couldn't pick her up with my parents. then my dad v funny, smsed me "We r sleeping" - cuz i smsed him tt i'll call him after the meeting la. took mrt home.. took a nap.. when i woke up my eye was v irritated. looks as if an outer layer is going to peel off sia. disgusting. had dinner at punggol. chili crab, black pepper crab, sambal kangkong, cereal prawn.. (=P~~~) the black pepper crab was the best! total cost around $90+. then my parents complain expensive. haha.
supposed to go out n meet a seller of a 128MB SD card.. but postponed, cuz i was unwilling to travel to hougang to find him.
anyways. I'M IN!!! declared shaun la. the Singles' Club.. hmm wanted to type in crap but decided not to.
i wanna go golden mile again with my sis to buy cds. cheap n looks like imitation. =x n i wanna buy thai stuff too. but i wun buy the dress i saw when i went with eileen the last time... not willing to fork out money for clothes =x
on the bus to ecp i was rather upset... kept thinking things like 'if onli my project is like jiayi n jinwen's...' 'if onli we're doing the project in blk M' 'if onli i dun have tt guy as my partner' but thing is i shld nv question y things turn out the way they r.. things tt i cannot choose, is up to God. i can't blame God too. so, i realli dunno how, i onli noe how to complain to hx abt my situation.. i guess i can blame myself for lacking in discipline too. i almost teared. then an old man sat beside me.. i felt super scared whenever he puts his hand on his lap.. like anytime his hand can move towards mine.. *argh!!* sorry guys tt i think so weird.. but i realli have phobia of old men. so i wanted to sit beside wendy but tt seat was wet. in the end i sat between michael n david.
tt michael realli dua kang king man... he brought a deflated volleyball n said he nv bring pump for it. he also said he nv bring poker cards. in the end got bring lor.. now i dunno can believe anything he said.
anyway i was the 'Butter-girl' for the bbq.. in charge of applying butter on all the food. well, crab stick tastes superb with lots of butter. haha.. but the smoke kept getting into my eyes until it was super painful. i didn't feel the effect until now... my left eye is red now man. time passed v fast n when i got tired of buttering food it was probably past midnight already. i bent down most of the time.. now backache liao sia.
went to bathe (juz wash hair onli actually) with pearlyn.. she v cute.. lent her my super baggy top to change. came back n went to 7-Eleven with gab to get drinks.. she tried this weird brand of beer.. it tastes bland man. i like carlsberg better. then wendy wanted to buy too so i went with her n shaun. they bought long island tea. i nv tried tt b4 so i asked shaun to let me try. heng i nv buy... if i drink the whole thing i sure get high one..
played dai dee for a while (kept getting the best card but sometimes i nv win) then went to mac with john n david. waste of food man, we realli bought more than needed. v easy to get sian of bbq food.. dunno how we passed time.. but around 5am like tt i think, we started the fire again in our pit to cook food again. tried to cook as much food as we can.. v waste food lor =( imagine those pple in poor countries... haiz.
slept for a while in nic's 4-men tent. when i woke up it was time to go. 9am they return their bikes n we divided the leftovers, c who bring wad home. i volunteered to bring home the watermelon. david helped me carry it.. went home n did quiet time n then slp for a while before going out. v last min (sorry sorry) but i bought the presents for the June babies in my church then. i was already late for my cell grp's sports day.. was reluctant also la.. dun like sports competitions.
reached church then realised i wasn't wearing the right colour. so i dun dare to face them.. hehe.. tried to slp on the couch in the library but difficult la. woke up at 6.30 to get dinner from paccan. i like the way the cse char pple work. like my dad, fast movement. but dunno y i so slow one. i can nv work in tt kinda environment. i'll onli be scolded for getting in the way.
after worship prac esther decided to go back to pasir ris. so she drove me paul jon n dropped shirley at her place. we had supper at old airport road.. =D~~ u noe the last time i went there was like 6 yrs ago when i was in Feetwashers...? haha. ate wanton mee.. standard dropped. maybe itz becuz the boss thinks too highly of himself becuz he's getting media attention. =x haha..
esther dropped me home.. oh i got my present from her, from a lot of pple, i dun realli noe also.. she listed terry n kelvin n tt's all i rem. it's a pair of SEINNHEISER earphones!! cool!!
the next morning.. =X i went back to my room to 'rest' a while after esther called me.. heng my dad woke up. i heard him come out of his room so i woke up.. v reluctant to wake up cuz i didn't have enuf sleep. decided tt my green blouse was too creased so i ironed my clothes. end up a bit late.. oops... gave the present to my parents b4 i left the house.
hehehe today alot of us were in green.. had camp comm meeting at harbourfront foodcourt. was a noisy place. not a condusive environment for meeting. my sis came back but i couldn't pick her up with my parents. then my dad v funny, smsed me "We r sleeping" - cuz i smsed him tt i'll call him after the meeting la. took mrt home.. took a nap.. when i woke up my eye was v irritated. looks as if an outer layer is going to peel off sia. disgusting. had dinner at punggol. chili crab, black pepper crab, sambal kangkong, cereal prawn.. (=P~~~) the black pepper crab was the best! total cost around $90+. then my parents complain expensive. haha.
supposed to go out n meet a seller of a 128MB SD card.. but postponed, cuz i was unwilling to travel to hougang to find him.
anyways. I'M IN!!! declared shaun la. the Singles' Club.. hmm wanted to type in crap but decided not to.
i wanna go golden mile again with my sis to buy cds. cheap n looks like imitation. =x n i wanna buy thai stuff too. but i wun buy the dress i saw when i went with eileen the last time... not willing to fork out money for clothes =x
Friday, June 17, 2005
baby G watch
baby G watch
Originally uploaded by djgemz.
a birthday present from hx, swee yi, yongcheng, olc, yanqiao, peilin, dexter n his brother
preparing to cut cake
preparing to cut cake
Originally uploaded by djgemz.
juz turned midnite! hx on the phone with dexter..
Thursday, June 16, 2005
:: hmm ::
been slacking alot, cuz ms lim came to our lab on tue, so there seems to be excuse for us to slack on wed n thur..
went to Golden mile complex with eileen.. nat joined us until bugis.. rico joined us at bugis.. i like the place a lot... cuz i saw many familiar stuff.. stuff i saw back in thailand..
I LOVE THAILAND!! hehehe..
i wanna buy the cds there..
went to look for hx at lavender after walking around... juz nice they both live in bp.. so they can go home together... i wanted to go for the GoForth worship rally, but a bit reluctant.. forgot to ask around who's going.. took mrt until outram then shaun called n asked if i wanna join them or not.. so i went to dhoby ghaut n watched them eat.. the guys eat realli fast la.. n i took bryandt's drink hehehe.. =x helped someone pick some stuff for someone else.. haha.. i felt happy tt my choice was gd.. hahaha
went to yamaha to look around.. some pple wanna buy guitar picks ma.. then went to arcade.. most of them tried their hand at the bball game.. some played the shoot tanker game.. spent quite some time in there..
after tt shaun n david decided itz too early to go home haha.. so stayed out with them.. they ordered mocha frappe.. i.. wanna save money la. shucks still haven buy presents for a lot of pple..
today.. not so gd... stayed home n cooked noodles.. took my time at home until 11+am then i go sch.. feel quite bad actually.. supposed to be in sch early lor.. tmr i shall be early. but anyway i dun understand y some pple lied to me.. maybe he was saying the truth i dunno but it sure got me into trouble..
got some clothes from nat.. but all look too small for me lor.. jialat.. taught elaine how to use director to do her 1st authoring assignment..
felt v bad today also cuz i kinda spread rumours abt some pple.. altho itz out of fun like pairing pple up.. but still itz not nice lor.. but pple keep asking me abt others i dunno how to lie tt i dunno also..
hmm..
went to amk for dinner.. i had lemon honey drink. then went to clothes shops with ian to ask the shopkeepers to help do survey. but no results. went to ntuc to buy food for bbq.. i today then noe onli lor.. wonder how many pple will actually turn up tmr sia... hmm..
carry many heavy things.. lousy sia me.. dun even have strength to push open my door.. =(
tmr muz wake up early!! do work properly n prove my worth!! haha.. =x
went to Golden mile complex with eileen.. nat joined us until bugis.. rico joined us at bugis.. i like the place a lot... cuz i saw many familiar stuff.. stuff i saw back in thailand..
I LOVE THAILAND!! hehehe..
i wanna buy the cds there..
went to look for hx at lavender after walking around... juz nice they both live in bp.. so they can go home together... i wanted to go for the GoForth worship rally, but a bit reluctant.. forgot to ask around who's going.. took mrt until outram then shaun called n asked if i wanna join them or not.. so i went to dhoby ghaut n watched them eat.. the guys eat realli fast la.. n i took bryandt's drink hehehe.. =x helped someone pick some stuff for someone else.. haha.. i felt happy tt my choice was gd.. hahaha
went to yamaha to look around.. some pple wanna buy guitar picks ma.. then went to arcade.. most of them tried their hand at the bball game.. some played the shoot tanker game.. spent quite some time in there..
after tt shaun n david decided itz too early to go home haha.. so stayed out with them.. they ordered mocha frappe.. i.. wanna save money la. shucks still haven buy presents for a lot of pple..
today.. not so gd... stayed home n cooked noodles.. took my time at home until 11+am then i go sch.. feel quite bad actually.. supposed to be in sch early lor.. tmr i shall be early. but anyway i dun understand y some pple lied to me.. maybe he was saying the truth i dunno but it sure got me into trouble..
got some clothes from nat.. but all look too small for me lor.. jialat.. taught elaine how to use director to do her 1st authoring assignment..
felt v bad today also cuz i kinda spread rumours abt some pple.. altho itz out of fun like pairing pple up.. but still itz not nice lor.. but pple keep asking me abt others i dunno how to lie tt i dunno also..
hmm..
went to amk for dinner.. i had lemon honey drink. then went to clothes shops with ian to ask the shopkeepers to help do survey. but no results. went to ntuc to buy food for bbq.. i today then noe onli lor.. wonder how many pple will actually turn up tmr sia... hmm..
carry many heavy things.. lousy sia me.. dun even have strength to push open my door.. =(
tmr muz wake up early!! do work properly n prove my worth!! haha.. =x
Tuesday, June 14, 2005
:: thank u all so much! ::
yday i went to amk to look for presents.. then i went back to the lab to pack my bag n go home.. hoho! went to slp at around 5.30pm like tt then slept till 7pm to go punggol mrt station to pick hx up.. went to punggol plaza for dinner.. bought a pair of boxers.. hmm.. haha.. had roti prata n ngoh hiang n teh... went to ntuc n bought 2 box/tubs ice cream! hehe.. went back home n watched tv n went online..
hehe.. after bath ting arrived.. i was surprised tt she rem the way! cuz my hse usually pple wun rem the way de lor.. anyway we watched tv until 11 then went to my room to chill.. we didn't really countdown.. but around 12am like tt we rushed out of the room to cut cake!! hhaha... weiting got the cake from punggol plaza de cakeshop. chocolate truffle.. hmm.. gee i'm not a chocolate fan actually.. i din manage to finish my slice.. =x
after tt we started watching vcds. Haunted Mansion in the living room first, then Van Helsing in my parent's room cuz it was quite warm (they wan air con ma...) then My Girl without huixiang.. she cannot take it liao so went to my sis' room to slp.. after watching tt it was 5am liao.. ting n i decided to slp a while.. but hx woke up around tt time.. i was reluctant to wake up.. but hx kept nag at me hahaha.. went out at around 7.40am..
went to punggol plaza to look for goodies.. cuz our IM got this unofficial custom tt giving out goodies means itz ur bday.. haha.. bought want want senbei..
hmm..
thanks guys for flooding my hp with sms-es!
wanna name all who did.. Thomas, Hyenying, Huiyee, Jasmine Neo, Kelvin Chua, Yong Dai, Jiewei, Ng Qi, Edmund, Junhao, Persis, Linfeng, Noraisah, Norman, my dad, sis, Jac, Weili, Hao, Esther, Huimin, Felicia, Sou Mun, Wendy, Wee Lee, Carol, Kang Wei, Swee Yi, Peilin, Gabrielle... (wow!)
and of cuz thank all those who gave me presents too.. i opened up the present from ting this morning.... itz a ....ROTEIRO MINI!~ hahaha... i juz received a card from the mail.. from Hao! the card is full of cats.. haha..
thanks all those who shook my hand n wished me happy birthday (like geoffrey n henry..)!
thanks my sis for sms-ing n calling all the way from thailand! n my dad for sms-ing from malaysia!
i wonder is it the more quiet i am abt it the more surprises i'll get? hahaha...
juz v excited now..
waiting for lecturer to come n scold me...
hehe.. after bath ting arrived.. i was surprised tt she rem the way! cuz my hse usually pple wun rem the way de lor.. anyway we watched tv until 11 then went to my room to chill.. we didn't really countdown.. but around 12am like tt we rushed out of the room to cut cake!! hhaha... weiting got the cake from punggol plaza de cakeshop. chocolate truffle.. hmm.. gee i'm not a chocolate fan actually.. i din manage to finish my slice.. =x
after tt we started watching vcds. Haunted Mansion in the living room first, then Van Helsing in my parent's room cuz it was quite warm (they wan air con ma...) then My Girl without huixiang.. she cannot take it liao so went to my sis' room to slp.. after watching tt it was 5am liao.. ting n i decided to slp a while.. but hx woke up around tt time.. i was reluctant to wake up.. but hx kept nag at me hahaha.. went out at around 7.40am..
went to punggol plaza to look for goodies.. cuz our IM got this unofficial custom tt giving out goodies means itz ur bday.. haha.. bought want want senbei..
hmm..
thanks guys for flooding my hp with sms-es!
wanna name all who did.. Thomas, Hyenying, Huiyee, Jasmine Neo, Kelvin Chua, Yong Dai, Jiewei, Ng Qi, Edmund, Junhao, Persis, Linfeng, Noraisah, Norman, my dad, sis, Jac, Weili, Hao, Esther, Huimin, Felicia, Sou Mun, Wendy, Wee Lee, Carol, Kang Wei, Swee Yi, Peilin, Gabrielle... (wow!)
and of cuz thank all those who gave me presents too.. i opened up the present from ting this morning.... itz a ....ROTEIRO MINI!~ hahaha... i juz received a card from the mail.. from Hao! the card is full of cats.. haha..
thanks all those who shook my hand n wished me happy birthday (like geoffrey n henry..)!
thanks my sis for sms-ing n calling all the way from thailand! n my dad for sms-ing from malaysia!
i wonder is it the more quiet i am abt it the more surprises i'll get? hahaha...
juz v excited now..
waiting for lecturer to come n scold me...
Monday, June 13, 2005
:: best pre birthday ever! ::
i realli got a LOT of surprises this yr, despite telling myself i dun wanna make it known tt my bday is coming...
honestly hahahaha i got realli upset when i read huixiang's blog tt she bought a pink baby G for herself... n she even posted a pic of it! so i left a msg in her tagboard, "whoa the baby G not for me ah? it has been on my wishlist for like a yr liao leh... " hahaha come to think of it i wanna laugh lor.. cuz turns out she realli got the baby G for me! wow!!!!
i'm realli v v happy lor... thank God for everything! thanks all those who chipped in! hx, swee yi, yongcheng, OLC, peilin, yanqiao, dexter n his bro altho i dun realli noe them haha..
anyway i'm v satisfied today also.. i spent $75 on my parents' gift... i felt guilty for not getting anything for my mom on mother's day lor.. so father's day coming n i'll get something for them both. so now i'm broke again.. but i haven't got jasmine, jieling n xinning's presents... so i felt worried.. do i have to wait till saturday to get my next week's allowance then i can have enuf money to buy presents??
...BUT... i rem tt i still haven't got my pay for working at hx's company!! if i get my pay by this week i can buy the presents liao!! hehe.. sorry ah peeps, b4 june i like nv get presents for my frenz... like v cheapo.. keke..
thank God for providing money when i need it! pray tt i'll use my money wisely....
honestly hahahaha i got realli upset when i read huixiang's blog tt she bought a pink baby G for herself... n she even posted a pic of it! so i left a msg in her tagboard, "whoa the baby G not for me ah? it has been on my wishlist for like a yr liao leh... " hahaha come to think of it i wanna laugh lor.. cuz turns out she realli got the baby G for me! wow!!!!
i'm realli v v happy lor... thank God for everything! thanks all those who chipped in! hx, swee yi, yongcheng, OLC, peilin, yanqiao, dexter n his bro altho i dun realli noe them haha..
anyway i'm v satisfied today also.. i spent $75 on my parents' gift... i felt guilty for not getting anything for my mom on mother's day lor.. so father's day coming n i'll get something for them both. so now i'm broke again.. but i haven't got jasmine, jieling n xinning's presents... so i felt worried.. do i have to wait till saturday to get my next week's allowance then i can have enuf money to buy presents??
...BUT... i rem tt i still haven't got my pay for working at hx's company!! if i get my pay by this week i can buy the presents liao!! hehe.. sorry ah peeps, b4 june i like nv get presents for my frenz... like v cheapo.. keke..
thank God for providing money when i need it! pray tt i'll use my money wisely....
Sunday, June 12, 2005
:: birthday ::
well itz not my birthday yet la.. juz celebrating on a sunday out of convenience. got presents from church frenz...
1) a bolster from jac n jeff
2) a Michael Buble CD from jasmine
3) a cross keychain from thomas
4) a kbox treat from alvin n swensen's ice cream cake from alvin, vincent n weiyang
v happy...
1) a bolster from jac n jeff
2) a Michael Buble CD from jasmine
3) a cross keychain from thomas
4) a kbox treat from alvin n swensen's ice cream cake from alvin, vincent n weiyang
v happy...
my cake
my cake
Originally uploaded by djgemz.
when a fren walks on the road like nobody's business, u will normally ask, "whoa, the road belongs to u huh. u got write ur name on it, is it?"
well, this cake belongs to me! a part of it, at least.. haa.. in the end i ate a huge part of the cake until i shocked the guys.. haha..
cake in swensen's
cake in swensen's
Originally uploaded by djgemz.
we went to swensen's after kbox.. ordered teriyaki chicken spaghetti n shared with jasmine, my twin! had chocolate chip ice cream cake with winnie the pooh design on top! so sweet of the guys to think of such a surprise!
well, thank God for jasmine, or else my bday wldn't be tt grand!
tricia gek emotion
tricia gek emotion
Originally uploaded by djgemz.
haha weiyang was realli into the song.. n tricia v funny.. haha..
thomas singing
thomas singing
Originally uploaded by djgemz.
at cine kbox singing out lungs out.. thomas hardly held the mic.. but we forced him to. haha..
Saturday, June 11, 2005
:: loneleeeee ::
yday was a friday. not a day to do work. haha. ate a lot man.. had beef noodles for lunch. bought strepsils for my proj partner cailing, who has been sick for a long time. then hx came at 3pm.. walked around with her.. thot of applying for UOB debit card.. but by the time i went to the booth at club crawl, the roadshow ended. so nvm.. i dun realli intend to apply anyway..but a lot of pple suggest i apply. *shrugs*
hx left at 4.30pm.. we bought yoghurt icecream at the atrium. seriously itz my first time buying! but i wun buy again la.. quite expensive.
went to blk M.. saw yc they all sitting outside cutting cardboards for Model making for Featured Animation.. haha.. so sat down with them until 5.30pm. thot of doing work, but i realise friday 5.30 can go off already! so i packed my bag n left.
took bus 72 to hougang mall to meet my parents for dinner. had thai chinese cuisine at Magic Wok. dunno y altho i ate a lot, still got a lot of food cannot finish.. =( i did not manage to finish the green curry... realli super bloated sia.. wanted to shop but my mom forever thinks itz a waste of money (she rather spend money on good food!) managed to persuade her to step into Ice Lemon Tee n buy a pair of jeans for me.. n a cross choker! for 18+ yrs of my life i nv owned a cross necklace! altho i shld live my life more obviously as a christian, but wearing a cross helps emphasize.. hahaha..
anyway we had dinner cuz they r going to malaysia today.. =...( i wish i can go.. they r going to kuantan with the church lor... i'll miss out on the sun the sand n the sea!!! but nvm, i can have the whole house to myself for a few days~! gonna party on monday nite!
hx left at 4.30pm.. we bought yoghurt icecream at the atrium. seriously itz my first time buying! but i wun buy again la.. quite expensive.
went to blk M.. saw yc they all sitting outside cutting cardboards for Model making for Featured Animation.. haha.. so sat down with them until 5.30pm. thot of doing work, but i realise friday 5.30 can go off already! so i packed my bag n left.
took bus 72 to hougang mall to meet my parents for dinner. had thai chinese cuisine at Magic Wok. dunno y altho i ate a lot, still got a lot of food cannot finish.. =( i did not manage to finish the green curry... realli super bloated sia.. wanted to shop but my mom forever thinks itz a waste of money (she rather spend money on good food!) managed to persuade her to step into Ice Lemon Tee n buy a pair of jeans for me.. n a cross choker! for 18+ yrs of my life i nv owned a cross necklace! altho i shld live my life more obviously as a christian, but wearing a cross helps emphasize.. hahaha..
anyway we had dinner cuz they r going to malaysia today.. =...( i wish i can go.. they r going to kuantan with the church lor... i'll miss out on the sun the sand n the sea!!! but nvm, i can have the whole house to myself for a few days~! gonna party on monday nite!
Thursday, June 09, 2005
:: some guys ::
some guys r gay
some guys aren't caring
some guys r too dictative
some guys r abusive
some guys r dirty in thought
some guys r taken
some guys r not ready for relationships
some guys r flirts
some guys dun believe in God
some guys r egoistic
some guys r smokers
i have to wait a thousand years for my Mr Right, while some girls r willing to compromise..
some guys aren't caring
some guys r too dictative
some guys r abusive
some guys r dirty in thought
some guys r taken
some guys r not ready for relationships
some guys r flirts
some guys dun believe in God
some guys r egoistic
some guys r smokers
i have to wait a thousand years for my Mr Right, while some girls r willing to compromise..
:: jialat ::
dunno wad happened sia.. i opened adobe premier on my laptop n tried to capture a video, next thing i noe is my harddisk space left Zero KB... i dunno where n how to find the rubbish tt i dun need lor..
anyway eeee i nv bathe...muz be stinking man. haha came straight frm huixiang's workplace.. i lousy sia could not stay up to finish my work, then dexter gotta help me.. he shld get half my pay actually.. we had pizza for dinner n had leftovers which i'm gonna have for lunch. had breakfast set n then took taxi to sch... hx lent me her YEP tshirt to change.
anyway eeee i nv bathe...muz be stinking man. haha came straight frm huixiang's workplace.. i lousy sia could not stay up to finish my work, then dexter gotta help me.. he shld get half my pay actually.. we had pizza for dinner n had leftovers which i'm gonna have for lunch. had breakfast set n then took taxi to sch... hx lent me her YEP tshirt to change.
Wednesday, June 08, 2005
:: feeling terrible ::
my eyes have been red for 2 days already.... dunno wad happened... maybe i rubbed too much or watched too much horror movies? i could feel a bit pain in my eyes n i check the mirror n saw my eyes red already..
anyway.. progress in my project is alright.. gotta show 4 animated animals to the lecturer on monday.. now 2 done.. 2 more to go. i have the graphic for 1 of them, the other one not confirmed, still with algernon..
there's a problem with my project grp again.. all the while i thot algernon was angry with me for not doing work.. but last friday he was nice la.. we could actually tok normally kinda thing, abt computer hardware stuff... but seems like he's angry with my other project partner...? his msn nick always seem angry n look down on pple.. this time his nick is something like 'i will take on everything tonite - ....including yours' sounds like he wants to wage a war sia.. thot it was directed towards me until my proj partner told me wad he told her on msn.. so weird... so direct.. v scary sia.. even tho he doesn't seem to be against me but still...? there's conflict within my project grp. God, how can i help resolve it leh?
yday went for prayer meeting in church after sch.. it was great! learnt something on healing.. will post it either on yahoogrp n email or blog soon. thank God for the wonderful meal esther bought for me! some curry bento set from corrochan.. not something i will eat often..
hx got me a 1/2 day job.. quite excited abt the pay.. haha i seem a bit desperate for money huh. today i nv bring money at all..but i brought cup noodles n pokka green tea from home. i've managed to put $50 in my bank, but tt's given to me by my parents ($30 from mom for tj balai, $20 from dad) so tt means i dun have any savings from my allowance. still in need of money to pay off some stuff.. was overdue for my sponsorship fee again, but settled already. i still haven pay for the kelas bahasa fee.. gotta rem to bring the money this week..
lately i've been waking up with cramps in my legs... not enuf exercise? not enuf salt..? haha dunno leh.. but i've been waking up earlier than i used to.. hope can try even earlier.
anyway.. progress in my project is alright.. gotta show 4 animated animals to the lecturer on monday.. now 2 done.. 2 more to go. i have the graphic for 1 of them, the other one not confirmed, still with algernon..
there's a problem with my project grp again.. all the while i thot algernon was angry with me for not doing work.. but last friday he was nice la.. we could actually tok normally kinda thing, abt computer hardware stuff... but seems like he's angry with my other project partner...? his msn nick always seem angry n look down on pple.. this time his nick is something like 'i will take on everything tonite - ....including yours' sounds like he wants to wage a war sia.. thot it was directed towards me until my proj partner told me wad he told her on msn.. so weird... so direct.. v scary sia.. even tho he doesn't seem to be against me but still...? there's conflict within my project grp. God, how can i help resolve it leh?
yday went for prayer meeting in church after sch.. it was great! learnt something on healing.. will post it either on yahoogrp n email or blog soon. thank God for the wonderful meal esther bought for me! some curry bento set from corrochan.. not something i will eat often..
hx got me a 1/2 day job.. quite excited abt the pay.. haha i seem a bit desperate for money huh. today i nv bring money at all..but i brought cup noodles n pokka green tea from home. i've managed to put $50 in my bank, but tt's given to me by my parents ($30 from mom for tj balai, $20 from dad) so tt means i dun have any savings from my allowance. still in need of money to pay off some stuff.. was overdue for my sponsorship fee again, but settled already. i still haven pay for the kelas bahasa fee.. gotta rem to bring the money this week..
lately i've been waking up with cramps in my legs... not enuf exercise? not enuf salt..? haha dunno leh.. but i've been waking up earlier than i used to.. hope can try even earlier.
Monday, June 06, 2005
:: photos ::
my photos are available here
http://flickr.com/photos/12734522@N00/
these r photos i took in tanjung balai. not all, but main ones
http://flickr.com/photos/12734522@N00/sets/420226/
http://flickr.com/photos/12734522@N00/
these r photos i took in tanjung balai. not all, but main ones
http://flickr.com/photos/12734522@N00/sets/420226/
Sunday, June 05, 2005
:: recharged! ::
i'm back from tanjung balai!~
wanna thank God for 5 things.. hehe..
1. for this chance to take time away from my busy life, to go to a quiet place as retreat, to remind myself tt pple need God, n life's not abt myself, my own problems in sch etc.
2. i went there to help Persis teach how to bake cakes. as women, our role in our family is to provide love. to show it, we give our time n effort to do something for our family.
3. wiki seems happy to c me.. (oops! =x) frenky in batam... =( keke
4. i bought 2 more sunsilk shampoo there.. haha i got purple, green, yellow, white, blue, n today juz added a dark blue n light green to the collection! oh, n my mom bought toiletries, n a brown one came along with Dove shower foam!~ =D
5. my mom gave me $30 more cuz she knew i was going to tanjung balai. i was home late on friday, but found the money on my table. she also helped me record the 10pm show on tape becuz i forgot abt it n it was the last episode!
n from the trip i feel v motivated...
1. to drink more tea everyday.. after eating oily n spicy stuff in every meal, man i was abt to fall sick.. but after drinking tea for breakfast this morning, i felt much much much better! thank God for tt too!
2. to use less water everyday.. how they bathe is actually collect water in a pail n use a small container to splash water all over themselves, altho it's v cold, but after a long day i juz felt like having a cold shower!
3. show u guys how tanjung balai is actually like, by making a Flash for it..
4. START writing my testimonial in mandarin to share n encourage the local folks there.. it was realli disappointing (to myself) tt when they asked around if we have testimonies to share when we visited the locals n i could onli keep quiet n think wad has God done in my life tt they can understand? if i share abt the blessings tt i have (for example common things tt singaporeans own: computer, laptop, handphone, camera), it will juz make them feel uncomfortable.
but then i also feel quite frustrated..
1. i receive a lot of msgs, from campus crusade frenz asking me to do things, or checking whether i have done wad i'm supposed to do.
2. i got a lot of mosquito bites.. some quite 'deadly'.. by tt i mean tt there will be scars tt wun go away v quickly..
3. i forgot to water my vinee.. now dried up n dying =(
hmm anyway as i'm typing this my dad came into my room n gave me $20 extra! thank God for extra blessings! haha.. oh during my trip there's this lady from the chinese cong who looks 90% like zoe tay n i think sounds like her too! she asked me if i got bf.. but no la, so she said dun worry, next time my bf sure v good one.. hehe.. blessed by her word of encouragement. persis' bf came to fetch her at harbourfront juz now.. then i'm thinking, hopefully my future bf will also wait for me at harbourfront, to come back from mission trip, if not, go with me!
wanna thank God for 5 things.. hehe..
1. for this chance to take time away from my busy life, to go to a quiet place as retreat, to remind myself tt pple need God, n life's not abt myself, my own problems in sch etc.
2. i went there to help Persis teach how to bake cakes. as women, our role in our family is to provide love. to show it, we give our time n effort to do something for our family.
3. wiki seems happy to c me.. (oops! =x) frenky in batam... =( keke
4. i bought 2 more sunsilk shampoo there.. haha i got purple, green, yellow, white, blue, n today juz added a dark blue n light green to the collection! oh, n my mom bought toiletries, n a brown one came along with Dove shower foam!~ =D
5. my mom gave me $30 more cuz she knew i was going to tanjung balai. i was home late on friday, but found the money on my table. she also helped me record the 10pm show on tape becuz i forgot abt it n it was the last episode!
n from the trip i feel v motivated...
1. to drink more tea everyday.. after eating oily n spicy stuff in every meal, man i was abt to fall sick.. but after drinking tea for breakfast this morning, i felt much much much better! thank God for tt too!
2. to use less water everyday.. how they bathe is actually collect water in a pail n use a small container to splash water all over themselves, altho it's v cold, but after a long day i juz felt like having a cold shower!
3. show u guys how tanjung balai is actually like, by making a Flash for it..
4. START writing my testimonial in mandarin to share n encourage the local folks there.. it was realli disappointing (to myself) tt when they asked around if we have testimonies to share when we visited the locals n i could onli keep quiet n think wad has God done in my life tt they can understand? if i share abt the blessings tt i have (for example common things tt singaporeans own: computer, laptop, handphone, camera), it will juz make them feel uncomfortable.
but then i also feel quite frustrated..
1. i receive a lot of msgs, from campus crusade frenz asking me to do things, or checking whether i have done wad i'm supposed to do.
2. i got a lot of mosquito bites.. some quite 'deadly'.. by tt i mean tt there will be scars tt wun go away v quickly..
3. i forgot to water my vinee.. now dried up n dying =(
hmm anyway as i'm typing this my dad came into my room n gave me $20 extra! thank God for extra blessings! haha.. oh during my trip there's this lady from the chinese cong who looks 90% like zoe tay n i think sounds like her too! she asked me if i got bf.. but no la, so she said dun worry, next time my bf sure v good one.. hehe.. blessed by her word of encouragement. persis' bf came to fetch her at harbourfront juz now.. then i'm thinking, hopefully my future bf will also wait for me at harbourfront, to come back from mission trip, if not, go with me!
Saturday, June 04, 2005
:: ord bbq ::
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Originally uploaded by djgemz.
juz came home from ord bbq in marina park.. feels v last minute, but quite successful, at least i had my fill with crab sticks! jieling, muz put more butter! hoho.. like tt then shiok!~
hmm had a chilled can of carlsberg while listening to terry describe his army experience in summary.. v interesting but i have to go home la.... tmr going tj balai, gotta wake up at 5am.. yawns.. going to slp. gd nite!~
:: sunset in punggol ::
Thursday, June 02, 2005
:: tired ::
hmm.. feeling better today..after a lecture from a lecturer i felt super bad abt my work, my attitude all tt.. been coming late EVERY SINGLE DAY so i wan to do something abt it.. (i say tt every wk but haiz) wad happened was, the previous nite i went to bed earlier than usual but couldn't slp cuz i v scared i will oversleep again.. i juz lie on the bed n keep thinking "shit i muz wake up early"... in the end i 5.30am still couldn't slp.. maybe i shld have got out of bed then.. cuz i onli managed to slp around close to 6am... n duh i cannot wake up in time la.
then last nite i nv slp at all, partly cuz i needed to finish up the mentor publicity presentation by today... been taking my own sweet time when i cld have finished earlier n then relax.. partly becuz i noe if i slp, i SURE oversleep. i realli v stress when i think i muz reach sch on time!! i managed to reach sch at 9.04am like tt.. signed in my attendance n the stupid system says i'm late. !@#$%^!!! i put a "?" in the reason for being late. i even thot of signing in n out n putting "TESTING 1 2 3" in the space for Type Your Reason For Being Late. rite. crap.
but it feels good tt i'm not late.. hmm.. but juz tt whole day v stone lor.. went home to slp for 2 hrs like tt then went out for kelas bahasa.. felt a little recharged.. not bad... when i'm in this kinda condition i can c things in bigger perspective.. today i actually intended to ignore my project partner.. but since he tok nicely to me then i reply nicely also lor.. =x haha.. prayed tt i can kan kai yi dian...
dunno can i slp tonite or not.. =(
then last nite i nv slp at all, partly cuz i needed to finish up the mentor publicity presentation by today... been taking my own sweet time when i cld have finished earlier n then relax.. partly becuz i noe if i slp, i SURE oversleep. i realli v stress when i think i muz reach sch on time!! i managed to reach sch at 9.04am like tt.. signed in my attendance n the stupid system says i'm late. !@#$%^!!! i put a "?" in the reason for being late. i even thot of signing in n out n putting "TESTING 1 2 3" in the space for Type Your Reason For Being Late. rite. crap.
but it feels good tt i'm not late.. hmm.. but juz tt whole day v stone lor.. went home to slp for 2 hrs like tt then went out for kelas bahasa.. felt a little recharged.. not bad... when i'm in this kinda condition i can c things in bigger perspective.. today i actually intended to ignore my project partner.. but since he tok nicely to me then i reply nicely also lor.. =x haha.. prayed tt i can kan kai yi dian...
dunno can i slp tonite or not.. =(
Tuesday, May 31, 2005
:: stupid sia ::
i'm being shifted around in Blk L level 3.... now in a lab where other pple can juz look sideways n peep in.... argh... i'm facing the window, n beside it is a guy beside the window... ...
then.. now can sign in liao... hope i can wake up earlier everyday!! or else i will be marked late everyday... =x
umm.. haiz juz some thots,
i wish pple dun treat me as a child, so they will take me seriously when i am serious..
i wish pple dun treat me as an adult so tt they wun load me with responsibilities n judge me as an adult!!
with power comes greater responsibilities...
turning 19 this yr... like halfway between teenager n adulthood.... argh... sux.. dun wanna celebrate my birthday except with my 2 best frenz..
then.. now can sign in liao... hope i can wake up earlier everyday!! or else i will be marked late everyday... =x
umm.. haiz juz some thots,
i wish pple dun treat me as a child, so they will take me seriously when i am serious..
i wish pple dun treat me as an adult so tt they wun load me with responsibilities n judge me as an adult!!
with power comes greater responsibilities...
turning 19 this yr... like halfway between teenager n adulthood.... argh... sux.. dun wanna celebrate my birthday except with my 2 best frenz..
Monday, May 30, 2005
:: apple and creative ::
i din noe apple n creative r rivals.. =( very upset today abt michael's mp3 player... so new some more.. kinda beginning to feel tt i v suay, everything i touch will spoil... andrew's comp crashed the moment i arrived at his place.. then today i tried to transfer files from my ibook over to michael's mp3 player, my ibook hang at first.. so i forced it to shut down. then i kept trying to make things happen, in the end caused his mp3 player to hang.. i guess there's a lesson learnt... apple n creative can nv work together. =x
felt irresponsible. supposed to take charge of things, but i procrastinate a lot.. a bit reluctant to call pple up to coordinate things also.. honestly i can say tt when my job is done i'll be saying 'thank God itz over', rather than 'thank God i learnt this n this lesson from it all'.... tt shldn't be the case heh. gotta change my mindset lor.
do work do work do work do work do work.......
quite angry with my dad for not telling me tt his hp spoil!! tried to contact him but couldn't... until he reach Expo already.. then i had to take one hour to travel there by mrt myself. =(
felt irresponsible. supposed to take charge of things, but i procrastinate a lot.. a bit reluctant to call pple up to coordinate things also.. honestly i can say tt when my job is done i'll be saying 'thank God itz over', rather than 'thank God i learnt this n this lesson from it all'.... tt shldn't be the case heh. gotta change my mindset lor.
do work do work do work do work do work.......
quite angry with my dad for not telling me tt his hp spoil!! tried to contact him but couldn't... until he reach Expo already.. then i had to take one hour to travel there by mrt myself. =(
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